All my nightmares escaped my head,
Bar the door, please don't let them in
You were never supposed to leave,
Now my head's splitting at the seams-Radical Face, Welcome home
In the time it took me to get over my feeling of hatred for myself, it was already way past 9. I regretted the way I left off with Hermione and Ginny and decided to send an owl and apologize. What would I say though as I grabbed my quill and a fresh sheet of parchment, 'sorry that I haven't gotten over Fred and I am a mess?' No, that wouldn't be very much of an apology. Part of me knew though, that they already had that figured out so it wouldn't do much good. So I decided to go another route and send a letter to George. But, what would i say? Deciding to just say whatever I thought of first I began to write.
"Dear George, I'm sorry I haven't gotten back to you. Things have been busy. I started writing again among other things. I was thinking of stopping by for a visit. Please send me back an answer as soon as you can.
lots of love,Vera"
I surveyed the letter one last time before attaching it to my barn owl Esma.
"Take this to George okay?"She hoots, which lets me know she understands and I watch her fly away. I wish I could join her.
February 1997
"Stop it Fred," I laughed. He takes my hand and spins me around into his arms and whispers into my ear.
"Oh c'mon love, aren't you having fun?"
I break away from his grip laughing as I run from him and he chases visited me from work and we spent the whole of the afternoon outside at the great lake. The sun was just setting, making Fred's hair glow. He catches up to me and I am too slow to escape from his grip. We fall over and I land on top of him as we burst into laughter. He looks at me with those eyes that I love so much and tucks my hair behind my ear.
"Why do you have to do that?" I demand
"Do what?" he asks
"Be so damn perfect." He frowns at me
"I could ask you the same question. But, I am not perfect dear, I am way better. Haven't you noticed my witty personality and outstanding good looks?"
I hit him playfully,"Oh shut up." He kisses me. i feel that warm tingle.
"I love you ya know," he says seriously, making me overwhelmed with joy.
"This is the part where I say I love you too right?"
He nods," Yea, that would be nice."
"Ok then, I love you too," I get off him and he helps me up off the ground as we walk back towards the castle. I look up at the massive stature above me. I loved Hogwarts, almost as much as Harry did and I knew I wouldn't be coming back next year. But Fed didn't know that I had volunteered to help Harry on his hunt for the Horcruxes. He didn't even know about any of that and it killed me. I was lying to him wasn't I?
"Vera?"I looked forward to see Fred waving his hand in front of my face.
"Oh, sorry"
"Are you alright?" I think about the sacrifice I am going to make and the thought of leaving Fred behind and it hurts, but I put on a smile. I have a little while left with him.
"Im fine," I say and he escorts me back into the Great Hall before leaving. I watch him depart after a long kiss good-bye, hoping he gets back safely to George. I turn back inside after he completely disappears from view, and head back to the common room. Yes, I had a little while longer with him. For now, that would do.
May 1998
"No not Fred!" someone yelled.
I break through the crowd. George is waiting for me.
"George what is it? whats going on?" I panic
George grabs me and holds me tightly, "Its Fred Vera, don't look."
My heart is pounding, I can't breathe… …
I wake up in a cold sweat, not even remembering that I had gone to bed. I look at the clock: 3:30 am. I groan and roll over on my side. Sleep was becoming intolerable. How much longer would this go on? Just then my eyes darted towards the window and in the distance I saw a shadow of a bird coming closer. I knew it must be Esma so I ran to the window and opened it. A few seconds later she glided like a ghost into the room and landed on my shoulder.
"Thanks Esma," I said as I remove the paper from her beak. She hoots happily and flew over to her cage to drink some water. i remove my wand from my pocket and mutter, "Lumos." and move my wand over George's reply.
"Vera, It is so great to hear from you. It would be great if you could come by and see me. Angelina will be at work and is sorry she won't be able to. How about you come over tomorrow at around 3? Look forward to seeing you."
Lots of love back,Georgie"
"Nox."
My wand light extinguished and I fold the note up and placed both on my nightstand before getting back into bed. As I laid there I wondered what would happen when I did see George. I then closed my eyes and saw Fred's face before I finally succumb to sleep.