Before I start I'd just like to say thanks to those who've followed this story! I don't care how many there are of you, as long as there's one person wanting to read my work I'll be happy to post it here! So this is chapter 2, hope you like it... Let me know! :)
"Please forgive me." He whispers, and silently admits all. Admits how he cheated on me before beth was born, how he lied to me for months.
"So it's true?" I wimper, all the anger and fight I've had helping me survive this year gone from me. "You slept with her?"
"Yeah, yeah Quinn I did. But I never meant for it to happen, it was just after you left for Mercedes, and I was sad and she was there and –"
"And it meant nothing, it was a one time thing, she's got nothing on me? Save it Noah. I've heard it before." I feel like my world's crashing down around me. Everything we've been working towards is gone in an instant. "You slept with her when I was carrying Beth, that's not nothing. And if cheating wasn't enough, you went for Lisa Kinry. She was the new me! It's too much Puck, she's just another conquest. Like I was. Like I was until we found out about Beth."
I look him in the eyes for the first time since this argument started. I can see it there, the pain. It's the same look that he had when I left, both times. Both times he asked me to stay, both times I didn't. Well, he begged the second time. Begged through my comments about how we had to be normal.
"But we're not normal Q!" he told me. And for the first time he showed me his temper, throwing whatever was in reach across his room. "Nothing we've ever done is normal, our entire relationship has been messed up from the beginning!"
"Puck please don't! This is hard enough as it is. Please listen to me!" I'd wailed, and grabbed his hands in mine. "If we're going to be together, we have to do it this way. Look at us! We've shared a home and had a baby without ever even changing our facebook status! "He smiled at me and I knew I was getting through. "I love you Noah, and I'm not trying to hurt you. But we need to do this properly if we're going to make it. I want us to be perfect so we need a clean slate. No secrets, no surprises. Just us."
"Okay Q, I'll give you that." He mumbled, adding "I'm sorry, for losing my temper yknow? I just don't like know how to deal with people leaving, not after my dad.. And I got scared."
"Noah Puckerman, I love you. You are my babydaddy, my first." I say, cupping his face in my hands. "I've tamed me a Puckasaurus, do you really think I'm going to allow such a wild, rare beast escape?"
Except I hadn't tamed him, or we wouldn't be here now.
"Quinn please, you've got to believe me. I didn't say anything because I was scared of losing you! You're my entire world. I couldn't bear to lose you."
"Don't turn this around on me. I want nothing more than to be with you. But you brought this on us. I gave you the perfect chance, when we were starting this whole do it proper thing I said no secrets! And you kept one so I had to find out from Santana. SANTANA! I'm going to have to face her gloating about it every day too!"
"Look Quinn, I just didn't want to bring up the past. We were happy, you were happy. I didn't want to destroy everything for both of us. I'm sorry, just think of the good times."
And I'm trying to, really I am. I think about our first real date, where he reserved the secluded table at Breadstix where it feels like you've got the place to yourself. And the sunflowers he placed on the table.
"They remind me of you" He told me when I asked why he chose them. "Remember when we were in like second grade or something and we had to grow them? And everyone in the class didn't manage but you." I smile at the memory, even aged 8 I had to be the best. "Well, I went home that night I asked mom why mine didn't grow and she told me sunflowers are tricky, something about how they need exactly the right amount of lots of things. And I guess, as we got older, that reminded me of you. Like if your parents had showered you in water, you wouldn't have grown to be as amazing as you are today. Like how if you drown a sunflower, it doesn't grow right."
I remember sitting there and thinking that was the most beautiful thing anyone had ever said to me. And now I'm sitting across the room from the same guy and the memory breaks my heart even more.
"I can't do this Puck, I'm sorry." I say, holding back the tears. "I need time at least, and even then I don't know how much."
"Please Quinn, I'll do anything." He says, and I can see he's fighting the tears too.
"Then leave me alone for now." I cry, and leave before I break down in front of him. Reaching my little red beetle that was returned to me when I moved back to moms, I drive to the end of his street and turn the corner before putting it back into park and breaking down in the front seat. Just like I did over Beth. Just like I always do when things get bad.
I kind of hate myself for doing this. But I'm trying to do this as closely as I can to Glee, so Sam and Quinn will happen, but I'll have Puck reacting to it which we didn't get. I've got lots of ideas for lots more chapters which will kind of take us to the duration of their stories in Glee and them some for my own! If anyone has anything they'd like me to cover, review or pm me and I'll get back to you on it! Please keep reading and let me know what you think about the chapter!
And I am sorry for breaking them up, had to!