"It all started when I was fourteen." Myra began her monologue, a story that she never wanted to tell a story in which would destroy her family. "I haven't told anyone this and you may not understand why I kept this from you but know this, I had no choice."
The McQueen siblings just sat there in John Paul's room, some on the bed, some standing or leaning against the wall. What they all had in common was the anticipation, waiting for what seemed like hours but in actuality it was only a few seconds.
"As I said, it all started when I was fourteen.". Then Myra told them the story of her first child. How she met a wonderful boy at school who treated her like she was a princess, how he would always carry her books and walk her to class. She told them how on one date he took her to his place when his parents weren't home, how he lead her upstairs to his room and how he forced her to have sex.
"He wouldn't stop, I kept saying no but he just wouldn't stop." Myra was crying now as her kids were in shock.
"Mom, you are saying you were raped." Tina came over to her mother and hugged her. Carmel was crying and the rest were ready to kill.
"That is not all, I got pregnant." Myra explained through her tears. "Nana wouldn't let me keep the baby, I had to give him up."
Tina let go of her mother and went and stood by Jacqui, no one knew what to say. How could any of them know what to do in this situation, yes Tina gave her baby up but to her sister, she could see baby Max anytime she wanted. Their mother had been raped and not only that had to give up the baby that incident created.
"It was a boy, a baby boy, my baby boy. We gave him to the church knowing they would find him a loving home." Myra was now sitting on the floor with her arms wrapped around her legs.
John Paul went over to his mom and sat down beside her. "Mom I am so sorry that happened to you and sorry you felt you couldn't tell us but we are here for you." The other siblings agreed with their brother.
"John Paul there is so much more." Myra sighed.
John Paul smiled at his mom. "Just know that we are here for you and you can tell us anything."
Myra nodded. "Nine years later, I had Nana come and live with us. It was the first time Rick left me and I could only get a job at a hospital two towns away as a cleaner. They let me stay in the on call room if I worked double shifts so I agreed. I didn't want to leave my four children but I needed to take care of you too." Myra got up off the floor to sit beside Carmel who was on the bed now.
"Eight months in it was the anniversary of when I gave up the baby and I was coming home because Tina had the flew. I was so desperate to be with my kids that I agreed and never wanted to leave my kids again. I quit my job and when I was on the bus home I saw the church, the church I gave away my baby. I just had to go there, I had to be in the same place that I last saw my little boy." Myra didn't know how to continue and knew this was it, this was the time where she would make all her kids hate her. Even though Myra knew it would end badly she couldn't keep lying.
"I got off the bus and quietly went inside the church but there I saw him, a little baby. The baby was so small and beautiful, he was in a carriage and no one was around so I stayed with him. Looking at the little angel I just kept remembering my little boy and then it hit me, I had a second chance. This was my second chance to be with my little boy, the little boy that I threw away. I took the boy out of the carriage and held him in my arms, I then noticed that there was was a woman there kneeling praying not even paying any attention to the baby that I was holding. I wasn't going to let anyone take away my chance to be with my boy again so I ran, I ran right out of the church." The McQueen children were in shock, had they just heard their mother correctly. Did she just say she stole a baby?
"I didn't know what to do next so I called Rick, I lied and said that I had had a baby and it was his. I told Rick that no one else knew not even the other children and my mom, I was working at the hospital all the time so I didn't see you guys for so long and I also told him that I didn't have a check-up or deliver a the hospital because I was scared of having another without a father and didn't know what to do so I was in denial. It was possible that I got pregnant before he went away so he believed me.
"Mom what are you saying." John Paul shouted as he jumped up off the floor.
"John Paul, that baby was you, I stole you from the church."
John Paul ran from the room.