I woke up to the screeching of my alarm clock. It really had one annoying sound. I sighed and got out of bed. There was no avoiding the day. I brushed my teeth and looked at my reflection in the mirror. I don't know what it was about me that they despised so much. But maybe it was just me. And that was nothing I could change...

I took a bowl of cereal and when the clock turned 8 I knew I had to get to school or else I would be late. So I got in my truck and drove to Forks High. Well at least I would see Jake today. Just as I got out of the car the bell rang and I hurried to my trig class. I avoided the Girls room. And whenever I heard clicking noise I turned the other way. But I knew that they would get to me at some point of the day. Probably by lunch. The classes went way to fast and all to soon it was lunch...

I ate my lunch and hoping that they would leave me alone this one day. And at the end of the hour I thought that sometimes you were lucky. But I shouldn't have let my guard down that quickly.

When I turned away from my locker I heard them but it was too late. They came towards me with big fake smiles. "Bella!" Jessica called. I stood by locker staring at my boots when they stopped.

"Aren't you in my class now?" I looked up to jessica and nodded. "Yeah did you like the lipstick by the way Bella?" Rosalie smiled sweetly at me. That they had this fake kind attitude towards me was even worse then if they would just detest me openly. "Sure" I mumbled. The last ring of the bell rang in the halls but they made no move to go to class. "Oh I didn't know that you like to touch yourself in the janitor closet?" said Rosalie and raised her eyebrows. Alice and Jessica doubled over in laughter. God how could I be so stupid? Why hadn't I looked what they had wrote before I dried it away? But what would I have answered if I had known it? No I didn't like it at all. Yeah sure...

"Though I understand that you have to do it yourself since no one wants to help you." She continued. Alice and Jessica just laughed harder. "Or maybe you do? That kid from the reservation, I've seen you with him pretty much Bella. You have never told us about him you know, we get curious of course." I didn't answer her, just continued to stare at my boots. "So you don't want to tell us about him?" Rosalie pretended to look offended and Jessica mimicked her. Just pretend they're not here... They are just stupid insecure people who picks on you so that they can feel important.

I chanted it in my head but it was worthless. "I understand why you have to look for someone in the ress to help you since everyone here knows the truth, does the indian know the truth Bella?"

They are insecure, insecure bitches who are to dumb to realize what they're even talking about...

"Maybe we should tell him girls, I'm sure that if he knew he wouldn't spend so much time with her. Poor kid who had been in the dark. Fooled by the freak..." Rosalie shook her head as if it was her fault jacob was spending time with me. And when she said that she would talk to Jake tell him about me. I freaked out. "Don't you dare talk to him." I mumbled trying with everything in me to just leave it. But then her devious smirk came and I knew I was screwed. "Oh why not Bella? What are you gonna do about it?"

"If you ever tell Jacob what you and your sluts say about me I promise you that you will regret it.

You maybe think you are a queen here but out there you wont be anything. Just a stupid blonde whore and that's the only thing you would be able the get some money from since fucking is the only thing you know how to do." I had just exploded. It had just ran out of my mouth impossible to stop. God if anyone would regret something it was me. "Excuse me?" Rosalie said in a frightening tone. Well there was no backing of it now so I lifted my chin and looked her in the eye. "You heard me." But it didn't sound confident. My voice even broke at the end. And Rosalie heard it. And that awful smirk returned. "Yes I did. I'll see you in gym Bella. I have to get to class..."

And they left me standing by my locker completely terrified. For that outburst I would surely be punished, and punished bad. I walked to biology but just I arrived the bell rang and the class was over. That meant it was gym in just a few minutes. I felt a lump in my stomach and the instinct to get in my car was defiantly there. I walked slowly to gym. I could always ditch it but then they would just hunt me up tomorrow... When I entered the room they were already standing by the benches snickering. They quieted abruptly when I came in, giving each other pointed glances.

The lump in my stomach grew and I it felt like I was trapped. I took out my gym clothes and headed for the stalls. I undressed quickly and threw on the ugly clothes. I swallowed thickly as they followed me with their gazes until I left the locker room. They were looking at me all through gym and I knew they were planning something. And I had never been this slow to the locker room before but it didn't matter how slowly I would get there. They would wait. And they did. I went to change and when I got out they were standing there. They didn't say anything so I just waited for it to start.

"Aren't you gonna shower Bella? Or do like smelling like a pig?" I Swallowed and started heading for the showers. When I had entered the room I turned around and they were standing there. Waiting. "Now Bella are you gonna shower or not?" I was not gonna let them see my scars but I had a feeling they wouldn't let me go. "I prefer to shower alone..." I mumbled quietly, but Rosalie just smiled. She picked up her phone ans held it as if she was going to tape me. I felt the lump in my stomach grow so big it was hard to breath. They were gonna tape me. Without my towel, so everyone would see my scars. And more than that. I quickly backed away when Rosalie nudged Alice in the side and nodding towards me. Alice stepped forward and grabbed my towel but I heöd on to it as if my life was hanging on it. When Alice couldn't get the towel off me Jessica came to help her. One I could handle but two of them pulling my towel was to much and just when I dropped to ground and I shrieked, I heard the beep from the phone that declared that it was taping.

I tried to cover myself but they had already seen them. "Look! Bella is cutting herself! Did you see? She had scars all over herself!" Alice squealed. "Ew that's gross Bella." Jessica said as I was backing up in a corner and tried cover as much as I could. Rosalie just taped me quietly and smiling while looking at the screen. "C'mon ladies I think the freak has learned it lesson by now." Rosalie waved them over and walked out. I heard them snickering about how disgusting and gross it was that I was cutting myself until I heard the door close and their voices was cut off. I crawled to my towel and wrapped it around me and started crying. I cried until my chest felt empty and all the tears were gone. Then I got up slowly and peeked out the door. No one there. I walked over to my clothes, happy that they hadn't taken them and grabbed my phone. I had three missed calls. Two from Jake and one from dad. I checked my inbox and there were Six unread messages. I checked the clock and it was half past 5 p.m. I had been here for more than two hours. I called Jake and he answered on the first ring. "Bella where are you? Are you alright? You were supposed to come to me after school and you weren't home either, you know that shit freaks me out Bella and charlie is out looking for you." I sighed and answered him that I had to do some school stuff important things that I had to do today but forgot. He didn't buy it. But he let me be and hung up with a; "You should probably call Charlie Bells bye." I got dressed, really not caring about that I hadn't showered and called my dad. "Bella?" he sounded slightly panicked. But was just him, to get worked up over something so small. "Yeah dad its me and I'm fine don't worry I'm on my way home."

"Where have you been honey? I've been looking for you for almost 2 hours now, where are you?"

"I've been doing some school stuff okay I'm sorry that I scared you, and I've been outside of school the whole time okay?" "Okay I'll come and pick you up just wait outside and don't move okay?"

God would he take it easy? "No dad I'll drive home myself my car is still here, so just get home and i'll be there in ten okay?" Finally he relaxed and hung up. I got out of the locker room and got out. Luckily they hadn't locked the school for the night yet so I could just leave it open. I got inside of my car and drove home. When I opened the door Charlie was there and pulled me to a hug. "Don't you ever scare me like that again Bells! Next time please just text me or something?"

I nodded and told him I was tired and going to bed. "Okay honey sweet dreams." "Sweet dreams dad." Instead of going to my bedroom I went straight to the bathroom and locked the door, pulled off my shirt and took my razor blades off the shelf. I pressed it to my skin dragged the razor blade to the left. Felt the burning sting of the wound and redid it a few times. I was holding the blade in my left hand and as I looked at it I saw the vein under the thin skin on my wrist. It would be so easy. To just end it all. Just cut off that blue vein and it would all be over. I lowered my hand and took the blade in my right hand. Held it to the thin skin and pulled. I started bleeding but not as much as it should. I pressed it as hard as I could and puled again. It was bleeding a lot now but all I felt was a thudding in my arm. I pressed harder and pulled harder and I got really frustrated. Why didn't it work? The thudding had spread to the rest of my body and especially my head. And now was I getting dizzy too. I did one last pull and then I fell hard against the bathtub the the thudding and dizziness started to take over until it all went black.