Don't Push Me: A new take on Sailor Moon R
Chapter Two:
Meetings

Luna smiled as Usagi finished getting dressed. She and Mamoru were going out to the park to take a ride on the water, and her charge was in a tizzy about what to wear. "I just don't want him embarrassed to be seen with me. I know I'm not the prettiest, but with the blue I think my eyes kind of pop. What do you think?" Usagi held up a blue shirt with little rhinestones on the shoulders and Luna nodded.

"That one is definitely better than the yellow," she said after a moment. Then, thinking about her klutzy charge she added, "perhaps you should wear the jeans with the rhinestones to match." She grinned as Usagi shrieked and went head-first back into her closet, appearing a moment later with the jeans she rarely got to wear.

"Thanks Luna!" She threw the outfit on and repaired the buns that held up her long ribbons of hair. There was a few minutes of silence as her girl fixed the buns, but then she turned and sat down on the little table in the center of the room. There was a small sigh.

"Luna," she started, her voice barely audible. "Do you think it's possible that Mamoru and I... that maybe he..."

"What's wrong Usagi?"

She gave another sigh. Her voice grew even quieter and Luna had to strain to hear. "What if he doesn't really want me? What if he's only with me because of who I was. Before I mean. Serenity."

Luna tilted her head in question. She didn't know why Usagi was asking. She had her own doubts about the boy. He was always unwilling to show affection. She'd assumed it had more to do with the age difference than anything else, but maybe he just didn't have feelings for the girl. She didn't want to say it, because it would hurt Usagi's feelings, but it might be better if she was prepared for the worst.

"Usagi... I don't know anything. I don't. But I think it might be possible."

She watched the girl crumple, just a little, and wished she could take it back. Usagi simply nodded and headed out of the bedroom, her shoulders slumped, her head bowed, with none of the youthful enthusiasm she had shown only minutes before.

Luna felt horrible. She was the worst guardian on the planet. She knew and accepted that she wasn't always the best. Wasn't always the kindest. She knew, especially after Artemis had yelled at her the night before, that she was often far too hard on the girl. She couldn't seem to help herself though. Usagi was trying. It was obvious.

Usagi felt like she was dying. Just a little. Every day.

But, as she always did, she put the smile on, the mask she had to wear, and went on. She breathed deep before she opened the door and walked out into the sunshine. Mamoru was waiting, leaning against his car. She smiled brightly at him and walked forward. He leaned in and kissed her cheek, and she smiled brighter, because she knew that would make him happy.

She wasn't happy. She really was dying inside. She wanted to go back to her room, throw herself on her bed, and weep like a child. Just for a little while. Why did she have to realize all of this right before a date? Why couldn't have been when she had a few days when she wouldn't see him at all. Then maybe she could get herself together so that when he broke up with her she could handle it?

He opened her door for her, and helped her settle into the seat. He even leaned over and put her buckle on, brushing his forearm against her breast accidentally. She sucked in a breath and tried to ignore the shot of heat to her belly, the moisture that automatically started between her legs, the tightening of her nipples. As soon as he closed her door she released the breath and grunted in frustration.

He got in the car and started the engine. He didn't really say much, just grunted a hello and turned the key. It drove the point home for Usagi. Soon, she didn't know exactly when, but soon, he was going to realize he didn't have feelings for her, and he would tell her he didn't want to see her anymore.

The rumble of the engine was the only sound. The silence was uncomfortable, stifling, horrid. She wished she could just leap out of the car and run far away. But she couldn't. She just couldn't pass up any and every opportunity to see him while he was still hers. Because the truth was, she was going to hold tight until the very moment he broke up with her. Her heart was going to shatter into a million pieces, but the more memories she had, the more she could cling to the times they'd shared, the likelier it would be that she would survive.

Because she loved him. Even if he didn't love her.

They got out at the lake and rented a boat. He helped her into it and hopped in himself before pushing away from the little dock. Still, it was quiet between them. She didn't fill the silence, just watched him from the corner of her eye, drinking in his every movement, his every breath, his every sound.

"You're quiet today Usako." His voice was strained. She wondered if that meant he was about to do it. About to tear her to pieces with just a few words.

"Sorry." It was barely a whisper. "I just have a lot on my mind today."

"Like what?" he asked.

She panicked. What could she tell him? If she explained she knew he was going to break up, it would only hasten the end. She couldn't do that. She needed him for as long as she could have him. Her mind whirled.

"I did a fire reading last night," she settled on a topic that was upsetting, but not nearly as dangerous.

"Alone?" he asked, sounding shocked. She knew he thought her worthless and stupid just like everyone else.

"Yes," she said. "They don't work when I'm with Rei."

"Why not?" he asked, his voice concerned now. Of course, he would be concerned if she brought up Rei. She wanted to run away screaming.

She shrugged. "I don't know."

"What did you see?"

"A lot of things. Some I've seen before. A crying tree asking me for help. The moon in pain. My brooch, broken." She stopped there. She didn't want to talk about the rest. The little girl was special to her, and the thought of herself laying in that room, helpless, was too frightening to think about, let alone say out loud.

"What was new?" he asked, as though he sensed she was hiding something.

She averted her eyes, refusing to meet his steady stare. She didn't want to talk about that. Didn't want to think about it. Didn't want to hear someone else talk about it. And she didn't want everyone to worry and start treating her even more like she was helpless and worthless.

"Usako?" he asked.

She shrugged again. "Just stuff."

"Usako." His tone had firmed and he put a hand under her chin to make her look at him. Worry filled his eyes, and a spark of anger. Why was he angry? Wasn't he going to be breaking up with her anyways? Why would he possibly care.

He wasn't going to back down. Even when she tried to pull away he held her still, staring into her eyes. Without her permission she opened her mouth.

"It was me," she whispered. "In a room. A black room. I was hiding in a corner. There was a man over me."

"And?" he prompted.

"That's it," she finished lamely.

"Well, we can just make sure you're never alone then," Mamoru said, and she could see the wheels in his head turning. "We'll call the girls and set up a schedule. All of us will take turns to..."

"No." Usagi said, her voice firm.

"No?" Mamoru's eyes sparked with anger.

"No! This is exactly why I was afraid to say anything! You all have lives. You have school and things and I am not going to hide for the rest of my life over a vision that may or may not happen! And even if it does happen, is it now, or in five years? And who is to say I don't make it out on my own?"

"Usako, we all know you're capable in a fight, but on your own?" Mamoru frowned. "Alone, in the dark, with a man who could hurt you... You can't just expect us not to protect you. You're the princess."

"No, I'm not," she muttered. "I was a princess. Now I'm just Usagi."

Mamoru shook his head and started to row faster and faster, moving back toward the docks.

He helped her out of the boat and put an arm around her waist.

"Did all of you forget who beat Beryl? Who beat Metallia?" she muttered, angry now. No one gave her any credit.

"No. We haven't forgotten. Or that you saved all of us, brought us back to life. Or that you died Usagi."

Her head bowed at that. He said Usagi, not Usako. It was true then. He didn't love her anymore. She tried to move away, but he held her tighter, turned her around, and stared at her.

"I love you Mamo-chan," she whispered.

"I love you too," he said. He bent and kissed her.

There was a strange swirl of light above them, and something fell on Mamoru's head, before bouncing away. A moment later a little girl with bright pink hair in her own double bun style fell from the sky and landed in Mamoru's arms.

The girl looked up and gasped, but by then Usagi had taken her, held her tight in her arms, and looked into the red eyes. Before the little girl could speak, she bent and spoke in her ear. "I'll help you save your mommy," she promised.

The little one gaped at her, mouth wide, then threw her arms around Usagi's neck, and cried.

"Thank you," she whispered. "Thank you. Thank you."

She pulled back to look the girl in the face. "I still have to figure out just how to do it. We aren't ready yet. But I'm not letting you go back there alone. You can come and stay with me okay?"

The pink haired girl nodded emphatically.

"Now little one," Mamoru said from behind them, "why don't you tell us your name?"

It was obvious he'd heard everything, even her whisper, because when she whirled around to look at him he seemed confused and a little annoyed.

"Usagi," said the frightened child, cuddling closer into Usagi's arms. "My name is Usagi."

Mamoru looked from one to the other several times, and then he smiled. "Well," he said with a conspiratorial wink, "since it will get awfully difficult to have two Usagi's around, and not get you confused, lets call you Chibi-Usa."

"Two Usagi's?" The little girl repeated, and her jaw dropped open as she looked back up. "Your name is Usagi too?"

She nodded and the little girl began weeping and clinging even harder. She whispered something Usagi didn't catch. She rocked the girl from side to side and hummed the tune from the star locket.

"Thank you Puu," the newly dubbed Chibi-Usa whispered as she cuddled into her mother's shoulder. She couldn't help but cling to her. She was scared, and had been lonely for so very long, and the only thing in the world she'd wanted was her mother. And now her mother was holding her, cuddling close, and humming a familiar tune.

She looked back at the man, and wondered. She stared at him, looking from his feet all the way up. She could see it now. It was her daddy. And her mommy. Together. She reached out one hand and pulled him closer too, and he wrapped his arms around the older Usagi and she was squished between them, just like they'd done so many times when she was little.

She sighed, and feeling very comfortable and sleepy, she relaxed and closed her eyes. She was aware enough to hear, but didn't have the energy to talk to them.

"What will you tell your parents?" her daddy asked.

"Nothing. I'll just have Luna 'remind' them about my cousin Usagi coming to stay with us while her parents are in America."

"I suppose that could work," he mused. "For right now, why don't you both come to my place. We have to get her some clothing and luggage and she needs a nap."

Her mommy sighed. "Alright, but I want to get her home before dark."

"Should we call the others? She did drop right out of the sky after all."

"Later. She isn't dangerous. She's actually the first vision I ever had. I've been seeing her for months."

"You didn't mention her." He sounded annoyed.

Her mommy sighed again. She did that a lot. In fact, her mommy seemed sad. Very sad. "Mamo-chan, it's hard to explain. She's special to me."

"Special?"

"We're connected somehow. And she's been alone for so long, and her parents are hurt. Everyone is from what I've seen. Everyone she knows and loves is sleeping, but not a normal sleep. And her mom is hurt."

"You've certainly seen her a lot. Why didn't you tell me before?" Daddy sounded mad now.

"Would anyone have listened?" she heard Mommy mutter. Then louder, "Because I didn't know how."

Her mommy was buckling her into a seat, and letting go. Chibi-Usa couldn't let that happen. What if she got hurt now too? She clung tighter and started to cry. "Don't leave me!"

Her mommy climbed into the back seat with her. She cuddled into her side and sighed, feeling better.

"I think she really cares about you too," her daddy said as he got into the front seat. Her mommy smiled down at her, and Chibi-Usa felt better than she had in a very long time. Somehow, her mommy was going to save herself.

Puu must have meant her mommy was Sailor Moon. She just knew it. Her daddy must be Tuxedo Kamen then. The two greatest superheroes who ever lived. That's what her aunts and uncles always said.

She wanted her mommy and daddy and her brother to wake up. She missed them. For now, she was glad to have their younger versions, because her mommy in this time already knew her somehow. Already loved her too. That made her feel warm and comfy, and resting her head on her mommy, she fell asleep.

Mamoru was frustrated beyond belief. He had been ever since he'd helped Usagi get into the car for their date, and it was only getting worse seeing her mothering little Chibi-Usa. Because he had realized almost immediately, Chibi-Usa was their daughter.

The facial features were identical to those he knew so well. The girl's mannerisms were similar too, except for the ones that matched his. The way she frowned, or even smirked, was all him. Her skin tone was his as well. But the pink eyes and hair were confusing. Then again, Usagi's mother had bright blue hair. He shrugged.

He pulled into the parking garage under his building and went around to pick up the sleeping child. Usagi kept a hand on her, just in case she woke up. He carried the girl into the elevator and then down the hall to his apartment. He slipped off his shoes and went to lay the little one on the couch.

Then he turned to Usagi and pulled her into his arms. He wondered when they had Chibi-Usa. It could be any time in the future. For all he knew he could get her pregnant next week. The thought made him harden instantly as he thought about how he would get her pregnant. His body ached at the thought of being inside the woman he loved.

He crashed his lips down onto hers, more passionately than he had intended. He wanted to take her in his room and get started on their future. Then Chibi-Usa stirred on the couch, calling out for her mother, and Usagi broke away. He groaned in frustration, but followed her when she went to the couch.

When Mamoru reached out and ran his fingers over the girl's forehead, brushing her bangs back, visions filled his mind. A city, made all of Crystal, but utterly destroyed. A Crystal Palace, filled with sleeping people. People he recognized. Himself, though slightly changed, his hair a purplish black instead of the jet he was used to, the Senshi, though more of them, and others he didn't recognize.

Inside a massive crystalline structure, Usagi lay, her belly swollen with child. She really had been injured then, if the Crystal was protecting her in such a way. He hoped she would be alright.

None of them really looked any older, though her hair had changed color, as had his. Her hair was silver in the vision, pink at the very tips. And his had a purple tint to it. He frowned. In his arms lay a little boy, about Chibi-Usa's age, with purple hair. His eyes closed, breathing even. Beside him lay an older boy. One that looked identical to himself. Their eldest child, he assumed.

There were other people. Some he didn't recognize, but they wore the Senshi fuka. And there were men as well. Four of whom he recognized as the Dark Generals. That was strange. Why would they be there? Hadn't they been killed? There was another man with bright red hair, his arms tight around two little girls, twins he thought. There were more children, many more. Some cuddled up against the Senshi, some off on their own. Families, he thought.

He pulled out of the vision and stared at Usagi, mouth open wide. She stared back. Chibi-Usa had calmed now and he thought perhaps she would sleep for a time. He grabbed Usagi, gently, by the arm and pulled her away, into the kitchen where he could talk to her.

"Usako," he murmured, and wrapped his arms around her.

"What did you see?" she asked.

"Everyone sleeping, like you said. But I could see who they were."

"Who?" she asked.

"Us. All of us. The Senshi, the others. We were all there. Sleeping."

"Oh." Usagi frowned then, and stared into the living room, where Chibi-Usa was beginning to wake up.

Mamoru stared at Usagi, though she was looking away. His mind conjured images of him picking her up and putting her on the counter where he could take her again and again and plant their child into her. He adjusted himself in his pants, hoping she didn't notice.

From the living room came the sound of a little girl, screaming for her mother.

"Shopping!" Mamoru said, as they moved back out to the living room. Usagi could hear desperation in his voice. "We need to go shopping. She needs things."

"Okay Mamo-chan," she said, latching on to the excuse to get out of the house. "But first, let me call Luna."

"Luna-P?" Chibi-Usa asked. "It's right there!" She pointed to a little black ball with cat ears that was somehow floating around next to the door.

"No sweetie," Usagi corrected. "The Luna from my time."

"Oh."

Usagi pulled out her communicator and pressed the button for Luna.

"Hello?" the cat answered. She looked miserable. "Usagi-chan? Are you okay?"

"Yes Luna. I'm with Mamoru and Chibi-Usa, which is why I needed to call you. We need your help."

"Help? What do you need? Who is Chibi-Usa?"

"I need you to give my parents the thought that I'm picking up my cousin from the train this afternoon and bringing her home, and that she's going to stay with us for a while. Her name is Chibi-Usa."

"But your cousin is Haruki," Luna said, sounding confused.

"I know. You'll have to invent another cousin with a different family entirely, one that has gone to America and left us to care for her. I'm sorry, but if I come home and try to tell my parents a little girl came from the future to get help... they'll think I've gone insane."

"From the future?" Luna asked, and Usagi wanted to laugh. It was nice not being the one having trouble understanding for one.

"I promise I'll explain everything when I get home."

"Okay, I'm on it. When will you be back?"

"I'm not sure. We have to go get her some clothing and things, but I'll try to be home for dinner."

"Okay."

"Thanks Luna. You're the best."

She ended the call and turned to Chibi-Usa, who was now throwing Luna-P up in the air and catching it as it came back down.

"You ready to go out shopping?"

The girl nodded emphatically. Usagi grabbed her hand and led her over to the genkan. Her shoes were there, as well as Mamoru's and she looked down at the little girl's feet. They hadn't taken hers off because she was sleeping, but she had to remember to get her a couple pairs of slippers for her own house and here.

Chibi-Usa couldn't help grinning up at her mommy. She didn't want to freak her out by telling her the truth, but she felt happier than she had in a very long time. The older Usagi stayed close to her, holding her hand, or putting a hand on her shoulder. Or she carried her. And Chibi-Usa liked that very much.

Sometimes her daddy carried her instead, taking her from mommy so her 'arms could have a break.' Chibi-Usa thought that was funny. Her mommy tried to argue the first time he took her and she giggled at the look daddy gave mommy. It was funny.

But something was wrong with mommy. She didn't laugh and grab daddy the way they were supposed to. And daddy hadn't picked mommy up and kissed her 'til she couldn't breathe even once. It seemed wrong to Chibi-Usa and she was determined to find out what was going on.

"She's going to need school things. She'll probably end up in my old school, and I have a couple outfits left, but I don't know what size they are." Mommy said.

Daddy frowned. "What's the school name. We can go order some, and see if they have one on the rack for her."

They walked into a clothing shop that did school uniforms and a few minutes later a lady that smelled like flowers was wrapping a measuring tape around her waist, and then measuring her legs and arms. It tickled and she giggled and pulled away. Mommy laughed and daddy hid a grin.

Mommy found her a pretty suitcase with a kitty on it that looked like Luna. She loved it. Then mommy found a back pack for school that had a big yellow flower with a little ladybug. Chibi-Usa loved it and hugged it tight. She didn't want to let it go so they could buy it, but as soon as it was paid for mommy took the tags off and put it on her back. Chibi-Usa looked up at her and grinned.

"Thank you," she whispered.

"You're welcome Chibi-Usa," she said and hugged her. She held her arms up so mommy carried her for a while again. She loved being held by mommy.

Then daddy was buckling her into the car and mommy slid in beside her. But they didn't go back to daddy's apartment. They went to mommy's house where she lived with her parents. That's when Chibi-Usa realized things needed to be fixed. Mommies and Daddies were supposed to live together. She frowned and cried when daddy left, but mommy promised they would see him again soon.

She was told to call her grandparents Ikuko-mama, and Kenji-papa. It felt strange, but she shrugged and smiled at her real mommy. Even though she wasn't born yet, her real mommy already loved her.

They ate dinner with the family and then her mommy took her upstairs and gave her a bath and helped her put on pajamas and tucked her into bed. Then her mommy climbed in beside her and started talking to Luna.

Chibi-Usa loved Luna from the future, but she didn't like her very much in this time. She said mean things to mommy about not having enough 'sponsitility and not being good at fighting and not having good grades.

Luna didn't know it, but it made her mommy cry. She felt big wet drops fall on her neck when her mommy turned and cuddled with her. That was another thing that had to change. Luna had to learn to be nice. She sighed and fell asleep, dreaming about her brothers and sisters, and all the fun stuff they would do when she woke them all up.