-AUTHERS NOTE - im sorry but this chapter has a few big speeches in it mainly from Lily, this is the point where we find out if her thoughts have changed towards the idea of sirius being in love with her since the prologue and what they are will set it up for the next chapter. I am also switching the rating because of the next chapter, its not too bad but i want to be on the safe side.

Please tell me what you think of it. i made this chapter a little longer than the first because i want to move onto the ball in the next one.

"You should have heard him Lily, he really does love Rose. He was saying things like he wanted to be with her forever and that he wanted to have his kids with her as well. Who knew Padfoot could be so romantic. I just thought he wanted you know, but wow"

"I can't believe he actually feels that way about her. He's never really shown that much interest in her before now. Guess she's lucky, though I wouldn't get on the wrong side of his fan club though - I heard they can be vicious." Lily said trying to comprehend the fact that Sirius was really talking about her. He truely did love her then. According to James he was speaking with such passion he was suprised that his best friend hadn't tried anything before to go out with her.

"They've calmed down alot apparently. Talk of the devil, i'll see you later Lily." he said gently kissing her leaving to see his friends.

Lily sat there under the tree looking out to the lake. Sirius really loves me, what should I do? I love James and I would never betray him. They're best friends which makes it worse. The more he sees us the more he will hurt.

"Penny for your thoughts." Remus said, startling Lily that much she jumped.

"I was just thinking about what James has just told me" she paused for a second, hesitating to tell him that James had overheard some of his conversation with Sirius. "He overheard the last bit of your conversation with Sirius last night, although he thinks it was about Rose rather than me."

"What exactly were you thinking about?" Remus asked slightly worried that she might have changes her mind and wanted Sirius instead of James.

As if reading his thoughts she said "Theres no need to worry Remus im not changing my mind about who i want to be with. Its just hearing James talking about all he said has made it hit me with a ton of bricks. I knew it was true and he wasn't lying to me but now it just seems so much more... real than it used to be. And then I think how can he bear seeing us together so happy and just sitting there knowing theres nothing he can do which can change my mind. Not that I actually want him to, I love James and I would never betray him. They're best frineds, it must be so hard for him." Lily said this feeling guilty about the pain she was putting him through.

"Don't worry about him Lily, he's dealt with it and learnt to keep his emotions under wrap when James is around. And as you said he thinks Sirius likes Rose. I hate lying to him but it has to be kept up, its the only way. Sirius knows that you would never leave James or betray him. He may never love anyone as much as he does you Lily but he has to be thankful that you will always be a part of his life."

At this she started to cry. She was upset with the fact that Sirius may never find someone to love because of her, that she has to lie to James everyday about not knowing the truth and that she could break a friendship so strong which has survived many trials.

Remus put his arm around her, hugging her to him. He seemed to know what she was crying over and could see that this wasn't going to go away very easily.

Later on in the Gryffindor common room the marauders, Lily (who was now known as a maruadess), Rose and Elizabeth were talking about the graduation ball which was to be held on the last Friday of term. This was a precautionary measure taken by Dumbledore to ensure all the students has recovered from their late night antics.

"So whose going with who then? You all know that me and Lils are going together but what about the rest of you? Mooney?"

"Im going with Elizabeth" Remus said and Elizabeth started to blush.

"Thats good to know, you two always got on well and Elizabeth has had a crush on you since third year."James said not noticing that Elizabeth's face was as red as Lily's hair.

"James theres no need for that, leave the poor girl alone." his girlfriend said as she playfully hit him in the abdomin.

"What about you Rose, are you going with anyone?" he said already knowing the answer but hoping Sirius would take the hint.

"Not yet, no one's asked me." Rose replied hoping Sirius would ask her soon.

"Don't worry about it, im sure someone wants to go with a pretty girl like you. He said trying to make her feel better.

"Thanks, im sure you're right."

"I always am. Padfoot?"

"Nope not yet. I do have someone in mind though."

"Who is that then?"

"Not telling you incase she says no."

"As if anyone would say no to the good looking Padfoot, unless they wanted the good looking Prongs instead of course."

Everyone laughed. It was well known that James Potter was always bigheaded and had an ego to match when it came to his looks. This is what Lily used to hate him for. Now she understood that it was just confidence.

After Remus, Elizabeth, James and Lily had gone to their dorms, it was only Sirius and Rose left in the common room.

"Night Sirius" Rose said smiling at him, she was still desperately hoping he would ask her to the ball.

"Night Rose." he replied.

She had only gone up a few steps when she heard him shout "wait a minute." She turned around and saw him at the bottom of the stairs.

"Yes?"

"Will you go to the ball with me?" Sirius said hoping she'd accept.

"I'd be delighted. See you in the morning."

"See you." he replied wondering what he had got himself into. He wanted her to say yes so he could start getting over Lily, but a part of himself also wanted her to say no because he didn't want to lead her on. Nothing good will come of this, he thought as he was trying to fall asleep.