Ah! I never found my lost journal where I had written the first few chapters for this story, but I'm just gonna try and remember all of the mumbo jumbo that I can and give you people my best! Hehehe well, this is the best that I could remember soooo don't be mad if it's not what you expect=P Anyways, here's the chapter!

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-Left Alone, Always Alone-

Chapter one: Shattered.

Dull emerald eyes watched as cars zoomed by. If it wasn't for the moon shining so brightly, she wouldn't have been able to see how high she was from the tall bridge her feet stood on. She watched as tiny colorful dots flew around beneath from where she was.

Shoulder-length pink hair moved in motion with the wind. The night was a cold and drizzly one. She could barely see the little droplets of water, making their way to their spot. Her eyes took in all of her surroundings; the people that were out shopping for new clothes or the latest electronics coming out. The many buildings showed the same signs about the Christmas sales they were having which was kind of weird since Christmas was tomorrow. It would be a real shame to find a dead body laying right under the cities bridge on Christmas day. Of course, who would care? The world didn't revolve around her.

And that part, she knew all too well.

With that thought flowing through her mind, she started thinking of the reasons why she was doing this in the first place…Her heart was shattered; because of all of the things that have happened. Her body was broken; because of all of the abuse it's taken. And her soul felt un-important; because of all of the abandonment she's been through.

That was the whole reason why. Because she just didn't belong anymore.

Maybe she did when she was still that care-free and happy fifteen year old girl, with dreams for her future. But that was a year ago. Things (have to) change sometimes in life.

The wind started to pick up, and the drizzling water became even rougher, that it was beginning to feel as though, needles were trying to tear away at her pale skin. But the funny thing was…

She couldn't feel a thing.

Her body was already numb by all of the pain that was caused. That was what used to scare her. Not being able to feel a thing at times. The only thing that she could feel, were the cuts that were made by the razor blade that she kept in her room. She had gotten that blade from an old sharpener. The blade was rusted, so she was probably infected with something by now. But, it didn't matter, because it was the only kind of source that she could feel.

But as the days got worse, she just shut down all together. There were no more tears to shed, no more fears to be afraid of, and no more people to feel loved by.

Her frail, cold hands took a hold of the metal bar in front of her. She started to climb the five set of metal bars, and that's when all of the past memories came, flooding her mind with unwanted things to remember.

= Flashback 6 months ago =

Laughter could be heard throughout the classroom. Coal-black eyes stared lovingly into jade. The boys black spiky hair seemed to defy gravity on its own, as he got down on his knees. His slightly-tanned hand reached into his pocket and took out a small ring that seemed to have to words engraved on each side of it. One half had the word 'promises' and the other half had the word 'love'.

She was even more surprised when he took her hand and slipped the ring through her ring finger.

When he quickly stood up and pulled her into a hug, then grasping her forearms, did she notice that he had a ring just like hers, on his left hand. He started to whisper in her ear while bringing his arms around her once again.

"These rings are a symbol of love and promise Sakura. Both of these words have meanings, such as promise; neither of us cannot speak a lie to one another, and love; as long as we have these rings on, then our love for each other is still strong. I love you my Sakura-chan."

She couldn't help but to through both her arms around his neck and showering his face with light kisses, which in turn, made his cheeks turn red.

"I love you to my Sasuke-kun!"

= Flashback 5 months ago =

It was raining. The sky was dark, but it was still noon. Three deaths had occurred earlier that week. It would only make sense that the sky was crying to.

Eyes of green, watched as people dressed in black lowered three black-shiny coffins in their new home. The shoulders of a girl who had pink hair started to shake, and her eyes were bleeding tears. She felt as if, her life had no meaning anymore. Her mother, father, and little brother had meant everything to her.

She looked to the right where she saw that people had their palms in the front of their faces. She could hear the words that slipped out of their mouths, chanting the words for the so called 'god' to take away the newly departed safely into 'his' home.

A pair of slightly-tanned hands suddenly rested themselves on her trembling shoulders, then she could feel her body being lifted onto a pair of strong arms.

Coal-black eyes watched as the small body shook with sadness that overwhelmed her. He hugged her tighter to his chest. Her small hands started to also shake uncontrollably as the wind picked up, making her seem as though she were…

"Breakable…"

= Three hours later =

"Sakura-chan, you should really get some rest, you've been through so much right now so I think you need it." His black eyes showed concern for his one and only love. He had been with her when she found out the news about the loss of her family. It hurt him to see her in such pain. She had tried hard not to cry in front of her friends, he could tell, so she would silently cry herself to sleep at night when she thought he wasn't watching.

But he was.

He had promised her that he would be living with her for a while since he knew that she was going through so much pain right now. His mother helped him pack his things and had given Sakura a hug before both of them left.

"It's alright Sasuke-kun, I'm fine right now. I just want something to eat before I go and sleep if you'd like?" It never seized to amaze him how calm she could be at a time like this. "Hn, alright then Sakura-chan."

She took his hand and led him to the kitchen. He could see a slight blush staining her cheeks from the contact that was made by her. He smirked slightly; she was always such a shy person. That was one of the things he loves most about her.

She had fixed herself a ham sandwich together with some juice, all the while he watched. As soon as she sat down beside Sasuke, there was a ring coming from her pant pocket. Grabbing it, she checked the caller ID and suddenly, her face went pale. "What's wrong Sakura-chan? Who is it?" He took a peek at the front screen of her phone and the name Karin was displayed.

"It's my cousin…" The way her face stared at the phone, he could tell something (Maybe bad) had happened between them. With a sigh of defeat, she hesitantly answered her cell on the tenth ring.

"H…Hello?" he could distinctly hear a feminine voice on the other end of the line. "Oh…When will that be? You don't have to vi- I see then. I'll wait 'till next week then Karin. Goodbye." And with that, she hung up.

She slumped in her seat a little more and placed her phone back in her pocket. "Uh, what did your cousin want Sakura-chan?" She took a sip of her juice before answering. "She's going to be visiting me next week Sasuke-kun." She told him before taking another sip. "Then what's the problem? Are you two not close?" He noticed the way her eyes stared off into space. "I don't want her to visit me. I know it seems rude to say such a thing, but, her and I, we don't exactly have things in common. Sasuke-kun…She was always tormenting me as a child. If she saw me with the latest new toy that she had wanted, she'd take it away from my arms and rip anything that was able to be ripped off, and then she would stomp on the toy and tell our mothers that I hated the thing. My mother would always get angry with me for the things I never did, and Karin was always the one being praised. You see Sasuke-kun, I'm afraid that like all of the other things she has stolen from me, she'll steal you from under my nose. I think…no…I know that will happen. Please, don't talk to her Sasuke-kun. Please?" By then, she had grasped onto his sleeve and looked pleadingly into his eyes.

He could see the hurt that was being shown from her green eyes. Her eyes were looking into his as if searching for his answer. He took her hands into his and wrapped his arms around her. "I promise you Sakura-chan, I will not take even a glance her way. Alright Sakura-chan? Because I love you." Her eyes widened in so much happiness then he had ever seen before. "I love you too Sasuke-kun."

He swept her in for a kiss, licking her lips, asking for entrance, and she gladly granted his wish. They both went upstairs and fell asleep in each other's arms.

= One week later =

"You didn't have to come with me Sasuke-kun. I know I said I wasn't quite happy about her coming here, but you didn't have to come with me." She told him this while he drove her car. "Yes, I know I didn't have to, but it looked like you would be needing help coping with her arrival, so I decided to come on my own free will Sakura-chan."

They were already parking then went inside of the airport to wait for, what he knew so far, Sakura's cousin. He gave her hand a light squeeze, hinting that everything would be alright. She nodded her head and squeezed his hand back. She tippy-toed and gave his cheek a peck, which made him blush in return.

She smiled up at him as he looked at her. Just when they were about to kiss, they were stopped by a feminine scream saying Sakura's name out loud.

Sakura looked ahead and saw her. Karin. The only person that could steal the things most precious to her. "Oh Sakura! You've grown so much! But you haven't let your hair grow out though. Why is that?" Sakura could practically feel the mocking tone in her voice. The reason why she hadn't let her hair grow out was because of Karin. She made fun of her hair when they were only nine, saying how ugly she looked and how big her forehead was with her long hair. Then one night, Karin and her friends from school had cornered her in an empty classroom with scissors in their hands. Their eyes looked so evil, it scared her so much.

Then, Karin and her group, they cut her long waist-length hair. Sakura was left their crying in the classroom, with no one to comfort her. When she had finally gone home, her mother and father were so shocked to see their only daughter. Her mother kept repeating how it happened, but, Sakura knew better than to say the actual truth, thus, saying that she had cut it herself because she didn't like long hair anymore.

But she did. She absolutely loved her long hair, only because it looked so much like her mothers, and her mother looked so beautiful with her long pink hair. She had wished that when she grew older she would look as beautiful as her mother did, but that went out the drain when that incident happened.

She could still feel Karin's envy towards her natural pink hair. Unlike Sakura's mother, Karin's mom had black hair. Both of their mothers's were sisters, and since Karin was always the jealous type, wanted her hair to be naturally pink like her aunts. But no. Karin had inherited her mother's black hair; therefore, she always dyed it red. Looking at Karin now, Sakura could see that she was still dying it red. She could tell by the black line on the top of her head. She also, still had that weird haircut; one side was pointy while the other was straight. And looking at Karin's' eyes now, she could tell that she had gotten red contacts as well. Sakura never got her cousin. She looked really beautiful with her natural black hair and brown eyes, but, why didn't she like herself? With the glasses that Karin wore, she would look more mature if she went back to her natural ways.

Sakura hadn't realized that Karin was still talking to her until she gave her arm a nudge. "Sakura! You're not even listening to me! You're spacing out like always! But oh well, what can I do? By the way…Who's your handsome friend Sakura?" The way she asked about Sasuke, she knew this was going to be harder then she thought.

"My names Sasuke Uchiha. I'm Sakura's friend." Sasuke brought his hand and shook Karin's when she lifted hers up. Sakura couldn't believe it. Just my friend? And…He didn't even say 'Sakura-chan'. Just Sakura…

"Oh, you sure are a cute one then Sasuke-kun! I can't believe that Sakura found such a handsome guy such as you! Hey Sakura? Are you alright? You seem paler then before!" Sasuke immediately remember Sakura when Karin had mentioned her name. He turned his head and saw that Sakura had indeed, gone paler then before. Her remembered how he just introduced himself to her cousin and had told her that they were just friends. Looking at Sakura, he realized he had hurt her.

"Erm, no I'm alright Karin. Thank you for asking though." Sakura could feel her chest tighten with what Sasuke had said. "That's great then Sakura! Well, look at the time! I gotta be going now, and here's the address to my apartment Sakura. Just in case you need anything." Karin told her as she started walking away. "Wait, you're not going with us Karin? I thought that was why you told me to meet you here when you arrived…" Sakura had taken a few steps towards Karin. "Oh, no. I just wanted to give you my address Sakura! I forgot to mention, my parents had bought me a car before I got here and sent it here so I wouldn't have any trouble having to drive it on my own! Well, see you later Sakura! You too Sasuke-kun!" Karin gave a wink to Sasuke then went on her way.

Sakura stood there watching as Karin walked away. Coming here was a waste of time then? Couldn't she have told her through the phone! Karin gave her such a headache sometimes. She looked back at Sasuke who just stood there looking at her. She couldn't even form words for herself, so, she just started walking to where Sasuke had parked her car, leaving him behind.

Sasuke started going after Sakura since she just left him there. He knew he hurt her but he didn't mean to. He didn't know why he did what he did but, he was going to make it up to Sakura one way or another.

The ride back home was an awkward one. It scared Sasuke since Sakura hadn't said a thing at all. He decided to break the silence. "I'm sorry Sakura-chan…I didn't know what I was doing. I swear next time we see her I'll tell her about me and you, I swear. Could you please forgive me Sakura? Please?" he looked at her pleadingly while she just stared out the window. I guess I should forgive him. It's only normal for him to do what he did; After all, Karin is a beautiful person and he is a guy. My pale skin doesn't match to her tanned one and my body doesn't match to the one that Karin has. "I forgive you Sasuke-kun. It's alright just please don't do it again. Please?" She had hope in her eyes as she watched him. "I promise you Sakura-chan, I won't do it again. I love you Sakura-chan." By then, they were already in the front of her house. Sakura bid him goodbye and went inside. He wasn't able to stay since his mother needed help with some things at home.

As she went to sleep that night, she couldn't help but feel like something bad was going to happen soon.

How right she was.

= Present =

He lied to me. All of them did. She got to him and then my friends. I can't take it anymore; I have nothing left in my life to go on. I don't care, I'm going to see you soon…My family…

As those memories resurfaced in her mind, she spread her arms out wide and let herself fall to the ground from the bridge. Her green eyes were shut the whole time, and as soon as she landed, she could feel a light illuminating from her heart. When she opened her eyes, darkness was all that welcomed her.

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I'm sorry! This was all that I could remember! If it's not to anyone's taste, then I suggest you just don't read it=/. If anyone has any ideas about the next chapter, feel free to tell me in a review! The number of reviews for this chapter is at least 5! Please review if you like it! I would also like to thank everyone that encouraged me to write this chapter, such as;

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