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Evil-Neji does not own Bleach, 'tis tragic...

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I surveyed my surroundings as I stepped out of my dimensional void, floating over what I knew as none other than Karakura Town. Blue eyes drifting listlessly over the quiet town, searching for a Soul Reaper --Or, if all else fails, maybe I could impale myself on a telephone pole? Sighing tiredly I drifted down to stand on the dirt street. It seemed I'd arrived 'under cover of night' here, which of course was not what I was aiming for. I felt as though I should just kill myself where I stand, but I don't think I have the gall for that at the moment; I've been feeling rather drained. Hell, I just told you my worst secret, the one thing that's been plagueing me all of my time as an Arrancar, you can't honestly expect me to get over it just like that. And I'd never see the one I needed again when it was all my fault.

The street was dark and deserted, not even one of those tall light fixtures that humans line their main roads with. Hesitantly, I opened my Perquisa to their maximum. Giving myself a wan smile, I layed a hand on the hilt of my Pantera, knowing that anyone with spiritual pressure would find me now. I counted... only three. Kurosaki, Kuchiki and a Quincy.

As if in response to a call, I felt Kurosaki's spiritual pressure light up like a fire, obviously having left his gigai. The Kuchiki girl with the ice Zanpakuto following right behind him. I sighed, attempting to place my usual smug grin back on my features, but I hadn't enough vigor to do much more than glare and draw my own Zanpakuto as the two Soul Reapers appeared on the scene.

"Grimmjow Jaegerjaques!" Kurosaki roared, leveling his Zanpakuto to my chest, though he and the lady Reaper still stood several feet away.

"Likewise, Soul Reaper." I found myself returning, though my tone left much to be desired.

Obviously Ichigo heard the edge of sorrow to my voice, as his blade lowered a good five inches and a look of slight hesitation and confusion crossed his face. I mentally scolded myself, I wanted him to kill me, and fast. The huge pain in my chest was dead set on making my breathing heavy and erratic, and I could only guess what I looked like right now, and it wasn't anything good. I already knew that my eyes were red and puffy from crying earlier, and that would only be more prominent with my blue irises rimmed with blue tattoos, but I'd just assumed that the darkness would hide them.

"The Hell's wrong with you?" He demanded of me, obvoiusly deciding to dismiss what I'd said, or assuming it was a trap and I was leading him on.

Clearing my throat, I managed to regain most of my cocky tone, "Nothing at all. I just figured that I'd had enough of boredom and you're becoming a bit of an eyesore!" I declaired with as much enthusiasm as I could manage. Drawing Pantera from it's sheathe, I leveled it to his head, "So let's not mess around and make this quick!"

I lunged foreward, swiping my Zanpakuto out and across, but Kurosaki stepped back even further, bringing his sword out to meet mine. Sparks flew as metals connected and I growled half-heartedly, wishing with whatever was left of me that he'd just hurry up and kill me. He Flash Stepped behind me, bringing his huge blade down on my exposed shoulder, but it left only a thin, shallow cut as it deflected off of my Hierro. Though it did leave a nice rip in my shirt. Virtually all of the Arrancars clothing gets torn quickly; it's much weaker than our iron skin.

Slashing backwards, I managed to knick the egde of his pant, but it was all cloth and no flesh. Suddenly, Kurosaki lifted his Zanpakuto high over his head, then crashing it down, sending wave after wave of intense and destructive aura at me.

"Getsuga Tensho!" He roared, attacking again in the selfsame way.

Without even realizing it, I jumped out of the line of fire to land on the top branch of a nearby tree. I inwardly cursed my well-trained reflexes, 'no!' I told myself, 'I'm trying to kill myself, here! It would help if my fucking instincts didn't kick in!' I leaped back down, once again exchanging rapid blows with the orange-haired Reaper. It wasn't easy making it seem like I actually cared to fight in my state, but if I used my Shikai, my ears and body language would clearly depict how forlorn I was feeling right now.

Ichigo brought his sword down hard on my left forearm, but even that wasn't enough to sever the limb, instead leaving only an inch-deep gash that oozed blood and stung like Hell. In the back of my mind I noted that I couldn't keep this up much longer, I had been dangerously close to breaking down before the fight had even begun, and my control was only waning as time passed by.

"What's the matter?!" The Shinigami yelled with a hint of cocky sarcasm in his tone, once again pointing his sword at me. My mentality took that as a hard blow against me.

I didn't give him the satisfaction of an answer, however. Instead generating a Cero in my fist, any self-control I had been using didn't apply to me as I shot it, incinerating a large swath of land in front of me. i knew I hadn't hit Kurosaki, seeing as he now stood with his blade pressed threateningly at my neck. I closed my eyes, wating for the bite of the metal to pierce my flesh, but nothing came. A wave of desperation washed over me as I realized that he had no intention of ending my life then and there, and I fell to my knees, much to his surprise.

"What the Hell is this about?" He said loudly, not too sure what to make of my pathetic state.

"Kill Me!" I screamed at the two people, looking through blurred eyes as tears welled up, "Kill me goddamnit! Can't you do anything right!?" I hated myself so much right now. I never let other people see me cry, I've always been too proud for that, but at the moment everything seemed to dissolve as I sat there on the ground, shoulders heaving with my silent sobs as I reached for my own Zanpakuto, intent on ending my own life if no one would end it for me. Unfortunately, my attempt was shot as the black-haired Soul Reaper put a foot on the blade, weighing it to the ground.

"Mind telling us what's going on?" She stated in a dangerous tone. Cocky bitch.

I couldn't bring myself to answer any questions. My throat was getting raw and I just wanted to die. I, Grimmjow Jaegerjaques, was on the ground crying in plain view of two Soul reapers I'd come close to killing on more than one occasion. And I didn't care. As far as I was concerned, all of Hueco Mundo could see me cry right now, my damage had been done. I foolishly let my mind wander to Ulquiorra, wanting more than anything to let his calm voice quell my hysterics, but only succeeding in worsening my sobs. Ulquiorra was gone, I reminded myself, he's gone from mine and everyone elses lives and I was the one who put him there!

The girls' voice jerked my from my thoughts of self-pity, "Bakudo #1: Sai!" she commanded, and with a sharp jerk my hands were twisted roughly behind my back, the force of the Kido keeping them locked firmly in place. Not that I cared, everything seemed so much duller in my current state. I didn't care what they did to me, I wasn't going to fight back even if I had the strength

"What do you think....should.....with him?" The Kuchiki girl's voice went in and out of comprehension as my mind did the same.

"Dunno....seemed different........wrong? Keep him....watch....until we can.....with him."

If there was anything further to their conversation, I don't think I heard it. I slowly gave in to my mental and physical fatigue, letting sleep get the better of me as I cried myself into dreams that I knew would only bring me more pain when I woke up. Without Ulquiorra...

...But nothing mattered anymore.

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That was longer than the last chapter, right? I hope so...

Anyway, some slight translations for the Japanese/Spanish words (that I got from my Shonen Jump)

Perquisa- detection nerves

Pantera- Panther King(grimmy's sword)

Hierro- Iron Skin

Getsuga Tensho- Moonfang heaven-piercer

Shikai- zanpakuto release state

Cero- Doom Blast

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