TF FanFiction 1.16-T2
2Cent of Realization (Tezuka PoV)
^^~ I guess it time I got myself into writing songfics, in the literal sense, ne? I got the idea for this project from listening to '50 Ways To Say Goodbye' by Train. I just love the ala-Mexican tune and tempo of the song, not to mention lyrics' humorous bitterness. D
Anyways, I know I'm not alone in envisioning the perfect pair as, well, always perfect - you know, as in always level-headed, composed, and alert... But I also understand that they're not always such ideals, that they're just better at hidding and controling their confusion and weaknesses. So with this consideration in mind, here's my version of the song, written from Tezuka-sempai's perspective. Please continue to grace me with your guidance, minna! Enjoy~! ^^~
Disclaimer: I own nada but this project's fictionality :P
TF FanFiction 1.16
2Cent of Realization (Tezuka PoV)
Tezuka woke-up in a slur, and the constant ringing and pounding in his head did noting but add to his discomfort, making him groan silently. Truth be told, he wasn't the type to be partying, more so not the type to be party-drinking, if not for his mother insisting the need to loosen up once in a while... And that's how he came to presently be. Disappointed at himself for letting his guard down, he mentally noted to make the culprit, who so daringly spiked all the beverages, run 100 laps come next practice session. That being said, his thought wandered back to how he was actually able to sleep last Friday night away, when he felt something soft and warm enclosed in his arms... His hazel eyes shot open, despite the absence of his ever-reliable rimless glasses and the dimness of dawn, he realized that he had a companion - blushingly occurring to himself how both their naked bodies pressed perfectly against each other - in bed... But the more alarming realization was that the person within his arms is his long-time secret crush, sleeping so serenely peaceful without his smiling facade... None other than 'his' Tensai, Fuji Syuusuke...
=[O My heart is beating wild
=[O My eyes now opened wide
=[O Can I take this chance like I should?
=[O Maybe it's meant to be
=[O Together, you and me
=[O I hope you're with me now for good
=[O I wish,
=[O But if I'm should be more honest
=[O I'd really say
=[O Fuji came down from heaven
=[O Landed in my arms
=[O Beamed me a smile of a thousand sunshines
=[O Help me, help me,
=[O So happy I could die~
=[O Your voice, it surrounds me
=[O Your eyes mesmerize me
=[O I just want you to always be beside me
=[O Help me, help me,
=[O I'm all out of lies~
=[O Denying my desires~
=[O Though my pride still hesitates
=[O For you, I'll never wave
=[O Someday I'll vow my love for you
=[O You might just play with me
=[O Not take me seriously
=[O But you always see right through me
=[O I wish,
=[O But if I should be more honest
=[O I'd really say
=[O You're as playful as a dolphin
=[O Fierce as a lion
=[O You're enigmatic like a brilliant diamond
=[O Help me, help me
=[O You're drugging me so high~
=[O You're my femme fetalé
=[O You are my kryptonite
=[O Dancing in my head from day 'til night
=[O Help me, help me,
=[O I'm all out of lies~
=[O Still I want you mine~
=[O I want to live a thousand lives with you
=[O I want to be the one you're dying to love
=[O Hope you knew that much
=[O I wish,
=[O But if I should be more honest
=[O I'd really say
=[O I wish,
=[O But if I should be more honest
=[O I'd really say
=[O You've understood me too well
=[O Been with me through hell
=[O Challenged me with unpredictable madness
=[O Help me, help me,
=[O I don't know what to do~
=[O Your touches, they comfort me
=[O Your words, they assure me
=[O Dare I believe you felt the same way for me?
=[O Help me, help me,
=[O I'm no good with words~
=[O You're all I ever wanted
=[O And all I'll ever need
=[O Can you hear the word I'm dying to tell you?
=[O Help me, help me,
=[O How am I to confess~?
=[O Would you laugh if I told you?
=[O Tease me as it fits you?
=[O Hope you smile and let me kiss you
=[O Help me, help me
=[O What am I to do~
=[O To tell you I love you~?
Tezuka retained his position throughout his reverie, both arms embracing the shorter brunette's sleeping slim figure, sane enough to realize that he was actually in Fuji's room and lying with him in his bed. Consciously, his regality lit up into a that rare beautiful smile, as his ember gaze traced and admired Fuji's flawless beauty. It felt so right and fitting having the Tensai in his arms, but somewhere at the back of his mind held a small fear of how the latter would react to their current position. And that feat bubbled bigger, when he felt Fuji stir within his arm, noting that the latter had woken-up.
The Buchou wasn't one to back down from a challenge, but this was a totally different issue. With much resolve, he will his entirety to calm down, closing his eyes to feign asleep, yet sharply feeling the occurrence in his surrounding.
True enough, Fuji turned awake, a soft stifled moan escaping his kissable lips from being hangover. Tezuka understood that Fuji wasn't really a morning person, not that anybody else knew, and he reveled at this triviality. The Tensai had shifted groggily as any normal sleep-deprived person would, only he had more grace and made it look more adorable in Tezuka's senses.
But then the inevitable came... Even with his mastered-expressionless facias, Tezuka felt the sting of shocked ceruleans from the boy in his arms, as Fuji's lithe form stiffened slightly into half-sitting. The Buchou's thought began coiling, realizing how difficult it was to play pretend within Fuji's domain... And he felt as though the seconds went by so excruciatingly slow, building a foreboding tension and awkwardness between them... His body had almost succumbed into the creeping tremble, when he felt a gradual lightness and warmth overwhelming his entirety...
Fuji lied down once more and snuggled closer into Tezuka's affectionate embrace. The moment felt so divine that the megane could very much picture the former's face bearing an ethereally genuine smile. The Tensai's almost undetectable motion told him that the boy 'tried' to sleep, but soon opt to amusedly and close-liddedly study his features instead, as he felt Fuji's gaze linger on him once more.
Tezuka contemplated on how he should react or what he is to do, deciding that he has to 'wake-up' soon or his 'friend' might begin to suspect his stance. Slowly opening his hazel orbs before Fuji, he knew he was never nor will he ever be prepared for this confrontation. Admittedly, he wasn't quite sure how and what to do then, but when the Fuji sheepishly(?) avert his gaze, as faint floras tinted his beauty, Tezuka knew he had to make a decision and act soon, lest awkwardness would swallow them whole. It was harder than he thought - verbalizing his feelings - , but before his mind could even process the right proceedings, his subconscious words rolled out his tongue. "I'm sorry."
By the moment he realized what he just said, he mentally slapped himself for his lack of better words. But despite his err and mental disappointment, his sharpness couldn't miss detecting the how Fuji's smile weakened and seemed more forced... that if Tezuka was to indulge himself, he'd say Tensai's tone tingled with saddness as he bared his thoughts to him. "Are you apologizing because you think what we did was wrong and you regretted it, or are you apologizing as a way of saying that last night shouldn't have and "didn't" happen at all?"
The question came as a surprise to the Buchou, but undeniably he can't help but be filled with unexplainable blood rush of excitement. Fuji was clearly affected by the vagueness of his apology... Could it mean that the Tensai felt something - a romantic attraction - to him, as well?
Tezuka's strong arms pulled Fuji closer to himself in a tight affectionate embrace, gently nozzling his face over the Tensai's honey-brown locks, as he whispered softly but full of confidence his answer to the query. "Neither."
At that response, Fuji turn his body face-to-face with Tezuka (without breaking off from the possessive embrace, not that the Buchou would even allow it), revealed his sparkling sapphire, searching the cosmos of golden hazel orbs in askance of reassurance.
"Hn." Tezuka breathed deeply in notion of composing himself - his voice - respectable. "I'm only apologizing for taking this long, and a lot of alcohol, for me to be able to confess my feelings for you, Syuusuke."
Fuji blinked, once, twice, as if not entirely believing what was just said. "Saa... Seems like alcohol took down all your guards, ne?" the Tensai asked, as his lips hallowed into a teasing smile. It would have been a perfect cover-up hadn't the megane see the hounding uncertainty on the corners of those kissable lips as he continued. "I think you just need a good rest and a glass of Lemon-Ginger Tea to clear your head, Tez-," the effeminate brunette inhaled a second of hesitation, before letting the given name roll smoothly against his tongue, "Kunimitsu~"
There was the measure of concern in Fuji's words, but Tezuka clearly heard the unspoken query... the need for assurance... the need to hear those precious words, and he was more than happy to oblidge. He locked his his ember orbs with cerulean gems, pouring in them his unwavering resolve, as he curtly shook his head in emphasis. "I love you, Syuusuke. I've loved you for so long," he confessed, hoping his Tensai would see the sincerity of his words. "Since the moment I've first laid eyes on you, I couldn't help thinking of you, wanting to hold you, protect you, bring out the best in you, and give you all of me until time cease to exist for us both." With his free hand, he lovingly cupped and caressed his smiling angel's visage. "And with or without alcohol, my love for you will never change, Syuusuke."
Fuji's eyes flipped from searching to contemplative, to amusement, and, finally, to sparkling delight. A celestially genuine smile graced his Tenshi's pink lips, making his countenance glow ever more beautiful in Tezuka's eyes. It was simply breath-taking~, and what followed simply sent him to could nine...
In one swift smooth motion, Fuji's moist lips kissed Tezuka's mirth lips - soft and chaste, but full of his beloved's ever-growing affection. And when their lips parted, the younger brunette offered his own confession. "I love you, my Mitsu~ Have always been and will always be~"
With the mutually burning passion, Fuji seductively laced his slender arms around his lover's neck, as Tezuka's firm arms tightened possessively around his koibito's sexiness... And soon ensued another kiss, deeper... hotter... burning with passion restrained for more than they could think about right that moment. The hangover was disregarded... forgotten... or should it be said "cured" by the euphoric pleasure of young love so early in that blissfully arousing morning~? ^_~
~ J'adour l'amour ~
A/N: If Fuji-sempai is to be an animal, I think he'd most probably be a dolphin - simply adorable, extremely intelligent, cleverly witty, exhaustingly playful, possessively affectionate, but most of all, because they get all fierce and scary if their family and friends are endangered. ^_~ Kawaii, ne~?