(Bellas point of view)
How dare he call me stupid!!
I just stormed off from the school. I didn't want to talk to him.
I pulled in front of my house and got out. I almost forgot that Charlie was supposed to be gone until this next Saturday. Today was Monday.
I angrily jambed my keys into the key hole in the door. I ruffly slammed the door closed after stepping through the thresholds.
"Ugh!!!" I shouted at nothing. I set my school bag on the kitchen table and looked at the mail i got today.
"Bill."
"Bill."
"Charlies Bank"
"My Bank." I ticked off the envelopes in my hand. I looked through all my mail.
I was starving. I went through the kitchen an heated up spaghetti from two nights ago.
I had a whole plate full. When Edward . . . left i just stopped eating. I wans't ever hungry. I just started getting a tiny appetite. But only for fruit. Now that he was back i suddenly got starved. See what kind of things this boy can do to me?!
I quickly went upstairs and brushed my teeth from all signs of spaghetti.
I ploppled down on my bed and curled my legs up into my chest and wrapped my arms around them.
I just let my thoughts return to Edward and what he said. I felt the salt water tears run down my face. I thought i heard something outside my window but i disregarded it.
I felt my phone vibrate and got it out of my pocket.
It said 'Edward'. It was a text.
I almost ignored it. But what can i say? He's the love of my life. No matter how much i wish i could ignore him. There was no way in hell that i could.
"Open your window." It said.
Oh. So now he wanted to talk?!?! I didn't get to say anything i wanted earlier. And now he wants to freaking talk!!
"No" I texted back. I knew i was pushing a nerve of his.
It vibrated again.
"Pretty Please? :( " Ugh. I hate him. Well not really.
I sighed.
"Fine." I texted back. I waited for him to text back. It was less than 5 seconds later.
"Thank you. Im so sorry. I love you." Ok now i really hate him.
I walked up to my window and opened it. I sighed and walked back to the bed going back to my position earlier. The tears started again. I didn't want him to see me cry. But i just couldn't help it. He hurt me today.
I rested my head on my knees trying to breathe evenly.
Two seconds later i heard rustling outside my window. I knew who that was.
I didn't look up i just sat there letting the tears fall where they may. I felt a cold hand on my lower back rubbing it gently. I could smell him. It reminded me of three months ago beforre he left. i just want to forget all this happened. Got back to how it used to be. But sadly it cant. He scard me for life and it will take time to heal the wound and make it dissapear. If possible.
"How could you?" I barely croaked. I looked up through tears streaked eyes. I could feel my eyeliner and mascara running.
He got up lightning fast and got a wet rag. He rubbed it as gentle as a feather under my eyes and on my eyelids. All signs of makeup dissapearing. I really didn't like wearing it at all anyway. Ever since he got back i feel more like my old self.
"Im so sorry." He whispered in my ear. I shivered.
"I know. You keep saying that! I just want to know how could you!! After all the hell you put me through you go and treat me like...like" Ugh. I couldn't finish i just started crying harder.
"Bella. I didn't think before i acted. I need to do that. I didn't give you a chance to explain yourself. I was stupid. I just love you so much. Hell i am way past me being in love with you. I sank way down below that level the second week i knew you existed. My love." He laughed softly. Great now i feel guilty. I am a whack job.
"You called me stupid. You didn't even give me a chance. I would never smoke. Or do anything so incredulous!" I sobbed.
He pulled me into the center of the bed. He wrapped his arms around me and cradled me to his chest. I turned my head into his chest and my tears ran onto his blue t shirt.
"I am so stupid. Everything i do is stupid. I am trying to make you love me again. But with everything i do i piss everyone around me off. And end up getting you and I hurt even worse. Im so sorry. Bella i didn't call you stupid. I said that if you were smoking the cigarettes than your actions would be stupid. By no means Bella are you stupid. You are the most wonderful, caring, loyal, intellegent, beautiful, warm hearted person in the world. I am lucky to be in your very preasence. I am so damn lucky to have even a slightest bit of your heart even thouh i dont deserve it." He pulled back to look me in the eyes. I saw love. Absolutely pure love.
"Edward stop trying to make me love you again. Because it's not possible." I said. He looked hurt. He knodded and sat up. His head was facing down at the floor.
He was bout to get up but i quickly grabbed his arm.
"Its not possible because im already way passed being in love with you. I love you so much. I would give my life for you a thousand times over and over agian." I said and yanked his chin up to look me in the eyes.
"Your not just saying it to make me feel better?" He questioned in a tiny voice.
I snorted.
"Pa - lease!! Me? Make Edward Cullen feel better?" I snorted again. He chuckled quietly.
"No. And seriously Edward. Look me in the eyes and tell me what you see?" I asked him seriously.
"Besides the absolutely most beautiful chocolate brown orbs in eternity?" He asked. I blushed and looked down. He tilted my chin back up.
"Ah, there is my beautiful Bella. Your face is gorgeous even without the make up." He said.
I blushed furiously. He laughed.
I slapped his hand away.
"Edward im serious tell me what you see." I said. He placed his fingers on my cheek and traced up and down where my blush was. Then he cradled my head in his hand.
"I see . . . love. Pure undynying absolutely enduring love." He sighed. He dropped his hand and looked away.
"Why dont you believe it? Why do you keep looking away form my love?" I asked confused.
"Because . . . because i dont deserve it!!" He said exasperated. He stood up lightning fast and went to the corner of my room.
"How can you love me? After all i have put you through?!?! I dont deserve you!!" He sank down to the floor his head in his hands.
"See i feel the same way, honey. I feel i dont deserve your love." I said and looked down. I blushed and looked down i just realized what i called him. It seemed like it fit so naturally. I just couldn't help it. I could see him faintly smile. BUt it quickly faltered.
"Bella dont ever say that! You deserve everything you desire." He mummbled into his hands.
"See Edward love can do that to people. When your in love it can make up for anything. We can get through anything." I said confiently.
I walked over to him and sat gently in front of him.
He looked up at me and sighed happily.
"Your going to make me fall more in love with you. If thats possible." He said. I smiled evily.
"Good." I said in a dangerous voice.
"You are evil Isabella Marie Swan." He stated. I laughed lightly.
"Now tell me Edward do you feel worthy of my love?" I asked sincerily.
He sighed and looked up at me. He smiled sadly.
"No." I was about to interrupt and tell him that was luducris but he continued befor i got the chance.
"I dont think i ever will. But i promise i will give my undynying love forever."
"Thats all i ask for." I laughed. He chuckled.
"I know you are not lying Edward. About anything you said. But, even though i hate to say this, you did put me through alot and i do need a little time." I said.
He knodded sadly.
"But i do promise you will always have my love. And in time, a little time, i garuntee i will come around. I just have to figure some things out. You own my heart. It will always be with you. Keep it safe." I smiled.
He looked up at me and smiled the biggest grin i have ever seen him in before. I smiled and blushed back.
"As long as you promise to keep mine safe." He said.
"I promise with my life." I promised.
We looked into each others eyes for an immeasurable moment.
"Well now i dont know about you but i do miss your lips. I know i need time and so do you to prove to me that you care about me enough to not leave again. But its been three months." I said. What the hell?!!? Did i just say that outloud?!
He chuckled.
"I missed yours too." He murmed almost like he was embarrased. He leaned closer to me and mumbled against my lips "You have no idea how much i missed your plump pink lips." And then his lips pressed tightly to mine.
He kissed me passionatly and sweetly. IT only lasted about fifteen seconds.
"I do know i need to prove that to you. And in time i will." He sighed and leaned back.
"So we wont say were dating. Just friends with benefits?" He questioned. We both chuckled at what he said.
"I guess. But were both in love with each other so the whole ' friends with benefits thing ' wont last very long. I just need . . . ah, hell i dont know what i need! All i know is that i love you and i need you. But . . ." I trailed off.
"But i have to get it through your thick skull that i love you more than my life itself." He joked. I smacked his arm playfully.
"Yeah i guess. But i already love you that way. If i could literally take out my heart without it being so painful and gross then i would and i would give it to you." I giggle and he kissed the top of my head. He picked me up and placed me on the bed.
"So can i get a kiss every now and then?" He asked sheepishly.
"Of course . . . Well maybe on the cheek." I said and gave him a long good kiss on the cheek.
He nuzzled his face in my hair. Inhaling deeply.
"Evil." He muttered. I giggle and snuggled closer to his chest. He pulled the blaket around the both of us and we layed together. It was almost time for bed anyway.
I was drifting off ten minutes after he reached over and turned the lights off.
"I love you more than anything in the world Edward." I said.
"I love you too. More than anything. Goodnight, my love." He said.
"Goodnight." I mumbled half asleep.
He chuckled at my sleepy state. And i lazily stuck out my bottom lip. He poked it and chuckled from underneath me. He was shaking with silent laughter.
I fell asleep in his arms around five minutes later. It was the best nights sleep i've had in three months.
When i awoke in the morning i slammed my elbow into the wall, while trying to rub my eyes.
"Ow! God damnit! Oh that is so going to leave a bruise." I whined.
I heard a chuckle from the rocking chair in room and shot my eyes open. Then everything from the day before flooded my mind. I smiled.
"Yeah, laugh at the person who just hurt herself." I said sarcastically. I was trying so hard not to laugh.
He was laughing very loud right now.
I turned over in my bed and pulled the covers over my head.
"Asshole." I muttered.
He chuckled again.
I felt him tug at the blanket and pull it free from my face.
"Please dont hide that beautiful face from me, i have lived to long without it."
I laughed and rolled my eyes. He is so baised.
"Well i have to go home and change. And also fill everyone in on what happened." He informed me,
"I hope Alice doesnt tear you to shreds for waiting so long to tell her hwat went down between you and I." I giggled watching him get ready to leave.
"Ha ha." He said sarcastically and slipped through my window.
I sighed and sat up. I jumped into the shower. Then i got ready for another day of school.
Ok i know it is a whole lot shorter. But chapters in this story are going to be. I just need to strech it out more. It's just me. But you have to deal with it because im weird like that!
Anyway.
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