AN. I really hope you enjoy this chapter, and I have to tell you REMEMBER HALLOWEEN IS IMPORTANT! No, not in real life. I mean in the story. Halloween is when everything just gets kicked into gear. I wrote the last chapter while I was listening to music, and I'm going to do it with this chapter too, mostly the song Zombie by the Cranberries. I love that song, it is really awesome. Anyway, I hope you like this chapter, and remember HALLOWEEN! Halloween is whe Edward, and you, find out what Bella is, and about Alexis, and all the others, and it's when the action starts. It's a really exciting night. Okay, so this starts right were it left off.
The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.
I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you
Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels
Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?
Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions
Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in?
Times a precious thing to waste, but friends are more precious
Kiss me, I'm Emo!
The sad truth is that most evil is done by people who never make up their minds to be good or evil.
The saddest aspect of life right now is that science gathers knowledge faster than society gathers wisdom.
Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, he would never have been able to find these words.
I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind,
I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you
I landed, curling my wings in tighter to my body. Tears streamed down my face. The other five waited, and I dropped to my knees. "I did it!" I sobbed. Jennifer lifted me, and pushed me against a tree behind me. "Oh yes? Then what The Hell Is This?!" She screamed, waving a Cd in my face. The words To Edward, Love Bella flashed. "It's nothing! I just didn't want to hurt him!" She stepped back, and I fell forward. "Fine, but your lucky I took this. If he saw it, you would be in big trouble." I rolled my eyes. Her threats were always empty.
I stood up, and hugged Allysa. She was standing closest to me, and was the only one who really understood what I was going through. She too had gone through it. I wiped my cheeks, getting rid of the excess tears. The pain was just as bad this time, but double with guilt. Edward really thought I didn't love him, and I couldn't tell him otherwise.
I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you . It was so true. I walked back towards the house we had together. I hadn't joined them until recently, but it was already partially mine. I already knew all about our powers, and our abilities, but that still couldn't distract me from the pain. This time, I was gone, and I couldn't go back. I ran up the stairs of the house, not caring where I was going, and managed to get into my bedroom, and lock the door before I sank to the floor. Tetars ran down my cheeks, as I sobbed.
I didn't bother to look around the room, I couldn't. I knew everything would remind me of Edward. This time around, the pain was worse, I knew Edward loved me, but he didn't. He thought I hated him. Guilt weighted heavily on my mind, pressing down on me from all sides. I screamed. I vaguely heard knocking against the door "Bella! Let me in!" It was Allysa. "Bella! Unlock the door!" Bree was with her. I pushed my back harder against the door, welcoming the small pain. It was better than the pain in my chest. I looked up vaguely, and through the haze of my tears, I saw shelves against the walls, each lined with Cd's.
I jerked forward, wrapping my arms around my chest, trying to hold myself together. I heard a click, and knew they had managed to unlock the door. I flew backwards, slamming the door completely shut. "Bella!" Allysa and Bree protested. "GO AWAY!" I screamed, long and loud. "Fine, fine!" They shouted, and I heard them run down the stairs. I was truely alone.
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That night, I jolted awake. I sat up in the large bed I had seen earlier. How had I gotten here? A soft knock soon sounded against the door. I sighed. "Come in." The door opened. The other five walked inside, and sat down. Following her was the little girl, I had met only once before, Amanda's best friend, Emily's little cousin, a baby by the name of Claire (AN. If any of that is wrong, I am very sorry, and I know that this doens't happen until later, but it's happening now in my story.)
Holding her, was a boy, a friend, Quil Ateara. My mouth dropped. "Wait! Mandy! Emily is the Emily from the reservation?!" "Yeah, um how do you know her?" Wow this was going to be confusing. "She's just my best friend's, alpha's, fiance!" I half-yelled. "Wait, alpha? Your best friend is one of the wolves?" I rolled my eyes. "YES!" Then it hit me with searing pain. Edward. How could this happen? How could I let it happen? "Who?" Mandy asked almost silently. "Jacob Black." I whispered, afraid to speak louder, afraid it would make the already heart-wrenching pain worse.
Mandy's eyes widened.
(AN. I'M SORRY! I know I am evil, but I don't hate him, I really don't! NOT Since I read Breaking Dawn!) Tears formed in her eyes. Quil turned away, clutching Claire to his chest. "B..Bella, Jacob died. He was killed by the newborns in Seattle." Thsi was the perfect day. First my heart shattered, the pieces, all but one, cast out into the wind. Then when I thought the intial pain was complete, that last little piece died. I jerked forward once more, wrapping my arms even tighter around my waist. "Then what do I have...?" I cried out. Allysa interrupted me, "to live for?" I nodded, tears pouring down my pale, heartbroken face. "Let us show you Isabella, you have plenty to live for. The world. It's time we explained your purpose to you. Come with us." Jenny said. I nodded, and stood slowly, afraid that my balance had been affected. Time to find the truth.
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I looked out, in the pouring rain. The front door opened downstairs, but my brain barely registered the noise. I heard three words: Jacob Black died. Everything, was changing, and it all seemed to revolve around Bella. First she left me, how I still didn't understand, then her father disappeared, and them her best friend died. Alice was still in shock, Jasper holding her. These thoughts pasted through my mind, and almost immediately drifted back out. No other thoughts clouded my brain, just my own fleeting insignifigant thoughts, and that one sentence: Bella was truely gone.
I couldn't really believe it. How could it be that one day, she was racing to Volterra, Italy, trying to stop me from commiting suicide because of her 'death', and the next, she was telling me she didn't love me? Humans change their minds so quickly. I heard Alice call to me lightly from downstairs. "Edward, please come downstairs." That was fine with me. Though I didn't want to be around my family at the moment, I didn't really want to be in my bedroom. The memories, and strong scent screamed out at me from all directions. The Cd's still in my stereo, the couch, the bed, everything.
I was out of my room in a second, walking down the stairs, stalling now that I was out of my room. When I got downstairs, everyone seemed a little happier. I slowly sank onto the nearest couch, easily avoiding the empty seat on the loveseat. Alice put her hand on my shoulder. "Edward, why don't you believe us when we tell you that B..." "Don't Say Her Name!" I half-yelled. "She really does love you though, Edward. She had a Cd, so that she could expalin everything to you. She said that if she didn't leave you, then we would all be killed, and that even though she would fight with us, we would still lose." A laugh echoed in my head.
Us? I gave Alice a look. Her thoughts broke through my thick barrior. Edward, watch. I saw her memories, as if I were watching a movie. Alice stood there, Bella pulling her arm up behind her, in between her shoulder blades. Alice couldn't move. I pulled away. Alice wasn't serious. I stood up. "I'll be back later." "But Edward listen to me! Bella isn't normal!" Alice almost screamed. Jasper glared at me, and I ran out the front door. I couldn't take it anymore. I was going to the meadow.
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I stood, speechless, playing with the leather cuff around my wrist as silent tears poured down my face. So that was it. That was why I couldn't be with Edward, why I could never see him again. It was a stupid prejudice, one that had carried on since before the werewolf prejudice had ever even begun. Before they existed. It was a war, and if I dated Edward, we would be in the center of a battlefield, his family standing by our side. They weren't letting me get killed, by either other angry vampires, or more of our kind. Who knew that angels had war?
I sank into the nearest leather chair, and put my face in my hands. "What if I don't care? What if I truely love him?" They shook their heads. "It just can't happen." They all said, each just a split second after the other. "You heard the story, you would both die." I nodded. Sobs racked my body. I got ulp, turned and ran. It wasn't in my nature to be that vulnerable in front of people. I got to the first door, a bathroom, and slammed the door, once again, breaking down, hiding myself from the world.
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Edward had gone to his meadow, I could see that much. I was strained. I just couldn't see it all. I was trying to watch the Volturi, Victoria, Bella, and Edward. It was just too much. If you added in trying to find out what Bella was, and trying to see if the newborns were going to do anything, I was overworked. I sighed. I focused on Bella this time, now sure that Edward would be safe. This time, I saw Bella sitting On the floor of a large black tiled bathroom, leaning against teh door, as people knocked. Her large black wings spread out to her sides, and forward, as she sobbed.
It was horrible. I had seen a vague glimpse of a coversation, all six girls standing in a large library, talking, but I had not been able to hear what they had been saying. Bella had looked like she was in shock, but I couldn't be sure.
I relaxed into Jasper. I was seated on his lap, and I had to relax. There was nothing I could do. Bella had to. In this case, I was utterly helpless, and I hated it. i settled my frayed nerves, with Jasper's help, and got lost in the world of my visions, the closest to sleep I could ever get.
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I dropped to my knees, as soon as I reached the meadow. I collapsed back on the soft grass. A song came into my thoughts, and I began to hum. The name escaped me, until I remembered that one day, before I left, an insignigant day, not too important, when Bella had been singing along to the song, and told me the name. The song was simple, Bliss (I Don't Wanna Know) by Hinder, but it had so much meaning, so much emotion.
I was pulled under, drowning in my heartbreak, and it was all traveling on a downhill slope. My shoulders shook with tearless sobs. Alice wasn't right. Bella didn't love me still. If she did, she would have done this. I had, I reminded myself. But Bella wouldn't do it again, if she really loved me. Still the hope rose up,a nd crashed above my head, desperate noise filling my ears (AN. In case you don't know this is figurative, not literally.) I closed my eyes, escaping into my mind, no one else's thoughts interrupting my own.
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AN. I hope you liked it! This probably isn't my best chapter, too angsty maybe? But anyway, I liked it. I don't think it is very sad, but I just realized that you don't know who is who of Bella's 'friends'. Here is the list:
Girl's Name- Wing Color- Hair Color
Jennifer- White- Golden Blonde
Allysa- Blue- Brown
Alexa- Dark Brown- Black
Amanda- Silver- Light Blonde
Bree- Red,Brown- Black
Bella- Black- Brown
There did that help? And I will give you one hint of their powers. Their wing color. Hair color doesn't matter too much, but wing color is super important, so just think that over. It is very important.
I know this chapter is shorter than the first one, and not as good, but I'm sorry! I couldn't think very well. It was a bad case of writer's block, but I really wanted to finish this chapter. And as I said above, REMEMBER HALLOWEEN! It will probably be in Chapter 4, but it will continue on to Chapter 6 or so, but trust me, the action won't stop and this story is 0 fluff, and 50 angst, and 50 tragedy, so you just have to deal with it. I KNOW THIS CHAPTER SUCKS, SO FLAME AWAY! I PERFER THE FLAMES OVER NO REVIEWS! Anyway, Edward will probably see Bella again in the next chapter or two. So I really hope you enjoyed it, even if it was for comedic value. (Even though I really hope you didn't find it funny, because I will be sad if you say it was funny. :( )
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