AN: Here is the second chapter!
I wanted to adress what Julielein said in her review about where Delphine works. I admit I didn't think about in the first chapter, but she does work at DYAD but not with Leekie necessarily, more is explained in this chapter.
This isn't beta'd, all and any mistakes are mine. If you see any go ahead and let me know and I will fix them :) Enjoy! :D
Delphine ran into the ER with a barely conscious Cosima in her arms. "Please! Please I need help!" she was yelling as she ran to the nurse's desk. Tears started running down her cheeks, she tried to keep it together so when asked she could explain what had happened.
The nurse at the desk looked up when she heard the yelling and saw the brunette slumped over the blonde's shoulder. There were others in the ER waiting to be seen but she could see this was much more of an emergency. She immediately paged a doctor and ran over to Delphine. "What happened?"
Delphine gathered herself quickly and began, "I got home and saw she had taken all of her pain medication. I'm not sure how many exactly but at least 7 pills. It's been about 20 minutes since she's taken them. She was conscious and talking when I left but on the way her breathing slowed and now I'm not sure she's still conscious." Delphine rushed out before taking a breath. Working in medicine herself, she knew she had to give as much information as she could in order for the doctors to take of her girlfriend to the best of their ability. The nurse nodded and tried to start checking Cosima.
Just then the doctor, a woman that looked to be in her late 40s, walked over to them quickly with a gurney. Delphine carefully placed Cosima on it and could barely look when she saw that Cosima was now unconscious. The doctor introduced herself quickly as Dr. Lopez and asked what happened. Delphine was too distraught to answer so the nurse replied instead, quickly relaying Delphine's story to Dr. Lopez. When the nurse was finished Dr. Lopez asked Delphine what medication Cosima was on and when Delphine told her she shook her head, knowing how dangerous what Cosima had done was.
"Wait there," the nurse said pointing to a small waiting room that had another couple of people in it, "we'll do everything we can and come talk to you when we know more." Delphine could do nothing but nod and watch them run off with Cosima down the hall to treat her.
Delphine had been waiting for an hour now, she didn't know what to do. She tried to keep calm but too many thoughts were running through her head.
'How could Cosima do this? 'Was everything so bad that she couldn't live with it anymore?' 'How do I face her after this?' 'She must not love me enough if she was willing to leave me.' That was a thought that scared Delphine very much, almost as much as the thought of Cosima wanting to kill herself because she was suffering so much. If cosima survived, would she even want Delphine's help? Would she rather find help elsewhere and not want to see Delphine ever again. After all, it was part of Delpine's job at DYAD to find a cure and she hadn't yet, she was failing Cosima.
A few minutes later Dr. Lopez walked into the room with a smile on her face. She walked over to a very disheveled looking Delphine and placed a hand on her shoulder. Delphine looked up at her and when she saw the smile she knew, she knew Cosima was alive. Tears of joy escaped her eyes and she hugged the doctor.
"She's going to be okay." Dr. Lopez said and Delphine nodded and thanked her. "We did an x-ray and ran a few tests to see how she was being affected exactly. The pills were still in her stomach so we pumped it and got everything out. She's still sleeping now but I'll take you to her room to sit with her. There are still many things to discuss but we'll wait until she's awake to talk to her."
They walked to her room and when they reached it Dr. Lopez turned to Delphine and told her, "She should wake up soon. It might look a bit scary to see her with the wires but everything will be okay." She smiled and left the blonde to enter the room on her own.
Delphine knew seeing Cosima with wires was nothing unusual to her. After all, she was there whenever DYAD would run tests on her at the beginning. But this time it was different. This time those wires were helping Cosima stay alive until her body was back to functioning by itself.
Delphine placed her hand on the door handle and slowly turned it, slightly scared at what she would see inside. She walked into the room and saw Cosima sleeping in the bed. The brunette was pale and her lips were dry, but she was okay and that was all that mattered.
Delphine picked up a chair that was sitting in a corner of the room and placed it by Cosima's bed. She sat and held Cosima's right hand in both of her own, she placed a kiss on it and then sat and waited for her to wake up.
A couple hours later Cosima awoke. She looked around, unaware of where she was. She saw the white walls and heard the machines beeping around her. Looking down she saw the hospital bed and Delphine with her head down, resting on Cosima's right hand, she seemed to be asleep. Cosima gulped, remembering what had happened at the apartment and realizing what all this meant. She was alive, it didn't work. Delphine saved her.
Now she would have to face Delphine and explain herself. She wasn't sure how she could do that. She didn't want to leave Delphine, but she just couldn't live with all the pain anymore. Maybe she could just pretend to sleep each time Delphine was awake, at least that would give her more time to think.
At that exact moment, Delphine's eyes blinked open. She looked up and saw Cosima staring at the ceiling, she knew the look Cosima had on her face, she was thinking hard.
Cosima suddenly felt a hand on her cheek, she flinched slightly but then saw it was just Delphine. Delphine smiled at her, though she was still a bit in shock that Cosima was okay, tears threatening to spill over. Cosima smiled softly but had a scared look in her eyes. "Hi," Delphine whispered.
"Hey," Cosima said back in a soft scratchy voice. Delphine placed a tender kiss on her forehead.
"You just woke up so I'm going to let you rest but you know we're going to have to talk. For now though, just relax." Cosima nodded and silently thanked Delphine for knowing what to say.
Delphine sat by her bed and both women we're lost in their own thoughts. About ten minutes later a nurse walked in and saw Cosima was awake, "how are you feeling?" she asked.
"I've been better, but I've also been worse." She responded. The nurse nodded at that and checked her chart.
After making sure everything was okay, she asked Cosima "Is it okay I talk to you in front of your… friend?" Cosima nodded, so the nurse continued, "You're going to have to stay here for a couple days, so we can watch and make sure everything is okay. We also want you to talk to a psychologist so we know if we can release you without you harming yourself again, okay?"
"That's fine." Cosima said.
After telling them that a doctor or nurse would be back every few hours to check on Cosima she walked out and they were left in slightly uncomfortable silence. Delphine wanted to ask questions and talk to her but wasn't sure if Cosima had the strength yet. Cosima knew exactly what was going through the blonde's mind so she decided she would start the conversation.
"I'm sorry." She whispered. "I…. I don't want to say I don't know what I was doing because I knew, I wanted to die. Everything was getting so hard, I couldn't take it anymore, I just had to end my suffering. I'm so sorry Delphine. I-" Delphine cut her off.
"No, Cosima you don't just get to say you're sorry." Delphine said in a quiet but very angry tone, "You were going to leave me! I wouldn't have even known until it was too late. You think I don't know how much you suffered? How hard it was for you? You don't think I don't see the pain in your eyes each time you breathe." Her voice slowly rose with each sentence, she couldn't understand how Cosima didn't just talk to her and tell her how she was feeling, why Cosima felt she had to be strong when she was in pain.
Delphine tried to lower her voice and calm down, she knew yelling at Cosima wouldn't help, "I know how hard it's been for you, I know you're dying on the inside just as much as you are on the outside. But why didn't you talk to me about it? Why didn't you tell me how you were feeling? I could've helped! I will help!" Delphine finished her rant, trying to convey to Cosima that she understood what led to this but she still didn't understand why her girlfriend didn't seek help.
"I… I don't know what to say Delphine. It's hard. It's hard knowing my body will fail me one day soon, it's hard not being able to do everything I used to and it's killing me inside. I can't do this anymore! I can't keep being scared to walk too far from home because I might have a terrible coughing fit or need to lie down. This whole illness is taking my life away!" Cosima was crying at this point. This was the first time she was really talking about everything going on and how she felt about it.
Delphine ran her hand over Cosima's cheeks, wiping away her tears. She leaned down and kissed her on the forehead, cheeks and finally a short kiss on the brunette's lips. Cosima slowly started to calm down, now only sniffling.
"Ma cherie, I know. Trust me I know how hard it is. But I want to help make it better. I want to help remind you that you're not just this illness. Yes it's part of you, but it's not all of you. And until you're-," Delphine's words caught in her throat, she couldn't say them. "I will help you, with everything, until I can't anymore."
Cosima nodded, she understood what the blonde was telling her, but she was still so scared and ready for it all to be over. "Delphine, I know you just want to help. But I can't live like this, what I'm doing isn't living. It's waiting to die."
"No. No, it's not." Delphine looked deeply into Cosima's eyes, to show her how serious what she was saying was. "Maybe before today it was, but I'm going to change that. I promise you, I will make every day worth living. I will show you something or do something new with you and show you that there is what to live for. Even if it's not for long, you will have what to live for. And I will continue working on finding this cure, I will save you Cosima."
Cosima wasn't sure what to say. It would still be very hard, but if Delphine could give her reasons to live that were stronger than her reasons to die she would happily stay. "Please. Please give me reasons to live. I love you and I don't want to leave you. So please… Give me as many reasons to live so I won't ever be able to leave." Cosima pleaded.
Delphine just nodded, she placed her lips on Cosima's forehead and held Cosima's hand in hers, close to her heart. She stayed like that for a long while repeating "I promise you" over and over.
4 months later
"Happy anniversary, mon amour," Delphine told Cosima over her glass of wine. They were celebrating their first anniversary, at home over a wonderful home-cooked meal.
"Happy anniversary, babe" Cosima replied with a huge smile, leaning over to kiss Delphine lovingly on the lips. "I love you so much" she told her.
Delphine couldn't help the smile that spread across her face, she loved hearing Cosima tell her that after all they had been through. Cosima still wasn't fully cured but after her attempted suicide Delphine made sure every day she proved to Cosima how important and great her life was. She and other researchers at DYAD had also been able to find a medicine that didn't cure Cosima but it helped with the pain and slowed down the illness.
Cosima and Delphine were now living happily together and knew they could beat this. They spoke openly about how they felt and what was going on, and made sure to always remind each other how much they loved and needed one another in their lives.
FIN
AN: Okay that is it! Leave a review if you would like, whether good or criticism I will gladly read it :) I was thinking of also making another chapter with the opposite outcome (Cosima doesn't survive), if you would want to see that let me know, but for now I'm going to have this story as complete.
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