Give into Me chapter 1
Chapter 1
"Jennifer!" I can hear Anita's footsteps coming up the stairs, I could hear her irritation through her thick accent." You better be ready to go to school next I call your name!"
"I'm coming" I said as I slipped my shoes on, I hurried down the stairs "Ann I don't want to go to school"
"Why? You aint missing school just cause you feel like it" She let me know.
" Ha. Fine" Honestly today I was too tired to banter with her. And I could skip after I got to school anyways.
"Isn't that a little too much for school? " She said staring me down" You ain't going to some fashion thing instead of going to school are you?"
"Not at all" I said innocently
Anita rolled her eyes and handed me my bag "Get school, you're already late"
I grinned at her and headed out the door. I made couple of wrong turns on purpose and got to school twenty minutes late. I made my way inside and was startled by the secretary.
"Your late again" She reminded me "two more strikes and were gonna have to call Seattle."
I scoffed; it was usually me who threatened the staff with my dad. As I walked down I saw some girl struggling with her lock. From the distance she looked preppy and squeaky clean, she however looked new not only to the school but to Forks I could tell by what she was wearing that she wasn't from around here. In Forks it rained 24/7 and no one in their right mind would wear a lace top unless they weren't from around here.
"Need some help?" I offered
" Sure"
" Just turn it back to zero when you're done, its broken like mine" I explained, I looked at her more closely " Are you new here? You don't look Quileute"
" Neither do you." She said with a small smile
"Ugh I'm not, my name's Jennifer, but you can call me Jen" I smiled, she seemed decent and maybe we could be friends, I didn't have many of those since I moved from Forks High school to this La push high school "I'm from LA nice pumps, what's your name?".
"Thanks I'm Fernanda" She answered me
" Fernanda, hmm I think I'll call you Fer is that cool with you?"
"Fine, by me"
"So where are you from? Vegas, Texas, New York?"
"New Orleans, "
"Oooh, ever been to Mardi gras?"
"Of course! "
Okay stupid question.
The bell rung and people began to fill the hallway "Where you headed?" I asked irritated that I could barely hear myself.
"Art."
"Perfect, me too!" I said looping my arm around hers" Almost every option is mixed with underclassmen since this school is so damn small. I miss LA."
"I don't blame you, beaches, shops, SUN!"
"Ever been?"
"Uh-huh," she said unhooking her arm from mine.
I listened to introduced herself to the art teacher, I sighed one of the only and helpful pieces of advices that my mother ever gave me was if you carry yourself confidently you could make people believe anything you wanted them to –including yourself. My train of thoughts were interrupted when someone spoke to me.
" Ms. Carter, don't you have a class to get to?" The teacher- Mrs. Whittier asked.
Nope" I said popping the P "I'm taking art now, Mrs. Whittier" I said my voice turning sweet as if to be persuasive.
"Really? Well, where's your slip" Mrs. Whittier said her voice seemed kinda pissed.
"Don't need one, my father talked to the school board and now I'm taking art." I made my way towards Fer, already anticipating how this would play out. " Where would you like us to sit?"
Mrs. Whittier looked defeated "Anywhere" she mumbled warily.
I smirked and said nothing else Fer was already walking when I froze. From across the room Embry was looking intently at me his gaze meeting mine at that instant, a smile threatened to appear on his face and I abruptly pulled Fer back.
"This way" I muttered leading her to the nearest table I could see, once we both were sitting I inched closer to Fer "You see that boy? The one with the red shirt on?"
She nodded. "Why is he looking at you like that?"
"I don't know! Since the very first day he's been like that, looking at me nonstop, following my every movement and he's even asked to carry my books a couple of times!"
She turned to study him, I couldn't tell what the hell she was thinking and I didn't really want to know.
"He's cute"
"Maybe," I responded, two weeks ago I thought that too, I mean how could anyone see him and not have that first impression of him" But he's got to work on his staring, plus not interested, I have a boyfriend"
"I don't think he stares like that at everybody that way" She said nonchalantly.
I pretended I didn't hear her, and pulled out I piece of paper and began drawing on it if I was going to take art I might as well do some art related things in class.
"Hey Feranda! Oh um hey Jennifer" I turned around to see who it was. Seth believe it or not Seth was the only one of the "pack" as they referred themselves as that I was okay with.
I gave him a small smile and went back to my drawings.
"So what class do you have next?" He asked Fer.
At that moment I realized what was happening, it was the same thing that had happened to me. Seth was acting all cute and concerned I could only predict where this was going.
"Bio" She replied, and that goofy ear to ear smile he always had on died.
"I have gym, you have gym too, dontcha Jennifer" Seth asked.
"Uh, yeah" I responded, a little caught by surprise.
Just then I could feel myself in mid air as Embry slumped on the chair next to me.
"Hey Jen" he said nervously.
"Hi" I replied not lifting my head to see him, hoping he'd get the message. There were a couple of minutes of silence and Fer was the next one to speak.
"I'm Fernanda" she called from over my shoulder.
"I'm Embry" Embry said smiling clearly relived that someone had acknowledged him. He turned to me once more and ran his hand nervously through his cropped hair" Jen, are you, busy this weekend?"
I looked up to see him; I thought he would have finally given up on asking me out so I said whatever came to my head at that exact moment" Um, Yeah I have plans with Fer."
"Oh, maybe next weekend?" Embry asked hopefully.
"I'll let you know" I replied quickly since I didn't want to sound like an ass.
"So what are you girls doing?" Seth asked completely oblivious to the excuse I had just made up.
I hesitated trying to come up with something that could be done last minute "Um... I'm introducing Fer to my friends from the Forks high school."
Well I could probably pull that off I could introduce Fer to my friends Marni, Kate, Monica and Stacie but if we were all going out Marni's boyfriend Logan would tag along for sure. If Logan came maybe I could get Ethan my boyfriend to come since I hadn't really seen him in a while. I my train of thoughts were broke when I saw Fer handing over her drawings to Seth; I giggled thinking it was cute but then I remembered where this 'flirtation' could end up. I was about to say something when the bell rung and I grabbed Fer by the arm and steered her in the direction of the door. As far as I knew Seth was one of the members of the school's 'gang' though they didn't really act like one at all, people said that they were sketchy but I had seen them up close and personal and they were more like a big dysfunctional family.
"Am I actually meeting any of your friends?" Fer asked.
" Of course" I said looking appalled, if I said I was going to do something then I was going to do it.
"So, what's the deal with you and Embry?" Fer asked with curiosity clearly in her voice.
"Who? Oh, you mean the guy who stares at me, nothing I told you I have a boyfriend" I said trying to hide my irritation, which seem to be more and more constant every time someone brought up Embry. " So what are you going to wear on Saturday?"
"I dunno, a skirt maybe, I'll see you later, k?"
"Sure."
I kept walking down the hall towards the bathroom, and then my phone buzzed. I looked around in my bag and found it and unlocked it and read my messages. They were all from Ethan and he wanted to talk.
My next class was PE. Bleh, if I skipped PE it wouldn't affect me at all. Back when I lived with my dad in Seattle I used to run marathons all the time, my brother Will did too until he went to study abroad. We mainly did it so our father would be pleased with us and we ran mainly for his company's charities. Will got the worst end of the stick because he was the eldest, our father would aggravate him until he agreed to run because it looked good when he did and when I turned old enough my father would do the same to me. But I didn't mind the running in fact I liked it I gave me a certain feeling of empowerment, like nothing could touch me if I pushed myself hard enough and since coming here to Forks I took up running in the woods sometimes I would follow the trails and sometimes I wouldn't, it really depended on my mood. So screw La Push's PE curriculum, it didn't compare to the training I was used to and I bet I would miss the usual dodge ball game.
I got in my car and as soon as it roared to live I sped through La Push's poorly monitored intersections. It didn't take me to get to Fork's high school. Even though I hadn't visited since my expulsion, I kept in contact with almost all the people who still attended. I texted Ethan to meet me in the parking lot in ten minutes, Ethan wasn't particularly a stickler for the rules and it would only take him that long to find an excuse to leave class.
Apparently I was wrong and it only took him about six minutes to find me, I smile and study him. He looks at me nervously but smiles nonetheless. We had a bit of a falling out when Ethan found out that Embry had been "pursuing" me, I might have fought back and told him he was just jealous but the truth was that I wasn't fond of the idea of Embry and everything that seem to come with it, his friends, his secrecy, his obsession. Two weeks ago we might have been friends, one week ago I did all I could to avoid him and now I could barely get my head straight long enough to send him away. All the things that I do seem to lead Embry right back to me and I didn't understand it.
"You okay?"Ethan asks.
"Of course" I said cursing that my voice had gone high on the last part, I seemed to have this impenetrable barrier between me and Ethan, to be honest this barrier seem to accompany all of my boyfriends. It's just always there.
"How about we get something to eat?"
"Ethan its ten!" I said giggling
"So? I know for a fact that you haven't eaten and what wrong with a little brunch?" For the first time I see a glint of a smile forming at the corners of his mouth.
The thing I like about Ethan is that he is sincere; I don't think we ever intended to become a couple but it just sorta happened. The whole troubled artist persona that he seemed to have is what attracted me to him as friends at first of course, but he is smart and kind and he sees things that no one else seems to even bothers to notice, I think that's what attracts everyone to him, not just me.
He doesn't take me hand like he usually would instead we just walk to the diner; he fills me in on everything I've missed. Not that I need any filling in but I still pretend that it's the first I'm hearing of it.
When we get to the diner I can feel that something is about to go wrong, he hasn't held my hand or kissed me or in any way shown that we are together. He does however pull chair out like a gentle man which cause me to roll my eyes.
"So what was it that you wanted to talk about?" I ask.
"What do you want to eat?" Ethan promptly replies
"What do you wanna talk about" I ask again this time defiance colors my voice
"What do you want to eat?" He says mimicking me; he holds his eyes directly at mine for a moment then drops them chuckling" You're just the same aren't you?"
I giggle "What did you expect?"
This time he smiles, and then makes eye contact" I don't know" he finishes sadly. Before I can try to start the conversation again, the waitress is upon us asking for our orders.
"Um, I'll have pancakes what about you Jen?" Ethan asks
"Diet Coke" I answer
Ethan gives me a look" Are you sure?"
I nod, even though I don't train anymore I still like to pretend I do and even though Coke doesn't fall in the category of healthy snacks I am willing to make the exception just this once. Ethan knows about my eating disorder and even though I've pulled through he still worries about me all the time and he doesn't hide it.
"How's the gallery?" I ask. Ethan has been asked several times to put his art on display.
"Boring"
We eat, well he eats. At one point he orders more pancakes in vain effort to corrupt me. We talk some more and eventually it is lunch time. I shoot up and urge him to pay the bill, I was supposed to only miss gym not several classes! I start running back and Ethan yells at me to wait.
"Jen Wait! Wait I really do need to talk to you!" He gasps
"What? Ethan please we spent hours talking already!" I said exasperated.
"Jen I want to break up"
This fazes me; I stop and turn around" What?"
"Jen I'm so sorry, but what did you expect? We barely get to see each other anymore!" He blurts it out so fast I can barely take it in" I've changed, you've changed"
He wants to break up? Why? Unless...
"Who is it?"
"What? No one, Jen"
I start walking in the opposite direction towards the school where my car is parked.
"Jen, please"
"Don't lie to me Ethan"
"I... "
"Don't lie to me"
I hold back the inevitable tears that threaten to spill. We are at the parking lot, Ethan tries to take my hand but I pull back" Who is it"
Ethan would look at me now. I feel like slapping him, punching him he knows I know but I want him to say it for himself.
"I'm sorry"
Hard as I try the tears roll down my face, I don't hold them back I don't even wipe them for fear of smudging my makeup. I am about to say something when I am startled by an animalistic growl that comes from behind me.
"What the hell did you do to her?" Embry growls
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE?" I screech, unintentionally spitting.
Embry finally acknowledges me and wraps his arms around me. I thrash and struggle and when he finally lets go of me he runs his hands all over me as if to ensure I'm physically okay.
I push him off me and just glare, I turn around only to find Ethan glaring even harder at us.
"But I'm not the only one am I?" He hisses
"Oh don't even! You know there's nothing between me and this physco!"
"Really? Doesn't look like it" He keeps glaring at me as if I were trash.
I let out another sob, hysterical and desperate. Then I can't control what happens next Embry starts shaking -uncontrollably almost- then throws a punch at Ethan's face. Embry takes my hand a leads me away, he holds me and I wish to pull away but it seems for the time being every cell in my body is –like a magnet- attracted to him so I can't.
"Are you alright?" He whispers.
To be honest I'm numb. But I know that as soon as my body calms down, I will be furious with him. Embry takes my hand and leads me back in the direction of La Push.
"Waitt" I slurr through the tears" My car"
Embry pauses "Can I?"
I hesitate for a brief moment before handing him the keys. My mind wanders back to Ethan, his face bloody; in a way up until now I truly believed I loved him. Well maybe 'love' is a bit of an exaggeration but I certainly care about him and now he must hate me all because of Embry. I could have handled that better!
"Were here" Embry said softly, as I held my hand out for my keys" Jen..."
"You, you really shouldn't have done that" I say and then slam the car door.
I storm into the school, power walk to the cafeteria. I spot Fernanda, even though I know I've known her for less than 24 hours I am in desperate need of some girl support. I drag her out of the caf and into hallway. Once again those dreadful tear threaten to spill over and when I spot Embry with a miserable look on his face they do. I shouldn't feel any sympathy for him, in many ways what just happened is my fault but what gave him the right to show up as he did? How did he know where I was?
"Jen... Are you okay? What happened? Where have you been?" Fernanda asks.
I tried to form the words, but I just couldn't instead I leaned in for hug and fell. Then I just sobbed, I stopped trying to hold anything back. Fer rubbed my back and a few moments passed before she spoke again.
"Jen what happened?" Fer whispered.
"He broke up with me!" I cried.
"Who?" She seemed totally lost.
"Ethan, he dumped me over a text before gym" Well not really but that was what he intended to do." I drove to Forks, to talk to him but he wouldn't even look at m-me!" I took deep breaths, I knew I was summarizing but whatever ." Then that big Yeti showed up and ruined everything!"
"Who? E-Embry?" Fer practically screamed this.
"Yes! He saw me crying and screamed at Ethan, Fer! He's crazy! he punched Ethan in the face!"
"Wait, what did Embry say to Ethan?"
"He was like 'what the hell did you do to her?' ugh, Fer you should've have seemed him, he had an animal look on his face, he's a dumbass Fer, they both are!"
"Jen?"
"Hmm?"
"Embry probably broke Ethan's jaw"
"You're right! Probably did some permanent damage too" I giggled. I pulled my compact mirror out to check my face" Bad day not to wear waterproof, ugh, Fer I'm going home" I paused before smiling weakly" Thanks"
"Anytime"
I stormed past Embry and ran to my car. I drove home in silence, refusing to let another tears spill. I unlocked the door and ran to my room. Ann opened the door ready to yell when she saw my face, her shoulders slumped and she came over and hugged me.
We all have bad days; it's how we decide to handle to them that end up being the most crucial part of it. To be honest I handled everything so badly but it doesn't matter cause I plan on making things right and at this point it's the best I can do.
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