Chapter 2

"What do you mean I'm not going?"

"I mean you're not going."

I grabbed Clarke's arm, making her turn around to face me. She wasn't letting me come with her to rescue Jasper from what ever is out there.

Clarke placed her hand on my outstreched arm and gave it a gentle squeeze. "Listen, you're a good hacker, you can help Monty contact the ark. And Octavia's leg needs to be taken care of and I trust you have even a slightest clue on how to do that."

I let out a breath and swallowed. I really didn't want to stay behind. People were acting like animals, we had absolutely no rules and I didn't feel safe here.

"Bring him back," I whispered, feeling tears swelling up in my eyes at the thought of Jasper dying.

Clarke nodded. "We''l bring him back. Alive."

With that she left to find Bellamy Blake, the bastard who decided that we were now allowed to do whatever the hell we want, with no rules and no structure.

I made my way to the dropship, where Monty was already playing with somebody's wristband.

"Hi," I said, trying to sayd cheerier than I felt.

"Hi," he nodded and walked up to me, leaving the wristband behind. "How are you doing?"

I shrugged. "Okay I guess, well as okay as I can at the moment."

Octavia soon came to join us in the dropship.

"So I guess you're not part of the rescue party either then. Good news is that Clarke took brother dearest and his little side-kick Murphy with them," she said and sat down on the ground next to me

Well at least Murphy was gone. What I had understood from him was his serious anger management problems and that he was extremely violent. I didn't want to be anywhere near somebody like that. Knowing that he was gone for at least a while made me breath out in relief; the camp was at least a little safer now.

I spent the day doing absolutely nothing. I was no help to Monty, Octavia's leg didn't need any care at all and when I asked if I could help with the wall, I was apparently too fragile and pretty to ruin myself with man's work.

"Go over there and look pretty like you do," Miller said pointed over where Octavia was sitting. "Somebody will come if they need you with anything."

I crossed my arms over my chest and narrowed my eyes as he smirked continued with the wall. I huffed and sat next to Octavia.

"Dickheads," I muttered, making her chuckle.

"Tell me about it. It's really just boring to sit around here all day doing nothing," she said and threw a small branch in the fire next to her. "I'd much rather be looking for Jasper."

"They have to find him," I said quietly, biting my lip and looking at Octavia who nodded, a serious look on her face.

"They will."

It felt like forever before the night kicked in. I had been laying on the ground for what, two hours, and I was more than ready to die.

I figured that something was going on between Octavia and that one guy, so i didn't dare to go ruin their moment. Instead, I sat alone by the fire, and heard somebody shout:

"They're back!"

Octavia and I were the first to stand up and run to the one, two, three, four, five, six persons entering the camp. One of them was carried by two, and I almost started crying when I realized it was Jasper. I was quick to join them into the dropship they were taking him.

"Is he alive?" I asked breathing heavily.

Clarke nodded. "Yes, but not for long if we don't help him."

Bellamy and Murphy set down an orange blanket, and I noticed a dead animal inside, making me look away disgusted. It wasn't because I didn't like meat, but because of the sight.

"Who's hungry?" Bellamy asked, making the growd cheer and Clarke gave him a disapproving look, before dragging me to the dropship.

Clarke cleansed Jasper's wounds, with me, Finn and Monty watching patiently by her side. She must have gotten tired of our curious stares as she told us to go and get some food. Monty stayed with Clarke as Finn and I walked out of the dropship.

"You know if you're hungry, I can give you food if you give me your wristbands," Bellamy Blake came behind us, motioning to the metal bracelets on our wrists. I stared at for a second, maybe even considering taking it of, before rolling my eyes.

"That's a stupid rule," I said. "I'd rather starve."

"You know, you could always give me somthing else in return for food," Bellamy said taking a step towards me, making me back up a little bit.

"What's that supposed to mean?" I asked, confused as Finn pulled me closer to him and pushed Bellamy back a bit.

"As she already said, she'd rather starve," he said, obviously understanding something that I didn't.

Bellamy smirked and looked at me up and down, making me grow uncomfortable. "I think we should let her decide."

"Finn what is he talking about?" I asked from Finn, taking a hold of his arm.

Finn looked down at me and let a wide smile appear on his features. Even Bellamy laughed, as if they couldn't believe I was being serious right now.

"You're just too innocent to be here," Finn said wrapping his arm around my shoulders. "Don't let anybody ever ruin that. Stay that way, please Max, stay like this."

"I could easily ruin your innocence dollface," Bellamy smirked.

"I'm sorry, but I'm kinda lost."

Then Bellamy bursted out laughing as if it was the funniest thing he had ever heard. Even Finn couldn't contain his chuckles as I looked between the two of them, more confused than ever. I hit Finn on the arm.

"Seriously, I don't understand," I whined like a little child.

"What he means that he wants to have sex with you," Finn said bluntly, making my face grow pale. I looked at Bellamy, who was already looking at me as if waiting for the answer. I quickly shook my head as a no, swallowing a little.

"I figured that you would have understood at least something Maxie, considering how touchy feely Jasper was being with you," Finn shook his head.

"Jasper?" I asked confused, how he had anything to do with this. Then the realisation hit me. The hand holding. Carrying me around. The small kisses. The looks he gave me. He couldn't have meant…

No. Jasper was my best friend. Finn was wrong.

"Yeah, I think he was after pretty much the same thing as Blake here now," Finn said and I shook my head.

"So what's it gonna be dollface?" Bellamy asked, taking few steps closer to me, making me back up a bit again. "Are you ready for the best night of your entire existence or should we leave it up for later?"

"You're repelling," I stated quickly, before running back to the dropship.

Xxx

I stayed in the dropship for the entire night. Jasper was groaning and moaning the entire time, preventing me from getting any sleep, but at least he was alive. That was the most important part.

Clarke did all she could to take care of him, but it was rather obvious that she didn't know how. I didn't blame her though – this was new to all of us.

"Max, you should go," Clarke said to me at some point in the morning.

"What, no," I protested, not wanting to leave Jasper.

"Go outside, get some fresh air, do something," Clarke offered. "You look so tired and sad when you watch him, it makes me feel worse than I already do."

I left the dropship reluctantly. Sure I wasn't any help there, but at least I knew wether or not Jasper was alive. That and I didn't want to leave him.

"Hey dollface!" I heard somebody yell behind me. I turned around to see Bellamy walking towards me with a smug smile on his face. "If you're bored you can come hunting with us," he offered.

I scoffed. "Yeah no thanks."

"The offer from last night still stands you know. You can have all of this," he said motioning to himself. "and all you need to do is ask."

"I think I'll pass," i said and turned around to walk away from him, only for him to take a hold of my arm.

"No, but sriously you should come hunting with us. It would be great for you to learn how to do it and it would take your mind off of your dying friend over there," he said gesturing to the dropship where Jasper was still moaning in agony.

"He's not dying," I whispered, trying to convince myself rather than Bellamy.

Suddenly Jasper let out a loud yell, sounding like he was actually dying. I quickly ran back to the dropship, followed by Octavia and Bellamy.

"Hold him still, I need to cut away the infected flesh," Clarke said to Finn, Wells and Monty who were all trying to hold Jasper down as he yelled.

"Stop it you're killing him!" Octavia protested kneeling next to Jasper.

"She's trying to save his life," Finn said.

"She can't," Bellamy stated simply, making anger rise within me.

"Shut up," I said to him, making him smirk a little bit.

"Why don't you make me dollface," he whispered in my ear, making me swat him way and returning where jasper was kneeling next to him and taking a hold of his hand. I tried to whisper some soothing and encouraging words, knowing that he didn't hear or didn't listen to them anyway.

It did came as a shocker though when he squeezed my hand back a little bit.

"We didn't drag him back miles just to let him die," Clarke stated.

"The kid's a goner," Bellamy said. "If you can't see that you're deluded. He's making people crazy."

"Sorry if Jasper's an inconvinence to you, but this isn't the ark. Down here every life matters," Clarke argued, making Bellamy roll his eyes at her.

I bit my lip in anger. I was offically starting to hate the guy.

"Take a look at him. He's a lost cause," Bellamy said, making all of us quiet and stare at Jasper's pale, barely living form. He had stopped the moaning and groaning for now, but I wasn't sure if that was a good sign or not.

"Max, I've spent my entire life watching my mother heal people," Clarke said to me as she noticed the look of despair on my face. "If I say there's hope, there's hope."

"This isn't about hope!" Bellamy argued, obviously not willing to let the subjekt go before he had won. "It's about guts. You don't have the guts to make the hard choises. I do."

"Yeah, and it's so hard choise to you to kill him, isn't it," I said, standing up from my spot on the ground looking at Bellamy with murderous eyes.

"If he's not better by tomorrow, I'll kill him myself," Bellamy stated and made his way out of the dropship and I followed him quickly.

"You're not touching a single hair on his head, do you hear me Bellamy Blake!"

Bellamy laughed and turned around to face me, a mocking smile on his face. My hands were balled in fists and I was probably boiling with anger. How dare this smug little piece of shit even consider that I would let him lay a hand on Jasper.

Bellamy obviously didn't take my anger seriously. Instead he took a couple steps closer to, in fact so close that I could feel his breath on my face as he looked down at me.

"So how about that hunting trip?" he asked. I shook my head and swallowed.

"You're unbelievable," I said with a slow exhale and got ready to go back to Jasper. Bellamy's arm grabbed my upper arm, pulling me away from the ladder.

"In a good way or a bad way?"

I ripped my hand out of his grasp. "What do you think."

xxx

Clarke, Finn and Wells left to get something that they thought would save Jasper's life. Again, I would have wanted to come with them, but Clarke thought that I had to be there to make sure Jasper was okay. I agreed to saty, knowing that I wouldn't be much help anyway.

Monty and Octavia stayed with me in the dropship. Bellamy had left ages ago to his hunting trip, luckily letting me stay here. I really didn't feel like spending any more time with him that I had to.

Jasper kept moaning all night. I could faintly hear people complaining downstairs, but there was only so much we could do about it.

"Murphy's gonna kill Jasper!" Monty came up the latter to me and Octavia.

Octavia and I came to help Monty close the trapdoor as Murphy was already trying to get inside. Octavia kicked him in his stomach, making Murphy fall back and allowing us to close the door properly.

"Let me in!"

Murphy tried to kick the door as we attempted to keep it closed. Monty and I sat on top of the door as Octavia tried to take off a pipe from the wall.

"No rush, we're fine here!" Monty said as Murphy kept kicking the door, making us bounce on top of it.

"I got it!" Octavia came with the pipe, sealing the door shut. Murphy kept demanding us to let him in, as we took deep breaths.

"Asshole," I muttered and made my way back to Jasper, who much quieter now.