Suite Life on Deck

Will Everything Really Be Fine?

I DO NOT OWN SLOD OR ANY CHARACTER

Cody sat in class waiting for the bell to ring. It was just minutes away to release. He was surprised when he was the one who was told to go first presenting because he thought Bailey was going. As he stood up there he noticed that she was no where in sight. Concern and worry rushed over him and now as he sat at his desk hearing Ms. Tutweiler scold one of the students on their presentation all he could think about was her.

He hated himself for thinking of her. It was all he could do lately. She was just perfect in every aspect. He cursed the day they ended it. He was in love with her and could never deny that feeling as much as he tried. Would he ever show it again? No. If he went back to her and begged and pleaded for a second chance that would mean he was the weaker one. Then there was the possibility of rejection. They both have been like cats and dogs at each other all the time. He even wrote a play to basically ruin her name. He wanted to tell her that night so bad how he felt, but she looked at him with teary eyes and said "Never speak to each other again? I agree!" ...That look on her face. The pain she felt. He could never take that back. He didn't know why he made that play...he just..did...he just had all this aggression built up and he needed to let it out. But that didn't make what he did any less hurtful and cruel.

He then turned his seat around to look at Zack who was listening to the Patriots game...again. It's been three years and it still felt like they were freshmen. Zack's head popped up towards Cody when he saw his sibling looking at him.

"Hey, do you know where Bailey is?" Cody asked Zack and Zack just looked at him and laughed.

"Nope. Why?" Zack said not really caring and then the bell rang as they started to get up. Cody just shook his head.

"No reason...Umm, just wanted to show off and get the higher grade this once." Cody said trying to play it off. Zack knew Cody wasn't over Bailey and Cody knew that Zack knew that, but he would never admit his love of her again. Not after the night of the play.

"And you say I lie." Zack said laughing at his brother grabbing his backpack. This angered Cody a bit. Annoyed him. He didn't want to love her, but he couldn't help it. Now that Zack knew how Cody felt he would keep hanging that over his head. Cody should of known.

"Zack, I'm not lying, I don't lie." Zack then grinned at him. Cody was so obvious to read. He was like a picture book. The only type of book Zack could read.

"Then why is your nose crinkling?" Cody groaned. He could never get away with anything.

Bailey sat in Mr. Blankets office the whole school day. She knew if she exited that room she would not be able to focus on her studies. That when she looked at something all she would be reminded of was her family. Didn't matter what it was, all her thoughts would lead back to them.

The guidance counselor, Mr. Blanket, wanted to know what was wrong, but she would refuse to talk about it. Every time he asked more tears streamed down her face. Her eyes were red and puffy. She wasn't able to keep count the number of times she had to splash water on her face. The tissues ran out quick too.

She just wanted this horrible feeling to end, but there was no hope left for her. All her dreams were shattered. Pieces of glass spread throughout the floor. Unable to be picked up, if you tried you would be sliced. She sat their shaking like a dog. Silently praying it would be alright.

The bell finally rang to dismiss school and she stood up silently. Mr. Blanket looked at her with curiosity. She would refuse to speak to him at all. And that was not just because of how weird he was.

"Bailey, if you need anything, you know where to find me. I'm here to talk and listen to you students...and Emma when she's nagging." And then the puppet came out...Bailey just wished this horrible day could be over. But this wasn't just going to last a day. This would last her whole life. Her family would be separated her whole life. Nothing would be able to change that.

"Yes, Mr. Blanket..." Bailey said picked up her bag and hastily exited. All she wanted was to not be in the presence of people. People who would ask her constantly what was wrong. People who honestly could not care. When someone ask "how are you?" they don't care...and when people say "I love you." They don't either. Words are just words with empty meaning. All of them.

Bailey exited the counselors office and she saw Cody across the hall gathering his books collecting his supplies for the weekend homework. Great, the person she wanted to avoid was unavoidable. She regretted switching lockers to be closer to Cody when they were "in love." What a joke that was. She started walking over to grab her things, but she didn't make it in time. Cody already noticed her and was with Zack.

He put on a fake smile and waved at her. Was that all people were? Fake? Actors? Humanity did a very good job at it. Bailey loved him, but wanted to be angry with him. All Cody did was bring her down. She didn't want to talk to him. When she said it that night, she meant it. He walked over to her though along with Zack traveling behind.

"Hey, Bailey." Cody said nervously his palms sweating. All he needed was one word. One simple word. Something. Cody could see the hurt in her eyes. He wondered what happened and wanted to make it better. Wanted to hold her tight in his arms and tell her it would be okay, but he would never be allowed to do that again.

"Hi." Bailey said with no hint of happiness. Face to face with him was the least place she wanted to be. Just reminded her of what else she couldn't have. The hatred he felt for her now. Cody on the other hand was over joyed that he even got a two letter word out of her.

"I missed you in class today, where were you?." Cody asked her trying to make conversations. He said it like he actually meant it. It was hard seeing him everyday. She still cared dearly for him. She wanted to lose those feelings, but she couldn't. She looked into his eyes and saw the things that made her fall for him. That smile...the heart he has...those eyes...She had to stop this. She had to much on her plate. She then looked away. Bailey tried to figure out something to say, an excuse, but just like Cody, Bailey had a tell too. Cody knew this too. Bailey's mannerisms would change.

"Why would you care?" Bailey snapped at him instead. Bailey wondered why he would have any interest in her. "Just another way to bash me if I told you, right? Need more information. Want to make another play?" Cody stood their jaw open unsure what to say.

"Look, Bailey-" Cody started saying trying to get along with her. He just wanted everything between them like it used to be.

"I don't want to hear it. Cody, you and I, we obviously can't get along with each other and we always fight, so, let's just stop talking. Like I recommended earlier." Bailey snapped walking off bumping into his shoulder. She was completely disgusted, but in love with him all at once. Cody just stared at her walking off. He felt like screaming because all the frustration started building.

She couldn't deal with it right now. She had so many emotions building up inside of her. Fighting is... just not worth it...She needed to push through this all. She had to many things on her shoulders and needed to take off all that weight. She need to take a breathe. She wondered how long it's going to be like this. How long she is going to be driving herself crazy and feeling abandoned inside? Feeling unloved? How long? How long?

"Ouch, that must of hurt..." He said patting his brother one the back "I don't get you, you chased her for six months and then let her go."

"All good things have to come to an end Zack..." Cody said with a defeated sigh. He could never get it right.

"I still don't get you."Cody turned toward him and his hand falls off Cody's shoulder as they face each other in the busy hallways.

"What don't you get, Zack?"

"You love her, but you don't do anything."

"It's...complicated."

"Complicated?" Zack said unsure if that was true of just some lame excuse. Cody was a problem solver and would solve any complication. Why not this one?

"You wouldn't understand. She hates me. She has every right to."

"Are you sure of that?"

"Pretty positive. She doesn't want anything to do with me."

"So, are you just going to give up?"

"Like I want to...I love her, Zack. She is done with me though."

"Done with you or in love with you?"He then walks off and Cody is left there pondering his thoughts. Running every idea in his head. Thinking of the negatives and the positives. Maybe she did love him and maybe she didn't. He was not going to shove himself on her...even though he really wanted to, he just had to be patient. If she feels something, great and if she doesn't, well...that stinks. He will love her always though. For now...she can't know how he truly felt. Not yet. Loving her is something that will never change though. He needed her in his life and was not giving up on their love.