Isabelle chapter 2.
I woke up the next morning being moved about by a nurse. She was doing some checks on me.
"sorry Isabelle I didn't mean to wake you" she said
I just gave her a smile.
"where is kendall?" I asked, noticing that he was no longer in the room.
"he is just outside talking to your friends... How are you feeling today? Any memories coming back of the accident?" She asked
"no nothing...what friends?" I asked "what did actually happen to me?" I added.
"kendall will bring some of them in shortly, but remember not to get worked up okay, you are perfectly safe here... You were hit by a car as you went to cross the road, you hit your head on the windscreen then got thrown back on to the road, you fractured your skull" she said
"and I've been in here for over a month?" I asked.
"yes, you also broke three of your fingers, they are healed now but they may feel a bit stiff" she said picking up her notes.
"I will send kendall in now I'm finished if you like?" She then asked.
I nodded, so much information was trying to figure itself out in my head. I felt completely lost.
A few minutes later kendall walked in
"hey bells!" He said cheerily as he gave me a hug
"hey... I'm sorry about all the tears last night... I just can't believe this has happened to me. I'm scared kendall" I admitted.
"everything is going to be fine... Listen, James and the guys are out there, the doctor said that you aren't really allowed too many people in here with you so is it okay if James comes in. He misses you Isabelle, he is scared too, especially after you screamed at him the other day" kendall said softly.
"James is my boyfriend? Is that right?" I asked
"yeah you have been together over two years now bells. You two are crazy about each other" he explained.
"how did I meet James?" I asked, my voice shaking.
"he is my band mate, he is in the show that I moved to LA for. Remember ... Big time rush?" He said.
I squinted my face, trying really hard to remember "I remember you saying you got the part, I kind of remember the name big time rush... Its familiar but James... Jesus kendall, I have no clue who this guy even is!" I said now getting upset.
"maybe if you see him it will jog your memory... Logan is in the band too. You know Logan!" He said optimistically.
"Logan... Logan from texas...that logan?" I asked.
"yeah, you know Logan then" he said.
"not from big time rush from when we met him before" I said now remembering when kendall and Logan had worked together before he moved to LA.
"look bells it doesn't matter okay, you will remember everything in time I promise... Can James please come in, he is climbing the walls out there" he said with a smile.
"does he know I have no clue as to who he is?" I asked sceptically.
"yes I told him everything, the doctor has spoken to him, he just wants to see you are okay Isabelle" kendall said giving my hand a squeeze
"okay" I whispered
Kendall let go of my hand then walked out to the corridor.
"James... Cmon buddy" he said then walked back in, the very tall guy that followed him in was absolutely stunning. His eyes were red from crying, his hair dark, he was so kind looking.
"hey izzi" he said, his voice sounding husky.
"hi" was all I could manage.
"does he look familiar at all bells?" kendall then asked
I shook my head then started crying
"I'm so sorry" I sobbed.
"Isabelle its fine... Its fine, baby don't cry okay, its all going to come back" James said sitting down on the edge of the bed.
"what if it doesn't, what if I'm going to miss all this part of my life forever" I cried.
Kendall then sat down in the chair next to me. "bells we all love you, you aren't going to be doing this alone okay.
"that's easy for you two to say, I don't know him, I don't love him, he is a complete stranger to me" I said looking at James who looked like he might cry.
"bells just calm down okay" kendall said.
"dude... Can we have a minute? If that's okay with you Isabelle?" James said running his hand through his hair as if to clear his head.
Kendall looked at me.
"its fine... Its fine!" I replied giving kendalls hand a squeeze.
James waited for kendall to leave the room before he sat in the seat next to me.
He coughed to clear his throat before he said anything.
"kendall called me this morning and said what was going on... I'm just so pleased your awake izzi" he said just staring at me, as though he was taking me all in.
"I'm so sorry... You must be finding this so hard, I don't mean to hurt your feelings" I sobbed.
"it is hard Isabelle, its heartbreaking for me, but its happening and we just have to find a way to work through it okay" he said smiling but a tear fell from his face.
I nodded.
"I tell you what... Let's just forget that we have any history and start from scratch for now... Hi I'm James" he said holding out his hand.
I laughed and cried at the same time " hi James" I sniffed.
He smiled at me. "here you go" he said handing me a tissue that he grabbed from a box.
"thanks... So how did we meet first time round?" I asked.
"well you used to come and visit a lot, we just got to know each other like that really, we got on really well, then on Valentines day I sent you some flowers to your home in Kansas, we got talking on the phone then the next time you visited LA we kissed, we have been together ever since, that was two years ago" he said smiling at his memories.
"you sound romantic" I said quietly.
James grinned "I try" he replied. "izzi when kendall phoned me this morning and told me what was going on I printed some pictures off, I thought they might help. Would you like to see them?" He asked.
"pictures of us?" I asked.
"some of us, some of you," he replied.
"okay" I whispered, feeling a bit scared to see more things that I have no memory for.
James got the pictures out of a rucksack that he had brought in with him. He sat on my bed next to me as he passed me the first picture.
I laughed "this was Halloween then?" I said looking at a picture of James dressed as a zombie and I a witch, James had his arm slung round me, we both had huge smiles on our faces looking very happy.
"yeah it was last Halloween, Carlos had a party, it was a fantastic night" he said smiling.
"who is Carlos?" I asked
"oh hang on..." He said sorting through his pictures "erm... Oh here we go... That's Carlos, me, Logan, kendall and you" he said showing me a picture of the group of happy smiling faces.
"this is so weird... Logan looks like a different guy to when I first met him, its like I've been frozen in time... How old am I James? I take it I'm not 18 any more" which is the last birthday I can remember.
"your 21 'bells, its October 2012 now... Don't get upset okay. Everything is going to be fine" he said showing me another picture.
This one was of kendall and I "I remember this one!" I said.
"do you?" James smiled
"yeah I recognise the background... Oh my God... Don't tell me" I said racking my brains trying to think.
I looked so hard at the photo but it wouldn't come back to me.
"no I can't do it... Can I keep this one, hopefully it will come back to me when I'm not thinking so hard. Like when you can't remember the singer of a song that's on the tip of your tongue" I tried to explain.
"sure you can keep all these if you like... Bells its good you recognise that... Its really good!" James said smiling.
"James... How did my gran die?" I asked
"she passed away in her sleep bells. It was just old age. You had a nice day with her the day before. You found her the next morning, you said it looked like she was just sleeping, you said she looked at peace, and that's always given you comfort" he said.
I nodded as I wiped my tears away
"did you ever meet her?" I asked.
"I did... Look" he said showing me a picture that was in the middle of the pile he still held.
I smiled at it, it was my gran giving James a kiss on the cheek, she looked lovely, she was my world since my mom died when I was 7, the only people I had was her and kendall... And I guess James.
"maybe I will put these down and you can look through them in your own time" James said seeing me fill up with emotion.
I nodded.
"Thankyou, it was a lovely idea, at least I remembered a bit of it" I said wiping away more tears.
"that's okay... Bells I do love you, I know its weird for you, its weird for me too... I'm here for you okay. Just as your friend" he said.
"thanks James" I said just as the doctor walked in.
"Isabelle we will be taking you down for a scan soon okay" the doctor informed me
"okay" I replied
James gave my hand a squeeze, it made me jump "what are you scanning her for?" James asked the doctor.
"basically any abnormalities that may explain the memory loss" the doctor replied.
"I thought you had already scanned for any damage to her brain after the accident" James carried on.
"yes we did, and it all looked normal but we are covering all angles" the doctor said.
"well she is fine though, she isn't brain damaged is she!" James argued.
"we just need to check that part of her brain is still working at 100%... Mr maslow I do appreciate that this is a distressing time for you but we are doing everything we can to help her, I suggest you let us do our jobs" the doctor replied.
"maybe if you had of done your jobs properly to start with then we wouldn't be in this situation!" James argued.
"Mr maslow memory loss would not of been caused as a result of an allergic reaction" the doctor said.
"have you explained to izzi what's happened?" James asked.
"... No... We haven't had the opportunity yet" the doctor said
I looked at James, he was really fighting in my corner for something I had no clue about.
"well your here now, you just spoke about a scan so you should speak about what happened" James said.
"Mr maslow like I said Isabelles-" the doctor began but James interrupted.
"I think you should be addressing Isabelle with this and not me, she is clearly coherent enough to understand what you have to say now!" James snapped at the doctor.
"what's happened to me?" I asked looking at the doctor.
"Isabelle when you were brought in to hospital after the incident with the car you had a fractured skull, you were rushed in to theatre but suffered an allergic reaction to the anaesthetic which resulted in you going in to anaphylactic shock which was the cause for your coma" he replied.
"but I wear a bracelet" I said feeling the medical id bracelet that I wore on my wrist. It was however a completely different one to the one I remember wearing. I was aware of my allergies, I had lots of them.
"in the panic of events your bracelet was missed" the doctor said.
"tell her the other part" James said through gritted teeth.
"you were awake when you came in to us, it was the surgery that caused the coma" the doctor finished.
"no it was the lack of competence that caused her to be in a coma for 6 weeks" James said.
"Mr maslow the situation is being investigated in to at your request" the doctor said.
"too right it fucking is!" James replied.
the doctor looked sternly at James
"ten minutes Isabelle then you will be taken down" he said turning to me then left the room.
"I'm sorry about that" James said after a few moments of silence.
"its...its okay you know, its nice to know that its rattled you so much, you must care about me a lot" I said.
James smiled "I do care about you so much izzi. I will let kendall come back in before your scan, is it okay if I come back later?" He asked
"I would like that" I smiled.
"oh before I forget I brought this with me, I thought it would be a sight for sore eyes for you" James said grabbing the ruck sack and pulling out a teddy bear he handed it to me.
I laughed as I saw it "patches!" I said giving the bear a smell, it smelt like home. "Thankyou James, that's really thoughtful" I said.
"its okay, I know how much you love that thing" James smiled
I beamed back at him.
"well I will see you later izzi okay... I love you"
I just stayed silent at his declaration of love.
"I'm sorry... That was just habit" he said.
"its okay... I'm sorry" I replied looking at my bear.
James gave me a kiss on the forehead then left the room.
Kendall came in for a minute before I was sent for my scan. It was good to talk to him, it was easy to talk. About our younger days at least.
I felt so bad for James, but he was right it was good I could remember the background to that picture. Hopefully it will come to me soon.