Day 1

~Bella's Point of view~

Pain. Agony. Torture.

It was all that my mind could let me understand. And even worse, it seemed to consume me, in a never-ending cycle of suffering. It was a rare moment when I was able to do the simplest functions, such as speaking.

But what really helped was the fact that Edward never left my side. He sat in the chair beside my bed, keeping his golden eyes on me, and wincing ever so often, when I failed to hold back a yelp of pain.

I wasn't sure what time it was, or how many days had gone by, the only clues that I had was the light coming from the window right across from me. But I of course wasn't able to move much to get a good enough look out the window.

At the moment, the only thing in the room that I could hear was the light thudding of rain against the glass of the window, and the ticking of the clock that sat above me, on the wall, right in the place I would never be able to move to see.

There was at least one thing that I was able to think about, while laying here, in this pain. And that was Edward. There was so many questions that I had for him, but when I went to try and voice them, I just couldn't force them out.

"Bella, do you think it would be alright if we talked just for a moment," Edward spoke suddenly, surprising me as I realized he was standing right next to my bed, hover over me with a serious look on his face.

I opened my mouth, and tried focusing through the pain, pushing the winces away for just a moment to form my words.
"S-sure,"

I frowned slightly at his low wince, but again he took me by surprise as his arms went around me, pulling me up into a sitting position. I couldn't even express how much better this felt.

"Bella, what is going on with you right now, it was a very big mistake, and I'm very sorry," Edward spoke, his eyes casting downwards.

I still didn't understand. What had happened? He had bitten me; then this pain had begun. I can remember just slightly the events of that moment, recalling the other man that had been in the room, Carlisle; he had tried to tell Edward not do it.

It was becoming obvious that Edward wasn't normal, he couldn't be human, his bite had caused this agony, and whatever was going on, it wasn't going to be good.

"W-what, a-a-are you," I choked out, hissing lowly as the flames of agony seemed to flare even hotter to each inch of my body.

He sighed, looking away from me for a long moment, before turning his attention back to me, looking reluctant.

"Listen, what I'm about to tell you is a secret, no one must find out the truth, not your friends, not your family, no one," He said slowly.

I nodded, groaning a bit as I was again pinched fiercely with the flames, that I'm sure would never end.

"I p-promise, I w-won't tell," I said, feeling tears begin to slide down my cheeks.

Edward watched down at me, his eyes showing nothing but sorrow, but his fingers slowly went to my face, wiping my tears away.

"I'm a vampire, I know it sounds impossible, even ridiculous, but it's the truth,"

The first things that popped in my head was that there was no way, he was way too attractive to be a vampire. Vampires were horrible, awful creatures; they weren't gorgeous, perfect gods.

But then again, he did bite me… and now I was in intense pain…

Did this mean… I was going to be a vampire to…

"This m-means…."

Edward slowly nodded, gently taking my hand in his, looking sad. "Yes, you will be one as well… I'm so sorry Bella,"

For a moment, everything inside me seemed to freeze, the fire still kept on burning, but it was more of an icy bitter burn.

With all the strength, I clutched his hand, finding comfort in Edward's touch, but at the same time, fear crawled around inside of me.

"W-what about b-baby, family, m-my life,"

"I'm sorry, there is still a lot we need to figure out, and decide on what would be best, but rest assured, you will not be apart from you baby ever," Edward said looking down at me seriously.

This was enough to calm me.

I could do this couldn't I, I didn't have much of a life after getting pregnant, it would be like starting over… a brand new beginning, just me and my baby. But something told me, that I wasn't going to be out of Edward's life any time soon.

"But right now, your family is outside the door right now, they are very worried, and would like to see you, so please, speak nothing of this," Edward spoke sudden moving away from me, moving towards the door.

"W-what about my b-baby," I choked out.

I wanted to see him so bad, I had only gotten a glimpse of him, I didn't even get to hold him.

"I'll get him as well," Edward said gently, and with that he opened the door, pulling a calm smile on his face, but I could see the strain that it took for him to do this.

Charlie was the first to march inside, moving past Edward, taking me in with a pale worried face. Rene and Phil followed, talking quietly, and nodding towards Edward as they also walked past.

"Bella, are you alright?" Charlie asked taking my hand, looking down at me, his face showing nothing but sadness.

"I-I've b-been better," I forced out, glancing around to each of them.

"Oh Bella, we came as soon as we could, no one would tell us anything, they wouldn't even let us in your room," Rene said looking at me with tears in her eyes.

With all the strength I could muster, I picked my arm up, and rested my hand on hers, trying to comfort her as much as I could.

"I'm o-ok,"

Phil stayed quiet, watching between Rene and me with quiet respect, and slight concern as he watched the expression of my face.

"Bella, I've never seen you so pale," Rene continued, her hand moving to my forehead, sniffing. "But you're burning up,"

If only she knew the half of it.

"R-really, I'm ok," I repeated, and turned to look up at Charlie, knowing he truly was the only one that could understand me better than anyone, even Rene.

"Oh dear, I just love you so much Bella," She said, tears filling her eyes, her hand squeezing mine.

"I love you t-to, all of y-you,"

"What is going on Bella, why aren't they telling us what happened?" Charlie asked, frowning just slightly.

Something told me that if I didn't come up with a very good explanation, Charlie would have ever able cop doing an investigation of this whole hospital, and Edward said this secret had to be kept, even from my family.

"T-there was something wrong, with the d-delivery, I'm just going t-through the s-side effects," I lied.

Charlie opened his mouth, not seeming to believe me for one minute, so I was thankful when Rene cut him off, keeping her eyes only on me.

"Your baby, he is so amazing Bella, I'm so proud," She said with a weak smile.

At this, I couldn't help my own smile, feeling a slight flutter in my chest.

"He sure is, looks just like you," Phil spoke for the first time, patting my leg for a second, before returning to his quiet place behind Rene.

Charlie didn't look at the two of them, but nodded, watching me. "He's been looking for you; the nurses say he's quite the character,"

And as if answering a silent prayer, Edward entered the room, a blue bundle of blankets tucked in his arms.

I could feel my eyes grow wide as I took in the blanket, knowing already, that this was the very meaning of my existence.

Edward gave me a rueful smile as he walked over, and gently handed my baby to me.

I sniffed, watching down at the baby, smiling even more as he looked up at me with dark brown eyes, and a dimply smile. He was so beautiful.

Right then and there, I made a vowel, no matter what, I would do anything for my baby, anything, and I'd give up my life for him in a heartbeat.

"What are you going to name him?" Rene asked quietly smiling at the baby as he curled more into my arms, making soft coo sounds.

I thought about this, turning for just a second to glance at Edward, noticing his small smile, and serious look at me.

"My Zander," I spoke quietly.

"That's a beautiful name," Rene smiled, stroking my hair, watching the two of us.

"What about his middle name?" Phil wondered, his hand resting on Rene's shoulder as he too watched.

"Charles, in honor of Charlie," I said looking over to Charlie with a timid smile.

He shared the look, patting my head. "It's perfect Bells,"

At that moment, I couldn't image a more perfect time in my entire life. Everything just seemed great. But then I was quickly reminded the pain that was still burning it's way around my body, surely leaving my every internal organ to ash.

"I think it would be a good idea for Bella to get some alone time with Zander," Edward spoke up, walking towards the ground of us, keeping a polite smile on his face.

"Oh alright, but Bella, we will be here for you if you need us, just let us know and we will be here," Rene promised, and leaned forward, pecking the top of my forehead, before slowly leading Phil out of the room.

Charlie paused, gently kissing my forehead as well, and then stroking the tiny cheek of the baby, looking proudly at the both of us.

"You rest up Bells, I'll be in the waiting room for, won't leave until you do," He said, and with that he shot Edward a suspicious look before turning and walking out.

I now turned my eyes from Zander to Edward, watching as Edward took a seat by the side of my bed, looking between the both of us.

"It's going to be alright Bella,"

"As long as h-he is ok, t-then, it doesn't matter,"

Edward sighed and shook his head.

"Of course it matters, Bella, your life is about to change completely, but I need you to know, that I won't leave your side until you order me away,"

"W-Why," I couldn't help but as, trying to understand why Edward felt so obligated to be around me. He didn't need to be in my room every minute of every day.

"It's because of me, that your life is ruined, you're my responsibility, and I just can't explain why… but I couldn't ever let anything hurt you… even myself, ever again."

His words touched me.

It was like he truly did care about me, like he didn't think less of me for being so young, and being pregnant, like he would do anything to keep me safe.

But I knew this couldn't be the truth. I was the most unlucky person in the world, so there was no way, that I could ever have the honor to keep such an amazing guy in my life.

Even though he was the very reason why I was right now going through hell, he was also the reason that Zander was safely brought into this world, he saved his life, and as a price, took mine. It was a fair trade, and I wouldn't want it to be any other way.

Please review and tell me what you think?

Should I skip forward to day 3 of the change?

Or should I go to day 2 of the change?

Up to you all.

Hope you liked this!

~Az