Jay could not stay focused on the conversation the team was having, no his gaze was locked on the closed door of Hank Voight. Voight had become a stranger, he worked cases but he only surfaced from the small office in the back of the room other than that he hid himself. Jay knew how Hank was feeling, well sort of, Jay knew a small portion of the pain that Erin had caused. Hank Voight was a very intimidating man, a man who could give someone one glance and cause them to confess but to Erin he had been more and that went the same for Hank. Erin really did not tell anyone her past, she liked to keep it secret but somehow she had found trust in Jay and confided in him. She told him that Hank had made her a CI and grew to liking her and caring for her and finally after realizing that he worried for her he took her in, his wife and him had taken her in and loved her and brought her up to become a wonderful woman. In Jay's mind if he had that only to have it ripped away from him he would be devastated and now, he could only imagine how Voight was feeling. There was that one think that they had in common though, they both hated what Bunny was going and how Erin had chosen this as her new path in life.

"Hello, Jay," Antonio clapped a hand on Jay's back causing him jump.

"Woah, Jumpy there," Ruzek laughed.

"I'm sorry what," He said looking at his friends, he didn't even try to fake a smile, the whole team was hurt when Lindsay left and it was worse now that she had banned them from speaking to them.

"We are going to Mollie's you coming?" Atwater looked at Jay with concern.

"I'll meet you guys there," Antonio nodded and they got up and left leaving Jay alone in the bullpen. He looked at the closed door, never in his life had he been so intimidated of moving to that office. He stood up from his desk and moved closer finally reaching the door and raising a closed fist up to knock.

"Yeah," The gravelly voice of the leader answered. Jay took that as his cue and entered the room, which was dimly light. "Halstead what can I do for you?"

"You know why I'm here," Jay stated taking a seat across from Hank.

"There is nothing we can do, she has made her choice."

"You don't honestly believe that!" Of course, he did not but Hank knew Erin and the woman was stubborn. "Hank I can't let her do this to herself and I know you cant watch this either."

"Halstead, we tried, I have talked to her and I know you have too but she has made it pretty clear what she wants."

"And you are just going to let it stop at that."

"What do you expect me to do Jay, she is stubborn, there is no way she is in her right mind she aint listening."

"That's just Bunny and her grief, she is going to drink herself to death, I can't sit back and watch her do this I lo…" Jay stopped himself and looked at Voight who he thought would be angry but instead he just sighed and shook his head.

"You think I don't know about you too, what kind of detective would I be if I didn't?"

"We both love Erin, and I know that you changed her life in such a huge way we need to weed Bunny out and snap her out of this haze she is over Nadia."

"I have spoken to her multiple times I'm not sure what else I can do," Jay shook his head and stood up from the chair he sat in.

"I thought you'd do better than that," He said in a defeated tone before he walked out.

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It took an hour of Hank going over in his head what Jay had said, of course, he would never give up on Erin but right now, he was out of ideas. He needed to make one last plea with her so he went to her apartment and sat, he sat for an hour and then two, which turned into three and by the time she finally came home it, was four in the morning and she was obviously drunk. She stumbled clumsily down the hall. The minute she saw him she became annoyed.

"Go away Hank," She pushed past him and struggled to open her apartment door.

"Listen Lindsay, I can't watch you keep doing this, I help you turn your life around so that you would never have to act like this again."

"And look how that helped me, you helped me become a murderer," She shoved him back.

"Yates is the murderer not you, I know it feels that way but Nadia she would never want you to wallow in self pity."

"What do you know, Nadia is dead, and if I never helped her she would have…"

"She would have been dead, she had drug addiction and she was in a dangerous life style."

"And I brought her into this one, a new danger the evidently got her killed and no matter what you or Jay say will make me believe otherwise." She was stubborn as he had explained to Jay before and not only that she was drunk which of course only made her more demanding of her final feelings.

"You know I will always be here for you Erin, I know you think Bunny knows best but you know what she is."

"Just leave Hank, I asked you all more than once, I don't need you, now please leave!"

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They had not given up but what the team did know was that if they kept pushing her, Erin would disappear out of their lives forever, all they needed to do was give her space. That was their intention but some things change and it all happened about two weeks after Voight left Erin's apartment. They had been slow surprisingly, apparently, crime had decided to sleep for a couple of weeks but when it hit the team, it hit them hard, a hard ball of Revenge. The first sign was a murder victim by the name of Spencer Fink, he was a CI for the team, recruited by Olinsky and then it was Dianna Censer, she was an informant of Hank's for years.

"Damn it," Hanks smacked the board, another CI dead, Stanley Wrights, he was another informant of Olinsky and Voight, he was found only an hour before and Voight was pissed.

"There are no reports on Wrights, he was clean and his parole officer said he was a star citizen," Atwater relayed the information after he hung up the phone.

"His half way house said that he left the house at noon but missed curfew which is very unusual for him," Jay continued.

"Yeah, Wright was trying to do better for his daughter; his ex wife had even granted him visitation rights." Atwater added.

"So someone is after our CI's but how did they find them?"

"Maybe they fallowed you when you went to see them but then again how could they possibly spend that much time and effort on a revenge plot?" Adam questioned.

"I don't know but for now Olinsky and I will have to round up our informants."

"I'll start the list."

"How are we going to protect all of the; we are just going to give them refuge here at the precinct, last time I checked all of them wanted to avoid this place and stay hidden."

"Well then we use the safe house, it's the best I got, while Al and I make this list try to find this asshole." Voight slammed a fist at the board.

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It had taken a few days to track down most of the CI's but the problem was that most of the other had caught wind that the two deceased were CI's for Voight and they had fled. In the past couple of days, they had interviewed the ten that they did manage to track down but they came up empty handed. As Jay looked over the list he couldn't help but notice someone missing, Erin.

"Hank," he knocked his boss's door before getting a hand motion that told him to enter.

"Did you find them all?"

"No but I see you have left out Erin, don't you think we should go check up on her?"

"You could but it's a lost cause," Hank sighed.

"But still I think we should at least warn her," He argued.

"Take Dawson with you when you go but I'm sure she will push you away, she already has made it clear she doesn't want to see us again."

"I know but she should know she is in danger." A knock on the door shifted their attention to Kim.

"Sorry to interrupt but a Haley Bishop was found, same MO, and this time there is a note." Hank slammed his fist on the disk.

"Okay, Burgess take Alvin with you and check out the crime scene," She nodded and exited. "Jay, go find Erin, I don't want her to be next."

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"Oh for Christ sakes," Erin grumbled as Jay and Antonio walked into the bar. "What part of "I don't want to see you," do you not understand?" She lifted he counter and crept underneath, she took a rag and pushed past them cleaning off tables.

"Erin, this is about your safety," Antonio replied in a calming time tone.

"Isn't it always, listen I get it you're pissed about me leaving but…"

"Stop Erin no this is about someone being after Voight and Olinsky's CI's." Jay yelled.

"I haven't been a CI in years," She retorted placing her hands on her hips.

"It doesn't matter how long ago, there was a CI just killed who hasn't seen Hank in ten years and you are far closer to him."

"I am not, not anymore I've tried to cut ties but you all keep pushing me."

"Because we care Erin, we have all had our bad jobs in this job, I can list about fifteen off the top of my head."

"But did you get someone kidnapped and murdered?" She yelled at Antonio.

"My son, he was kidnapped and almost killed, or do you forget, you were the one that told me to stop blaming myself but it was my fault." This shut Erin up but she was stubborn and she was not going to get it through her head that Nadia's death wasn't her fault.

"I can take care of myself, I was a cop and I know how to watch my back."

"Let's just go Dawson, she is too pigheaded to see we are here for her well being," Jay said in defeat. As they turned to walk away Jay stopped and faced Erin. "I'm sorry you lost Nadia, we all lost her and I know you aren't hearing us but we are here, and please be careful I know you don't see it but we care for your safety." They pushed the door to the bar open just as Antonio's phone began to buzz it was Hank, they had a major lead.

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Erin looked down at the glass in front of her, untouched after two hours, which was a new record after the month and a half of straight drinking. It was what Jay said, they still cared; it had been two days since they two walked into the bar and told her to watch her back and what was she doing she should be with them catching this murderer instead of playing Martyr. She slid the glass down to the old man who was drowning his sorrows catching the attention of her mother.

"Where are you going Erin?"

"I don't feel like drinking." She walked out the door without another word. The air was chilled and fresher than the musty air in the bar that she breathed in morning day and night. She pulled out her phone and looked dialed she knew by heart, she looked at it for a moment debating whether to hit call or not, but in the end, her conscious won and she heard the ringing. It took four rings before the answering machine took over, she hung up; maybe Voight had given up on her. She made it home and unlocked the door, threw the keys and phone on the couch before retreating to the bedroom to change, about ten minutes later a knock on the door drew her back to the front door and looking through the peep hole.

"Voight," She said as she opened the door, the man looked different, a face that she was always sure meant trouble. "What's wrong?" She asked.

"Erin grab your things, we need to go now."

"Go where?" She asked, in the back of her mind she wondered if he knew she had tried to call him.

"The hospital," he responded in his raspy voice.

"Why," She asked in a panic, something bad happened she could tell this by the look in his face.

"Erin, it's Jay, he's been shot."