Alright I know for those of you who alerted this story I am a bad author because I left the story hanging like I did. Well the chapter may not be as good as the first because when I wrote that one my emotions were through the roof and I was feeling a lot of what was at the beginning of the chapter. Well now my guy has gone off to the navy for boot camp but this is NOT like the story. Lol. He is getting out in a month and I can't wait to see him :D well on with the chapter.

BPOV

I had finally gotten Sarah to lie down and take her nap. The quiet was so nice and I knew she would be up in no time so I had to do some things real quick. I looked down at her in her crib one more time before I picked up the baby monitor and headed outside. I ran down the long driveway to the mailbox. I pulled out a large stack of envelopes and started back towards the house. As I was walking I started to look through the stack, "Bill, bill, credit card offer, bill, junk mail, junk mail, credit card offer, letter from Major Black, bill." I felt my eyes go wide as I went back to the letter. I felt all the other pieces of mail slide from my hand except for the letter. I couldn't move, I couldn't think. I just stood there looking at the envelope.

A few minutes passed before the sound of Sarah crying woke me from my daze. I picked up the rest of the mail and ran into the house. She was hungry so I fed Sarah, burped her and got her back down for the rest of her nap. Once I knew she was out I went out to the living room and picked up the letter. My hands were shaking as I opened the letter, being extra careful not to rip the return address.

I pulled out the sheets of paper. They were relativity small and compared to Jake's large print there really wasn't much written. I went back to the first page and started from the beginning, "Dear Bella, I finally got your letter. How could you not have told me you were pregnant? I mean I know I was a complete asshole for what I said but you could have come before I left and told me I was going to be a father. Also I am a little hurt that you waited this long to tell me. I mean she is four months old and almost a year that you were pregnant. I feel like such a dick that I wasn't there for you or Sarah. Also I love her name. The name is as beautiful as the girl and her mother. I'm still just really lost for words at what to say. I do know that I want to apologize for what I said that day. I was really mad and I should have gone to say goodbye and maybe see what was wrong or to ask you to take me back. I have never stopped loving you Bells."

I looked up from the letter because I couldn't see the paper anymore. Just reading the name he used to call me made my heart hurt. When he left I had a piece of him growing inside me but he never realized that he took part of my heart with him. Sometimes the pain from the missing piece is unbearable. When that happens I have to go hold Sarah so I don't feel like I'm being ripped apart. Sarah was finally down so I would have to deal with the pain.

I picked the letter up and continued to read, "I have never stopped loving you Bells. I have always dreamed that we would have a kid together but this isn't how I saw it. I mean you had such big dreams and I don't know how you could achieve them while taking care of a baby. I just can't see the reasoning of why you didn't tell me. Well now that I know about Sarah I want to help as much as I can, any way I can. If you want child support I will send it straight to you right now just tell me how much. Tell me what to do Bella. Please write me back. Jake."

Oh he was always a sweet man. His sweetness is one of the big things that attracted me to him. When we were in high school everyone couldn't believe I was going out with the guy that looked like if you talked to him wrong he would bash your skull in with a wrench. After we started dating he let down his guard even in school and started to show his true side. I had seen that below that tough exterior was a loving man. When he left it was so hard.

I got up from the couch and went over to the desk in the corner and pulled out a piece of paper. I sat down and started a letter back to Jake.

JPOV

"MAIL CALL! Clearwater! Ateara! Call! Uley! Black!" the Sargent screamed.

One by one we all went up and got the letter that was being handed to us. Everyone that got a letter went to their bunks and ripped into the letters and began to read. I slowly walked to mine once I saw it was from Bella. I was so afraid that she would tell me that she wanted nothing else to do with me and that I wouldn't see my little girl. I opened the letter, "Dear Jake, I didn't tell you about me being pregnant because I knew that if you got me pregnant you wouldn't be able to go into the army for a couple more years. I knew you were looking forward to it. My plan was to wait till after you got out of boot camp to tell you but then it went wrong when I couldn't go to your house. After that I was sure that you didn't want anything to do with me and if that was true I didn't want us to be together because of a baby. I was still going to tell you once you got back from boot camp but by then my dad had found out that I was pregnant and kicked me out. I had no place to go. I was staying with six different friends for just a few days at a time. After a while I was able to get in touch with one of my grandmothers. She took care of me for about a month and then she died. She left me her house and all of her money. I was able to take care of myself and Sarah. She was actually quite rich and we have been doing fine. I hire a baby sitter for the mornings because I work. It's not much of a job, I just wait tables at a local diner. It doesn't bring in much but its enough to make sure the funds don't get low. So money is not an issue so you can save your money. Thank you though. We are fine where we are so do what you think is best. Bella. P.s. I never stopped loving you either."

My heart flew out of my chest and did a happy dance when I read the part about how she still loved me. I had spent so many nights trying to forget about Bella but I just couldn't. She was the only one that I ever looked at and to be honest she was the last person I slept with. She was the only one that ever held my heart and I was so heart broken when she didn't come to me, but now I see the truth. She stayed away because she wanted me to be able to go into the army like I wanted. She gave up her dreams for me and for our daughter.

"BLACK!" a voice screamed at me.

I stood up and said, "Yes sir?"

"You have another letter." The Sargent handed me another form and walked away.

I opened the letter and my heart sank. It was an order to deploy to Iraq. This is my life. I finally find out that the woman I thought left me a year ago because she didn't love me actually does love me. Also that we have a beautiful baby girl. The war was supposed to be over and they were supposed to be taking soldiers out. Now here I sit with an order telling me to leave all this behind and go to where I was needed. It's too bad that place isn't with my little Sarah. I looked at the ship out date; it was in two days. I had to write to Bella one more time before I left because god only knows when I can write to her. There was also the chance that I may not come back. I tuned everything else out and sat down for one last letter to Bella before I had to leave.

Well there we go. There is chapter 2 and I hoped you like it and stay tuned in for chapter 3. :D let me know what you thought. Love you guys.

-Kittylover93