After Finn got dressed and told Rachel she could come inside his room, there was an awkward silence. Both of them didn't know what to say. Rachel was having a hard time looking at Finn. Finn decided to be the first one to speak.

"So do you want to go get coffee and talk?"

"Yeah, sure that sounds good."

Finn and Rachel walked side by side, a good space between them, in silence to the coffee shop located inside his school. They ordered their drinks and sat down. Finn once again being the first to break the silence.

"So how have you been? How's New York?"

"I've been great! New York keeps getting amazing.I decided to come hang out here since I haven't seen anyone since the wedding."

"That's cool!"

"Yup"

"Are Sant...?"

"Who was that?" Rachel asked interrupting Finn and getting straight to the point

"Oh, um that was Erica."

"Are you guys, you know dating?"

"Oh no, we're just hanging out, having fun."

"It did sound like you were having fun."

*nervous chuckle* "yeah, sorry about that."

"You don't have to apologize. It's just kind of weird walking in on that. I'm not going to lie, I kind of expected it from Puck. I wouldn't have thought it would be you."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that you're not that guy. I don't know."

"There's a lot you don't know about me anymore. I've changed since the last time you saw me. I'm growing up and experiencing new things.

"Does experiencing mean you sleeping around with different girls? asked Rachel in a harsh tone.

And that's when everything that needed to be said was said.

"What I do with other girls doesn't concern you, but if you want to know, then yes it does include that amongst other things as well."

"Wow! Who are you and what have you done to the Finn I knew. You dress differently. You're more confident in yourself."

"The Finn you knew is still here but he just grew up and has done some changed. Being in college made me view things differently. I'm learning about myself and new things in life and at the same time enjoying being young. I'm passing all my classes and meeting new people and I like it. I like being able to just go around smiling everyday instead of moping around like I was when YOU broke up with me for some dude. I thought I wouldn't get over it but I have. You breaking up with me hurt at first but little by little it started to fade and after the night we shared at the wedding, I knew it would never be the same and that it was time to move on."

"I didn't break up with you for some dude, Finn. I broke up with you so you could figure out your dreams. And that night I had the same feeling, you know. I knew things would never go back to how they were with us because it seemed so different. It was like if we were, mostly you were saying goodbye and that scared me."

Finn was going to say something back but got interrupted by a voice. "Hey Finn"

Both Finn and Rachel looked to see who it was and it was another girl.

"Hey Stacy"

"Are you coming tonight?"

"Yeah! What time?"

"Eight. Who's this lovely lady. I haven't seen her around campus."

"Alright see you there. And this is Rachel, she's visiting."

"Ok then. Later honey." said the girl to Finn.

While this was going on Rachel felt a knot in her stomach. She didn't know what was happening but seeing all the attention Finn had from these girls made her ache with rage. Was she jealous? She certainly doesn't have any right to. He had the right to do whatever he wanted and whoever he wanted. She just couldn't believe who this person has become. He's always been handsome but now he's gorgeous. Now he's actually much more sure of himself. And the way he dresses is more mature then what he wore before. Now it's t-shirts and leather jackets. She has to admit this Finn is very, very sexy and that's why it hurts her to know that other girls get to be with Finn in an intimate way. That they will share the same thing she once had shared with him. That they will feel his lips, his arms, his hands touching them. That they will see his beautiful smile. She knows she shouldn't be talking though because she did the same thing with Brody but she can't help to feel what she feels.

"A friend?"

"Yeah, she's in one of my classes. She's pretty cool. She's helped with some stuff."

"Finn?"

"Yes, Rachel."

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry for breaking your heart. For ruining what we had. For acting like I didn't care. I do care. I care about you a lot,Finn. And it took me to find out that you went to New York and beat up Brody to realize that he was a mistake and that I could never feel for him what I felt for you. What I still feel for you for defending me by the way."

Finn was shocked. He didn't know what to say. Rachel will always be in his heart and the love of his life but he wasn't sure what he felt. They weren't the same anymore and she was not the girl he had fallen in love with.

"I'll always have your back Rachel. You're one of my best friends and I couldn't have some douche take advantage of you like that. We may not be together but you will always mean a lot to me."

"I know that. Can I ask you something?"

"Anything."

"When we slept together, were you saying goodbye?"

"Rachel, when we were together that night, it was amazing. I felt happy to have you in my arms and to be with you that way again but I knew that it had to be the last time because it wasn't fair to you or Brody no matter how much I hate that dick. It was time for me to really let you go. It was a goodbye to all the memories and moments we shared together. A way to end the beautiful journey we shared."

"Finn.."

"Rachel. When you broke up with me it messed me up. I was lost, heartbroken, confused, I was so many things. And then you came to see the show and I was hoping deep down inside that it was also for me. That you had realize that you still love me and that you wanted us to be together again. When you told me that I didn't make you feel special anymore and saw you crying over him I knew that it was over, for real. I knew that we no longer had a tether. That you moved on. And then you called me that one time to tell me about you winning the showcase and I thought maybe it wasn't really over. That the tether still existed. All that came crashing down when I found out you were living with him. That was a stab to heart but that gave me the push. The push to start moving forward. When I saw you at the wedding and I saw you catch that bouquet, you know what I pictured. I pictured us getting married. You walking down the aisle, with your beautiful brown eyes shining and glowing of happiness, and that bright smile of yours but I knew it couldn't happen. That chapter is closed in our lives and I don't know if it could ever open again. When we got to that hotel room and when our lips touched for the very first time after the break up, it felt magical, like I was back in the auditorium. Holding you and hearing your sighs, your purrs, your moans was the best noise I've heard. Feeling you underneath me and feeling your hands on me felt electric. Making loving to you felt powerful. It was something I never wanted to end but it had to because we no longer belonged to one another.

At this point Rachel was hysterically crying. Tears were running down her eyes, her mascara getting smudged. She wanted to hug him, tell him that she was hear now and that everything was going to be ok but not after hearing all that. She hurt him, she was focused on her relationship with a male whore and being this new version of herself, loosing her true self that she didn't have consideration on what he was feeling, on how he was handling the breakup. She wasn't sure at all on who they've become now and if they will ever be ok. They've grown up so much and changed that they were two strangers again. It's like if they never knew each other.

"You belonged to him. You're his."

"I was." Rachel managed to get out before Finn said something else.

"What?"

"I was his. I broke up with him when I found out he was a gigolo."

" I'm sorry Rachel about what he did to you. You don't deserve that."

"You know Santana warned me about him and I was so stupid to not believe her. To believe him. I feel so stupid, Finn. I feel like an idiot. I was played all this time and I didn't even notice the signs right in front of me. I should've known something was fishy right from the moment he slept with my teacher or even when he showed up late for our date."

"It is my fault though. If I never would've kissed him then you would've never left New York and we would have never broken up and you wouldn't hate me and still love me."

"Rachel! I Don't Hate You!"

"Do you love me?"

"Rachel.."

"Answer the question."

"I don't know."

"What do you mean you don't know?"

"I mean that we're two different people now. We're no longer the people we knew when were in High School. I've grown up, you've grown up. I'm finding myself and you're on your way to achieving your dreams. I don't think there's space for us in these changes, in what's happening in our lives."

"So, you don't love me."

* Rachel starts to tear up.*

"I'm not ready to answer that question. I don't know who you are, you don't know who I am. Like you once told me, you are my first love...and I want more than anything for you to be my last, maybe we will be each others last but in the meantime, you do you and I'm going to do me. We're still friends though and that's one thing that will never change."

*Rachel was crying even harder*

He doesn't love her. He doesn't love her. HE DOESN'T LOVE HER! She lost Finn. She lost the one person she's ever loved and she doesn't know if she'll ever forgive herself for letting him go.