Missmoknat'snote: Redid this chapter because the first time I updated it didn't feel like one of my best works! Chapter 4 is almost done! :) I don't own the song Faded by The Veronicas.
Chapter 2: Do You Remember?
'Do you remember all the fun time we had let's bring it back' -Jay Sean
Let me tell you that I remember all the fun memories I had with my last relationship. I guess my heart is still broken from what I did to her, I wish I can bring it back but we can't. I know that I am happy where I am now in my life. Is it right for me to lie to myself and to my heart that I am okay when I am not? - Logan
He logged off of his band's witter and sighed, he was alone in the apartment while Kendall, Carlos, and James had set up triple dates together with their girlfriends, Katie was in Minnesota visiting her best friend Jamielynn who was Kylie's little sister and with Mrs. Knight she was at the supermarket buying food for the apartment. He would of gotten a date from Camille but she was too busy because she had an audition for a new television show called 'Welcome To Camwood'. He sighed, he didn't want to stay in his room and think about all the good times he had with Kylie.
'Thanks a lot Kylie. You still have this hold on me!' he thought to himself. He got out of his chair and he walked out of his room. He slid down swirly and sighed to himself, he sat on the couch and felt all the memories he had with Kylie floating back into his mind and he felt tears coming down from his eyes.
*Flashback*
Logan held her tight while he was leaving a kiss on her forehead and whispered in her ear lovingly. "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish, it does not take offense and is not resentful." he smiled softly holding her while looking at the city's view.
She smiled as she held on to him and heard him whisper her favorite quote from her favorite book/movie 'A Walk To Remember' and whispered back. "Love takes no pleasures in other people's sin, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust to hope, and to endure whatever comes." she smiled as he twirled her around and wrapped his arms around her waist.
He kissed her lips softly, feeling her kissing him back. He pulled away from the kiss leaving a smile on her face and said those three magic words to her. "I love you Kylie." he said softly.
Tears formed on her eyes as she heard him say 'I love you' to her. She smiled softly caressing her left hand on his cheek and said softly. "I love you too Logan.'
He smiled smiled and looked into her beautiful blue and knew that their love was true and real that no one would ever tear them apart.
*End of Flashback*
Logan wiped all his tears and thought to himself. 'All the memories we have together are always good. I want to relive those memories again with you Ky." But he knew it would never happen, he had to let go of her sooner or later. Camille was his present while Kylie was his forgotten past. He grabbed his notebook and wrote down what he truly felt.
Our love, was like the wind we couldn't see it but we can feel it. That is what I felt with you Ky, but ever since that audition for Rocque Records it made me stronger than I am now. I'm not the same guy you fell in love with and I thank Camille and Hollywood for that. You were someone that I can see my future with having our whole lives together was amazing but ever since leaving you alone in Minnesota and me living my life it made me realize how much that our love wasn't really true at all. I don't regret being with you at all, you made me happy but you didn't make that happy like Camille has made me in the past year.
He dropped his pencil on the coffee table and grabbed his wallet as he pulled out a picture of Kylie and ripped it into pieces, he tore the paper off and threw it in the trash. Who was he kidding? He was lying to himself that he is happy without her but truth be told her will never be over her.
xoxoxoxo
Here's the thing about me, that you guys don't know about me. Ever since my last relationship it has been hard for me to open up my heart again and be close to guy because I am afraid of getting my heart broken once again. Some of my friends will tell me to move on right away but I can't, I remember all those fun times we had together, have you heard the song 'Do You Remember' by Jay Sean? Well that song fits me right now, I forgot to tell you I started packing up his stuff today and it was hard to pack it because all those memories I had with him were flooding back in and making me cry because it is sad to say that it will never be the same anymore but it is still hard because I still love him. xoxoxo Kylie
She closed her laptop and sighed, he still had that hold on her after all this time. 'Just let me move on please, he moved on now he doesn't love me at all anymore please let me have that strength.' she thought to herself as she grabbed her acoustic guitar and quickly wrote a new song as she sung along to the words.
I am fading fading,
I'm slipping away, as I disappear in the dark
You never take
Take the time to really look
Look at the one
The one I really am
You try to fit
To fit me in your perfect box
You let me slip
Between the cracks
Now I'm faded
Into someone else
Baby someone I don't wanna be
Yeah I'm faded
My true color's gone
Like a picture nobody sees
I bet you don't
Don't even know my favorite song
You tell me how
How I should wear my hair
You wanna change
Everything I ever was
Try to erase me
'Til I'm not there
Now I'm faded
Into someone else
Baby someone I don't wanna be
Yeah I'm faded
My true color's gone
Like a picture nobody sees
Now I'm faded
Like I never was
'Til I don't even know myself
Yeah I'm faded
Into what you want
But I'm not taking it too well
I don't wanna be your little picture-perfect-pretty-girl
Who's got nothing to say
And I'm not gonna wait around for you
To run my whole life down
I'll let you watch me fade away
You try to fit
To fit me in your perfect box
You let me slip
Between the cracks
Now I'm faded
Into someone else
Baby someone I don't wanna be
Yeah I'm faded
My true color's gone
Like a picture nobody sees
Now I'm faded
Like I never was
'Til I don't even know myself
Yeah I'm faded
Into what you want
But I'm not taking it too well
Fading, Fading,I'm slipping away
As I disappear in the dark
Fading, Fading, I'm so far away
I don't know who I was at the start
Fading, Fading,I'm slipping away
As I disappear in the dark
Fading, Fading, I'm so far away
I don't know who I was at the start
Liv, Abby, and Abi walked into her room and clapped, the felt the pain of Kylie's song. There was so many times that Logan tried to make her perfect for the relationship but it never did work but when he left for Hollywood that time she changed herself to be perfect so he can come back but he never did come back. All of the songs Kylie had written were all about what she had gone through or how she felt and the songs were always powerful.
"One of your best songs Ky." Liv said to her as she dropped the junk food on her bed.
Abby nodded and agreed with Liv. "Truly amazing Kylers. We love the background story of it." she said softly as she layed the movies on her desk.
"Ky, this song is truly powerful and amazing. It truly fits what you had gone through that past year. One of your best work Ky." Abi said as she dropped their bags on the floor.
Kylie smiled, she was really lucky that she had three best friends who always loved her work and been there for her since the start. "Thanks guys it means a lot to me. So what's up with the junk food and the movies?" she asked softly.
Liv smiled she walked towards her and hugged her. "We knew you were gonna pack his stuff today and wanted to cheer you up before tomorrow!" she said.
"True! Plus we need our lead singer to rock out tomorrow! So no guy will bring you down today because today is our girls night!" Abby said excitedly.
Kylie smiled and giggled. "I actually wanted to do 'Can't Back Down' or either 'I Want You To Want Me' but I don't know all the songs we have are truly amazing!" she said.
"Stop talking about it Kylers today we need to relax and tomorrow we can freak out what song we can do tomorrow for the audition remember this is our girls night!" Abi said softly while giggling.
Kylie smiled and hugged all three of her best friends, she was pretty lucky to have them as her best friends and pretty lucky to know that they are always here for her that was the true meaning of friendship.