Emotionless
Disclaimer ~ I don't own anything that is from the lord of the rings books everything else is mine.
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Chapter 1 ~ Waking up.
"Ariana wake up!" my mother called. "Breakfast will be on the table in 3 minutes."
I slowly got out of my bed not wanting, to go to school where everyone was just so "the world is prefect."
"Ariana are you getting up if you're not down here in 1 minute you will not be eating anything at all!"
"Mother," I said under my breath.
"I'm here."
"Good now eat that up before it gets cold. And honey why can't you ever smile like you use to when you were a little girl. You were always so happy. And so clean, and prissy."
I just looked up at my mom not saying a thing. She'd never get over the fact that I'd changed.
"Well here's your lunch I packed you."
I went back up stairs after eating my breakfast then quickly finished getting ready, before heading out to my car to go to school.
My classes seemed like they couldn't have gone any slower especially math, I was actually very good at math, but the teacher had to be about 100 years old. To make it worse she would read strait from the book, making it very difficult for anyone to pay attention let alone stay awake. Everyday it was the same she'd show you a problem and then say something alone the lines of. "Well you take this number here and push this on your calculator, then you get this and then you do this and this and then you type in this and then you get this." Her motto was "Take it, do it."
"For homework today do pages 178 to page 181 all the even problems, due tomorrow."
"Mrs. Lester, you do realize that we have football practice tonight and then later there's a party, and there's no way in hell that I'm going to get done with this assignment." Spoke up Matt Miller.
"Miller I suggest that you do the assignment or you will get a zero."
"And when am I suppose to find time to do this?"
"Maybe if you'd shut your mouth for 5 minutes you'd be able to get it done." I muttered to myself.
"What'd did you say uh.?" Matt snapped at me.
"My name's Ariana, and I said maybe if you'd shut up for 5 minutes you'd be able to get done with the assignment."
"Ariana since when were you in this class?"
"I've been it the whole year, you're just to caught up in you're damned football world to realize what's happening past your big head."
"Ariana, Matt that's enough! Both of you can see me after class."
"Now look what you did Ariana."
I just ignored him and turned to my trigonometry. Twenty minutes later the bell finally rung. I gathered my stuff and walked up to Mrs. Lester's desk, waiting for Matt to hurry up his arse up with his girl friend, so that we could get done with whatever Mrs. Lester wanted us to get done with, so that I could go to lunch.
When Matt finally decided to come up, Mrs. Lester decided to bless us with a detention and then decided to double our assignment.
"Ariana have you ever smiled?"
"Why does that matter?"
"You're creepy."
"Are you afraid of me?"
"No."
"Do you actually mean that, or are you just saying that because you don't want you're ego to be punctured. Matt I really don't time to waste with you is stupid questions, so if you will, move I'd greatly appreciate it."
Matt moved aside allowing me to walk past the doors of the classroom. I walked over to the crowded cafeteria. Finding my regular seat I sat down and began eating my lunch, which was the regular rabbit food, as my father called it.
"Hey Ariana!"
I turned around shocked to find that someone decided to talk to me face to face by choice, but it was only Matt. I just ignored him and continued on to throw my lunch away.
"Ariana! Stop!" Matt semi-yelled, grabbing on to my arm.
"Let go of my arm now." I deadly replied.
"No, I want to talk to you."
"I don't want to talk to you."
"Why do you have to be so cold?"
"I'm not cold, you're just how do I put it, you only see the silver lining. And I don't live that way. Now let go of my arm."
Matt still didn't let go of my arm.
"A lot of girls would die to be in your position."
"Well I'm not them, I wouldn't care if you were the most wealthiest, most famous, person in the world, it means nothing to me."
"I just don't get how a person could be so distant and cold, and e-"
"Emotionless?"
"How'd you know I was going to say that?"
"I'm not deaf, I do hear what people say about me. Look you stay in your world and I'll stay in mine. Do you understand?"
"Once you see past you're eye's you're actually pretty."
"Save it for someone else, who'd actually care." I said taking my arm away from his grip, and then walking away.
The rest of the school day for me pasted for me like any other day the regular lectures Then there are the lectures on how important it is that we do well in school, because college's start looking at our recorded. And that we have to get A's if we want to get somewhere in our life.
At last the school bell rang, the weekend had finally come. I drove back to my house, and waited in the regular traffic jam.
When the traffic decided to move so I could get off the main road, I drove the rest of the way to my home at 3441 Dodge Ave.
"Ariana is that you?" my mother called. "Yes." "Good, go get on some different clothes I set up an appointment for you at 4:30 at Sally's to get your hair done for tonight." "What's going on tonight that you felt that you needed to set up an appointment for me?" "Your father has a very important dinner and all the other people are bringing their families so you are going to come too. I expect that when you're there that you will have the decency to act normal. You will dance with whom I tell you to dance with too. You'll also where this dress."
"Normal, she doesn't even know what normal is. I'm certainly not going to dance with anyone she tells me to. Mom what were you thinking when you picked out this dress for me?"
"Well go try on that lovely dress I bought for you."
I went up stairs to my room, wishing that my mom wouldn't make me where this dress, It wasn't just the fact that it was ugly, well at least in my opinion, but it'd show my scars, bourses, that I had gotten while my father was beating me.
I put on the dress to my dislike and searched hard in my closet for a jacket or cover up of some sort that I could wear when I went to the party. When I finally found a white jacket that'd work I put it on before going down stairs to show my mom.
Of course being that my mom picked out the dress, she liked it on me, heck I could be triple the size I am now and she'd still like the dress on me, just because she picked it out.
"Ariana take off that silly jacket."
"But it's going to be cold." I quickly said.
"No it's not, it's going to be rather hot, now take off that jacket. "
I took of the jacket, revealing my marked body; I stared down my mother not letting her see anything.
"Turn around.Good. It'll have to do, go back upstairs and make sure that you'll be ready for your appointment."
I quickly left the room taking my jacket. I turned on my radio so I could block out everything that happened today and then also to block out further thought of tonight.
"A parallel universe." "Being able to slip away to be unconscious, wow now that's one I haven't heard Bob."
A song began to play
"A parallel universe, yeah like there's really one out there because if there was I would be the first person there."
"Ariana hurry up now or you are going to be late!"
"Mother I am hurrying up."
I quickly pulled my medium-long dark brown hair back into a low ponytail before heading out to my car again to drive to Sally's for my appointment.
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"Hello you must be Ariana." Sally said.
"Yes."
"Why don't you go sit down in that chair there while I go get my stuff it'll only take a couple of minutes."
I walked over to the first chair and sat down wondering what she was going to do with my hair. I didn't know what I wanted down with my hair other then the fact that I wanted to just leave and stay at home and draw or listen to music.
"Well Ariana do you know what you want done to your hair?"
"No I don't."
"Ok." She said disappointedly. "How about we do something on the lines of this then." She said showing me a picture in a book. Or would you like some thing else done to your hair?"
"No that's fine."
"Well let's get started then cause we're going to be here for a while."
She then started combing my hair all out making sure that there weren't any knots in it before taking her curling iron and curling my hair into a ton of ringlets. Then taking some of them and pulling them up into twisties and letting the curls come down the rest of the way.
After about 2 hours she was finally done with my hair, I left the place being that my mother had already prepaid Sally and drove back home only to have to get ready to go to my fathers dinner party.
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"Good after noon my sweet Ariana." My father greeted as I walked in the side door.
"Father." I acknowledged.
"Don't you go using that tone with you little brat." He said slapping me hard across the face while my mother walked by looking for her purse acknowledging that nothing had happened.
I just stared at him strait in the eyes determined not to let him win.
"All we ever do is give you love and this is how you repay us? You're worthless go get dressed into better clothes and I expect you to behave better at the dinner party or you can expect a beating after wards."
I turned and walked upstairs as if nothing had happening knowing that my father would know if he did his job by scarring me if I ran quickly up the stairs. When I got to my room I found my long dark emerald green dress lying on my bed waiting for me to put it on.
"You know Ariana it's right of you're father to do that to you especially when you act out of line. I would do it myself if your father didn't do it to you. One day I know that you'll be thankful that we helped you in this way and taught you your place in this house. I want you to wear this necklace I got for you the other day." My mother said standing in my doorway.
I just took the necklace and shut the door as my mother left my room so I could get changed.
"Ariana get down here now we're leaving and I'm not going to allow someone like you to let me be late!" My father yelled up at me.
"I'll be down there in a seconded."
"No you will come down here now or else I'll come up there and drag you down here myself!"
I looked at myself in my mirror one last time before walking down the stairs to my mother and father who were acting like it took me a century to get down here.
"Get in." my father barked at me.
I got in the back of the car as my father speeded his way down town to the Convention Center, which is where the whole thing was taken place.
The convention center was a big fancy building that was no doubt as beautiful on the inside as the outside, And being that this was a dinner party for a whole bunch of wealthy lawyers the decorations were never the less best that money could buy.
A man came up to our car to park it wherever it was they were parking the cars. My mother was then escorted up to the building and my father was beside her and I just stayed a few feet behind hoping that I might be able to shag them once we got inside.
"Darling why don't you come in or you might catch a terrible cold from being out side so long." My mother said sweetly putting on an act for everyone else to see how prefect of a family we were.
"Mr. Tomsen and Mrs. Tomsen what a pleasure it is to see you here this evening." My father greeted. "Indeed it is sir. And who might these lovely ladies at your side be?"
"This is my wife Victoria and our lovely daughter Ariana."
"What a pleasure it is to meet you young Ariana. You must feel very lucky to have a father such as the one that you have. He's a good man."
"Oh very, words can't even describe how I feel." I replied sarcastically, though they all believed me. "Mother I feel rather tired from all this standing may I please go and sit down at our table?"
"My what fine manners your daughter has Victoria, you must be very proud of her." Mrs. Tomsen said.
"Thank you. Yes darling you may go sit down."
Every word that my parents spoke made me want to throw up. I hated acting like I was some week girl who couldn't lift a pencil to saver her soul. I hated the fact that I always had to act like I had the best of families when I was dying to tell them other wise. But even if I was to tell them I know that none would believe me. For how could some one as successful as my father who worked all day and night not love his daughter? Or how could a stay at home mother not have enough time to spend with her daughter and cherish her? Everything that my father's buddies knew was a lie, but they would always think otherwise.
I just sat at the table staring into the candle that was placed upon our table, remembering what was said on the radio earlier. Was it actually possible for people to do that? It would be incredibly amazing though to do something such as that by will. But it's probably all a bunch of crack. I went to get something to drink assuming that the only thing that I was going to be able to drink was punch. Well hopefully there would be punch and not tea, like the last time, since I wasn't fond of tea at all.
I got up from my seat and walked over to the table where the food was being served but then everything starting falling in and out of focus and everyone sounded so distant as darkness engulfed me. If this was dying then it wasn't so bad. Seeing stars past me by at a, well I seemed like I was going somewhere fast, just I don't know where it was that I was going it just felt as if I was being pulled somewhere. Everything just keep on going faster and faster until it all just stopped and I found that I was falling from the sky hitting tree branches one after another. Then everything just went black.
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Please review!!!
Jessie
Disclaimer ~ I don't own anything that is from the lord of the rings books everything else is mine.
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Chapter 1 ~ Waking up.
"Ariana wake up!" my mother called. "Breakfast will be on the table in 3 minutes."
I slowly got out of my bed not wanting, to go to school where everyone was just so "the world is prefect."
"Ariana are you getting up if you're not down here in 1 minute you will not be eating anything at all!"
"Mother," I said under my breath.
"I'm here."
"Good now eat that up before it gets cold. And honey why can't you ever smile like you use to when you were a little girl. You were always so happy. And so clean, and prissy."
I just looked up at my mom not saying a thing. She'd never get over the fact that I'd changed.
"Well here's your lunch I packed you."
I went back up stairs after eating my breakfast then quickly finished getting ready, before heading out to my car to go to school.
My classes seemed like they couldn't have gone any slower especially math, I was actually very good at math, but the teacher had to be about 100 years old. To make it worse she would read strait from the book, making it very difficult for anyone to pay attention let alone stay awake. Everyday it was the same she'd show you a problem and then say something alone the lines of. "Well you take this number here and push this on your calculator, then you get this and then you do this and this and then you type in this and then you get this." Her motto was "Take it, do it."
"For homework today do pages 178 to page 181 all the even problems, due tomorrow."
"Mrs. Lester, you do realize that we have football practice tonight and then later there's a party, and there's no way in hell that I'm going to get done with this assignment." Spoke up Matt Miller.
"Miller I suggest that you do the assignment or you will get a zero."
"And when am I suppose to find time to do this?"
"Maybe if you'd shut your mouth for 5 minutes you'd be able to get it done." I muttered to myself.
"What'd did you say uh.?" Matt snapped at me.
"My name's Ariana, and I said maybe if you'd shut up for 5 minutes you'd be able to get done with the assignment."
"Ariana since when were you in this class?"
"I've been it the whole year, you're just to caught up in you're damned football world to realize what's happening past your big head."
"Ariana, Matt that's enough! Both of you can see me after class."
"Now look what you did Ariana."
I just ignored him and turned to my trigonometry. Twenty minutes later the bell finally rung. I gathered my stuff and walked up to Mrs. Lester's desk, waiting for Matt to hurry up his arse up with his girl friend, so that we could get done with whatever Mrs. Lester wanted us to get done with, so that I could go to lunch.
When Matt finally decided to come up, Mrs. Lester decided to bless us with a detention and then decided to double our assignment.
"Ariana have you ever smiled?"
"Why does that matter?"
"You're creepy."
"Are you afraid of me?"
"No."
"Do you actually mean that, or are you just saying that because you don't want you're ego to be punctured. Matt I really don't time to waste with you is stupid questions, so if you will, move I'd greatly appreciate it."
Matt moved aside allowing me to walk past the doors of the classroom. I walked over to the crowded cafeteria. Finding my regular seat I sat down and began eating my lunch, which was the regular rabbit food, as my father called it.
"Hey Ariana!"
I turned around shocked to find that someone decided to talk to me face to face by choice, but it was only Matt. I just ignored him and continued on to throw my lunch away.
"Ariana! Stop!" Matt semi-yelled, grabbing on to my arm.
"Let go of my arm now." I deadly replied.
"No, I want to talk to you."
"I don't want to talk to you."
"Why do you have to be so cold?"
"I'm not cold, you're just how do I put it, you only see the silver lining. And I don't live that way. Now let go of my arm."
Matt still didn't let go of my arm.
"A lot of girls would die to be in your position."
"Well I'm not them, I wouldn't care if you were the most wealthiest, most famous, person in the world, it means nothing to me."
"I just don't get how a person could be so distant and cold, and e-"
"Emotionless?"
"How'd you know I was going to say that?"
"I'm not deaf, I do hear what people say about me. Look you stay in your world and I'll stay in mine. Do you understand?"
"Once you see past you're eye's you're actually pretty."
"Save it for someone else, who'd actually care." I said taking my arm away from his grip, and then walking away.
The rest of the school day for me pasted for me like any other day the regular lectures Then there are the lectures on how important it is that we do well in school, because college's start looking at our recorded. And that we have to get A's if we want to get somewhere in our life.
At last the school bell rang, the weekend had finally come. I drove back to my house, and waited in the regular traffic jam.
When the traffic decided to move so I could get off the main road, I drove the rest of the way to my home at 3441 Dodge Ave.
"Ariana is that you?" my mother called. "Yes." "Good, go get on some different clothes I set up an appointment for you at 4:30 at Sally's to get your hair done for tonight." "What's going on tonight that you felt that you needed to set up an appointment for me?" "Your father has a very important dinner and all the other people are bringing their families so you are going to come too. I expect that when you're there that you will have the decency to act normal. You will dance with whom I tell you to dance with too. You'll also where this dress."
"Normal, she doesn't even know what normal is. I'm certainly not going to dance with anyone she tells me to. Mom what were you thinking when you picked out this dress for me?"
"Well go try on that lovely dress I bought for you."
I went up stairs to my room, wishing that my mom wouldn't make me where this dress, It wasn't just the fact that it was ugly, well at least in my opinion, but it'd show my scars, bourses, that I had gotten while my father was beating me.
I put on the dress to my dislike and searched hard in my closet for a jacket or cover up of some sort that I could wear when I went to the party. When I finally found a white jacket that'd work I put it on before going down stairs to show my mom.
Of course being that my mom picked out the dress, she liked it on me, heck I could be triple the size I am now and she'd still like the dress on me, just because she picked it out.
"Ariana take off that silly jacket."
"But it's going to be cold." I quickly said.
"No it's not, it's going to be rather hot, now take off that jacket. "
I took of the jacket, revealing my marked body; I stared down my mother not letting her see anything.
"Turn around.Good. It'll have to do, go back upstairs and make sure that you'll be ready for your appointment."
I quickly left the room taking my jacket. I turned on my radio so I could block out everything that happened today and then also to block out further thought of tonight.
"A parallel universe." "Being able to slip away to be unconscious, wow now that's one I haven't heard Bob."
A song began to play
"A parallel universe, yeah like there's really one out there because if there was I would be the first person there."
"Ariana hurry up now or you are going to be late!"
"Mother I am hurrying up."
I quickly pulled my medium-long dark brown hair back into a low ponytail before heading out to my car again to drive to Sally's for my appointment.
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"Hello you must be Ariana." Sally said.
"Yes."
"Why don't you go sit down in that chair there while I go get my stuff it'll only take a couple of minutes."
I walked over to the first chair and sat down wondering what she was going to do with my hair. I didn't know what I wanted down with my hair other then the fact that I wanted to just leave and stay at home and draw or listen to music.
"Well Ariana do you know what you want done to your hair?"
"No I don't."
"Ok." She said disappointedly. "How about we do something on the lines of this then." She said showing me a picture in a book. Or would you like some thing else done to your hair?"
"No that's fine."
"Well let's get started then cause we're going to be here for a while."
She then started combing my hair all out making sure that there weren't any knots in it before taking her curling iron and curling my hair into a ton of ringlets. Then taking some of them and pulling them up into twisties and letting the curls come down the rest of the way.
After about 2 hours she was finally done with my hair, I left the place being that my mother had already prepaid Sally and drove back home only to have to get ready to go to my fathers dinner party.
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"Good after noon my sweet Ariana." My father greeted as I walked in the side door.
"Father." I acknowledged.
"Don't you go using that tone with you little brat." He said slapping me hard across the face while my mother walked by looking for her purse acknowledging that nothing had happened.
I just stared at him strait in the eyes determined not to let him win.
"All we ever do is give you love and this is how you repay us? You're worthless go get dressed into better clothes and I expect you to behave better at the dinner party or you can expect a beating after wards."
I turned and walked upstairs as if nothing had happening knowing that my father would know if he did his job by scarring me if I ran quickly up the stairs. When I got to my room I found my long dark emerald green dress lying on my bed waiting for me to put it on.
"You know Ariana it's right of you're father to do that to you especially when you act out of line. I would do it myself if your father didn't do it to you. One day I know that you'll be thankful that we helped you in this way and taught you your place in this house. I want you to wear this necklace I got for you the other day." My mother said standing in my doorway.
I just took the necklace and shut the door as my mother left my room so I could get changed.
"Ariana get down here now we're leaving and I'm not going to allow someone like you to let me be late!" My father yelled up at me.
"I'll be down there in a seconded."
"No you will come down here now or else I'll come up there and drag you down here myself!"
I looked at myself in my mirror one last time before walking down the stairs to my mother and father who were acting like it took me a century to get down here.
"Get in." my father barked at me.
I got in the back of the car as my father speeded his way down town to the Convention Center, which is where the whole thing was taken place.
The convention center was a big fancy building that was no doubt as beautiful on the inside as the outside, And being that this was a dinner party for a whole bunch of wealthy lawyers the decorations were never the less best that money could buy.
A man came up to our car to park it wherever it was they were parking the cars. My mother was then escorted up to the building and my father was beside her and I just stayed a few feet behind hoping that I might be able to shag them once we got inside.
"Darling why don't you come in or you might catch a terrible cold from being out side so long." My mother said sweetly putting on an act for everyone else to see how prefect of a family we were.
"Mr. Tomsen and Mrs. Tomsen what a pleasure it is to see you here this evening." My father greeted. "Indeed it is sir. And who might these lovely ladies at your side be?"
"This is my wife Victoria and our lovely daughter Ariana."
"What a pleasure it is to meet you young Ariana. You must feel very lucky to have a father such as the one that you have. He's a good man."
"Oh very, words can't even describe how I feel." I replied sarcastically, though they all believed me. "Mother I feel rather tired from all this standing may I please go and sit down at our table?"
"My what fine manners your daughter has Victoria, you must be very proud of her." Mrs. Tomsen said.
"Thank you. Yes darling you may go sit down."
Every word that my parents spoke made me want to throw up. I hated acting like I was some week girl who couldn't lift a pencil to saver her soul. I hated the fact that I always had to act like I had the best of families when I was dying to tell them other wise. But even if I was to tell them I know that none would believe me. For how could some one as successful as my father who worked all day and night not love his daughter? Or how could a stay at home mother not have enough time to spend with her daughter and cherish her? Everything that my father's buddies knew was a lie, but they would always think otherwise.
I just sat at the table staring into the candle that was placed upon our table, remembering what was said on the radio earlier. Was it actually possible for people to do that? It would be incredibly amazing though to do something such as that by will. But it's probably all a bunch of crack. I went to get something to drink assuming that the only thing that I was going to be able to drink was punch. Well hopefully there would be punch and not tea, like the last time, since I wasn't fond of tea at all.
I got up from my seat and walked over to the table where the food was being served but then everything starting falling in and out of focus and everyone sounded so distant as darkness engulfed me. If this was dying then it wasn't so bad. Seeing stars past me by at a, well I seemed like I was going somewhere fast, just I don't know where it was that I was going it just felt as if I was being pulled somewhere. Everything just keep on going faster and faster until it all just stopped and I found that I was falling from the sky hitting tree branches one after another. Then everything just went black.
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Please review!!!
Jessie