Fast update! I'm going to update my story 'Chemicals' either tonight or tomorrow, too, just so you know. Like I said, these chapters are inspired by Taylor Swift songs. The last one was 'Tell Me Why' and this one is 'White Horse'. Please review and tell me what you thought, I would really appreciate it!

Oh, and a very happy Valentines Day to all of you. Unfortunately, my husband had to work in the St. Louis branch of his office today, so we had our date-day yesterday, and I'm all alone on Valentine's Day. But Paulie (Paul and Ollie!) will be here with me for a movie marathon, seeing as they also don't have plans for tonight.

Love you all!

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"Bella, I'm sorry…just please don't leave." Jacob pleaded with me, and I sighed, looking into his eyes and closing my eyes briefly. His warn, angelic expression was making me doubt this. But I couldn't let his good acting keep me from escaping and having a good, safe life. For the past four years, I've waited and waited for Jacob to change. I honestly believed that he would improve and better himself and just…stop hurting me. I had held on for so long, too long, and the years had dragged on so long; changing me and aging me. I should have known, I should have realized what was happening. He wasn't ever going to change. I was just a stupid girl who had thought this whole thing was a fairytale.

Well, my fairytale had been shattered, and I have the bruises and scars to prove it.

I'm not some kind of princess. Jacob won't just come and sweep me off my feet and take me home and love me forever. If I go back, I know that it will happen again. I'm not the woman for Jacob, I'm not the one he really wants. In this godforsaken small town, I've been trapped for years.

Jacob says that he wants to change, that he wants to make things better. But I know better, and it's way too late for him to even try and save me.

I was fifteen years old when I had met Jacob and been totally swept away. I had gotten lost in his beautiful dark eyes, and I had been so naïve. From that moment on, I had never really had a chance. I had been young and foolish- not realizing how hard you had to fight for love. There had been so many dreams…dreams of eternal love and happiness and a big family and being together forever…but they were gone now, and they were never going to come true.

Jacob sighed heavily, looking down at my bags on the ground. He knelt down before me and captured my hands in his. I flinched and instinctively jerked away, but Jacob didn't relinquish his grip on me. "Come on, Bells. I'm so sorry…I love you, and I want to be with you. I'm sorry!" He was begging for me and saying that he wanted me, just like I had always wanted him too. But at this point, it was far too late.

"I'm sorry too, Jake. But I'm just sorry that I stuck around for so long." I whispered, pulling away from him and wiping tears from my eyes. "I've given you so many chances…and this is your last one. I'm going away, and I'll come back after a little while, but you're going to have to prove to me that things are actually going to change." I murmured. "But Jake, I really think that I'm not the girl you really want. This…this just isn't our happy ending." With that, I picked up my two bags and walked out the front door of our house and to my old, beat up truck. It was nearly as beat up as I was, actually. We matched pretty well. Jacob stood in the doorway of the house, his arms crossed tightly across his chest.

As I tossed my bags in the back and got into the car, Jacob quickly jogged over to me and leaned in the truck window. "Wait, Bella, when are you coming back?" He asked, and I stared straight ahead, refusing to look at him because I knew it would make me cry.

"I don't know. As long as it takes for me to think things over, I guess. But, Jake,…if I find someone who is actually going to treat me well, I won't be back at all. I deserve to find someone, someday, who will love me the right way. And sadly…I don't know if that's you." I whispered, and then turned to face him. Jacob's face fell, and he reached out and gently touched the bruise on my cheek.

"I'm sorry." He whispered one last time, but I didn't reply. I waited for him to back away, and then I rolled the window up and backed out of the driveway. Jacob just stood there and watched me go, and I couldn't help but watch him in the rearview mirror as I drove away, knowing that I might never come back.

I know that in all reality, it's too late for Jacob to save me and make things right. Telling him that there's still a chance for us wasn't the right thing to do…but it's all I could come up with. I want time, and that's the only way he would give it to me.

There was one thing he had said to me that I knew that entirely true. I had nowhere to go, no one to take me in. Jacob was my only family, my only friend…I reached for my phone and scrolled through the contact list as I drove, trying to keep my eyes on the road as I quickly scanned the short list of names. It was sad how few contacts I had in this list. It showed just how much I had been cut off from the rest of the world. But there was one number, one name, that held a glimmer of hope and promise.

Edward Cullen. My best friend for such a long time…

But I hadn't seen him in four years, not since my wedding. He had gone off to Chicago and from what I knew, he was a big shot doctor there. But I knew that if I did call him, he would be there for me. Edward and I had been friends since we were toddlers, and after my mother had died when I was six, his mother had become my mother figure in life. And then when my father had died when I was seventeen, the Cullen's had invited me to stay with them. And I had, until college started and Edward and I went our separate ways. I had already been dating Jacob at that point, and Edward definitely hadn't been a big fan of him. How right he had been.

Edward would help me, I knew he would. So after four years of not speaking to him, I hit send and dialed his number, praying that he hadn't changed numbers or anything like that.

Then, the inconceivable happened. He actually answered.

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Hope you're liking it! Anyway, the next chapter will be based on 'I'd Lie'.

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Xoxo- Melodyella aka Mellie