He felt a micheivious grin creep up on him as he stared dreamily at his lovers backside as he bent to pick up somthing off the floor.
"Hmm," William whipped round at the humming noise. "y'no I did'nt get t'see the back of ye much las' night,I'm pleasantly suprised."
Will look down at him with a sad smile which turned quickly turned into a look of inner battle. Then Jack noticed the breeches clutched in William's hands. "Where ye goin?" he frowned and propped himself up on an elbow. "Wha's wrong love?"
Will blinked. The blanket wrapped around Jack had now fallen to reveal the expanse of the pirates tanned chest and Will found him self entranced with it. Like everything else about the pirate his chest was something of a mystery. It was dotted with scars and tatoos. Will wondered breifly where the two black circles on the left hand side of his chest had come from before he shook the question out of his mind. Jack cocked his head to the side his eyes narrowed searchingly but he waited nonetheless.
"Jack... I..."
"Ye regret it dont you?"
"What? No!"
"I get it Will" he sighed ignoring him and he turned his back to him huffing stared at the back was covered with black inked writting. Will suddenly felt himself moving forward and lying behind the captain. Hesitantly he reached his hand out and started to trace the letters with his fingers. He smiled when goose bumps appeared on the skin.
" What is it Jack?" he asked quietly.
"The Desiderata" Jack replied monotonly. "An ancient poem. I live me life somewhat by it."
The futher down Will read the futher he fell for the man. He realised the poem was exactly him.
"You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here." Jack whispered as he felt Will's finger skim the phrase. "Got me through some tough times that line"
Will stopped what he was doing and his heart skipped a beat. What was that supposed to mean?
"Jack..." Jack was silent. "You know I dont regret last night right? Not even for a second." I Will wrapped an arm around his lovers waist a hand resting on his abdomen and felt Jack relax just slightly.
"But..." Jack voice was barley audable and he shut his eyes tight and buried his face in the pirates dreadlocked hair.
"I'm enganged Elizabeth remember." Jack tensed again as his heart shattered. Unbeknown to Will his eyes gazed into the distance as he tried to hold back tears.
"Jack I love her..."
"You should be with her." He suddenly stated.
"What?"
"You love er right?" he said sounded very winded.
"Yes but..."
"Then I want ye to be with er." Will stared like a lost puppy at the head in front of him.
"Is that what you want me to do?" Will said slightly secretly took in a deep breath and said as firmly as he could.
"Yes."
Will blinked at him for a moment before he stood up. He dressed slowly and then with one last look at the back of his half crazy lover he left.
Jack lay in silence for a long time afterward blinking back tears and regreting what he had just done. He should have fought for him, told him he loved him. Or at least looked into them gergeous eyes one more time.
But the more he thought, the more Jack was glad he had thrown Will this lifeline. He cared so deeply for the boy and he loved him so much. He couldnt have lived knowing that he was getting in the way of his happiness of him and his dearly beloved. Will just got caught up in the passion of last night. The whole 'I love you' was said when he was in a lust driven state of mind. Will hadnt truly meant it. Jack shook himself from the depressing thoughts and got up and dressed quickly.
One thing only he alowed into his thoughts.
Rum.
Will was completley confused. He sneaked quietly back to the crew quaters relived that Elizabeth was still asleep her long hair lay behind her on the hammock. Will sat down on the chair next to her and gazed at her face. True he did love her, dearly infact but Jack had not let him finish. He was meant to say " Yes but... I love you more Jack. So much more." but instead Will's heart broke as his beautiful Jack told him he wanted him to be with another.
Will was of course going to comply with his loves wishes. If that is what Jack wants then he with undoubtably do it. For Jack must not love him. Or he would have said nothing about Elizabeth. Maybe it was the rum that made Jack say the things he did. Will did'nt know.
But he would do what Jack wanted of him. He would marry Elizabeth. "Will..." Will snapped out of his daydream as a soft higher pitched voice spoke to put on a forced smile and she smiled back. But William felt a heavyness in the pit of his stomach.
She just wasnt Jack.
"CAP'IN! JACK!"
Jack jolted from his rum induced sleep on his desk. His head should have spun but he was so used to the effects by now that it didnt come.
Gibbs skidded to a halt in front of him and surveyed the Captain. "Ye look awful." he said with a frown.
Jack grinned sheepishly. "Ahh Mr Gibbs. Ye are a shinnin beacon of light in my astoundinly average life." "Jack theres a storm."
"Just peachy mate. Lot of them latley yano?" But then the ship gave a violent shake.
"Oh." Jack realised. he was up and on deck within seconds.
He arrived to a state of chaos people running everwhere slipping and sliding. The sound of thunder resonated through the air. Jacks blood ran cold at the size of the violent waves. Already dripping wet he ran to the edge on the ship looking over in the distance.
"WERE ALREADY ARIVIN AT OUR DESTINATION! WE CAN HOLD HER THAT LONG!" he shouted out his crew. He was greeted with sevral relived "AYE CAPTIN"'s.
He rushed silently to the helm of the Pearl on the way passing Will. They shared a gaze. But Jack snapped himself out of it and shooed Cotton out of the way to take the wheel. He viciously steered his ship over the sudden waves treatening to consume them. He barked orders at his crew. And at one point he thought that they were going to make it but then abruptly a forceful wave threw him sideward and he smashed his head hard againt the wheel. He landed on the floor and the last thing he saw was the dark, colossal wave that finally covered them, before he was lost to unconciousness.