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She sighed once more, "While doing the examination, I discovered that she might have Vaginismus."
I was confused at first and she continued to explain the meaning,

"Vaginismus is painful spasmodic contractions of the vagina in response to physical
contact or pressure. Especially during sexual intercourse. I think Rosemarie did indeed
have a baby. But… I don't think her conception was willing."
My head snapped up at that proclamation,
"You think she was-"
"Raped." Dr. Olendzski finished for me, "Severely."
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Rose

I fought the fogginess that was my mind. I didn't have much control over my actions, at the moment. So, at first, I worked at moving my hands and gripping and letting go of the fabric around me.
I heard a voice, as if threw murky water saying my name… I took hold of that and worked to let it pull me out of the darkness. When I opened my eyes, the room was bright and I closed my eyes immediately, on instinct as a sharp ray made it's way through my already pounding thoughts.
Automatically, the lights were clicked off. When I opened my eyes once more, I wasn't alone.
"D-dimitri?" I croaked.
He nodded, "How are you feeling?" He asked, a tone of sympathy to his voice.
"I'm fine…" I whispered, working to sit up. He put a hand on my shoulder and forced me –gently- back down.
I moaned in protest,
"You need to stay lying down. The doctor says as little movement as possible. She just recently was able to drain the fluid from your lungs."
I put my fingers to my lips, "That actually happened?"
He gave me a small smile, "Yes."
"When can I leave?" I asked, hopefully.
He sighed, "First, you have some explaining to do, Roza."
I flinched, uh oh.
"What do you mean?"
"I'm talking about how Dr. Olendzski found evidence of rape on you when she was doing a physical."
No, no, no!
"She was wrong…" I lied, "I've never been….raped."
Dimitri sighed, seemingly pained, then leaned against the wall next to my bed,
"Really? Because, I'd be perfectly fine with going to get her and having her take a second look."
I practically felt myself pale,
"I wouldn't let her." I replied, adamantly, my voice weaker than I'd originally wanted.
"If I had to, I would come in and hold you down."
I felt involuntary tears fill my eyes,
"That can't be legal."
He looked at me with sympathy, "No…I'm sure it's not. But, if you were to go to Alberta or the Headmistress about it, you would most likely have to explain my actions."
"Why are you doing this?" I whimpered, Tears spilled over, and he sighed, once more, and knelt down in a chair beside me, and took my shaking hand in his.
"I want to help you Roza. Please… Please tell me what happened to you."
I looked up and met his chocolate brown eyes and he ran his fingers over my cheek, wiping a tear away. I was shocked at first as that unfamiliar feeling of warmth passed through me. He pulled away, and gave me a small nod of encouragement.
"You have to promise me…you won't tell anyone." I rasped.
His face looked pained for a moment, "Roza…"
"Please."
He took a deep breath and after a few moments, "Alright."
I closed my eyes, and curled in a ball on my side to protect myself from the inevitable truth,
"About 1 year after I'd been on the run with Lissa, and we'd gotten comfortable…One night, I'd opted to go and get groceries for us, and when I was coming back…there-there-"
I choked again, and it was a mixture between a cough and a sob,
"Sshhh, easy." He coaxed, putting his hand on my arm, until I'd calmed once more,
"I walked past an alleyway, when I heard a voice…I kept walking, like I knew, was smart. But, a man reached out and grabbed me by my arm. I was training while I was gone, a lot…" I looked up at Dimitri, nervously, and he nodded,
"I know. Keep going."
I was surprised that he'd found out, but I did as he said and continued, my voice fading slightly as if I were telling him a secret.
"I was able to fight him off, and it wasn't too hard. But…he had friends." The words dripped off my tongue like acid, "And, I was beginning to take them on, when a gun was pressed to my head…I swear…that's cheating." Dimitri gave me a small smile,
"He made me get on my knees…" Another sob, "And, the leader made me lick his shoes."
Dimitri's hands were in fists.
"Then, afterwards, another kicked me in the side, and then one pressed a cloth over my mouth and nose, and dazed me. They beat me…then had their way."
I began to cry in earnest, "I felt it all. I was in and out, but even when I was out, it wasn't an escape. I remember every stab of pain as they forced their ways into me, dry. I remember trying to scream, and crying and begging them to stop. But nothing, worked!" I'd worked myself into a frenzy.
"Stop, stop, stop." Dimtiri said gently, when I looked up, I realized that he was now, standing over me, holding my face in his hands. "You don't need to tell me anymore, Roza."
I was relieved he'd stopped me, but sad because I knew that he didn't want to hear anymore, because he was disgusted by me and by what had happened to me. I pulled away, and he looked at me apprehensively, as if he knew what I was thinking, but before he could say anything, the door burst open.
"Where is she?!" I heard Lissa's frantic voice, then she ran to my side, and grabbed me in her thin arms.
"Ow, Liss." I murmured, still being sore as the sedative wore off. Not to mention the toll the exhaustion had had on my body.
Speaking of the sedative,
"How long was I out?" I whispered,
"3 days." Dimitri replied watching me carefully, and my eyes widened, 3 days!?
"3 very long days." Lissa cut in, "I'm going to kill you."
"Why!? Why was I out so long!"
"You were exhausted Rose, you needed to relax." Dimitri said, and I began to argue, suddenly angered that they had controlled me so easily. His face darkened slightly, sensing my reaction,
"Don't." He warned gently, "You don't need to work yourself up while you're still recovering. We can easily have you sedated again."
"I second that." Lissa replied, backing him up.
I gave up for now, exasperated, although I seriously disliked how they could control my choices and decisions so easily.
"Can I sit up, at least?"
"That would be alright." I heard a third voice, and looked to the door to see the doctor. "You two, however. Out." She ordered, "I need to take her vitals."
Lissa pouted, and Dimitri smiled fondly at the doctor before they walked out the door.

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Dimitri

I walked out of Rose's hospital room with the princess, my mood darkening immediately, not having to hide my distraught sadness from Rose anymore. Lissa looked seeming to study me for a moment, before she sighed,
"She told you, didn't she?"
I nodded my head slightly, and Vasilisa looked to the ground,
"How did you get her too…." She trailed off.
"The doctor did a full exam on her when I first brought her in, including a genital exam. There was evidence of unwilling intrusion, and…" I looked to the princess, and she was still staring at the ground, obviously hiding something,
"Look at me." I ordered softly, she swallowed, but did as she was told hesitantly, meeting my eyes.
"Andrew." I said, and Lissa paled, "Was that the name of Rose's baby?"
"Rose didn't-" She began, a little too quickly,
"Princess, don't lie to me. Her body also showed the signs of carrying and birthing a child."
Vasilisa sagged in front of me, and I caught her, helping her to a nearby chair. She put her face in her hands,
"Yes." She said, almost to quietly to hear.
"Yes, what?" I asked in confusion.
"His name was Andrew."
I stilled, my stomach dropping as the reality of the situation struck.
Lissa looked up, "You can't tell anyone, Guardian Belikov." She begged, "Please. It would kill Rose…to-to have people know about what happened to her."
I studied her for about a minute and she never broke my gaze, and I finally relented,
"She made me promise I wouldn't tell."
Lissa nodded, "It's important to her."
The doctor walked out then, and nodded to us, "You're welcome to go back in." She said. I stopped her for a moment as Lissa headed back inside,
"How long will she need to be here?"
The doctor grinned, "She asked me the same thing. My guess is that she'll not need to be here any longer than another day, but I strongly suggest she doesn't return to training for at least a week."
I nodded, and she added on,
"I'll be prescribing sleeping medication. She made a profuse argument to the decision. An argument stubborn enough that it has me a bit worried. So, I'll be having one of the nurse's come to her each night to administer it by injection."
"She'll fight that." I said. She nodded, seemingly at a loss for words, and I came up with an idea,
"I know some medical training, maybe if it's someone she trusts, she'll be a little more lenient."
Dr. Olendzski studied me for a moment, but nodded, "I have no better ideas."
"Alright." I said, she nodded once more, "I'll give you the stuff when you leave, she'll need to take it every night at about 9 am moroi time until further notice." I nodded, and a look crossed the doctor's face,
"What is it?" I asked, she sighed.
"When you give her the medication at night, I'll need you to take a look at something else…She…She has a deep, horizontal cut on her ribs."
"From what?" I asked, confused.
"I can't be sure, but it looks…self inflicted. It's been reopened repeatedly. Would you mind talking to her the night I let her out?"
"I will." I replied, and walked back into the hospital room.
She nodded and walked off in the other direction, but turned half way down the hallway,
"By the way, I haven't told her about the injections yet, you might want to mention it. I wish you luck, Guardian Belikov."
She winked and I sighed, great.

It was 2 and a - half days later that Roza was released, much to her pleasure. I'd broken the news to her a couple hours after Dr. Olendzski had released her about my coming to her dorm room at night-time to give her the shots. She'd made it clear, that she wouldn't go down without a fight, my response to that being,
"I wouldn't Rose. There's more than one place for me to give you the shot."
She stopped in her tracks, and turned to face me,
"You can't mean…"
"If it comes down to it." I replied unrelentingly.
"That's really unfair."
"If it's for your well-being, I'm all for it."
"Me too." Lissa chimed in, and Rose turned to her,
"Lissa!"
"What can I say?" She asked, incredulously, "Even you need sleep, Rose."
Rose's nose scrunched up in disdain, "Not if I can help it."
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Rose

I got my clothes back a couple days later and was perfectly happy to have my own clothes on again.
I walked with Dimitri to my dorm, after dropping off Lissa. Classes were over by now and I'd been released just in time for curfew on a Friday night. I also knew that I had a shot coming.
"Are you hungry?" He asked, shaking me out of my reverie, I looked to him, but only for a second,
"No." I said quietly.
He sighed, "You're losing weight Rose."
I didn't reply. I needed to be able to survive on little food to play out the plan I had structured out to happen within the next day or so.

We stopped at my dorm, and he reached out with what I figured was a universal key and opened the lock.
"That can't be safe." I said, walking in.
I could practically feel him smile, "What do you mean?"
"I mean that you guys can like…sneak into our rooms whenever you want." I said, hearing him chuckle.
"Yes. Because that's what we all have in mind. It's not your safety at all." He said.
"Mhm." I murmured, making my way around the room. He sat on my bed and watched me carefully as I tidied things up, "I'll be right back." I said, grabbing a pair of my p.j.'s, and moving towards the bathroom.
"You're procrastinating." He announced.
I didn't answer and walked into the washroom. I could practically feel his exasperation as I turned the shower on, completely planning on drawing this out.
After about 20 minutes of showering thoroughly, hoping to wait him out, I got out and put on black shorts and a white tank top. I ran a comb through my hair and put the leave in conditioner in, before slathering my body in lotion.
I opened the door after a few more minutes and peaked out and groaned when I saw him. I should have known I wouldn't be able to wait him out.

He gave me a small knowing smile, but said in a serious voice,
"Come here."
I scrunched my nose at him and he stood right as I went to close the bathroom door again to avoid him.
He caught it before it had a chance to meet the frame, and before I could get a grip on it with my moisturized hands, he forced it back open, careful of where I stood and grabbed my arm, pulling me out.
"No, no, no!" I gasped as he pulled me out, "This is harassment!"
"Settle down." He warned, and when I refused, he grabbed me and tossed me over his shoulder much to my disdain.
He shook his head, "You, Rose Hathaway are exhausting." He said.
"So I've been told." I replied, with another startling speed, I found him planted on the bed, me perched firmly on his lap, his arms around me, restraining me from making any movement.
I was absolutely aware of the intimacy of my position, but I was more interested in avoiding the injection I knew he was intending on giving me.
It's not like he's ever wanted you any ways…you're damaged goods.
I flinched inwardly,
"Now. Roza, "
I swallowed nervously.
"You get to choose how this goes." He said thoughtfully, "You either get it in your arm…or you fight me, I pin you down and you get it in your bottom. Make a choice."

Oh hell! So…what does she choose!? Stay updated, guys (; I'm really enjoying writing this story, and I thank you for reading it!
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