Chapter 2 - Not Coping Well
Hey guys, I want to get as many chapters written as possible before the school years kicks off again so if you could leave some ideas for me I would really appreciate them
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It took a while before I said anything to Mum. I just had no words.
Those 3 words kept replaying in my head
I Have Cancer.
Its all I hear over and over.
Mum explained the type of cancer she has.
left-atrial leiomyosarcoma
after that it was nothing but silence for about half an hour
'I know it's a lot to take in, I have treatment booked and I will fight this, I promise. But nobody at the hospital knows okay, well except Ethan he figured it out.' Mum says breaking the silence
'Ethan knew before me? Why?' I'm distraught Ethan knew before I did, I mean I am her daughter and it sounds like she's known for a while.
'I asked him to look at some scans I had done, I told them they were from a patient I was helping with on Darwin.' She replies
'But why Ethan? Why not Charlie? Or Duffy? Or even Dylan? Infact screw that I should've known first okay I AM your daughter. I AM still here for you!' I'm not that mad but I am upset she told Ethan before me
'I'm sorry I shouldn't get mad I'm just upset. I can't lose you especially after having Grace leave so suddenly' I say
'I know, I know' Mum says as she gives me a hug
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A while after I decided to go to my room to try and sleep. If its even possible after that.
I put my pyjamas on and put my phone on charge before I lay down and close my eyes.
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3.47 AM is the time the clock read when I woke up. just 4 hours of sleep is all I can manage. I try to get my self back off to sleep but nothing is working so I head for the shower and start to get ready for the day. I may as well do something productive if i'm awake at this time.
Once I get out of the shower it's around 4:15 so I head down stairs and go straight to the coffee machine. Usually I wouldn't drink coffee in the morning but if I've barely had sleep I need my energy to be up, especially since I have school today.
I drink my coffee and head back upstairs to my room where the clock is reading 4:45 so I decide to go on my phone for a little bit and try and take my mind of the thoughts currently taking over my head.
Once the time on my phone reads 6:30 I head downstairs and make my self some breakfast.
Once I reach the kitchen I switch the light on and i'm shocked to see my mom sitting their drinking a coffee.
'Your awake?' I question
'Yeah I have to be at work at 8' She replies
'But should you be going in?' I reply back
'I've not had chemo yet darling so the chances of infection are still pretty low.' She replies. sometimes I forget she's a doctor
'Yeah but you know shouldn't you be staying at home to rest or something? Surely you shouldn't be allowed at work I mean look at your arm can you even use it properly?' I question back. I'm in dangerous territory.
'It's okay Riley. Plus i'm only on admin today so I wouldn't be treating patients. I only have one meeting too so I should be home before you. That is if your going to school today.' She says back. I know it's not the best idea but I think I should go.
'I thought I would go. Take my mind of it. I know I can't tell anyone really about whats happening but being at school might help in some weird way.' I say back
'I'm just gonna make some toast. Do you want some?' I ask
'No I-'
'Mum you know you should eat something' I say cutting her off
She doesn't put up a fight so I make some extra toast and give it to Mum as I head upstairs to finish getting ready for school.
I apply some mascara and lip gloss before putting on my uniform and tying my hair up into a messy ponytail.
Once I'm finished getting ready I grab my Phone, my bag and coat before running down the stairs
I notice Mum in the living room grabbing her stuff together.
'Want a lift?' She asks
'No I think I'll walk I reply as I grab my earphones and head out the door.
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Its 11:30
My mind keeps replaying the same 3 words and I can't seem to get them out my head. I'm distant from my friends and I can't concentrate on my work.
I decide to text Mum and see if she can get me out of here. I need to be with her. School, the words they are just too much.
(ON THE PHONE)
R- can't concentrate. Keep thinking about you know. Any chance you can come get me? xx
C- Ill push this meeting back and I'll be there soon. You really should've just stayed home today darling. xx
R- I know I just thought it would help but I guess I was wrong and you were right xx
She doesn't reply back so I guess she was phoning Hansen and leaving to come get me
10 minutes later and my teacher tells me he had an email and I have to head to reception and take all my stuff, I realise it must me MUm so I grab my stuff and head out the class room.
Once I reach the office I sign out there and leave with Mum leaning my head on her shoulder as we walk. Once we get to the car I start crying realising this is all seriously too much.
'Honey I know its tough but my doctor at the hospital is great. He told me that he could even get Jac Naylor to operate on me to get the tumour out. I promise that this isn't going to affect me too much I'll be right as rain soon I promise.' Mou says
'When does chemo start?' I ask
'Soon darling, soon' Was all she said before starting up the car and beginning to drive.
'What did you tell them to get me out of there?' I say
'Well I told them there was a family emergency and your cousin has been admitted to hospital and it's urgent you get there. They didn't say anything just started typing an email to your teacher.' Mum says
'You didn't tell them about you?' I ask
'No... I don't want to tell anyone yet.' She replies
'But wouldn't it help you if people find out. Especially if the doctor is recommending Jac as your surgeon?' I reply back
'I know but it will take time darling' She says
'But it would be nice if someone knew. So I had someone to talk to if things were to go wrong.' I say. maybe pushing it too far. Mum doesn't reply and before I know it we are at the hospital.
I grab my bag out of the boot and head for Mum's office. She doesn't follow so I just assume that she has to go to a meeting. I pull out my laptop from my bag and sit at mom's desk and switch it on. I send school an email asking for some work as 'My cousin really isn't well' and 'It isn't looking good' I really want to tell them the truth but Mum would be Livid.
they reply back with a 'yes' and before I know it all my teachers are sending me work like i'm going to be gone for the year.
This is going to be tough working around mocks and my actual GCSEs, but I am going to make it work and I am going to make Mum proud.
Then it hits me.
This could be the last thing I could ever do to make Mum proud...
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This chapter seems like a drag. But im still trying to figure out where I want this story to go
Send me a PM if you want me to bring Grace and Sam into this story and also if I should bring Zoe in early too bring more character in because I've only written 4 characters in so far