*bella pov*
chapter two (heart)
as we watched the fire burn and lisend to the sound of the crackel the soud of jacob's car pulled me away from th comfort of edwards arms.
"she's here..."i anxious to breath louder and i stand hand in hand walkes in the house and closes the door with a slam.
"renesmee" i say with suprise,shes never slamed a door in her live ,wich is weird to say but renesmee has always been the most peaceful personne i know,i guess she gets that from her aunt alice.
as nessie moved to go to her room edward speaks up for the first time since the car pulled up.
"nessie.."edward called her souding annoyed i know it must bug him not reading her mind but out of respect i asked him not to, to just let her tell us herself how it went.
renemee slowely turns around saying in a sarcastic tone "oh! hi mom,hi dad omg! guess what jacob, imprinted on me. yeah thats right he told me tonight.
but then again you already knew diint you knew this whole time and didint say a word.i mean i cant believe you guys"she took a breath and when her rant went on she souded so sad it would break eny mothers heartwatching tears fall from a daughters cheek "daddy... how could you do this to me,you saw in my head everyday and you said saw what having him pulling away from me did to me and you sayed you mom,i should be so excited right now kowing that the one i have loved for as long as i can remember loves me back. i should want to jump aroud and share with my mom all that happend tonight but i can barely look at you both. never have i thought to two most loving and wonderul people i know and parents could do this to here we are".she runs her hand across her cheek drying her eyes and turns to walk away.
i wannt to follow her or say my side of the story but my feet are stuck and i feel a knot in my throuht but thankfuly my hand finds the strenght to tighten its hold on edwards "wait...!" he says. "can u just give us a minute to explaine... please?". after a minute of thinking it over she says "ok".
we sit across from eachother and i hear edward be more volnerabel then i have ever heard him and it warms my cold heart.
" ... im going to tell u why i,myself didint tell you. now i can tell you its because i wanted you to have a choice like i told jacob ,wich is true but,its not the whole truth .the whole truth is that the day you were born was also the day your mother picked your name wich i know dosent sound like much but..." he took a beap breath. i didint know where he was going with this.
"it was one of the fiew moments in your mothers pregnancy that i felt excited to be a other was the first time i heard you tell your mother and i you loved us and that you liked the sound of our voices before you were even born,in when i delivered you i felt joy,and happyness and guilt.
i felt guilty because a fiew days before you were born grandpa carlisle had just told us you were breaking your mother's bones" he tightens his grip on my hand and continues."and i told her i couldent live with out her and she said i wouldent, beacause i would have a part of her and that you would need me and i asked her if she really thought i could love you or even tolerate you if you took her away from with you in my arms i realised that i never wanted you to know about that moment of weakness and fear i had over loosig the one i loved beacause now i have two beautiful girls that i would risk my life to and your mother.
so when jacob told us he imprinted i could see in his mind the love he had for you but i could also see the dangers the wolves face and i guess i was trying to make up for not enjoying you before i saw or head i know it was selfish and im sorry but when your mother decided she wanted you to be abel to grow up not knowing you were destined to be with jake and that she wanted you to experince falling in love not knowing you were supposed to.i agreed and we are so so very sorry".
with tears in her eyes renesmee gets up and rushes over to us."daddy...mom...i forgive you i understand why you did it but you need to understand that no matter what happens with jake i will always be your little girl and u dont need to feel guilty about whant you said to mom about me i understand you were sacred to lose her.i love you both so much".and with a hug we said our good nights.