Lost
Ch2
One day turns to one week, one week to one month, one month to two month, then two months to three months. Dana was still missing Monica terribly, she hardly slept or ate, and everyone was worries about her then came a call she wanted but never wanted. The phone rang at eight o'clock am
"hello"
"Dana its john" he didn't sound right
"what's wrong?"
"Monica's back but..."
"But what?"
"She's in a terrible state"
"where is she?"
"Dana... Uhh... How do I say this? Before she fell unconscious she said no one is to let you in or tell you what's going on"
"but why? I'm her partner, I have rights"
"Dana... Look... She didn't even want you to know she's back, but I couldn't keep it from you"
"why's she pushing me out? I'm a doctor... I've seen loads of terrible states as you put it"
"Dana, I can't say anymore. I'm just letting you know she's back"
Dana gets tearful and deeply upset
"tell her I said to remind her of her promise to me before she left... I've gotta go. Tell her I love her"
"ok will do dana, bye"
She hangs up and calls skinner
"hi Dana I'm on my way to you, give me ten minutes"
And she hangs up.
Soon there's a knock at the door, she opens it and skinner grabs her into his arms
"I'm sorry Dana"
"what do you know?"
"All I know is she's back, in a hospital in a terrible state and she's asked for you to stay away"
Dana nods
"that's all Doggett told me. Though I'm her next of kin"
"Dana, your not"
"what? How'd you know?"
"She changed it before she went out on this mission, she was advised to have an agent as her next of kin and not you, and so she picked Doggett. No one knew this till she was back and agent Phillips called him to say he was her next of kin and to get to the hospital"
"she never told me"
Dana starts to cry
"apparently it was done once you left her for the last time"
"howdy you find out?"
"I uhh... Confronted agent Phillips in the hallway"
"confronted him how?"
"how do you think?"
"you didn't?"
"I did and I'm now suspended for a week, I only grabbed his jacket"
Dana pulls out of the hug and goes to the sofa, skinner follows
"do you want me to call anyone for you? Mom? Someone?"
"no, will you stay with me?"
"of course"
Dana sat silent listening to skinner talk but not listening
"I'm worried" she says suddenly
"why?"
"Monica gave me this to hold" moving her necklace out from her top "see this?" she says pointing to the ring, he nods
"that's for me once this was all over"
"she must love you them"
"loved me more like. Can you do something for me?"
"Yes anything"
"call john, tell him I have something for him to give to Monica"
"your sure?"
"Yes. Its hers not mine"
He nods and gets out his cell
"john its skinner... Yes I know... Right I'm with Dana... What? Oww ok see you in a minute...bye" he hangs up and turns to Dana
"Johns on his way to see you, shall I stay?"
"Yes please don't leave me"
"I won't, I promise"
"I've had enough of promises"
Thy sit silent, waiting for Doggett to arrive. The knock came, Dana looked at skinner,
"ill get it" he says standing up
He walked to the door and opened it
"hi" says skinner
"hi" says Doggett,
He steps in looking at Dana
"hi" he says
"come sit" she says,
which he does sitting on the single sofa, he wait for skinner to sit with Dana
"right, Monica is stable in hospital, she's under gone a few surgeries and may need another. She's talking but she's not the Monica we knew, its scary. She still maintains she doesn't want to see you yet. I'm sorry Dana"
"its ok, you going back up to see her?"
"yes I just left to get her some stuff and thought I'd see you"
"can you give her something for me?"
He nods, she reaches around and removes the necklace,
"give her this back for me" she hands it over,
"ok, ill go now"
"did you remind her of her promise?"
He nods sadly
"she just nodded and changed the subject, I'm sorry Dana"
He stands and skinner let's him out. When he turns back and looks at Dana she bursts into tears, he runs kneeling in front of her and holds her as she cries.
One day turned to one week, she was unable to cope with anything that reminded her of Monica, she even text Doggett to say she didn't want updates on Monica as clearly she didn't want to know her. She had spent a few days and nights at moms, then at skinners and other nights she spent drunk, she couldn't cope without Monica.
She went out with mom for the evening on Friday after work for a lovely meal; she was beginning to calm a bit more. She drove home and went in ready for bed, she unlocked the door and stepped in
"don't turn the lights on" came a muffed voice
"who is it?"
"Thanks for that, don't even remember my voice now, has it been that long Dana?"
She then knew who it was
"Monica?"
"Well done Sherlock" she said harshly
"how are you?"
"How am I? Do you really wanna know?"
"yes I do, I love you"
"you won't..."
suddenly the lamp by the sofa comes on and Dana sees Monica, well what sort of looked like her, her face is covered in various scars, with Dana's experience some where surgical scars others not so clean, also bruises and smaller cuts, also her chest looked burnt
"taking a good look at the ugly mess I am doctor Scullly?"
"your not an ugly mess"
"don't patronise me"
"I'm not"
"what ever I came for a reason, why do I have" she reaches into her jacket pocket "this?" holding up the necklace
"its yours, your back so I sent it to you"
"no, you've moved on or your bored of waiting, so you sent it away from you" she sounded angry
"no neither"
"then why am I being told your sleeping around skinners and him over here, sleeping in our bed was he, making you feel less lonely while I'm in a hospital bed, alone and in pain?"
"nothing has or will happen with skinner, its not like that. your not Monica, your still the person you left to be, I'm not going into any of this until your back to yourself"
"the person I left to be, you make it sound so natural, I didn't have a choice but to change. So if I'm not Monica why'd you send me this?"
"I was banned from seeing you by you so I didn't know who you were, but you are not my partner inside or out. I can love Monica looking like this but your not her inside"
"what did you expect Dana? To be gone for three months and come back normal? Well it didn't work"
"are you getting help?"
"yes I am, why?"
"I care, and you need to go back and get more help. When your back to being Monica come back to me. I will wait forever for her, but you need to fight"
Monica stands,
"well if I'm not Monica you need to keep hold of this"
"I can't wear it, ill put it in the jewellery box till she's back"
Dana takes the necklace, and looks at Monica
"I love Monica, she needs to remember that"
"bye Dana"
"bye"
Once she left Dana broke down into tears, she couldn't believe what Monica looked like, and what had happened, her mind played over possible ways she could of got those injuries, but the mental ones were worse of all. Monica would never of raised her voice or accused her of cheating, never. She was scared her partner would never come back to her, lost in the occult and the events around it.
Well again it turned days to weeks again, but no message, call or anything from Monica or the person she'd become. Mrs Scullly came round
"right I've had enough of this were going on holiday"
"are we?"
"Yes we are, on Saturday, ill pick you up at five and well go away. Your not working still so were going just us two. If I get here and your not packed ill pack and ill even get skinner here to make you go if I have to"
Dana knew mom meant it
"that'll be nice, I need some escape. Thanks mom"
She strolled up to her and hugged her
"I love you mom"
"I love you too. Now ill call you Friday to be sure your packing. See you Saturday"
"bye mom"
A holiday sounded great, she could turn off her cell and just relax, leave all the mess behind. Two days to pack and maybe go shopping for some new clothes, she needed a bit of her time.
Saturday soon arrived and she was very excited, she had warned skinner not to try calling as her cell was going off. She was near enough packed by four when there was a knock at the door, moms early thought Dana, she went across to the door opened it... Stunned... Stood there wasn't mom but Monica
"hi" says Monica
"hi"
Both just stand looking at each other
"come in" says Dana
"I'm sorry to come uninvited but I need your professional and personal opinion on something's"
Dana nods
"you see I've been to the hospital and they said my scars are healing well but I'm not convinced, can I show you?"
Dana stays quiet, unsure she can cope with this
"I trust you" says Monica
Dan takes a deep breath "ok, show me"
Monica takes off her coat to reveal a small strappy vest top, showing more scars on her arms and back
"this one first" she says pointing to a large red one on her forearm
"can I touch it?" says Dana treading carefully
"yeah, course"
Dana touches it, it feels strange to be touching her after so long. She looks at the scar
"it looks ok, still very red. Can I ask what's it from? And when?"
"its from the doctors putting pins in to repair the broken arm and wrist, its the second operation I had, just before I came to see you"
Dana thinks
"its still a new scar, but I think it'll settle in time"
"thanks" says Monica smiling "now the other is... On my thigh"
Dana nods "ill look only if your comfortable"
"its ok, but no one other than me and my doctors have seen them"
She slowly undoes her jeans and slides them down, revealing more burn scars and a large cut
"this one still hurts, this was done when the stupid FBI breached the camp too early, I got sliced, almost got me killed. The doctor said two millimetres to the right I would of died" she said in such a matter of fact way
"can I touch it?"
Monica nods, Dana kneels down by her leg, its been a long time for Dana to be down like this in front of Monica but she knows she must keep her mind on the job. She touches the scar, Monica clinches
"sorry"
"its ok, but as I said it still hurts"
"well it looks ok, still badly swollen. Maybe your jeans are rubbing it, your probably best to wear joggers"
"I don't have any"
"yes you do"
"no, there here not at mine"
Dana stands up
"I'll get them, stay here"
Monica pulls her jeans up "ok"
Dana gets to Monica's draw and pulls out 3 pairs of joggers, she puts them in a bag and walks out, she sees Monica, coat on again, looking at a photo of them together
"here you go" she says walking over
"thanks, I forget at times how much fun we used to have, before this"
"well in time maybe we can have fun again"
Monica looks at Dana, both aware of the small distance between them
"what else did you want? I did professional, what was the personal?"
Monica looks down,
"nothing really"
"come on tell me"
Dana so wants to touch her, as this person more resembles Monica but she knows she's still getting help
"well, how do I look to you? Compared to the old me?"
"Well as I said before I can love Monica looking like this but not when she's not inside, you seem better today but how long will it last?"
Monica looks away
"not long, then I go back. But I felt good today and just wanted to see you. I hear your going away with your mom! That's nice"
"yes it is"
"well ill run, thanks for these, I hope to see you soon"
"yeah bye"
"bye"
And Monica leaves. Dana shuts the door stunned, tingling as she actually touched Monica, in a half professional way. She seemed better, more herself but as she said it doesn't last long. She hopes one day she will break free and be herself always.
She disturb by a loud knock at the door, she looks out
"mom your early"
"was that Monica? Was she just here?"
"Yes and yes"
"why? To mess you up further?"
"No, she wanted my medical opinion on some scars that's all"
"what did she leave with?"
"God mom, three pairs of her own joggers she left here. Now can I finish packing so we can go!"?
"yes dear of course"
"right sit I won't be long"
And Dana goes into her bedroom, she needs to know more on how Monica is coping, she gets out her cell and speed dials Doggett
"you not left yet?" he asks
"no, not yet. I had a visitor"
"oww who?"
"Monica"
"what? That's bad"
"in what way john?"
"Well she's meant to be keeping away from you"
"what? Why? Who decided that?"
"she keeps lapsing and her doctor and therapist advised her to keep away from you till she's better"
"she seems better today"
"she has good days and my god awful days. Bad days she violent, and aggressive, even I can't handle those days. She's coming back slowly Dana, keep faith"
"I am I still love her you know"
"I know you do. Neway have a great time away, well meet up when your back"
"that'll be nice. See you later"
She hangs up then puts her final bits in the bag, she takes a last look into the jewellery box at Monica's necklace then leaves.
"come on mom, let's go"
"you all ready?"
"yes, can I know where were going yet?"
"No, come on let's go"