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Chasing after him - Chapter Two - California here I come
Rory's Pov
As we arrived outside. I looked everywhere but at Jess, I knew he could tell something was up. I looked at him with tears in my eyes and step towards him. I was finding this so hard because I did love him, just not the way I did Logan. I knew that is I married Jess that I would not be doing either of us a favour because down the line the truth was sure to come out. So it was better to tell the truth now then spend years lying not only to Jess but to myself.
"Jess I can't do this", I say as I move away from him again in fear that if I stood to close my wall would break down and the tears would start to flow.
"Do what Rory?" He asked me sounding like a scared little kid.
"I can't marry you" I say hoping that's all that he needs to be said but of course it isn't.
"What do you mean you can't marry me Rory? You said yes! You told me you loved me and that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me. What changed that?" He asked his voice getting strong with each word. I was afraid to speak. That's when I hear her voice, my mother.
"What I think she is trying to say Jess is that she loves you but she is not in love with you. That you're her Christopher and she needs to find her Luke. Am I right sweetie?" All I can do is nod in agreement with what she had just said.
"I don't understand, if your not in love with me why did you say you would marry me?" He asked shoving his hands in his pockets. This allowed me to know that he was nervous, because its what he did when we where teens and he knew something was wrong.
"Because I thought you where him ok. I thought you where the one, but you disserve to know the truth. The truth is I let him walk away, I let him go and I need to find him. I need to tell him I made a mistake and that if I could I would turn back time and I would say yes", I say without taking a breath. Something I have always been good at. "I know this is not what you want to hear and I am sorry but I don't want to marry you, knowing that I am in love with someone else. I would not only be lying to myself but also to you and I am sorry but I can't do that I am truly sorry" I say as I finally allow the tears to fall and my legs give out under me so I fall to the floor.
I feel an arm wrap around me and it's the last person I expect. Jess. I look at him and I can tell that he understands.
"Go Rory, go find him, but just know that if he doesn't take you back. If his stupid enough to allow you to get away again. Then I am here, waiting for you ok?" He says and gives me a chaste kiss on the lips and walk back into the party. I look at my mum and she just nods at me. I get up and wipe the tears, I hug her goodbye and tell her I will ring her as soon as I know something.
California here I come.
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