Authors Note: Thanks for all the lovely reviews, i'm glad you guys like it. Just a warning this chapter is going to use the N word. In no way do I believe it should be used (or use it myself) in normal conversation but it would be inaccurately representing the character of the kidnapper.

Stef

We all did what we could to find her but we couldn't find any information therefore couldn't find her. At captains orders Mike took us back to the station and I know i'm going to be sent home.

"I'm not going home!" I yelled.
"Stef you can't work this case and you know it" she said gently.

"I'm not going to sit around and do nothing while my wife is being held captive by some crazy man. I'm not going to rest till we find her." I yelled and she waited until I was finished.

"I'm so sorry about this and you know we are doing everything to find her but right now go home too you're kids." She said and she has a point. As much as I want to be here and feel like I'm helping to find her I need to make sure my kids are ok.

I went home and all the kids came to greet me.

"Where's mom?" Jesus asked concerned and I could see they all were. How am I suppose to say she has been kidnapped?

"Um...well..." I started trying to keep the tears from my eyes. I can tell they can see it.

"Is mom ok?" Brandon asked for his siblings and I felt myself shake my head, no. I tried to stop the tears but they still came. I whipped them away as quickly as I can.

"No mom... Mom is missing" I finally managed to say and I saw the shock, fear, concern on all of their faces.

"What?" Mariana asked tears in her eyes too. I should have been protecting her! I should have made sure she got home before I left. I knew that there was a kidnapper a town away taking colored women and knew my biracial wife was out late and I didn't make sure she got home. I practically asked for this to happen.

"The case I was called out on was a kidnapper that was kidnapping colored women..." I said.

"He has her?" Callie asked worried.

"Yeah we believe so" I said sitting down.

"What are you doing here? Moms been kidnapped and your home?" Mariana asked almost sound accusingly and I sighed.

"You think I don't want to be out there looking for her? I would do anything to be doing that but I can't leave you guys here alone with a kidnapper loose... Besides I'm not allowed to work personal cases and I know my team is doing everything to bring her back." I said but I still feel so helpless. I know Lena is hoping I will save her. She's counting on me not the people I work with and I'm not doing anything to help her.

"They are gonna find her, I'm confident" I said trying to muster up all my confidence so they can't tell I'm not confident.

"What if they don't" Jude said worried and Callie put her arm around his shoulders.

"Let's not think that way ok" I said blinking the tears away. We all hugged and I sent them up to try and get some sleep even though I'm not going to send them to school tomorrow.

I went upstairs and after checking on the kids one last time I climbed into bed knowing I'm not going to sleep tonight. I looked over at Lenas side. What I would give to hold her right now, just to know she's safe.

Before I knew it I was crying out of control. What is he doing to her? Torturing her? Raping her?

As the thought came to my mind I got up and ran for the bathroom puking in the toilet. I leaned against the wall and felt tears sting my eyes.

Lena

A light came from upstairs and I heard someone come downstairs. Hope and worry filled me as I tried to figure out who it is. On one hand it could be who ever took us and it can get really bad and on the other hand it could be the police. Oh please let it be the police.

"Get up!" A man shouted. Yeah not the police. I tried to get up but legs collapsed underneath me.

"I said get up, n*gger." he shouted and I winced at the word. He un-cuffed me and grabbed my hands hardly.

"Try anything and you are dead" he said pulling me up and making sure I noticed the gun on his hip. I know better than to try anything so I let him lead me upstairs. My mind filled with mental images of what may happen next. Is he going to rape me? Torture me? Kill me?

"Put this on" he said grabbing what looked like an old maid costume from the 1900's but was probably bought at a halloween costume store based on how revealing it is.

"That room" he said pointing to a bathroom down the hall. At least i don't have to change in front of him. Maybe he won't rape me. at least. I got into the room and changed even though it really didn't fit me at all.

"Clean the place" he said confusing me. He kidnapped me too be the maid? I mean granted the place is one step down from the houses shown on that show about hoarders but still.

"Now" he said slapping me and it almost knocked me off balance. I regained my balance as quickly as possible and started cleaning the place. He got a beer from the fridge, which appears to be all that's in it.

"You tried to run away" he said in between gulps of beer. "You didn't give me a choice"

What is he saying? I didn't run away?

He got out a newspaper and the date on it was November 9th, it's February. Than I noticed something even weirder the year was 1902. Why is he reading an old newspaper. He is delusional.

"See I thought I treated you pretty fairly. As fairly as you could a n*gger." he said. Does he think it's 1902?

Stef

The night passed by slowly and I don't think I got any sleep. I called the station like three times during the night too see if they had any leads or anything and each time was just full of disappointing news. An hour ago at approximately five in the morning I got out her laptop too look though her information and I feel bad for doing it. I wouldn't invade her privacy unless it was like this scenario. I didn't find anything out of the ordinary, it was all mostly work related. There was nothing that gave any hints of why or how she would be taken and before long I wanted to throw the laptop I was so mad about it.

In the morning after Mike's shift was over he stopped by too make sure everyone was ok.

"Anything?" I asked and he shook his head.

"No i'm sorry" he said.

"Do we know what he does too them?" I asked and he sighed.

"Stef...I don't think…" he said but I stopped him.

"No tell me! Do you know something" I said not yelling but making sure he knows i'm serious.

"No, we don't know anything yet. I'm just saying maybe it's best if when we do find out if you didn't know…" he said and it pissed me off more.

"What?" I asked and he sighed.

"I'm just saying it's going to make it worse…" he said and I laughed humorlessly.

"Fuck you, my wife is missing and who knows what the hell can be happening to her…and you have the nerve…" I started and he put his hands up in surrender knowing better than to fight with me right now.

"All i'm saying is… that's not how you want to remember her" he said and I never wanted to hurt him as much as I do right now.

"No fuck you, Michael. Lena is alive and we are going to find her… alive." I said trying not to start crying right now.

"I know, that's not what I'm saying. We are doing everything to bring her back and you know it. We have three stations police officers on the look out for this guy. We are going to find her...alive" he said and tears came to my eyes.

"Do you know how many parents and spouses we had to say 'i'm sorry but he or she is dead'? Huh? Every single one of them we told at one point in time that we would find them" I said completely losing it and started crying again. He awkwardly hugged me.

"We are doing everything we can, Stef." he said and I wiped the tears away and called the kids down for breakfast which was just muffins Mike picked up for us. I know by the end of the day I will probably have a months worth of food from neighbors and my co worker's wives. Which would be much appreciated because I suck at cooking and the kids have been spoiled by having Lena as the main cook of the family.

"Did you get anywhere on the case?" Jesus asked Mike.

"No sorry, but I promise we will find her" he said and I just hope he's right.

Mariana

I can't believe this is happening. What if they don't find her? What if he already killed her? I don't want to lose my mom. I want her home and safe.

Brandon

I never thought this would happen. Kidnapped? I just wish they find her as soon as possible.

Jude

My life has never been easy but just as I thought it would get better something else thrown at us. I'm so worried about mama. I know it's killing Stef that she's not out there looking for her. Her entire life is dedicated to helping make this city safe and helping people but when she needs to protect her family she can't do anything. That has to be frustrating.

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