His smile was beautiful, and she couldn't help but chuckle when she saw a little brown seed in between his white teeth. She pointed at it, and he got embarrassed and tried to pluck it out of his mouth. When he wasn't successful, she laughed and when he heard her sensitive voice, he smiled again. They walked closer towards each other, and when Sawyer stood right in front of her and felt her breath on his chest, his whole body tingled, and by the look in her eyes, she felt the same attraction. At least, that was what he thought and hoped.

-" Sawyer", Kate spoke and took a breath, "I need to talk to you". He smiled and touched her arm gently, to which she close her eyes, because she tried to push away tears.

- "I'm right here, like always", he said and Kate smiled uncomfortably. They sat down next to one another, and at first they watched the green grass for a while, but soon they had full eye contact.

- "I don't think anyone should find out about what happened between us", Kate exclaimed, and finally she let a tear fall. "I mean, what happened... it was a mistake, Sawyer".

Sawyer broke the eye contact and stroked his beard, slowly. Kate watched his face to see what he felt, but it was completely blank. She could not see any expression there at all. "Please, talk to me", she begged, pleading him to look back into her eyes. He did so, and finally she saw some emotion, but not the good kind.

- "You said you loved me", he said. "You just changed you mind?"

- "Sawyer, I never said that", Kate said and bit her bottom lip. "You told me, and then I kissed you, but I never said those words". Sawyer looked away again, and she could see him tearing up, just like her. "Sawyer, I do love you", she said and grabbed his arm. "But as a friend, and I'm sorry for not having the same feelings you do, but I can't lie to myself anymore. But you have to understand how much I still care about you. You're the only one who's ever truly accepted me for what I've done and who I am".

- "So why don't you wanna be with me, Kate? We are perfect for each other. Why can't you understand that?" Kate pulled her hands through her hair and felt so angry with herself for even getting into this situation.

- "Because I don't need to be together with somebody who constantly reminds me what kind of a person I am. Yes, I have made very bad decisions in the past and I probably will in the future too, but I still have a little faith in myself, and need to remain that faith." Kate was shocked by her revelation, and exhaled deeply, but when she heard Sawyer laugh she looked at him almost feeling angry. "What are you laughing at?" She asked, irritated.

- "It's Jack, isn't it?" Sawyer said, and laughed even harder. Kate looked at him strangely and she was surprised by his words, but she couldn't help but consider them right. "The hero's the one you want or need, as you said."

- "Maybe", Kate said, almost only to annoy Sawyer. He had hoped that she would say a no, and she had already foreseen his reaction, when she didn't. But of course, it wasn't only to tease Sawyer. Maybe Jack did have something to do with it. As she had told herself earlier, she didn't want to risk loosing his respect and trust, and maybe it was because she wanted him, be together with him. "You know what, Sawyer", she said, "I don't know how I feel about Jack, but after all he's my hero, as you just said, and I care about him as much as I care about you." Sawyer's smile was gone by this time, and instead he had a furious expression on his face. If Kate didn't know Sawyer better, she'd think he would go find Jack and beat him down. Sawyer rose from the ground and walked in the direction of the camp. "Where are you going?" Kate screamed after him. Had she been wrong? Was he going after Jack? She ran after him and grabbed his arm tightly.

- "Stay away from me", he told her face, and she quickly pulled away her arm and felt both sad and angry with him for reacting this way. "I'm not gonna hurt you darling, freckles". Freckles, huh? I guess we're back to normal, Kate thought and smiled to herself, but cried floods on the outside.