A/N: So my muse has stuck with me through the past 24 hours...and usually this is about when she decides to leave me so we'll see where this goes. If my muse leaves me...I think I ended this on a relatively solid note...if she doesn't leave me...there's definitely more in the future for these two. One way to keep my muse around is by submitting reviews. She thrives on them, so if you want more, R&R.
Disclaimer: If you recognize it, it's likely not mine.
Over the next week Blaine and Kurt were closer than ever. They hung out together nearly every day after school and they got closer and closer, but it wasn't long before the thought of Rachel came between them once again. They were talking about it one night while they were watching Titanic, a movie they had both seen at least 50 times a piece. "Rachel called me again last night." Kurt said, nonchalantly. Blaine had stiffened. Since the Rachel Berry Train Wreck Extravaganza occurred there was sort of an unspoken bond between the two that they wouldn't speak about the girl who nearly derailed their friendship.
"Oh? What did she want?" He wasn't sure if Blaine was being polite or not but Kurt decided to tell him the truth anyway.
"Well at first she wanted to thank me for bringing you to the party. Apparently her song writing is doing amazing now and dating a gay guy really helped her figure out what to write about." Blaine snorted while Kurt smirked, knowing that would bring Blaine amusement.
"Well…that's great for her…I guess. Blaine was clearly uncomfortable with the subject of Rachel, if only for the fact that it wasn't too long ago that she nearly destroyed his and Kurt's friendship.
"What's wrong Blaine?" Kurt asked, not sure if he wanted to know the answer.
"I don't know Kurt. I just…fell a little embarrassed over the whole situation. I mean you knew more about me than I did."
"Well Blaine," Kurt began, " You already knew you were gay. You were just confused. I've heard that alcohol can do that to a person. I mean the fact that it's Rachel is a bit embarrassing," Blaine chuckled. "But you're still you." The older boy smiled and wrapped his arm around Kurt in a half hug that had become quite commonplace between the two of them over the past week.
It wasn't long before the part in the movie where Jack starts to sketch Rose naked came on. Blaine scoffed as he said "You know that would never happen."
"Oh sure it would. But the consequences that happen later on would also happen, and probably a bit more severe."
"I guess. But if I were Jack, I don't think I would be so forward with Rose. I mean they only just met. Blaine said, directed more at Kurt than at the conversation in general.
"But they love each other!"
"How do they know? They only just met. How can you fall in love that quickly?"
"Well Blaine, it's not that hard actually…" and Blaine suddenly realized that he stuck his foot in his mouth. He turned to look at Kurt and simply said the first thing that came to mind.
"When?"
"When what?"
"You know what." Blaine glared at him
"Oh…well…umm. Ever wonder why Teenage Dream plays when you call me?" Blaine's eyes went wide almost as if to ask Kurt if he was serious about that confession. "Maybe not that soon, but it wasn't too long afterwards."
"Kurt…why didn't you say anything?"
"Come on Blaine, what was I supposed to say, and when of all times? Before I came to Dalton, I barely knew you. After I came to Dalton I was so swamped with homework and catching up on the readings and the Warblers not to mention trying to adjust to private school. What could I have done? Told you after Warblers practice, in front of all of the freshman who don't understand the meaning of the word 'dismissed' that I liked you and wanted more? Not only would I have been mortified, I would have embarrassed you. I couldn't do that to you. Then this semester started and I as finally caught up, I was finally not the new kid anymore. I wanted to tell you, and then you went on and on about the Gap Attack and Jeremiah. Not to mention the fact that the time I crushed on a guy…it didn't turn out too well."
"What happened?"
"He was straight."
"Ouch. Who was it? Anyone I know?" Blaine wanted to know. At least there would be a little comic humor in what Kurt was about to do.
"Hey FINN," he yelled out to his step brother. Blaine tried suppressing a laugh by coughing, but ended up with him choking a bit as Finn came into the living room from the Kitchen.
"Yea dude?"
"Sorry, never mind." Kurt said with as straight a face as possible as Blaine was stifling every cough and laughter that threatened to escape his lips.
"Okay…" and Finn walked back into the Kitchen to resume eating.
"Oh my gosh! Are you serious? You had a crush on your brother?"
"Step-Brother- and this was before our folks got together."
"Oh my, that's classic. So what happened?"
"He started dating Rachel."
It was then that Blaine felt the full impact of Kurt's anger over the Rachel Berry Train Wreck Extravaganza. Rachel always stole everything from Kurt, solos, awards and even guys. Though Blaine wasn't technically Kurt's to steal, it still hit him like a sack of bricks. Before Blaine knew what he was doing he had put both his arms around Kurt and pulled him into the biggest hug the two of them had yet to experience together.
"I'm sorry Kurt." The younger boy looked up alarmed. The first overly affectionate gesture Blaine had initiated between the two of them was amazing, and suddenly he was sorry about it?
"It's just a hug Blaine." Blaine looked confused for a minute before realizing that the two of them were not on the same page.
"No Kurt. I'm not sorry about the hug. I'm sorry about how much last week hurt you. I didn't understand why you were so upset but I do now."
"Blaine, don't. Don't do this." Kurt desperately didn't want to hear the words about to spill out of his friend's mouth. He didn't want his feelings reciprocated out of pity.
"But why Kurt? What do you think I'm going to say?"
"Honestly, I feel you could say one of twenty billion things right now, but I don't want you to say any of them out of pity or because you feel sorry for me. Please don't put me through that Blaine."
"You know you're amazing right? Nothing I, or anyone else says is going to change that. Why are you so scared?"
"Like you, I also don't want to screw things up between us. If you say something because you feel obligated to, it might screw up our friendship." And it'll hurt me more than it'll help me anyway. he thought to himself.
"Kurt, you're confusing me. I thought you wanted more?" Why wasn't Blaine understanding this? Kurt wondered.
"Not if you feel guilted into it because of something we both agreed to put behind us."
"Kurt I don't say things out of pity or because I feel guilty. If I did, I would have approached you, long before Rachel accosted me at the coffee shop that day to apologize. What I'm about to say is not out of pity, guilt, or anything of the sort. I am sorry that I hurt you and I do hope that you'll feel better after I say what I'm about to say, but in no way am I doing it, to try and alleviate my conscience. Understand?"
Kurt nodded his head, not really sure what Blaine was about to say.
"You were right that day in the coffee shop after the Gap Attack. We've always been honest with each other. Brutally honest in fact if last week proved anything. So I'm going to be completely honest with you, and hope you understand. When I said I don't know what I'm doing when it comes to romance, I meant it. Clearly the Gap Attack proved that. But I also learned something that day about romance that I never thought I would. What you did for me that day, was really romantic." Blaine whispered, looking straight into Kurt's eyes, and Kurt back. Desperate to listen to everything about to be said.
"You cared about me so much, that you went along with a completely insane plan so I could serenade someone else. Not many people would have been able to do that. Had I been in your situation I probably would have bolted but you stuck in there, for me. You have no idea how much that means to me."
"I couldn't just not do it Blaine…not after I spoke up for you in Warbler's practice." Blaine smiled, recognizing the patheticness of that excuse for what it was.
"Yes you could have. You could have pulled the studying card. You could have pulled the family emergency card. Hell you could have pulled the my dad grounded me card, but you didn't."
"Don't think I didn't think about it…" Kurt muttered while Blaine chuckled.
"I've no doubt, but in the end you were there. Another thing I realized that day was that we were getting very close and looking back on all the times we spent together, I saw that there was a lot of flirtation there that I missed because I didn't think about anything beyond friendship between us. I wanted to be the person you looked up to, the person you came to for advice, or help. The one who'd show you what courage was, or help you stand up to bullies. However, even I have come to realize that it's not enough anymore. I like you Kurt. To borrow from the lameness that is the middle school gossip mill, I like you, like you."
Kurt was grinning like a Cheshire cat. He couldn't believe it. It only took a month for Blaine to make this declaration and Kurt was over the moon about it.
"Now I was serious when I said I didn't want to screw things up between us. So do you think we could take things slow? That is….if you still want me?"
Looking at his best friend slash love interest with all the joy he could muster he adjusted himself so he could lean in and give Blaine the first real hug of their relationship. The two of them relished in the feel of the other one and when they finally pulled back Kurt stared longingly into Blaine's eyes as he said in a whisper "Of course I still want you. I'll always want you." With that Blaine took his new boyfriend's face into his hands and leaned in and placed the sweetest kiss the two of them could have possibly imagined on his lips.
