Chapter 2

I will let him sleep

Kanan's pov

Ezra cried out again and so when I tried to touch him he force pushed me into the wall. Karabast the kid was strong when he wanted to be, but as I got up I saw the look on Ezra's face...his blue eyes were wide open and his mouth...he was silently screaming. I couldn't take it anymore I needed to do something, I signal to Zeb not to touch him as I try and take him up in my arms only to have him struggle.

"Kanan do you need some help with the kid?" asked Zeb still wanting to do something,anything to help Ezra out.

I could see that the big lasat was uncomfortable with what was happening, but then again either was I. I could guess by what I had heard and the way that Ezra was acting even in his sleep that something really bad had happened to Ezra in his past. I hoped I was wrong,but then again I was usually right about things like this and I wish I wasn't.

"No I got it, thanks big guy" I replied.

So to stop my padawan's struggles I pinned him beneath me, his arms above his head held in one of my hands and the other hand on his face, my legs were around his waist stopping him from kicking me. Ezra sobbed and cried, even tried to bite me at one point, but I had him. He would listen to me, as his master he had to and so I bring him round with a touch of my own force signature on his mind. The boy struggles stop and his breathing evens out,then he shivers and wakes up. Ezra looks up at me and blushes, I mean I had him pinned on the floor in a very compromising position, but we were not like that, I would never take advantage of my padawan like that. I feel a soft brush of Ezra's mind on my own as he then realized that I had found him in the middle of a nightmare. I saw his eyes dart around the room and land on Zeb as the lasat opened the door and left us alone.

"K...Kanan I...I.."

"Shhhh It's okay Ezra. Nightmare's do happen to the best of us, even I have been known to have them, but you cannot let them control your life" I said letting him up now that he was in control of what was happening around him.

Ezra looked pale with dark circles under his eyes, obviously the kid had been having the same nightmare for a while now, and it was really now starting to effect how his behavior was to what we were doing, I had to get him see it... he had to move past this, but how. The only way I knew how was to get him to talk about it and to get Ezra to talk about his past was harder than Hera letting anyone else fly the ghost.

"Kanan I...I don't want to talk about my past...I...I...I just can't" Ezra stuttered out his eyes looking everywhere but my face, and I could see why, he didn't want me to see his tears. I didn't blame him for that, I know that I have shed tears in my time too, there was nothing wrong with crying, it was the minds way of letting go of the pain.

I sighed and smiled a little, our bond was becoming so strong now that he could read what I was thinking without me thinking about to hard about it, just like the bond I use to have with my master. I could use this I thought once I blocked Ezra out a little, I didn't want to block him too much he had to trust me and Ezra really was only now starting to trust me with things that he wanted to keep secret. Besides I think it's time I show him something of my past, maybe it will get him to open up about his own.

But that might have to wait as I catch the kid's eyes sliding shut, Ezra was so sleepy now, that I didn't think he would take anything in right now. Even that little burst of energy when he fought me drained him, his whole form was drooping, he just had nothing left. His body then starts to go tense and tears start to fall again.

"Ezra" I shake him a little and once he woke up again(his nightmare had almost had him again,he couldn't sleep alone, not right now), "for tonight I will leave this alone but we will talk about it" Ezra nodded and almost smacked his head on his knees, I sigh and continue "Ezra if you want and so a certain lasan can get some sleep himself, you can stay in my room".

Ezra's eyes brighten and I could see him really thinking it over before he said "can I master? please I know this will take away my nightmare at least while I am with you".

I could feel his energy coming back a little, then I realized what he just said,in his street-rat way of speaking he said he felt safe with me. That made me feel something and at the moment I wasn't sure what it was but I did like the feeling, this is a feeling that I would protect and I would protect the one who caused the feeling even from himself.

"Well I wouldn't have offered if I didn't want you in there" I replied, half carrying the sleep deprived padawan into my room and placing him on the top bunk.

It wouldn't be the first time he has stayed with me,and I knew it wouldn't be the last, but right now he needed me and I had to help, after all I am his master,and it's a master's job to help when your padawan needs you whether it was as simple as a nightmare or fighting someone like the inquisitor.

"Master thank you"he said before falling asleep.

I stay awake long enough to see whether the nightmare would come back but after a while it looked like they wouldn't so it was safe for me to go to sleep as well. Only to wake in the morning to the sight of Hera smiling at me. Her face was all lit up like she had made some kind of pilot move that we had no hope of understanding, but then sometimes I never understand her.

I was about to ask her what she was smiling about when she pointed to my chest and I look down to see Ezra curled into me. His head on my chest was turned to the side so that his ear was over the place where my heart was beating. I settle myself down again, I would let the kid get as much sleep as he could,but it did make my own force signature sing as I realized Ezra's nightmare must have come back a little so to escape he came to me and that felt nice. Ezra trust me so much that instead of hiding, he comes to a person that makes him feel safe.

"I will let him sleep, he needs it" I said to Hera as she got up and left us alone.

I wrapped my arms around the kid I was starting to think of as my family. It had only been a short time, a few months since the events on that asteroid sent fear into my heart. Before that Ezra and I had a kind of normal master/padawan relationship, but when I saw him faint from calling that creature, I realized that someday I might lose him...to the dark side or something else I wasn't sure but I knew I wouldn't survive it if he didn't because from that moment Ezra meant more to me than just a member of my crew or my padawan. He was blood and he was mine and nobody was going to take him from me, not the empire,or the Inquisitor, nor the dark side. Ezra was my family and he would become a great Jedi one day, I just know it.

Looking down at this young child, oh how he reminded me of myself at this age but parts of Ezra were also like me at my current age, reminding that he had to grow up too fast. Ezra was closed off around people, now that I really thought about it I was probably the closest person to him on the ship, and I think to get him to tell me about these dreams I would have to make that connection closer and at the moment I didn't have a strong plan on how to do this. But for now I will let him sleep.

An: so how do you think Kanan will make Ezra talk?

may the 4th be with you