I opened my window and went out onto the balcony. Rain pelted my skin and the curtains whipped around me frantically.
I stretched my arms out as far as I could soaking in all of the feelings I could. I then slammed my hands down on the railing and leaned out as far as I possibly could and screamed with the moon drop.
I let out all my frustration about my event less, and pointless life. I screamed and screamed. It felt nice to be reckless for once. To risk something. It was a thrill I would do almost anything for.
I stopped screaming and let the rain fall on my face. The coldness of it was so crisp and clear. The wind blowing my hair around my face was cold and kept me alert. I loved it. I wished I could do this more often, but I had to wait till the wind or the moon drop would drowned out my voice.
I stood there for bit thinking. It was my 12th birthday and I just came back from Safu's place. She was really nice in fact I think she as my only friend that would like me no matter what.
The monitor on my wall started to beep, breaking me out of my thoughts, so I went to fix it. It wasn't too hard. I grew up using this technology, so it was second nature.
I turned around about to go back to my window, but saw that someone had beat me to it. A boy, who looked like a little helpless girl, was standing there, his arm was bleeding. I step forward ready to help him. Suddenly one of my lamps fell and one of his fore arm was at my throat, ready to choke me.
"Don't move" He glared at me. I couldn't do much of anything but stare back at him. I couldn't help but notice that his eyes were very bright silver.
I looked at his bleeding arm then back to him.
"I can help you. I know some stuff on treating wounds." I was calm. I wanted to help him. I wasn't lying, either, though I have never done any medical work, I just left of that what I did know was all theory.
He started to remove his arm from my neck. The monitor next to us beeped loudly and his was back on my throat harder than before.
"Shion. You need to close that window. You'll catch a cold" I looked at the boy in front of me. He arm set up so I could talk without sounding restricted.
"The window? Ok."I pressed a button on the monitor and the window shut. "Oh, yeah. Mom I have to work on an assignment for school so I'll be in my room to work on it." I talked normal, so she wouldn't think anything was up. I did this a lot anyway, working in my room.
When I finished talking the arm pressed back on me again. I couldn't help but notice that the arm, as well as its owner, was soaking wet, and trembling with cold.
She let me that it was okay and hung up. The arm on my throat fell to its owner's side as he let me go.
I quickly went and got my first aid kit. I took it to my desk and turned on my lamp.
The boy was still standing by the wall watching me suspiciously.
"Do you want my help or not?" with that he walked over and sat on the floor beside the desk. I turned the light so it shone down on his arm so I could see better, since I hadn't turned on the light in my room yet.
I carefully cut off his sleeve. I gave him a shot and he complained about it. I smiled. It was fun to torture him like this.
"You're weird." I looked up from the stitches I had been working on, confused. "Why do you say that?"
"You don't even know my name" He stated plainly. I thought about it and he was right. I didn't.
"Well I haven't told you mine" I said, why should he tell me his name if he didn't know mine. "It's Shion right? Like the flower" He said plainly. I smiled at him, as I finished bandaging his arm. "My mom really likes plants and wild flowers." I said hoping it would explain why I was named after a flower. "What's yours?"
"Rat" he stated curtly.
Images flashed before my eyes. My head felt like it was going to explode. I crumbled to the ground.
"Hey are you okay? Shion!" I heard Rat above me. I couldn't open my eyes or say anything to let him that I heard him.
Rat. Where have I heard that name before? The question circled around in my head not letting me think about anything else.
I finally managed to open my eyes but I was no longer in my room, I was in a forest.
I felt something in my arms and looked down to see a baby. "Aw. He looks like a cute little rat!" I felt as if someone else was controlling my body. I looked up a man and smiled brightly.
"Rats aren't cute" He said plainly. I gave him a very disapproving look.
"Well this one is." I said then looked up at a young girl. "I'll take care of him. Who wouldn't want to take care of a baby who doesn't have any family?" The girl smiled in relief, and nodded before running off to some people waiting in the distance.
"I will call him… Nezumi." I rocked the baby in my arms. His silver eyes looked up at me, scowling. It was too cute!
"You know that means rat, right?" I glanced up at the man that was still with me. He looked really familiar.
"I know. I said he looked like a cute rat. And Nezumi is Forest Folk for rat." He sighed.
"Well, I am just going to call him Rat."
The scene changed again. This time I was walking about the forest, and seemed to have gotten smaller than I had been in the first part. A crowd of people stared at me as I walked by while they were going about their business.
I could hear some whispering things. All of them were about the same. One stuck out among the rest because they said the name of 'her' the others were talking about.
"Elyurias has taking a liking to Shina."
Then a song popped into my head
"Kaze wa tamashii o sarai, hito wa kokoro o ubau daichi yo, amekaze yo, ten yo, hikari yo"
Then I heard someone calling me in a voice I didn't recognize. "SHINA! SHINA! SHINA!"
I slammed my eyes open. I glanced around without moving.
I was in my hospital room, safe.
I sat up slowly, trying to ignore the pounding in my head. I got out of bed and walked to the mirror afraid of what I would see.
Before I looked in I closed my eyes. I turned my head so I would be able to see my reflection when I opened them.
I peeked through, and let out the breathe I had been holding. I was me, Shina. Or was I Shion? Or both? I still wasn't completely sure but either way I was still me.
I glanced out the window at the broken down wall.
I thought about the part of the dream where I was in the forest tribe. I don't remember that stuff in the in Shion's memories, but I wasn't sure if they had been completely mine either.
I got back in my bed with an even worst headache than I had when I got up. I laid I laid an arm over my eyes, and Sank into deep thought.
Which parts of the dream was real? Was Shion really real or just a vivid dream based on conversation I had picked up on in coma?
I closed my eyes and went back to sleep with these thought still swirling around in my head. Thankfully this time it was dreamless.