Elena's pov

finally getting off the stage from the andie star interview stefan drags me to the food stand whatever its called. just thinking back at those horrible memories and i cant get the worst one out of my head. but it was damon salvatore who surprised me.

5 years ago

june 4th 2009

my hair is in the same ponytails as all ways i never let it down my mother liked it down and that was before she died. I seat against the tree staring at the grave that has my parents date on it and that date may 23th 2009 i will never forgive myself of that day i just got my braces off may 18th and had to go and try to be fun and live alittle as my best friend stefan had told me.

i look back at them then grab my stuff and go to leave as im walking with my head down i bump into someone. i look up and it the gang that bullies me the lead person damon salvatore, klaus mikealson, lorenzo 'enzo' st. john, mason lockewood and tyler lockewood.

"why you crying shorty?" klaus asks me "leave me alone im visiting" i say to him "ohh klaus better watch out she's got spunk today" mason says tyler laughs " i bet there glad there dead they dont have to put up with you anymore" he says. "no the loved me" i tell them not seing damon anywhere maybe it wont be so bad he's the worst out of all of them well besides klaus at least.

"did they tell you that?" klaus asks me "yes" i reply to him "well they lied to your face" mason comes up behind me "your poor mother she would be so dissapointed in you your a disgrace to there family no wonder they died they did it so they didnt have to be around you anymore" .

I let out a sharp sob then i hear the famialiar voice of damon salavtore "enough guys its my turn with her go home and ill see you tonight at the party" he said and all the guys left he watched them leave all they out the gates .

"please if your just going to be mean then just leave i cant right now please go if thats what your just gonna do" he looks at me and i can see sorrow and regret in his eyes "im so sorry elena really i am i know what it feels like to be told you werent good enough when someone you loved died i dont want that for you" he says sinserly "well its too late for that you want to back me down and watch me crumble wanna see me break well here i am breaking ive had enough you win i feel like shit and that i was a disgrace to my mother and that i dissapointed her are you happy cuz your getting the front row show i loved my mother she was my everything" i scream letting him no how hurt i am.

"we did everything together and she protected me and now thats slowly fading into hate for myself are you happy and to top that off i have a baby brother so im going to have to grow up and be adult for him and i to survive because both our parents are dead damon there gone so you must be feeling really good about watching me slowly die inside right?" i say even more tears flowing down my face and sobs rack my body.

my eyes are clear enough that i see a tear drop's from damons eyes as he turns his head so i dont see but its too late. "i am so sorry elena i know exaclty how that feels and i would never want that for anyone and to answer your question no, im not enjoying it" he says and brings me into him and holds me tight as i cry and he lowers us to the ground still holding be in a tight hug and i can feel more tears go down his face and into my hair i hear him sniffel and we sit there til dark.

present

I never told anyone about that except for stefan and he slightly smiled and said a small sorry and hugged me and i made sure to tell him not to tell anyone and deffinitly not damon. after that it kept on going but damon never said a word only apologetic smiles until one day he was forced to break my heart all over again. after highschool i never saw them again but i will now soon.

" are you ok lena?" i hear stefan ask me " yeah im just tired" i tell him and watch him nod his head then he lifts his head up and has a mischievious look and a smirk on his face this is when i know hes up to something stupid or he has a crazy idea thats going to become a stupid one we try to get ourselves out of in the morning.

"oh no i know that look mister" i saw pocking his chest with my index finger "i have a perfict plan" and in this case he went for the latter, as he starts dragging me outside but keeps walking with my hand firmly in his probably so i wont run back to the backstage people and my crew. i think to my self why cant i find normal friends? i ask myself because you dont want normal friends you want the 3 people whome you beileve is your family seperated from birth.

stefan who ive known since diapers (a.k.a) my second brother who i love and definitley and all his wierd guy glory but is also the one person i go to with everything, caroline from high school who i made my personal makeup and hair artist because she fucking amazing at her job and is a crazy gossiper but fiercely loyal, and bonnie who i meet 4 years ago in a starbucks no less but i still love her as a sister.

ever since i meet this three wonderful people we have been inseperable litterally well except the apartment's stefan and i share one and bonnie and caroline share one too. we live across the hall from each other so... i get cut out of my day dream when i realize stefan stopped right infront of a tatoo shop.

"oh hell no" stefan turns his head to look at me and nods his head fiercly "oh hell yes, c'mon lena live alittle you know that saying 'you only live once' c'mon me and you will get one together. I stare at him for a minute " first, its you and i will get one, second stef if i get one it will show when i do photo shoots not to meantion i have one tomorrow and my skin will be red and sore" he seems to be comtemplating this and just when i think im off the hook and im not going to have to get needles punched into my skin over and over he opens the door to the the shop and walks in i groan and follow him inside.

once i step threw the door a smell of jasmine and rubbing alchol hit my nose, I look around and see different doors probably to get the tatoos, a respetion desk in the front ,on the walls theres celebrates pictures and autographs with the owners, and a bunch of black leather couches probably to make you more comfurtable.

we walk up to the desk where a bonde lady with blue eyes sit but i dont see any traces of tatoos on her wierd arent people in these places supposed to have them? i think to myself as the lady startes taking in a british accent. " hello my name is rebekah how may i help you?" she ask's with a 100 killawate smile aimed at stefan i lean into him and whisper in his ear " fine if we doing this we're role playing just follow my lead".

I look back at rebekah and smile the biggest smile i can muster that looks mostly geniune (maybe) and places my head on stefans shoulder then off of it to answer her question. " yes um my boyfriend and i are looking to get one but we arent sure what to get yet" i say with fake perkiness.

ok so it may seem like im jealouse but im totally not im jsut very protective and i have this majore feeling that if they got together she would only hurt him. " oh well theres a booklet of differnt things you can get if you want to see" she says "yes thank you" stefan says and i drag him to the couches and plop down on it.

" why did you tell her i was your boyfriend so un fair i liked her" i look at him and laugh lightly " stef you just meet her and like i said you making me do this then we're role playing suck it up lover boy your going to be fine" i smile as he sighs loudly " how about we get our birthdates on our wrist's your on mine and mine on your's yeah?" he asks looking at me I think about it then nod my head and he smiles and hugs me as a guy comes out one of the door to tells to come back there so he can help us.

five minutes later we told him what we want. I told stefan i would go first get it over with. As he starts rubbing the alchol on my skin he says that talking helps ease the pain so that exactly what i plan on doing. " so whats your name?" i ask the brunette "kol mikaleson my family runs this place its uh sorta a family thing me my brothers elijiah and klaus and rebekah" i nod my head "my names-" i get cut off by kol " elena gilbert yeah i know your very famous you know model/actress/singer my sister loves you she's a huge fan she called me to come get you before she had a heart attack from keeping her mouth shut" he says and i laugh.

" what color ink?" he asks me "black" i answer simply holding stefan's hand with my free one. soon he started and it didnt hurt as much as i thought it would he asked me about myself and my working and he told me he has always wanted to be a actor then me and stefan share a look and i smile.

" how good is your acting can you improve?" i ask him and he smiles and nods his head and says start the scene i smile and stefan talks next " your a secret agent and elena figures it out watching you kill someone you tell her what you are and now people are after her but your in love with her so you do everything in your power to protect her and-" kol stops moving the neddels on my wrist and wipes at my wrist " sorry she's done" he says as he inturruptes stefan "its ok" stefan replys and smiles at my wrist that has his birthdate on it 7/29/94. and i smile too picturing my bithdate on stefans right wrist 5/17/95.

yes hes older then me but only by 10 months not even a year so dont start. kol looks back at stefan " well do a short improve and then do mine k?" kol nods his head "ok" i say "And go" stefan says.

kol looks back down at me with fake love and excitment in his eyes " Elena we have to go i dont know what i'll do if you get hurt so please elena" he says and tilts my chin up at him " kol this is my home i cant leave everyone i love is here" fake tears wield in my eyes " elena if you dont come now ill lose you and i cant do that please baby please come with me" he looks away as a fake tear goes down his face i wipe it away and he looks back to me "if i go with you what life can we have kol everything is changing and you know that i cant run forever" he tucks my hair behind my ear "if you come with me we can have everything a family, yes we may always be on the run but you are enough for me" he leaned down slightly "i love you elena" and i can feel his breath on my lips "i love you too kol" i say and lean more in to him kissing his lips and we hear stefan claping his hands and see tears in his eyes.

" that was beautiful" he says " your really good" i tell kol and he smiles " you too especially at kissing" and i laugh "maybe i can get you a spot on the vampire diaries i mean you come in you wow the socks off them i can probably get you to be one of the main male leads im already the main female lead so what do you say kol?" i say and thrust out my hand for him to shake kol looks make at stefan who nodds his head fiercly and kol grabs my hand and shakes it " yeah sure" he says and smiles huge.

"if you have your phone on you i can add my number but you have to sware not to hand it out especially not to your sister no offense" he nods and tkes out his phone " none taken and i wont i promise" i add my number and get up so stefan can sit in the chair and get his tattoo.

two hours later we got our tattoo's paid for them and got mine free and when asked why kol simply said you know why and wink at me as i smiled and left with stefan. we got back to the crew and bonnie and caroline where there waiting when they saw our tattoo's they freacked but got over it quickly we got in the car my in the passanger seat stefan in the drivers seat and caroline and bonnie in the back seat hours later the car stops and i the three of us girls wake up as stefan looks at me. "you ready to face the past?" he ask's me and i nod slowly " yes" and look infront of me to see the sign

'WELCOME TO MYSTIC FALLS'

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