I do not own Twilight

I stretched as I pulled on my denim shorts, a chequered shirt, tucking it into my shorts slightly and my dirty white converse, I wore converse too much but oh well. I left my hair long, the bangs I had covered my forehead slightly messily.

My stomach lurched slightly, today was the day, I thanks to Miss Walker was being forced to spend the evening with Kim.

Jason's horn sounded outside and I walked from my room and down the corridor, making sure I kicked my feet into the floor as much as possible.

"Have a good day honey" My dad smiled hopefully at me as always from his wheelchair by the TV, I nodded back at him, my expression blank and his smile fell.

I walked out of the door, slamming it as I went.

"Bye Jade" Rachel tried now, smiling at me from Paul's lap, they were sat outside on the porch eating breakfast in the sun that hardly ever shone on this crappy little res.

Paul, the only reason she was still here. She came back a few months ago to see dad and put flowers on mom's grave. But she had met Paul, the man whore of La Push and instantly fell in "love" meaning she was now staying. Well until he broke her heart like he had every other girl he got. Then she would run right back to wherever it was she came from this time and not call for months on end. I refused to let myself fall back into our old routine of being close and doing everything together, it would hurt more when she left again. So I remained snappy and blunt with her like I was with everyone else.

"Mmm" I grumbled at her as I walked past them.

"Stroppy cow" She mumbled it back at me but I heard her and raised a hand to flip her off, which was met with a growl of Paul. I glanced back at him; he eyed me up dirtily for a second before leaning into Rachel's neck and kissing it.

I shook my head and climbed in the red Jeep before it swung out of my drive way.

"You know, one day the wind will change suddenly and that scowl you love to wear so much will stick" Jason's voice was serious, I looked at him and he rolled his eyes.

"You confuse me, you have so much to be happy about but still you refuse to even wear a glimmer of a smile" He carried on as I sat silent.

I didn't have stuff to be happy about. My mom left me, my sisters left me, Kim left me and then Jacob left me, and when he returned me wasn't my Jacob anymore, he was a mini Sam Uley. I nodded at Jason and he huffed and flicked the radio on. Even he got annoyed at my bitchiness sometimes. And one day, he would get so annoyed he would leave me, like everyone else. It was just a matter of waiting for that day to come.

We pulled up at school and I jumped out, Suzie, Maya and Jonah were stood waiting for us. I waved lazily at them, I didn't really like them as much as normal friends should like one another, I just tolerated them for Jason. He was the only one who I actually cared about.

I walked up to school, silent, just shooting back my daily glares from people who I had fought with recently.

"AHHH" A girly squeak made me jump as I ran into a small body, the body fell backwards as Jason steadied me.

"Watch it" I snapped out as I leant against Jason.

I looked down; Kim was on the floor looking up at me a little frightened. My glare faltered for a second as Kim stared up at me.

Jason let me go and I glanced back up from Kim, Jared was behind her in an instance, picking her up and dusting her off before shooting me a dirty glare.

Jacob was walking toward us, being followed by Quil, Embry and Seth Clearwater. I moaned as I took in Seth's appearance, they had gotten to him too. Little Seth, the happiest kid I knew was now a steroid taking freak.

"How about you watch it Jade" Jared barked at me as Kim picked up the books she had dropped.

Jason took my hand and pulled me slightly, I looked back up at the guys now stood behind Kim, my eyes stopped at my brother, and he looked pained.

"Whatever Jared, I'll see you tonight Kimberley" My voice was snappy as I retorted back at Kim and Jared, my eyes not leaving my brothers.

"Her names Kim, not Kimberley" Jared's harsh voice broke the awkward silence. She hated being called Kimberley, which is why I did it.

"Yeah, whatever Jared" I snapped back before turning and walking away with Jason.

"You good?"

He looked down at me, he always got nervous when I had a run in with Kim that I would become an emotional wreck and break down. I never did. I hadn't cried since the day Rachel left us, and I was not about to start now.

"I'm good" I replied blankly as I stalked away from him to my class.

School had gone slow, painfully slow. I had spent all day wishing for the final bell to ring so I could go home, but now, in this moment, as I walked down the short road toward Kim's house, I wished desperately that time to rewind itself so I could be back in school.

The lights from her big white house shone brightly through the grey evening sky. I shivered from the cold wind that whipped my hair in all directions. Why I had shorts on in the middle of March I had no idea, this was La Push, it was freezing.

I closed in on the house, carefully opening the white picket fence gate I edged myself closer to the house I once felt at home in. I had spent most of my time here as a kid, then I practically lived here after my mom died. But I hadn't been here in months. Not since Kim had chose Jared over me. Not since she began hanging around with Sam Uley.

I knocked the door lightly, the patter of feet against the carpet on the other side got closer and the door swung open revealing Kim's mom, Jenny, she smiled at me, a little confused.

"Jade, why I haven't seen you in ages, what brings you here?" She smiled but I could tell from her eyes that she knew Kim and I had fallen out, she seemed startled and a bit wary by my sudden arrival.

"Umm, I have to do a project for history with Kim" My voice was blank as usual. She frowned further but nodded and opened the door wide for me to come in.

"She's upstairs, go on up"

I nodded at Jenny, walking slowly up the stairs toward Kim's room. I heard her muffled voice.

"No Jared, you don't need to come over, I will be fine"

"No she won't kill me, she isn't as evil as you all make her out to be"

"Yes I realise she can be a bitch but honestly, I will be fine"

"Ok, bye, love you too"

I snorted, a little louder than I meant to and the door to her room flew open, she looked a bit startled as she saw me stood there.

"Your mom let me up" My blunt voice was quieter than usual. She nodded and moved aside so I could walk in.

It hadn't changed, the walls were painted pale pink, and her dressing table was neatly set out with her makeup and hair stuff. Her walls covered in pictures.

I glanced at each picture; they were mostly her and Jared. My eyes stopped as I gazed over a picture I recognised. It was the two of us, last year, our mouths were pouted and our eyebrows raised as pulled strange shapes with our bodies. I pushed back the sad ached in my chest, no, I couldn't feel sad. I didn't need Kim, I had Jason.

I glanced back at Kim, she was sat on the floor, her eyes had fallen on the picture too, but she looked sad whereas I knew I had my usual emotionless look on my face. I was good at hiding how I felt. I had done it for years. Except now I didn't even bother to use the fake smile I was so good at.

"Umm, so our project is on why the Quileute legends are still important to our tribe today" She looked up at me, her voice was small.

I nodded, staying silent. I honestly did not care. I just needed a grade to get me through my Junior year.

It stayed awkward and mostly silent for the next hour, Kim did most of the talking while I sat and nodded at whatever she said.

"So maybe if you could ask your dad, he knows the legends pretty well. I mean he still does legend story telling for the pa.. umm for Sam Uley and the guys, so I sometimes go. So I could ask him too, and I can ask Sam" Her voice fumbled slightly, she was going to say something else, starting with a p. She blushed slightly as she corrected herself.

"Sure" I looked quizzically at her; she had gotten real nervous suddenly.

I stood up grabbing my bag. I needed to leave; this place was driving me insane.

"Bye" I mumbled as I ran from her room and downstairs, I didn't say bye to her parents, they just snapped their heads up at me as I ran past and out the front door.

Kim was behind me, I could feel her.

I slowed down as I walked down the front path, then I froze completely as Kim's small voice hit me.

"I miss you Jade"

I shut my eyes as the familiar ache in my heart erupted. Stupid Kim. I knew this would happen, I stayed away because I didn't want to get upset over her betrayal. I kept my eyes shut as I took another step forward toward her gate. Trying to ignore the little voice of reason in my head telling me to go back and talk to her.

As I reached the gate the door slammed shut. I jumped slightly, biting back the ache, it died down. No, people just hurt you, relationships hurt. I was already living on the edge of being hurt by hanging around with Jason. That was as far as my relationships could go.

I walked through the gate, forcing my legs to walk harder and faster away from Kim's house. The ache in my chest fading more and more with every step.

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