It was a great day so far. She remembered to do all her homework and didn't get in trouble with any of the teachers. Sayaka was excited, although a bit nervous. She had been fidgety and very aloof for most of the morning. At lunch she didn't really pay attention to topics she, Madoka, and Homura (who just actually listened) were discussing at the rooftop benches.
"What do you think, Sayaka-chan?"
"…"
Madoka peered over to her blue haired friend.
"…Sayaka-chan?"
"A-Ah yeah! I think you're right Madoka!" Sayaka quickly replied back, obviously not tuned in to the conversation before her.
Madoka frowned.
"Sayaka-chan, you don't have to be nervous, I'm sure Kamijou-kun would accept your feelings." Sayaka blushed at the thought of that.
"T-Thanks, Madoka."
Lunch abruptly ended as the three were going into a topic about their homeroom teacher, Saotome. The bells that rang could be heard throughout the school, every student knew that it was time to go back to their respective classrooms. The three girls packed up their lunch boxes and continued down the stairs to their classroom.
Once they were there, Sayaka noticed Hitomi sitting on her own. Her posture was straight and she was looking prim and proper. She felt … hatred for the girl? Did she really hate Hitomi, one of her best friends? Sayaka swiftly discarded those thoughts from her mind and walked over to her desk. Settling down in her chair, she began to ponder on what was going to happen after school to keep herself distracted.
Shopping mall, the CD store, then the hospital. Right, got it. Sayaka thought to herself, seemingly prepared for her confession to Kyousuke. She turned to her right to face Madoka, who was busy talking to Homura. The two seemed to be in their own little world. She felt a sting of jealousy when saw that they were smiling and laughing, although mostly just Madoka.
Classes eventually ended and it was finally time for school to end as well. Students hurriedly left the room, in a rush to go to wherever with their other friends. It was around 4, and a warm sun in the sky painted the classroom with a pleasant orange. Now Sayaka felt even more nervous. It was really time to confess her feelings.
"Sayaka-chan? You okay?" Madoka asked.
"Yeah, j-just a bit nervous," she chuckled nervously. "Madoka…. Can you come with me? I think I'd feel better if you were with me."
"Sayaka-chan… S-Sorry, I have plans with Homura-chan today…" Madoka looked down at the floor with guilt on her face. "I would have definitely gone with you if I weren't busy right now, sorry again Sayaka-chan!" she added in, shutting her eyes.
"Ah right, okay. Uh, you guys have fun then?" replied Sayaka. Madoka nodded and responded with a bright smile.
"We will!" the two girls then left, leaving Sayaka alone in the deserted classroom. She sighed.
A familiar head popped out of the side of the door.
"Oh yeah! And tell me how it goes, Sayaka-chan! I'm rooting for you!" she smiled yet again, before turning back to walk with Homura.
She made an over-enthusiastic thumbs-up towards her pink-haired friend as she flashed a grin.
Making her way to the CD store, she began to search for another rare CD for Kyousuke. It was now around 5 o'clock and there weren't many people there, save for a few regular customers. Sayaka began to walk to the classical music section of the store while some customers made idle chat with the workers.
She was glad for once that Madoka wasn't with her; Trying to find a rare CD took some time and last time that Madoka was here she was completely drained and sat on the ground while Sayaka kept searching for a CD. After an hour and twenty minutes, Sayaka held up her precious treasure in front of a tired Madoka who just wanted to go home.
In order to prevent that from happening again, maybe it was a good idea that Madoka didn't come with her this time after all.
Flipping and flapping the cases, she eventually found something that caught her eye in the M section.
Mahler, huh. I think that's one of his favourites?
Taking the case out, she read the back of the cover and began examining the text.
I guess this would be good.
Satisfied with her choice and managing to find a rare CD in record time, she went over to pay for her newly found treasure.
He's going to be so happy when he sees this!
Sayaka began to grin to herself like an idiot.
After a few gestures and exchanges with the worker at the till, she waved goodbye as she began to walk to the hospital now.
Her nervousness grew the closer she was to the hospital. It was now around 5, the sun was about to set. It was really time to do it.
She gulped and went inside of the hospital, clutching a small shopping bag in her left hand. She greeted the nurse in a polite manner and signed in. Taking the first elevator she could see, she went inside and pressed on the button with '34 F' above it.
It was just herself in the elevator. She looked behind her, the buildings and people became smaller and smaller as she ascended from the ground floor. Whatever she felt earlier was quickly drained from her and now replaced with nervousness.
Sayaka was abruptly interrupted in the middle of her thoughts by the ding of the elevator which told her that she was now on the 34th floor. She stepped out. Her hands felt clammy and a small bead of sweat began to form on her temple. She walked to the third room to her right, the one that belonged to the one and only, Kamijou Kyousuke.
Reaching for the handle of the door, she could hear her heart pounding loudly in her chest. This is it, she thought to herself. She tried to keep calm before opening the door.
Kamijou Kyousuke was there, sitting upright on the bed. He was facing the window to his left, looking out into Mitakihara city. It seemed that he didn't hear Sayaka coming in. Breathing out a quiet sigh, Sayaka began to walk towards him, trying to keep calm.
"K-Kyousuke! Hey, I got you uh," Sayaka sat down on the chair and began to clumsily bring out the CD, "another rare CD! It didn't take to long to find it this time, apparently it was the last one in the shop!" she held it up, displaying the precious CD she had bought earlier with her own money.
He turned from the window and faced Sayaka.
"Oh great! Who's the artist?"
"It's Mahler! It's one of your favourites, right?" Sayaka shakily got the CD out of its case.
"Sayaka."
"Y-yes?" Sayaka's voice came out a bit too loudly.
"Thanks," he began. "How did you know?"
"Lady's intuition~" she responded back, acting as cool as possible. On the inside, she was certainly glad that she had guessed correctly.
"Thank you." he said again.
"N-No problem! This is what friends are for, right?"
Kyousuke took out his CD player from his drawer and began to put the CD into the player. Taking one ear bud, he held the other one for Sayaka.
"Wanna listen with me?"
Nodding, she took the ear bud and began to listen. The close distance between her and Kyousuke and her pounding heart negated her ability to concentrate on the music that was playing. Kyousuke closed his eyes, a small smile evident on his face. They continued to listen to the song in silence.
After the song ended, they both removed their ear buds and placed it near the player. I-It's time… she felt queasy.
"K-Kyousuke… I need to tell you something," Sayaka looked down, fidgeting with her fingers on her lap.
"What is it?" he peered over, confused.
"I've…" she could hear her rapid heartbeats in her ear, "I've liked you for a long time, a-and I was wondering if you might want-to-go-out-with-me!" she blurted out in a higher pitched tone.
"What?!" Kyousuke widened his eyes and gave her a strange look. "Sayaka… I…" the boy was clearly shocked. "I'm sorry… I don't think I can respond to your feelings. I've never thought about you… I-in that way."
For the next few seconds that felt like a few minutes, there was dead silence as both sides did not speak out.
She could feel her heart drop.
Her whole world was crashing down in front of her.
After seeing his face she really thought that her heart couldn't take any more of this. In response, Sayaka stood up, averting her gaze from his grey eyes. She could feel tears about to sting her eyes and turned on her heel to face the other way.
"I-I see, it's fine, I'm glad you told me how you felt."
"…Sayaka?"
"What?" she hastily snapped back, getting inpatient.
"… I'm sorry."
Without speaking a word, she made her way over to the door.
Swiftly walking out the door and sliding it shut, she stood there for a while, trying to process the events that just happened a few minutes ago.
Tears stained her cheeks as they fell out of her eyes.
She began to run.
It was what she was always good at, what she always did when things didn't go as planned.
She needed to get away from here as soon as possible.
She needed to stay somewhere isolated from everyone for a while.
She was spiralling down into despair.
When she reached the ground floor she ran out, disregarding passer-byers she would accidentally run into.
Running all the way back home, she ignored her parents who were about to greet her and ask her about her day. She stormed upstairs to her room, and slammed the door shut.
Lying down onto the bed, Sayaka Miki began to cry her heart out.
Using her forearm to cover her face she began to sob out her muffled cries.
A muffled ringtone rang from her pocket. It was her phone.
Taking it out, she inspected her phone to see who was calling her at such a time like this.
It was Madoka.
Too tired to do anything and certainly too tired to talk to anyone, she threw her phone onto the floor.
She hated the world, hated how unfair the world was. She hated how nothing went her way, not even once. Kyousuke was going to be with Hitomi now, she knows it. Is she even able to face Hitomi tomorrow? She laughed bitterly to herself. Who does she really have?
Kyousuke is gone, Hitomi is gone too since she has no idea how to face her now. Her parents wouldn't understand what's going on, she never got along with them anyway. They never understood her.
Madoka.
She had Madoka, right?
Madoka is probably… Going to be taken away from me like everyone I care about. Taken by Homura.
She made a mental groan in her mind, too tired to sound out a physical one.
It was unfair. She didn't have anyone did she?
Unmotivated to do anything, she locked herself up in her room for the rest of the day. Knocks from worried parents disturbed her until she shouted at them to go away.
Right now she didn't want to see anyone.
New hot tears resurfaced from her eyes as she coughed out angry sighs. She laid down on the bed and wrapped herself up with her blanket.
It was a horrible day.
Feeling tired, her thoughts slowly began to drift away as she lost her consciousness.
A/N: Hello I'm back again! I really want to thank those that have favourited, followed and reviewed. The feedback I got was pretty positive and it really motivated me to write. Anyways, I hope you liked (or disliked) reading this chapter, and as always, reviews are appreciated. And until next time, goodbye!
Oh yes and also, my exams are coming up fairly soon (in a week) so I may not update as fast as I did this time. Rest assured, I'm still writing this story in my spare time.
