It was love at first sight. Sakamichi-kun's rosy cheeks paired with big round blue eyes caught my attention but when i saw that we both enjoyed climbing to the highest peaks, the thought of having him by my side chained me to him for life. I even went as far as staying in Hakone and getting the same scholarship just so i can be with him. Yeah, this is bordering addiction, but i don't care. So I'll just say this, separating from him will kill me. Even just the thought of another guy having him drove me crazy. Since the beginning, i was careful in protecting him from other people like me. And i did everything i could to stick to him the past three years.

I know everything about him but why? Why is it that when I try to get closer to him, he immediately moves away. Like earlier today, I did everything I could to finish my training early and ride with him home and he acts like its a strange thing. I tried to hold his hand but he immediately lets go without a thought. I was so scared that he'd figured out my feelings and was disgusted. But then he said that he was looking forward to the ride home with me. Now, after changing quickly and looking forward to a dinner with Sakamichi-kun, I went back to the cafeteria and grabbed a seat near the exit. I'll grab this chance to corner him after dinner. Its been 5 minutes, he should be getting back down by now.

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Thirty minutes pass, and still there's no Sakamichi-kun. What the hell. He said he was excited to ride with me but now, this? We didn't promise anything but its common sense to eat with friends right? Was he meeting anyone?

My breathing stopped. A girl? But he never confessed to anyone. The thought of him kissing and protecting some girl is too much for me to bear that my body started shaking. Oh God, anything but that.

"Shit!" I say to myself. There's no way, right? I reflexively scanned the cafeteria. It was then that I see his small back slightly drooping over his food. One peek at his frame confirms my suspicions. No wonder he was gone for a while, they must have met up. From the back, he looks sad. Did the girl hurt him?

I notice that my body is moving towards him, eager to just wrap him up and not let anyone near him. To just shower him with kisses and promises of love, to protect him forever. The desire becomes so strong that I start shaking, I quickly stop myself. No! He can't see me like this.I take a deep breath, grab a tray, order a small meal and make my way to Sakamichi-kun. I crept behind him, leaned into his ear and whispered, "Is this seat taken, Sakamichi-kun?"

He turns to me , surprised as we lock eyes. Ahh, this kid looks even cuter with flushed cheeks. They must have met up for him to be this red. Does he really like her that much?I give him a gentle smile. He parts his soft lips to say, "O-oh, please, go ahead." Ahh, if only he'd call out my name in this sweet voice while he's wrapped in my arms. "I thought you were done with dinner, Manami-kun."

If he knew what was going on in my head right before he saw me, what kind of face would he make? "Well, its a rare chance so i thought I'd eat with you. So, yeah, i waited till you were here," I say to him.

He looks a bit surprised but apologizes for making me wait, "Oh, omatase, Manami-kun" he avoids my gaze and looks down at his food. "Lets eat!"

Again. Don't run from me. Please.

I look down as i eat. Sakamichi-kun is silent. I didn't have to look at him to know he's distracted cause he kept spilling some of his food. If a girl hurt him for real, she's gonna regret it.I lift my head to say, "You must be tired to drop your food like that. Should we go?"

"Ah, un! Thank you manami-kun" He's cheerfully walking until we reach the stairs. Is he happy to get away?The thought tears at my heart. As i turn to grab him, he greets me with a face that would put any woman to shame. Face a bit flushed, his soft lips parted to show an angelic smile and eyes glistening, as he says his goodnight. My heart beats twice as fast as a shiver ran straight through my entire body. I feel light headed and the need to grab him slips away. Before I knew it, Sakamichi was climbing the stairs. I walked to my room and nearly slammed the door before jumping into my bed and squealing into the sheets. "Oh God! That face is against the rules!" I think I'm weak to his smile. So much for cornering him.

I stare at the ceiling and chuckled to myself. Only Sakamichi-kun can make me like this. Running myself to the ground just to be with him. Getting happy when I'm next to him, then sad the next, going crazy over little things, getting anxious all on my own and dooming everything around me.

But in just one moment, one smile, one look, all that goes away and its just him and me. So this is what its like to helplessly fall in love with someone, the emotions come surging through without mercy. Oh God, please give him to me.

Then my thoughts turn back to the girl who hurt him. I get up and unconsciously slam a fist on the wall. "Damn it! If you're just gonna hurt him, don't come near him."

I needed to calm down so I decided to go to the onsen. Its almost 9pm so there'll be less people. I can think alone and that'll help. So i headed for the onsen when i saw the small figure of sakamichi-kun entering the room. Oh that's right, he did say he was going for a dip. Lucky!I'll get the girl's name out of him.

I went straight for the door only to find a half-naked sakamichi-kun undressing for the onsen, I pause for a bit to admire sakamichi-kun's fair skin and slender torso. Too bad i didn't get to see his nipples as he hugs his shirt close as if to cover it. I turn my face away to hide my incoming blush.

"Manami-kun. You want to soak in the onsen too?" Sakamichi says shyly.

That and some other things. "Yeah, thought I'd need the rest, too. What a coincidence. Let's go in together, Sakamichi-kun." I start undressing and peek at his small pale back. His small, slender body will fit perfectly in my arms.

"Oh, okay!" Sakamichi says while still hugging his shirt. I take off my top and zip down my pants when I notice Sakamichi-kun is trembling. Is he cold? Then i notice his lower part. I freeze in place. He's half-erect. What happened? And then it clicked, did they do it? Is he remembering it? What the hell. They did it here?I could feel my heart breaking, like my stomach is twisted into knots and I freeze

Suddenly Sakamichi-kun says, "Manami-kun? Actually, I changed my mind, I'm gonna pull some extra laps before getting some sleep. I'll go ahead, okay?" He quickly pulls his shirt to cover his growing tent and turns to the door. My body moves before I can think. My arm is blocking his way. And staring straight at him. My whole body is trembling as I say, "That's troubling sakamichi-kun"

I place my arms on either side of sakamichi, pushing him against the lockers. Not letting go of sakamichi's gaze, I whisper to his ear, "Do you even know what kind of face you're making right now?"

"Ah!" Sakamichi sighs as I breathe into his ear. Found a weak spot.

I pull him close so that our groins are touching, "And there's this, too." I slowly lift his chin and pierce his eyes before saying, "Who were you thinking of, sakamichi-kun?"

Sakamichi tries to cover his blushing face with his arms before saying, "No! Don't look!"

He's doing it again. LOOK AT ME!

I feel myself snap and I slam his wrists above his head as I growled, "DON'T FUCK WITH ME! Who were you thinking of, a girl? Which one? No one here is at your level. I know all your friends and it can't be them. So who is it!"

I've lost control. I can feel my grip getting tighter and tighter as each word passes.

The Sakamichi in front of me is frozen and flushed as our groins are slightly rubbed against each other. His eyes are sparkling with what looks like tears as he struggles to understand what is happening. But he's looking at me. With his own eyes, he's piercing my soul. My entire being screamed in longing for his warmth, his lips, his tears, his sweet voice while drowning in pleasure. I WANTED HIM. NOW. I want to ravish him inside and out. I want his tears to fall only for me. I WANT HIM TO WANT ME.

I growled, "I won't let you show this face to anyone else. You're MINE." I immediately plant a kiss on his lips, immediately intruding into his mouth. I won't give you up.