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She told him everything, and he just sat there and listened. The TARDIS had thoughtfully placed a box of tissues next to Rose, and she had nearly used up the whole box with her tears.

She hated herself for being such a wimp! She had told herself time and time again upon entering The TARDIS not to cry, but it hadn't stopped the tears from rolling down her face as she relived the time she had spent with her Doctor, telling a man who should have been there through it all, her whole life from meeting the Doctor.

It was at the end of her story, though, that hurt the most to tell. The time she had deliberately kept to the back of her mind for all this time, because it was just too painful to revisit. The last moments Rose Tyler had spent with the Doctor. She had never really talked about it to anyone, not even her mum dared to touch the subject. Just thinking of it was enough to send tears streaming down her face, after all, that was the moment she had found out that she would never see her Doctor again. The worst day of her life.

Along with that, was the thought of telling this new Doctor that she had loved him. Well, not him but a parallel him, who couldn't really be that different, could he?

o0o0o

The Doctor had sat patently and listened while this girl …this… Rose Tyler told him all she knew. He listened as she told him about his regeneration, and didn't stop her, although he knew that she was telling him some things that he maybe shouldn't be finding out yet, but he listened. He didn't interrupt once, even when she told him how it had all ended.

She told him all of it. Right up to her hearing the TARDIS and coming running. She said that she knew to wait until he was inside, because she had a connection with the TARDIS in her own world, and it must have worked on this TARDIS too. She said that she had some residual energy from the time vortex in her.

o0o0o

Finally, when she had told him everything, the Doctor spoke,

"And now…?" he asked, in a calm, controlled, but fairly quiet voice,

"And now I need to get back. It's just… not worth it… here… on my own," she replied, quietly.

So that was it then, was it? He would help her get back, and she would walk away without a backwards glance. The Doctor didn't know if he could do that, he had watched far to many people he cared about walk away, and he obviously cared for Rose Tyler in another universe. He didn't want to get that close to anyone. Ever. Again.

But the way she spoke, awakening feelings the Doctor had long forgotten he owned, it scared him, she seemed so sure of what she felt, she knew what she wanted and would stop at nothing to get it. She knew where she belonged.

The Doctor felt guilt stab at his hearts, guilt for showing this girl the universe and snatching it away. Even if it wasn't directly him, even in a parallel universe, he couldn't be that different, he still should have known better. And her eyes. She thought he loved her, and for a moment, the Doctor believed that he really could've.

o0o0o

"So… will you take me?" the Doctor looked at the girl, she was asking to go with him. Something inside him wanted to take her with him, he knew he could do with the company, but he wasn't sure if he was ready to let anyone in yet,

"You don't want to come with me," he stated, quietly,

"Yes I do!" she said, without a moments hesitation,

"No, you want your Doctor,"

Rose stopped then. She couldn't deny that, if there was even the smallest possibility, she would be gone in a moment, back to her Doctor, but… she didn't want to just stay at home and do nothing! She wanted to live her life again! With her Doctor or this one!

"I'm not leaving this TARDIS!" Rose insisted. She couldn't, not again, she just couldn't,

"You will do as I say!" the Doctor felt red-hot anger bubbling up inside him, who was this girl? Swanning into his TARDIS, telling him some heartbreaking story of how she loved him, but not him, another him, and implying… that he loved her back! No! How dare she?! "Listen here, Rose Tyler, you come in here, uninvited, unwanted, unneeded, and expect me to take you to the far reaches of the universe… and why? Because you are in love with me from a parallel universe. Or so you say, but quite frankly, I'm still not sure If I believe you or not."

"You're right. I'm so sorry. I should have never come here, it was a mistake to think that any Doctor would want me! But, I promise you, that I loved that man with all of my heart, and I trusted him completely, and I know that he would never have let anything happen to me! We couldn't have stayed together, not forever, I know that, but he wouldn't have left me, and he wouldn't kick me out! So sorry for wasting your time," and, with that, Rose Tyler ran from the TARDIS, tears falling in fresh, hot streams down her face, and she didn't try to hide them. She just let them fall.

o0o0o

She could have fought with the Doctor. She was sure that she could've made him take her with him, she knew him after all, she could get to him, but, what was the point? Why push him? She loved him with all her heart, and she knew what he meant. It would be too hard to say goodbye again. Okay, he didn't say that, but she knew that's what he had been thinking. And he was right. As always. She didn't want to stay there, she would rather have been with her Doctor, from her world.

The Doctor just stood there. Thinking about what Rose had just said. He knew it was harsh, but he had to send her away. If he had taken her with him, who knows what would have happened! He could already feel himself falling for her, and he didn't do love. It just…wasn't him.

Despite that, the Doctor hoped Rose Tyler would find a way back. Back to a life she so obviously deserved, and he hoped that she could enjoy so many more memories with her Doctor.

"She's coming home, she's on her way," he whispered, to the man she clearly loved so much, "Don't let go yet…"

o0o0o

More tears came as Rose turned another corner. She was running somewhere, she was vaguely aware of that, too lost in her thoughts of the Doctor, both the man she lost and the man she had just met, to notice where her feet were taking her. She knew she could fight her way out of any danger, that's what the Doctor had taught her, and she knew it to be true. While thinking of him, well, she was capable of anything.

Including this, she realised, as she saw where her feet had taken her.

As Rose looked up to the tall, abandoned building of Canary Warf, she felt the knot in her throat tighten. She had promised herself that she would never come here again. Too many unpleasant memories, too much heartache.

She wondered why she had come to this place, of all places! Why couldn't she have gone somewhere else? She had all of London, she could've gone anywhere, but she come here. And she hated herself for it!

Rose doubled up, as fresh, unbidden tears threatened to overtake her, but she fought them back. If I have to be here, the least I can do is not cry about it, she thought to herself, after all, she had done far too much crying today.

Filled with a sudden, unstoppable urge to go inside, to see that room just one more time, Rose slowly walked over to the large, boarded up side entrance and crept inside.

o0o0o

Slowly and quietly, so as not to get caught, Rose found her way to the stairs of the old, run-down building. She remembered how she and her Doctor had once run up these stairs, bounding along to see what the Daleks were doing with the Genesis Ark, Rose could still feel the warmth of his hand in hers as he had pulled her along corridor after corridor, running to find out. To know.

She missed him so much!

Rose shook herself, that was a long time ago, it's time to move on now. He would want you to be happy, but no matter how hard she tried, Rose simply couldn't be happy without the Doctor. Without his warmth, his lopsided grin, his voice – speaking at such a rate it was almost impossible to understand what he was saying when he had just worked something out, the way he always knew when she was upset, or needed a hug. He could see right through her, and he always knew. Always. Nothing could ever compare to that. And Rose didn't want to waste her life trying to forget something that would never leave her alone.

Finally, Rose reached the top of the stairs. She could've taken the lift, for she was sure it was still working, but something in her made her want to walk up the stairs. She was in no rush. She didn't even know why she was here.

In almost an instant, Rose didn't want to be there anymore. She just couldn't do it. The pain was just too much! She was about to turn, to run from this place, never to look back again, when she heard it.

So faint, barely more than a gust of wind, Rose could've easily ignored it, if it hadn't come again.

Rose…

Just a whisper, but so familiar, calling her, pulling her towards one room.

Rose…

Could she do this? She didn't know.

Rose…

So faint now, and getting fainter, Rose knew she only had a fraction of a second to make her decision.

Rose…

She did it. At the last minuet, Rose turned and ran towards the room. The ghosting room. The last room she had ever been in with the Doctor.

Her heart lunged as she placed her hand on the metal handle of the room. Since when had it been so cold? Rose shivered, she couldn't do this, but she knew she must.

Taking a deep breath, Rose closed her hand around the door handle, and let herself in.

The room was empty. Of course it was! What did she expect, the Doctor? Rose shook herself – she had been doing that quite a lot, today – and carefully closed the door behind her.

She slowly made her way down the centre of the room, letting her mind wonder to her last moments with the Doctor. The real Doctor. Not the Doctor she had seen on Bad Wolf Bay, the last time she had touched his skin, felt his warmth, the last time she had been really happy.

"That's it, bit of a smile, the old team,"

The Doctor flashing her one of his smiles, the first time he smiled since she returned from the parellel world, telling him that she would never leave him

"Hope and glory, mutt and geff, shiver and shake!"

She passed the computers, memories flooded her head,

"Which one's shiver?"

"Oh, I'm shake!"

Pushing one of those clamps into her, laughing, smiling, just like they always did when they were together

She kept walking, just…remembering.

She walked over to the leavers, running her fingers gently down one's thin, cold body,

Lights, Daleks and Cybermen flying passed her, her blond hair being blown about as she grips the bar with all she has, she looks up, into the Doctor's excited, brown eyes as he yells

"The bridge is open! Into the void! Ha!"

Rose suddenly found herself trying to resist an overwhelming urge to pull up the leavers, to open the void one last time, to end it.

She noticed that she was holding the handle. Straining not to pull it up. She wondered if both leavers had to go up at the same time, or if she could just do them, one after the other.

Rose decided to take a risk. She suddenly griped the handle much tighter, and pulled it, straight up. A calm, robotic voice sounded,

iBridge active, last chance,i/

A blink of an eye and a flash of white light later, Rose was gone.

At the same time, the Doctor looked up at the screen on his TARDIS to see the words, The Bad Wolf Is Gone, and he smiled. Rose was going home.