A Ringtone Is What He Remembers

I was carrying him bridal style, and he was limp in my grasp. That was scaring me a lot more than anything else, his breath was raspy, and had a cold sweat covering him. People were staring. They've known about our relationship for as long as I have. Their stares were more sympathetic and worried then in disgust. Carlos and James were right behind me as we were walking slash running to the infirmary.

"Fuck! Why does it have to be so far!" I said angrily as we made it to one of the elevators and pushed the button to go down a few floors. Carlos looked like he was gonna break down while James tried his best to keep it together. The doors opened up to the floor that was made only for the infirmary sense the station was so huge. "Help!" I shouted and a few of the doctors saw and ran to us.

"Mind exhaustion." I said plainly. The doctor were stunned but nodded put him on a stretcher and took him away from us. We took a seat on a bench near the elevator.

"What's mind exhaustion?" Carlos asked looking at me and James. I sighed I forgot he was the youngest only by one year but in that one year a lot happened, and a lot of restrictions were put on the people who were born around that time and what they were allowed to know.

"Do you remember the Third War? The one that was happening during we were just born?" He looked away for a second before nodding.

"It was one of our most intense wars we've been through. That's when I lost my parents." I said looking ahead at nothing. "But during that war we used weapons that we never thought we had, they were similar to Logan's, he based his drones off of those weapons. They were weapons that like his used the mind to control the weapons. The weapons we used for the war they were some of the crudest and vulgar we've ever used. But something in that technology, something in those machines caused something bad."

"What?" Carlos asked completely engrossed in the story I was telling him. I breathed in heavily before I continued.

"The mission commands, the main ones had been to fight until we won the war, and that's what they did. They fought until the war ended. The weapons forced whoever was controlling them to keep them controlling them until we won the war. It was one of our darkest moments in are peoples history."

"Why?"

"Because over half of are army used those weapons for the war. They used them for a year straight. By the time we won the war, they were physically exhausted, but also so mentally exhausted that their brains couldn't function and everyone who used the weapons died."

"But why didn't I know about it?"

"Because, it's forbidden to talk about that, that's why the history we have over the Third War is so vague." He nodded in understanding.

"If that actually happened, then why did the captain let him make weapons that are pretty much exactly the same?"

"Because they weren't supposed to be weapons, not at first." James said. Carlos just looked more confused, James chuckled.

"You really need to listen to him more at dinner than stuffing your face." Carlos glared at him but said nothing wanting to know what James meant. "Logan made them to be aids for the terra-formers we have on uninhabitable planets. The missiles he specially designed were made to be precise, that's why they follow the enemy ships. They weren't meant to be home missiles, just too clear rubble or even be used as drills when they have construction on the planets being terra-formed. The shields were to protect the workers on the planet, and he just added the new shields he creates just for fun."

"But there's one thing that I still don't get. Why did the captain let him make them if they were based off of the weapons from the Third War?"

"Because, he reassured me that yes they were based off the weapons from the Third War, but the technology used to create them were a complete difference." We all looked up at the Captain standing there looking at us. We stood up when we saw him. Both James and Carlos saluted him and saying 'Sir!' in unison while I just looked at the room where they took Logan. "At ease." They relaxed. "I even had other scientist that knew about the technology from the Third War look at his designs and the technology he used to create the drones. They all seemed skeptical at first but after examination they said that yes the two were similar but were at the same time completely different." Carlos and James nodded, but I wasn't really paying attention. I was just worried shitless about Logan.

"Still what's mind exhaustion?"

"When the Third War was over, the ones who used the weapons went into a kind of withdrawal at first. Their minds at first were more drained than anything else. A lot died a few hours after they took off the weapons, but others survived. They weren't considered the lucky ones. The exhaustion spread to more than just their mind. It's like their bodies had just lived a hundred years in just a few months. Their bodies couldn't take it and they died, their bodies were too old to keep them alive anymore." I said, not breaking eye contact from Logan's room. I ran to the room when one of the doctors came out, the others were right behind me. "How is he?" I said as I ran up to the doctor.

"He's stable, but we haven't had a case of mind exhaustion in a long time. How did this happen exactly?" That's when I saw the captain step up. "Captain?" The women looked stunned that the captain was there.

"I will tell you, but is it ok if these three boys go in and visit the patient?" She just nodded and the three of us practically ran into the room. What I saw broke my heart. Logan looked like he was in a coma from all the machines around him. Each machine did something for his body to keep his body from becoming totally exhausted. One pumped his blood, the other breathed for him, and the others did god knows what. But all of them were there to ease the stress on his body. I realized that my aunt was one of the doctors taking care of Logan because she walked in. 'I haven't seen her for three months and this is how we meet up?'

"Hey Aunt Sopheine." She looked at me with a sympathetic look and a smile. She came up to me and hugged me, I hesitantly hugged her back. I didn't want to have human contact except for him, all I wanted to feel was him giving me the hug but he couldn't.. "How is he?" I said never breaking eye contact from him.

"We had to put him in a medically induced coma. His body was already showing sign of mind exhaustion. We didn't expect this but we had everything here. We put him on complete life support to ease the stress on his body hopefully it will help, but were not entirely sure if it will. We haven't had a case like this for nearly twenty years. How did this happen?" I still didn't let my gaze leave him.

"The captain can tell you he's outside the room." She nodded and left the room. The three of us walked up to Logan and surrounded his bed. I took the chair next to him, grabbed his hand and kept it in mine, and just sat there; pleading to myself that he would get better. Carlos and James stayed with me for a few hours but they had to go and get debriefed on the attack on the station. I was supposed to go because I was the only one on a ship fighting, but the Captain knew about me and Logan, he was the first person I told that I was gay, and he didn't care. He told me that I could have a couple days off while Logan was in here.

The doctors said that they were going to keep him in the coma for three days, just to ease his body off the amount of stress the drones put on him. Those three days were hell and a blur to me. The only time I left was when I was forced out to eat with James and Carlos. I didn't even leave to go to the bathroom cause there was a connecting bathroom to the room, but I didn't shower. I was asleep with my heads on his bed when I felt and heard something; it was quiet at first but then Logan's hand moved and when I realized his hand moved I jolted awake. I looked and saw that Logan was slowly waking up and that he was uncomfortable with the tube in his throat.

"Aunt Sopheine!" I yelled out, a second later she was running in. She saw that Logan was slowly waking up and ran to him.

"Shh calm down; here let me take these off of you." She said as she slowly removed him off all the life support machines he was on. When she got the last one off of him which was the one that was helping him breath he was coughing and trying to regain his breath. I didn't even wait for him to catch his breath and just went in and gave him a hug. I could tell he was tensed up but I didn't care as long as he was awake.

"Oh my god, you smell." I heard him say with a slight bit of disgust in his voice. All I could do was smile and laugh before I let him go.

"Yeah, that's what I get for not leaving your side for three days." He was about to speak before I stopped him. "Before you say anything I wanna tell you something. Right before the attack on the station, I realized something, something that took me two years to figure out, something that made me smile when I realized it. I love you." I looked at him, and I could tell he was confused.

"Ummmmmm, thanks?" I laughed.

"Please Logan, don't play around."

"Who's Logan?" My smile fell.

"What?"

"Who's Logan?"

"You."

"Oh. So my name's Logan." He said looking at his hands and at himself.

"Sopheine?" I said looking at her.

"Kendall I think it's best if you wait outside." I nodded not knowing what to say. I walked outside and sat in the seats I first sat at when we brought in Logan.

"Is he really!" I heard James's voice; I looked up and saw Carlos and James looking around until they spotted me.

"Is he really awake?" Carlos said looking at me with a huge smile. I only nodded. They could tell that something was wrong though.

"What's wrong?" James said worried.

"H….h..he…he doesn't remember."

"What do you mean?" Before I could answer I saw Aunt Sopheine walk up to us.

"What's wrong?" I said to her, she sighed.

"He has amnesia, He doesn't remember anything. I don't know when he'll remember. I….I'm sorry." I was shocked as she walked away, I didn't know what to think.

"No." I said as I ran back into his room with Carlos and James. He looked at us and attempted a smile but I knew he was faking it.

"Hello." I heard him say. I ran up to him and grabbed his hands with mine.

"Please, you have to remember, remember me!" I said looking into his eyes. The same twinkle I saw in his eyes was gone. Instead all I saw was brown orbs staring at me.

"I'm sorry, I don't." He said shaking his head. I don't know why but I got angry, and stormed out of the room and ran back to our room.

I started to wake up. I felt extremely uncomfortable. There were all these tubes in me. I moved my hand up to try to get one out, when I saw the boy sleeping next to the bed. He had dirty blonde hair for some reason seeing him there asleep made me smile, but when I moved my hand I woke him up and he saw that he was awake. I heard him shout out.

"Aunt Sopheine!" A second later this older women with blonde hair just like his but this time a lot longer come in, she saw me and ran up to me.

"Shh calm down; here let me take these off of you." I only nodded as she took all the tubes that were in me out, the last one was the one that I guess helped me breath, but at the same time was the most uncomfortable one. Once she got it out I started choking trying to regain my breath. But before I could fully the boy who was asleep ran up and pulled me in a hug. I didn't know what to do but tense up. I breathed in a little and realized he reeked.

"Oh my god, you smell." I said as I wrinkled my nose, he chuckled at my comment.

"Yeah, that's what I get for not leaving your side for three days." Three days 'wow I must've been out of it.' I was about to ask him who he was but he stopped me. "Before you say anything I wanna tell you something. Right before the attack on the station, I realized something, something that took me two years to figure out, something that made me smile when I realized it. I love you." Now I was completely flabbergasted, this boy who I just met was telling me he loved me, I didn't know what to say.

"Ummmmmm, thanks?" He laughed which got me even more confused.

"Please Logan, don't play around." I wasn't playing around.

"Who's Logan?" That huge smile on his face fell, which made me a little sad but I didn't want to tell him that.

"What?" He asked, now he was the confused one.

"Who's Logan?" I asked back honestly wanting to know who that was.

"You." 'Oh I guess that's my name.'

"Oh. So my name's Logan." I looked at my hands, trying to remember anything but didn't.

"Sopheine?" He said to the woman who was in there and she walked up to me.

"Kendall I think it's best if you wait outside." She said to the boy 'I guess his name is Kendall'. He walked out of the room looking completely defeated, which made me even sadder then when his smile fell. I looked at the woman and tried to give her a smile. She looked at me with a sympathetic look.

"Do you know who you are?" She asked plainly.

"No." I said completely honest, I didn't even know where I was.

"Do you know who that boy was?" I shook my head which made her sympathetic smile go away too. She took in a heavy sigh before she spoke. "You were in an incident three days ago; it caused a great amount of stress on your mind and body, that's why you were hooked up to those machines, to try to alleviate some of the stress from your body." I nodded as she continued. "That boy that was in here, he was my nephew. And he…" I could tell she was having trouble saying what she was going to say.

"He…?" I said wanting to know what he was.

"He has been dating you for the past two years." My eyes widened and all I could do was mouth 'oh'.

"Well, he is cute." I said to her which made her laugh a little.

"He'll probably walk in here with two other boys. They're your best friends, you've known them for your entire life." I nodded as she gave me a weak smile before leaving the room. I sat there on the bed for a few minutes just looking around trying to see if I remembered anything but I didn't no matter how hard I tried. I heard the door open up and saw the boy 'Kendall' and two others walk in 'probably my best friends, well that's weird to say since I don't remember them'. Kendall ran up to the bed grabbed both of my hands with his and looked at me with his sad pleading eyes.

"Please, you have to remember, remember me!" I tried but nothing, so I shook my head.

"I'm sorry, I don't." I said as apologetic as I could, but he got angry, I didn't know if it was at me 'Probably is, he just told you he loved you and you said thanks, idiot and secondly you don't even remember him and you've supposedly been dating him for two years.' He got up without a single word and stormed out of the room. I looked down at my hands, I don't know why but hurting him like that hurt me so much. "I'm sorry, I'm trying but nothing." I tensed when I felt two hands on my shoulders; I looked up and saw the two boys that walked in give me warm smiles.

"It's ok, you're still are best friend." I only smiled at the latin boy.

"No matter what happens you're our brother." The other one who was a lot taller than me or the other said to me. I smiled not knowing what to say.

Carlos and James told Logan everything they could think of. Them meeting up, becoming friends, growing up together, getting stuck in the infirmary for a week because they all caught the chicken pox at the same time, both him and Kendall coming out to them, then months later they started dating, and up to the attack that happened three days ago. It was a lot for Logan to take in.

When they checked what time it was it was time for dinner, and then Logan heard Carlos' stomach growl and all he could do was laugh. From what he heard Carlos liked to eat, a lot. The three of them got out of the room Logan was staying in, but he was having trouble walking because he's been in a coma for three days.

"It's ok I'll just walk around a bit before we go ok?" Logan said looking at the other two. They both nodded and he started walking around the infirmary floor alone. It was dinner time so the infirmary was relatively empty. He turned a corner and saw a girl looking at something on a glass screen near one of the doors. Logan got curious and walked over to it, what he saw amazed him. The glass was completely clear, but at the same time there was blue writing on it, and the girl was touching the glass and it responded to her touch changing to another screen when she touched it. "Wow." Logan said, the girl noticed him and instantly she brightened up.

"Logan!" She said and flung herself onto him, he didn't anticipate this and still being weak from a three day coma they both fell to the floor. "You're awake! I heard you were here but I was really busy these pass three days with my stupid brother getting stuck in one of the oxygen vents and somehow broke his arm. Idiot." Logan only nodded pretending that he knew what she was talking about.

"Logan! You over here?" He heard James call and turned around to see him coming up and jogging up to him and the mystery girl. "I see you met Camille."

"Met?" She said clearly confused.

"You didn't tell her." Logan shook his head.

"I didn't want to be rude." James shook his head and laughed.

"Even if you don't remember you still act a lot like you used to."

"I'm confused." The girl Camille said looking at the two of them.

"Logan lost his memories, he has amnesia." The girl's eyes widened and mouthed 'oh' before she turned to me and slapped him on the face.

"Ow." He said rubbing his cheek. "What was that for?"

"You just let me ramble on, and you didn't even know what I was talking about."

"Sorry, wait Camille…Oh, you were the first one I came out too three years ago and then you punched me in the face because you had a huge crush on me. Well that's what James and Carlos said." Logan realized what he said could have said been a little harsh. "Sorry." He said as the floor suddenly became increasingly interesting. She laughed.

"You still really do act like you never lost your memories. Well if you'll excuse me I have to go get my brothers dinner from the nurse."

"What happened?" James asked as she was walking away.

"He was being an idiot again!" James laughed at her comment. "Come on let's go find Carlos he went looking for you before I did."Logan nodded and they went back to look around near his room. They found Carlos stealing a candy bar from one of the nurses, but the nurse caught him in the act and thought he was trying to cop a feel and slapped him in the face, the other two burst out laughing.

"Come on let's go get dinner." Carlos said rubbing is cheek and glaring at the two of them.

"Is it ok if I change out of this?" Logan said pointing out his hospital gown he was wearing. They both chuckled and said sure. Logan walked back into the room and grabbed the clothes he thought was his in the corner and started to change. The clothes everyone wore were uniforms, the only one that wasn't wearing the uniform was Kendall, he was wearing clothes similar but it was different. The main color on the clothing was grey but the little outlines of the clothing were stripes of one color. Logan noticed James and Carlos' were red, Kendall's was a light blue, and his was a dark green 'Just like Kendall's eyes.' He thought before finishing changing. The clothes were a close fit, and normally would have looked and been uncomfortable, but it was a little loose 'I guess to make everyone more comfortable.'Logan walked out to see Carlos and James talking sitting near what he thought was the exit of the infirmary, but there was a button right next to it 'Probably an elevator.'

"Umm you guys ready?" Logan said a little awkward since he's known them only for a few hours 'Technically you've known them your entire life.' They both nodded and headed to the elevator, Carlos pressed a button and they walked in. It took about a minute until the elevator stopped and they were in a huge hallway with people all around walking and talking. Some were looking at Logan which made him fell a little embarrassed.

"Does everyone know?"

"No, but they all know something happened to you because of the drones."

"Oh." He said, Carlos and James told him about the Third War and the weapons they used, and his drones he created that were loosely based off the weapons.

"Are they made at me?" Logan said as they walked into what he thought was a cafeteria.

"No, but some are scared of you because you made something so similar to the weapons from the Third War."

"Oh."

"It's ok. Just go over to the observation area and wait for us, we'll go get you your dinner, we already know what you'll like." Logan nodded and walked over to the area Carlos was pointing at. There was a large railing connected to a large glass wall that showed nothing but space and a purple nebula cloud off in the distance.

"Wow." Logan said as he looked into what he could only think of as a beautiful painting painted into space. He jumped out of his daze from space when he felt something in his pocket vibrate. "Ummmm." Logan said as he desperately tried to grab whatever was in his pocket. He grabbed what he thought was his phone or communication device 'Whatever they called it.' it was a piece of titanium but in the titanium was a piece of glass, and was flashing a blue light. It said 'one new message' but Logan didn't know how to read it. He was about to press something on when it flashed blue again but this time instead of vibrating it played a music from a piano. 'Wait…this song?'

"Logan? You ok?" Logan looked up and saw James in front of him.

"This song I….I know it."

"Ok?" James said before his face lit up with excitement. "You mean you remember this song?"

"...Yeah."