Rin had been pacing for hours. Sesshomaru was late again, he seemed to make a habit of it and she never knew why. Rin's trust in Sesshomaru had been unstable since the mess with Sara and she constantly fought with herself over trust in Sesshomaru. With a sigh she collapsed onto the bed. She rested her head in her hands and contemplated on her actions. When he came in hours later, he noticed his cold dinner on the table and sighed, he had done it again. He dropped his things off at the table and went upstairs only to find Rin putting together a bag. "Rin…I'm sorry, I got caught up at work." He said as he made his way into the room.
"I can't do this anymore Sesshomaru, ever since the incident with Sara, I can't trust you. There's always something in the way, there's always something getting through but it's not me, It's you. Sometimes ignorance rings true, but hope is not in what I know, it's not in me, It was supposed to be in you." Rin said as she zipped up her bag and walked by him out the door. Sesshomaru heard the door slam and her car leave.
He sat on the bed quietly, no matter what he did he was always hurting the girl who was always by his side and it was never intentional. He decided to let Rin do her thinking alone. If she chose to stay it would be purely her decision, not one influenced by him. He pulled off his work clothes and crawled into his cold bed where he smelled Rin all over the sheets. He felt his heart breaking and wondered if they would ever get past their situation.
Rin stared at the reflection in the pond behind Kagome's house. Kagome had made hot chocolate and sat at the table waiting for Rin. "What happened Rin? I doubt Sesshomaru cheated, that is not his style, he flipped over Inuyasha when he was caught with Kikyo after he mated with me." Kagome explained.
"Kagome, is it wrong for me to find peace when I'm confused? To find hope when I'm let down? Somehow everything I need somehow is never in me, It's always in Sesshomaru." Rin explained, Kagome smiled, she experienced what every demon-human couple did. Confusion, loss of faith and she could not fault Rin at all.
"Rin, everybody knows Sesshomaru would be a fool to ever let go of you. He may act as if you two are better off alone and moving on but deep down he never means to harm you Rin. If you had your own place he'd be banging on your door, spilling his pride all over the place and begging for a second chance. We all know this." Kagome explained. Just as Rin was about to reply, Sesshomaru's car pulled into the driveway making Rin take off into the bathroom in the house.
Sesshomaru knocked on the door, "Rin I know you're in there, and while you can make me wait, I'm not going away. It feels like hell for me Rin, to smell you all over my home and not have you there, I can't blame you for being mad but please, I will do anything to make it up to you." He said, a shred of hopelessness filling his heart. Rin opened the door quietly and met his gaze with her own.
"Rin…..scream at me, hit me, let it out. I can fix it just tell me how. I will always admit I am wrong as long as I can have you back. If you want to call me names, do it, I will handle any name you call me. I would never wish to harm you or hurt you. I know it's my fault Rin and I am sorry."
Rin walked into his open arms and held him close. "We used to talk about everything Sesshomaru. How can I help you if you never talk to me. Part of me wishes I was cold as stone, then I wouldn't feel a thing, if I didn't have this heart, then I wouldn't know the sting of the rain. I wouldn't feel so all alone."
Sesshomaru pulled her closer and kissed the top of her head. "I'll be honest Rin, my bed feels empty without you. Your heartbeat helps me sleep, your breath soothes my soul. You're all I've ever needed Rin. Always." He whispered.
Rin hugged him closer. "I love you more than I knew I could ever love someone. If this whole thing isn't ever my fault, tell me it's not my fault." Sesshomaru pulled back long enough to kiss Rin gently. Rin's tears spilled over as he wiped them away.
"Rin, it is never your fault. Do not ever think that. In fact, its why I came to see Inuyasha." He pulled back and looked at Inuyasha who was impatient as ever. "I need you to take a few extra hours, you are always complaining you never get enough. I get too many and my mate suffers for it." Inuyasha nodded in acceptance.
Sesshomaru smiled in thanks and escorted Rin out. Rin got into Sesshomaru's car, while Inuyasha and Kagome took hers back to the house, Inuyasha following in his to make sure Kagome got home safely. Sesshomaru drove to their favorite area, Their secluded grove beneath the Wisteria tree. After parking the car, they got out and walked to the tree, sitting beneath it.
Rin laid on her side as Sesshomaru pulled her into his body. Rin felt his hands slide up under her shirt to caress her smooth skin. Leaning up she met his lips with her own in a hungry dance. He rolled on top of her and ground into her gently, loving the way she clung to him while her pants filled his ears. He leaned up to slide a hand into her jeans to caress her wet heat, pressing into her folds to massage her clit. Rin moaned into Sesshomaru's kiss as he swallowed every sound she made.
He leaned up again to pull her jeans off completely. Rin parted his robes enough to free his erection. "I can't wait Sesshomaru." She whispered into his kiss, just as he was about to slide into her, his phone rang. Groaning he looked at who was calling.
"Rin I have to answer this, it's my father, probably asking me where I am, I am going to tell him what I think." He answered his phone. Rin, unhappy with the interruption, pulled his hips down, sliding him into her. Sesshomaru groaned softly.
"No father, It's only Rin…..well…..I have been neglecting…." He started as he let out another groan while Rin moved her hips up and down along his heated length. Sesshomaru leaned down and kissed her quickly to smother her cries. He leaned up again, "Father, I have to go…." He almost dropped the phone as she rolled her hips against him. She whined before grabbing his phone.
"Inutaisho we are busy call later." She said before hanging up. Sesshomaru smiled and thrust harder into her. Rin whimpered as she gripped his lower back. Sesshomaru ran his hands along her sides before gripping her waist more tightly. He held her in place for his frantic and hard thrusts. Rin slid her hands up his back to bury them in his hair as she arched her back, crying out as wave upon wave of release set her free from the sensual torture Sesshomaru placed on her body.
Sesshomaru thrust a few more times before reaching his own much needed release as he whined softly in Rin's ear. She slid her hands along his back soothingly as she rolled them over so she could rest her head on his chest. "I love you Sesshomaru." She whispered as she fell asleep under the crescent moon.
Sesshomaru looked down at her before kissing her head. "I love you as well Rin. Tonight was just the beginning of what waits for you in my true form. I hope you can handle me during my upcoming mating season." He whispered before joining her in sleep.