Chapter 1: And The Journey Start
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It is belong to the great Shonda
This is my first fanfiction. And I need someone who can help as a beta and run the story with me.
English is not my main language.
Hope you all enjoy the story
Calzona for the end...
Enjoy!
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~Tuesday~
Arizona walk through the peds hall, and slipping to near unvacant oncall room. She just finished two long surgery and her prosthetic getting hurt any minute. She choose to slide down on near wall and rest her head while close her eyes. She's been bothering by her eyes sight lately, maybe because of her overload case and unstopable surgery in a week, after she fly back from new york, her job getting load more and more without mention her one and only attending peds in difficult position from beating cases and facing a trial in a few days. She is ready to take a nap.
But the door silently open,
"Dr. Robbins", De Luca walk inside slowly while looking around for his roommate. When he found his roommate sit down on the floor he kneeling in front of her , "I'm sorry i just, i know you are tired, I was seen you in bump head in surgery door before and i think... I just care"
"Thank you De Luca, I know you are care". Arizona laugh, "I though no one see my stupid scene before", she get up with De Luca helping and walk to the near bed. "Can you...", without she finish the word De Luca handed her prosthesis care kit. "How do you know"
"Sorry again, but roommate knows sometimes what you need", De Luca sat beside Arizona
"Stop saying sorry De Luca, I didn't angry I just... It's been a long time someone offering some help to me", Arizona facing him and stare to her roommate eyes, "I know I can't tell you this but I know too that you are a good person, same as Alex. But bad time and wrong time make you both in unexpected situation. Whatever you choose about the suing. I choose to wish both of you can see from another perspective and finish it like a gentleman. I'm happy you recovered well and the wound heal fast", she smile weakly to him and smack his arm, "now get out because I need to took off my pants and I don't need you to see it"
De Luca jump and run to the door, "Thank you, your word and your trust it means a lot to me", he smile, "and you should check your forehead. It's swollen a bit from your bumping to the door", his voice mocking lightly and Arizona throw bandage roll right after his close the door.
"thank you too deluca", Arizona smile to herself, she knows she likes deluca, its like find a younger brother. He grown a little bit on Arizona heart, even the first week they lived together, she amazed how this man can adjust quickly on her attitude, and get along with Sofia. How he shown up in his custody trial, and silently care with her with left some dinner when she comeback from hospital and even waking up early to help breakfast with Sofia.
Arizona put off her prosthetic and change her bandage while massage slowly the swollen place. She is tired but she choose to work more rather than go home with empty one, without Sofia.
She knows her decision to send sofia to callie is because she don't want to see her ex wife sad and feel empty. For her callie happiness is the best things that can happen now. She remember exactly new york moment a weeks ago.
-flashback-
Arizona hold sofia hand tightly they just arrived in new york and ready to headed callie new apartment in new york.
"you wont lived with us mommy?"sofia walk beside arizona
"I'm sorry baby but you know i have a job in seattle, but i promise, without you realized it will be my time to meet you", arizona kneeling in front of sofia and kiss her head "ready to meet mama?"sofia nodding happily and they walk to the door that arizona recognized the number its callie apartment based on her text before they arrived.
Arizona knocking and smile to sofia, she heard familiar voice from inside and she feels nervous suddenly and her heart racing fast. Like butterfly on her stomach, she is nervous meeting callie again. And ready to throw out her best smile to her ex wife.
But her smile dissapeared suddenly when the door widely open, its not her beautiful ex wife, its penny, penny that she knows was break up with callie before she left seattle. One of the reason she give up sofia to callie because she didnt want to see callie sad and alone in new york.
"Penny" arizona try to sound normal but her voice out like disappointed and instead she give her hand to shake hand
" hi ...nice to meet you again" penny hesitated at first and choose to kneeling after hand shake "hello sofia"
"mommy why is penny here"sofia ask by nudge her mother shirt
"is callie?" arizona failed again to control her voice
"she is inside"without waiting her mother permit sofia run inside to find her mama, no longer until laugher sound loudky from inside the room, and sofia chatter voice to callie, awkward in front door cannot resist. Callie appear and try to smile weakly.
"arizona, come in"callie know awkward situation in front door, arizona step inside and bring sofia bag to her, arizona try to smile normally but she knows it once again failed. "penny can you take sofia to see her room" callie knows she need a moment to her ex wife.
"sure" and callie took sofia hand and walk inside
Callie close the front door and see arizona with sad eyes, she knows she lie to arizona. And she need to explain it.
"When?" arizona hang her head weakly and choose to not see callie eyes but her shoes, she feels hurt, she knows she didnt have a right to ask since when callie dating penny again, but she choose to give up sofia to be with her mama because she cant see sad callie and unhappy.
"not long after i arrived here, she contact me and we choose to try again. I believed in second chance", the last word struckt arizona and callie brain, she remember she is the one who didnt believed in second chance and give up on their marriage. Arizona head snap up and now her eyes bore to callie eyes with anger, sad, and disappointed sight.
Arizona close her eyes to take a deep breath, she hold on to her daughter trolley, callies word make her head dizzy.
"ari i didn't mean"callie try to reach arizona hand, she knows her word hurt arizona. Arizona avoid callie hand and choose to take a step back
"like i told you callie, sofia deserve two happy mother" arizona take a deep breath and try to control her emotion and put it on the bay. She open her eyes and smile to callie, "now i'm here to help you set up sofia room and school and thats what a mother should be right?"arizona hold callie awkwardly and pull out smile again.
Sofia run back to them and cheer up loudly "mommy come on see my room i have an awesome view from the window"
With the long breath arizona close her eyes and convince herself that she can face this weekend in new york and be the best mother that her daughter want. Her daughter, her world, her one and only sunshine. Her callie, her ex wife happiness is priority for her. Two of her sunshine happiness is number one. So she decide to bury all her hurt and feeling deeper. She open her eyes and smile widely to sofia. "so tell me where i can help with the magic hand that i have to make your room like fairytale"she kiss sofia hair and smile to callie "lead the way callie".
Arizona cheeks wet by her tears, she feels tired, she feels alone, she feels unlove. She know maybe this is what should she paid, for cheating of her lovable wife, who being patience on her side. Her friend, no longer reach up by the email but she realized its because its her who never reply teddy email and maybe teddy stop sending after arizona never reply back. Her other friend is make a distance since her mistake and april never openly said its ok after that. And around her now only her evilspawn attending karev, her wingman boss webber and her italian boy roommate.
Sometimes she feels meredith grey is a lucky women, even her husband died, she still have step sister, sister in law, and even someone who adored her and ready to aim when meredith give the sign yes.
Arizona finish her clean up and lay back and take a nap, wish her bother eyes will get well soon after rest enough.
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Catherine Avery sat on the corner of meeting room. Richard on her right. And Miranda Bailey on the head chair. Amelia Shepherd appear.
"Chief you paged?" Amelia step inside the room
" Yes please take a seat, we waiting for another", Bailey pointed to one of the chair
No longer after that, Amelia, Owen, Jackson, Maggie, Meredith, April coming and take their seat around.
"everybodys here?" Bailey ask around
"where is robbins?" Webber ask to owen
"she's napping somewhere, nurse said she bump the door before in surgery room. I paged her already" april answered webber
"bump the door?"amelia ask whisperly to april
"yes, its like she didnt see the door at all. So funny"april laugh, "ouch..." jackson hit her arm to make her silent .
Amelia frown her forehead, she feels disturbed by the word. But try to put aside and back to the meeting.
"so we all gather here because we received an invitation from WHO to attend International conference of medical school and research", catherine avery shown up the letter to everyone
"its so big and wow", jackson smile widely
"yes it is and they ask us to send the best doctor that lead the teaching session in this last 3 years"webber tapping his finger on the table "we should choose whose between us is ready to give the speech"
The meeting room door open and arizona enter "im sorry im late"and sit near amelia. "what happen?" she ask amelia and amelia give the letter "oh wow its the day after tomorrow" arizona know its a big opportunity for their hospital.
"are you ok?"amelia whisper to arizona "i " she decide to not talk about what she heard before. She dont want go push far arizona. So she put down the subject and just smile "nothing"
"sometimes i dont understand neurosurgeon" arizona mocked amelia and back to the letter
"ladies please attention"bailey snap on amelia and arizona who just giggled .
"its so impromptu chief. We cant prepared that fast" meredith speak up "and we have a big case head up tomorrow and the day after tomorrow"
People suddenly chatter around and noisy, they panic and excited at the same time.
"ok listen people, i know you all have a big case. I suggest we bring our latest presentation. I know its so impromptu but we will give the best research that we have", webber stand up "i choose and to attend, the reason is what derek shepherd left the research and dr. Pierce will attend the cardio seminary in there"
"i know chief, christina will be there too", meredith say while avoiding owen sight "and poor me cant go becaue i have big surgery the day after tomorrow"
"my opinion is maybe they should take one intern that will learn from the seminary too" owen speak up to webber
"i agree to "catherine avery raise her hand "and too should go"
"oh no mam, i prefer not going. My children need me here and when alex is not around there is no people who will take care of them. And i already suffering with flying and back from new york. I even need pill sleep to make me sleep through the flight" arizona put her head on her hand on the table "i dont want any more flight"
"stop being dramatic" amelia whisper while caress arizona back
"did she take it?" arizona whisper amelia
"of course not we wont fall for your dramatic scene" bailey smile mock to arizona
"got it" arizona back to straight her body and smile back to amelia who look her with rolling eyes
"you dont need to worry about peds . We decide to not fired but give him probation to work hard and diciplines"catherine avery show the remission letter "one hour ago de luca put down the lawsuits and agree to hearing peace with karev"
"yay..."all of them cheer up and standing and hold each other.
"but people...", bailey cut them, "its still a long way down, and a lot of thing go finish. So dont you all cheer up like children. And alex will keep need to compulsory reporting to the police until this case is closed"
"back to our meeting subject",webber clear his throat. And they back to their seat "its fix the team"
"huhm chief but...", arizona interupted him
"its in vancouver ", webber cut her "the conference its in vancouver"
"so it means you can drive to there" catherine avery give the solution
"my opinion is deluca is going with them. As head of surgery i dont want three women just drive there", owen know exactly the same feeling when he let go team when the airplane crash happen. "its the second time i let the doctor team to flight out there"
"dont worry . This time is safe. And no more unsecure flight like that. So lets fixing the team. , , , . 4 of you should be there on 6pm Thursday night." webber wrapping the meeting
"and dont forget to bring up your last research. And bring some budgeting report, last time i heard The Bayh Doyle Act looking for some project research on leading hospital" catherine said and handed some brochures
"like bayh funded grants?" owen took the brochures and smile widely
"yes indeed so lets work hard and be the best for the hospital", catherine sat up and walk to the door
They sat up and say yes together, while arizona sat up slowly and try to blink her eyes tiredly. Amelia pay attention to arizona movement. And arizona touch amelia hand and ask her to stop move out. Until only two of them stay on the room.
"sorry amelia is there any eyelashes on my eyes, its bothering me", arizona blinking to amelia and open her eyes wide
amelia bend a bit and took out her flashpen check around the corner of arizona eyes. "nop nothing, maybe you just tired", amelia put back the flashpen but when her finger pull out from arizona eyes, her eyes catch some red dot on arizona white area. "did you feel migraine or hard head lately?"
"never, what happen? You find any dust or eyelashes in my eyes?"arizona blinking rapidly again
"its some red dot on your whitey. I suggest you really should put eyes pack and take more sleep."she convince arizona
"well maybe i should wear my glasses. But sofia hate it", arizona laugh "i looks like old sad women"
"no you dont." amelia walk with her to out from the meeting room. "you finish today?"
"yes i will go home and take some rest. Tomorrow is my day off but i will finish up some case. So we met on the parking lot thursday morning?" amelia nod as yes and arizona walk to the elevator.
Amelia saw arizona when she slip to elevator, she close her eyes. She dont want to think negatively. But if arizona eyes getting bother day by day, she will insist her to take some test and CT. But right now she have an important thing to face. She might be pregnant.
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~Wednesday~
Amelia walk slowly to locker room. She need to go home and sleep. And plan to take pregnancy test after she tell owen about her suspicion. When she enter locker room, no one inside so she change her clothes freely. But she heard whimper voice in bathroom. She walk to the door and open it to found arizona sit near the closets.
"Arizona are you ok?" She kneeling in front of her
"Im not ok am i?" Arizona start crying
"You said yesterday today is your day off why you..."
"Its hard amelia...i was... nobody at home... i called sofia around... i forget she is not here",
Amelia move closer to arizona and hold her tight, "you are the incredible women that i ever meet arizona, you can face it"
"I cant go home, i choose to go back here and work senseless until i broke down before you coming", arizona sobbing more
"Calm down, or you will hurt your head later", amelia caress arizona hair, she though to herself, she adore this women, how arizona never shown her vulnerability, being professional in workplace. Amelia herself didnt have much friend for now, and she can imagine being in arizona position. "You are not alone, you have your roommate, or april or me, we are care about you".
They stay in that position for a couple minutes, until april broke the situation.
"I dont mind seing this picture, but maybe other people will make some stupid gossips", april standin near them.
"Oh shut up", amelia pull off from arizona and stand up to hit aprils arm,
"She not going home?" April ask amelia refer to arizona
"Nop", answer amelia while fixing her clothes
"Shes stay from yesterday?" Again april ask annoyingly
"Yup", answer amelia
"Oh god, you two didnt make it better", arizona try to stand up while amelia help her
"But you like two of us right?" April wink to amelia
"Oohh i love you two", arizona hold april and amelia "thank you to try to cheer me up", arizona kiss amelia's and april's cheek
"Eeeewwwww..." said amelia and april together.
"So robbins because its still early, lets go to eat breakfast in my favorite place, they serve sweet pancake. What do you think kepner?"
"Im in", answer april enthusiastic
"Never say no to goody..." with that they walk together, they laugh and continue teasing each other, arizona know for sure, her friend trying so hard to make her smile, to make her stay on track. And she is grateful to have them for today.
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Callie wake up with grumpy, its the second time she and penny argue this week. They are arguing almost all about the small things. She love penny, or maybe she thinks she love penny. The one that she know for sure her mind never stop thinking about arizona. And lately Sofia getting cranky always asking her to call and video call to her mommy. But not just that, sofia still resist to call penny her mother. Sometimes sofia still hesitate to pick up by penny from school, she choose to ride with her friends parents who lived near their apartment.
Penny is a good women, but sometimes she is too hard and stubborn. Callie realize ages diffrences between her and penny one of the reason their emotion is on the edge.
Callie walk to her drawer and choose her clothes for today when two hand sneak on her waist and warm lips kiss her shoulder.
"I'm sorry..." penny put her head on callie's shoulder "it's so childish and i just... I need you to put more attention to me"
Callie let a heavy sigh, "penny, we are grown women...", she cant believe what she heard just now, her girlfriend ask more attention, like teenager to her mom. But callie try to put aside her negative comment that almost loudly spell from her mouth. She turn her body and kiss penny's lips "i know... I'm sorry too. Adjusting schedule is so hard, and im trying to balance everything, sofia, hospital, you my love and home"
"I like that word", penny smile widely "home...our home"
"so stop being cranky like sofia baby." callie smooch around penny face "i love you"
"i love you too callie. Let me waking up sofia and you can take your long shower that you like." penny walk to the door and smile for the last "you want me to accompany?"
"sure you know that i love your company but miss sofia can wake up soon."
"got it", with that penny close the door and callie enter the shower.
Callie spend 30minutes in shower before she drying and right on she step her foot to bedroom she heard sofia yelling and crying. Callie in hurry change her comfy clothes and walk to sofia room. She found it empty but she heard penny and sofia banter in bathroom.
"what happen?"callie scanning the bathroom, sofia clothes scattered everywhere while penny standing hold sofias towell.
"little miss sofia tell me she want to take a bath, but didnt want me to help her. Throw a tantrum like little baby" penny picking up the clothes one by one
" I'm not a baby... And i dont like you to accompany" sofia yelled to penny
"sofia stop..." callie close her eyes, she should choose penny or sofia to stand and she always hate the moment, and now she choose penny "penny just want to help you baby. You shouldnt act like that"she walk to sofia and caress her hair while her eyes search for pennys eyes and mouthed 'im sorry'
Pennys pager blaring. She walk to sofias room and back with the pager "its er. I should be going. Trauma coming"callie walk to penny and hold her tight and whisper
"im sorry about sofia" she didnt want to show the affection in front of sofia. But she want sofia knows that her mother already choose.
"its ok baby. I will bring dinner for us"penny kiss callies lips and walk to sofia to caress her hair. "i love you two"
After send pennys work. Callie back to her daughter room and help the girl drying.
"sofia how many times mama told you. Penny is our family too now"
"but i dont like her mama" sofia start pouting
"mama love her. And she will be our family sooner or later"
"she is not mommy" sofia yelled and her word freeze callie, "i want mommy" and sofia start crying
Callie pull sofia up to her arm and put her on bed while hold her, callie heart broken everytime sofia crying for arizona "lets call mommy?"
And with that sofia stop crying and nodding anthusiast. She jump from bed and pull out cellphone that arizona give to sofia to use it everytime she missed the blondie. Callie refused at the first, she think its too early for sofia to have cellphone. She really want to talk about it to arizona, but how sofia kept the phone under her wing, callie know for sure it would be wasting time.
They dialed arizona number, connected. But no answer. And again and again. Arizona never like this.
"no answer mama?" sofia ask
"maybe mommy saving a life now. How about you change into your cute pink shirt and get ready to go out with mama, maybe we can buy some ice cream. Mama will call aunt mer first"with that callie walk outside and hear sofia yelled ok behind her. Callie walk to her room and sit on the bed. She dialed merediths number.
After the fifth tone, meredith voice rang to callies ear.
"hello callie... Whats up?", meredith voice sounds in hurry
"did i disturbing you mer? I just try to call arizona but no answer, maybe you saw her in hospital?"
"i will scrubs in 5 minutes. I think maybe she in the middle of operating young boy, it supposed her day off but theres traumas coming. Shes ok callie...", meredith try to assure callie
"thank you mer, i will call you again later, text me when you finish"
"ok callie", with that the phone call ended
Callie walk out from her room when sofia cellphone ringing, it's a text from arizona
~mommy in OR sweetheart. TTYL. Love you. Be good to mama and penny. Sweetkiss~
With that tears rundown callies cheek. Did she make a right decision? Why this women have a big heart?
And again...Callie replay her magic mantra over and over again... "I'm happy with penny and sofia by my side".
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