A/N: Thanks for reading and sorry it took so long to update. I just got a little burnt out since chapter 1 and the last two chapters of You In The End were written in a short period and I needed a little break. So, hopefully the length of this makes up for the wait. I'm looking forward to the next chapter and it should be fun to write, so it should be out relatively quickly.
So, to answer a question from my reviews from Ty: I imagined the injury to be in the Thoracic section of her spine, but I thought about things and realized that I was writing off this type of injury and wrapping it up too easily. Sooo, last chapter was altered and instead of injuring her spine, Chloe has nerve damage in her back and her legs. My mom has this type of thing and I figured that if I'm going to write about something, I want to be informed and accurate. So, thanks for the question and I think it makes the story better.
Now going back to the story, all of the chapter titles I've chosen so far have come from song titles that I love. From now on, I'm going to select the part that inspired the chapter and post it before the chapter begins. I might go back and fix my first story and chapter one of this, but for right now I'm just testing it out and seeing how I like it. So without further ado, this is chapter two!
Do you know a love like a bullet in the chest?
Ships on grey seas
Waves keep the time like my heartbeat
It's an overture
It's time to join the marching line (Vanessa Carlton)
Chapter Two: The Marching Line
"Beca? Beca, are you paying attention to me? This isn't going to work if you don't concentrate. What are you looking at?"
Beca ignored the nagging voice in her ear as she leaned back on her good arm and peered across the room at the stunning redhead. The girl had frustration written all over her face as she leaned against a walker and tried to hold herself upright. A physical therapist was at her side and trying to encourage her, but Beca knew this face all too well. Chloe was holding back tears and Beca knew it was only a matter of time before she cracked and broke down completely. She had gotten to know this face over the past three weeks and she felt an ache grow in her stomach as she watched Chloe start to inch her way forward, wobbling and unsteady on her feet.
Chloe took three slow steps forward and then stopped, leaning heavily on the walker as pain ripped through her lower back and legs. She tried to continue, but it was too much and she broke down into tears as the physical therapist moved her wheelchair behind her body and helped her sit down. She was progressing and a week ago she couldn't even stand on her own, but she wanted more and it hurt to be so weak. She could feel Beca watching her from across the room and swiped her hands over her wet cheeks, laughing lightly as she realized how idiotic she must look and smiled up at her physical therapist as she bit back more tears.
He sighed and said "Chloe, you're doing great. You have to get your strength back first and it takes time. You've been through so much and to actually be walking is a huge accomplishment. I promise you that if you keep up your exercising and rehab, you'll be walking in no time. Please don't cry, you're making me look bad."
Chloe softly laughed and said "I'm sorry, Mike. It just hurts and I want to be where I was, not where I am now. It's just really hurts to remember dancing and running when you're relearning how to walk. I'm okay though. So, what's next?"
Mike smiled and said "There's my girl! So, you can do some pool therapy if you feel up to it or we can just get your muscles rubbed out and try to help with the spasms you're having. What'll it be: a massage or some swimming?"
Chloe thought for a moment and said "That's an easy question. Let's go to the pool and keep this up. I'm already in pain, what difference is a little more going to make?"
Mike just grinned back at her and Beca watched from across the room as they met up with a female therapist who took Chloe back to get changed into her suit. Beca longed to join them and help get her girlfriend dressed, but was facing more pressing matters as a hand was being waved in front of her face and her own therapist said "Beca! What are you looking at?!"
Beca laid back down on the table and said "Sorry, Jake. It's just my girlfriend was over there and-"
Before she could continue, Jake said "You can't keep your eyes off of her. I don't blame you, but you do this every day and you would think that you would get used to looking at her. Now, are you ready to focus on your own therapy or do we need to call it quits for the day? If you don't take this more seriously, your shoulder could freeze up and it's going to be really painful for you to do that DJing stuff that you do. Do you want that to happen?"
Beca just rolled her eyes and said "No, I'm not stupid. She's just…she's really distracting but now she's going to the pool and you have my full attention. Now, back to this stupid rehab. I don't know why I have to do this now when I'm not getting rid of this sling for three more weeks."
As Jake started to rotate her shoulder in small circles and heard her whimper in pain, he said "Because you're in pain and it's only going to be worse when you're arm isn't supported constantly. We want to have you ready to use it fully by the time the sling comes off. This isn't even the hard rehab yet. Talk to me in two weeks about rehab being stupid and maybe I'll agree with you. This is the easy stuff, so just try to relax and let me work out your shoulder a little bit. Once we get the muscles moving, this will be a cake walk."
Beca nodded and relaxed back against the table, assisting him in the easy exercises and calming when the pain dissipated. After about ten minutes of the exercise, he helped her change positions for a new exercise and said "So, are you excited for the big day tomorrow? It's right in time for Thanksgiving too, which must be pretty exciting for you."
Beca smiled and said "Yeah, I've been dreaming about this day. I never thought she'd be stuck up here for three weeks, but now she gets to come home and things will be better. I'm pretty happy that she's going to be home for Thanksgiving too so I don't have to spend it over at my dad's house. My friends and I are going to have an "Orphan's Thanksgiving" over at Chloe's apartment. My smart friends that are staying at campus instead of going home are going to meet up and celebrate together. It'll probably end up being a booze fest instead of a real holiday party, but I'm pretty psyched for it."
Jake grinned as he started to raise and lower Beca's arm over her head and said "I remember those days from my college years. After what you've been through though, I'm pretty sure that I don't have to remind you to be careful with the alcohol. It'll be nice though for you to take a break from all of this and be with the people you love. It'll be good for Chloe too and I'm sure she's looking forward to it after calling this place home for so long."
Beca nodded as she tried to ignore the slight pain coming from her shoulder at the change in motion and said "Yeah, she's really looking forward to it. Jake, do you think you could be honest with me if I ask you about Chloe? Everyone is being really optimistic and I know she'll walk again, but what kind of time frame are we looking at? Don't give me the answer that you give her when she's upset so she calms down. I need to know, because it's killing me to watch her like this."
Jake looked down at Beca as she stared up at him with pleading eyes and softly said "This can take months. Nerve pain is some of the worst pain that you can have and while it'll get better over time, she'll have it for the rest of her life to some degree. The problem is mainly from the nerve damage, but also from the pelvic injury. That's super painful and it probably added a month onto her recovery time. Conservatively, she could be walking on her own within a month with the walker. It can take several more months until she's strong enough to walk without it and even then, it'll be hard some days and she'll definitely be feeling it. Along with that great news, the nerve damage in her right leg is a little worse than the damage in her left leg and her back, so while she'll be able to walk she'll most likely have a permanent limp for the rest of her life. It won't be so serious that she'll need a cane or a walker, but it'll be there. She knows all of this and it's hard for her, so don't get too mad at her for not telling you. It's a lot to face when you're only 22 and so far, she's doing really great and exceeding the expectations that we have for her therapy."
Beca looked away from Jake as her guilt became overwhelming and tears filled her eyes. No one had said anything about it taking as long as he made it out to be and a limp was definitely not mentioned. She thought that once they found out that she wasn't paralyzed, everything would be okay. The last three weeks had proven that wrong though and now she was looking at a lifetime of seeing her girlfriend in pain. After a few moments she looked back up at Jake and said "What about when we get home? Is there anything that we can't do and how long do we have to wait? Chloe is…she's been waiting to do some stuff and I don't think I can stop her. She's pretty persuasive, if you haven't noticed yet."
Jake smiled down at her and said "I have and I assume you're talking about sex. It's okay if that's something you want to do, but you just have to be careful. No one expects you guys to just stop having a physical relationship and that can be just holding her or taking it a little further. You just need to remember that she's kind of sensitive right now and to just be conscientious."
Beca looked down at her lap with a red face full of embarrassment as he eased her into a sitting position and he softly said "Hey, stop beating yourself up over this and don't be so embarrassed, I get this stuff all the time. Don't worry too much either, because it's not like you can reinjure her back. I know that's why you asked and you're not going to paralyze her by holding her or doing anything else. Just take it easy and you'll be fine. Now, you're done for today, but I want to see you back in here on Monday with your girlfriend and ready to get back to work. I'll see you then."
She smiled at him in thanks for the workout and slid off of the table, heading to the pool to check on Chloe. She was still anxious and upset over everything, but at least she would be taking Chloe home in the morning and things could start going back to normal. No more long nights up at the hospital, no more sleeping alone in bed, and no more being away from the eyes and smile that haunted her dreams.
As Beca sunk onto a chair at the edge of the pool, she allowed herself to calm when she saw that Chloe looked much more comfortable in the water. It was much easier on her body and she seemed to be in a lot less pain, which was all that really mattered to Beca. It was nice seeing Chloe move her legs and exercise without a lot of assistance from the water therapist, but all Beca cared about was her comfort and until she could do this without any pain, Beca would continue to beat herself up.
Besides seeing Chloe doing well at the exercise, the other big perk of the pool therapy was the bathing suit that Chloe wore during it. It wasn't a bikini or anything skimpy like she wore during their summer in Maine, but it did allow for Beca to see much of the body that she had been denied for what seemed like an eternity and for that, she was grateful. This was the best part of coming up here every day and as she leaned back against the chair and watched, she couldn't help but think about how things would be back at the apartment. Sure, Chloe was pretty sexual and would most likely want to jump her as soon as they got in the door, but Beca needed it too and wasn't sure if she could hold back if the doctor told them to wait. It had been a long three weeks and while she had taken care of some of her needs on her own, there was something special about Chloe's touch and she ached for it every night as she laid alone in bed.
Chloe spotted Beca watching her from the side and smiled before saying "Becs, come on in! The water feels really good and it'll probably help out with your shoulder. Plus, I'd love the company and having someone in here to splash around with and dunk. Please?"
Beca shook her head and pointed down at her cast before she said "Sorry Ariel, but I can't. Besides, I like watching you and the view from up here is much better than in the pool."
Chloe smirked and shook her head before turning back to her therapist and continuing on with her exercises. Before Beca knew it, Chloe was done with her therapy for the day and she found herself pushing her girlfriend back to her room. Chloe wasn't saying much and Beca knew that she was in pain and trying not to let on. It was like this every time and Beca hated to leave her alone like this, opting most days to sit with the girl and hold her until her pain medicine kicked in or she fell asleep.
Today was no different and once Beca helped Chloe ease into the bed, the familiar whimpers and cries filled the room as Chloe tried desperately to relax and calm her body. Beca took it a little further than she did most days and got in the bed with Chloe, pulling her into her arms and allowing her to cry into her chest as she rubbed her hands over Chloe's legs. She moved her hands slowly up and down the offending limbs, massaging them firmly to try to ease the pain away but it just took the edge off and Chloe had to bite her lip to keep from crying out. It was getting old and she was starting to get frustrated at the idea of living with this for months. Beca's hands calmed her though and she couldn't stop her heavy eyes from sliding shut as she slowly drifted off to sleep after twenty minutes of pure pain.
Beca dried the tears from her sullen face and stole a few kisses before relaxing too and closing her eyes. It wasn't exactly like how they used to fall asleep together, but it was something and the familiarity of Chloe's shallow breaths and light snores slowly lulled her to sleep.
A few hours had passed and it was now mid-afternoon as Chloe flipped through magazines and talked softly to Beca, who was trying not to fall back asleep. She could spend hours just sitting with Chloe and did most days, bucking her classes, job, and Bella rehearsals just to stay a little longer with the person she loved the best. Beca had just dozed off when Chloe roused her from her slumber as she picked up a new magazine and softly said "She looks so happy!"
Beca groaned against her shoulder and said "Who are we talking about again?"
Chloe smiled down at Beca and showed her the cover of the People magazine before saying "Jessica Biel, the one who's on the cover of this magazine that you stole from Aubrey, silly! I love her dress too. Pink is such a bold choice for a wedding."
Beca glanced down at the magazine and said "I guess she looks pretty and the dress is okay, but he looks like an idiot. Who jumps for joy on a magazine cover? He should focus on music and not modeling."
Chloe grinned and said "He's happy and happy people jump for joy. Maybe you should try it sometime, Miss Miserable."
Beca allowed herself to smile and said "Dude, they probably paid him a shitload of money for this, he should smile."
Chloe laughed lightly and said "So, I'm a dude now? Whatever happened to baby? That was so romantic when you said that to me the night after my surgery."
Beca bit her lip and said "I thought you were never going to wake up. In case you haven't noticed, I can be romantic sometimes. Case in point, you should have seen the texts I got from Amy when she left the hospital and went back to our dorm. Your super romantic girlfriend had scattered rose petals around the room and had candles ready for when we came back from our date. She wasn't too happy that I had plans to have sex in our room, but she told everyone and now they all call me 'Lovergirl'. The things I do for you, Chloe Beale. I even had a talk with your dad before he took off. Have you heard from him lately?"
Chloe just shrugged as the mood quickly changed and as she slid the magazine away from her, she looked down at her hands and said "Not really. He sent money so I wouldn't have to go back to work for a while and we talked once, but that was it. I remember hearing him talking to me after my surgery and he sounded so sad and upset and I actually thought he would change. I guess I never learn though. So…what did you talk about? Did you make a good impression?"
Beca smiled and softly said "You could call it that…"
Tony Beale stood in her doorway and looked so uncomfortable that she almost laughed out loud. He was shuffling his feet back and forth and softly said "So, you're the girl that my daughter is in love with. I thought I should meet you before…"
His voice trailed off and Beca couldn't control her anger as she spat out "Before you leave her again, right? You're going to leave before she wakes up, aren't you? That way you don't have to feel like an asshole to her face. You can go to your stupid meeting and forget about her while she's back here with a broken heart because her own father didn't have the decency to at least talk to her. Why are you in my room? I don't want to meet you or talk to you or even look at your face. She could have died tonight, why are you doing this to her?!"
Tony looked back up from his feet and said "It's not so simple. I have important meetings in New York and I was barely able to get away just to fly in for this. We're launching a new line of software and this is incredibly important for the company. Being a vice president is hard and I just wish that she could understand. Besides, what could I possibly do to make this better for her? It's not like seeing her is going to make up for the years that I've been out of her life. It probably would have been better if I never even showed up here."
Beca nodded and said "You're probably right. Her heart is going to be broken when she finds out that you left her again and who's going to get her through it? The same people that have been getting her through it for years: her mom, Aubrey, and now me. It's going to be me holding her when she cries and can't understand why you just can't love her. It's going to be me on our wedding day, trying to make her feel better about not having her dad walk her down the aisle. It's always going to be me and I can't even stand looking at you."
Tony nodded and said "You intend to marry my daughter someday? It's a little fast to rush into a decision like that. Does she know?"
Beca shook her head and said "Probably not, but I want to be here for the long-haul. She needs someone that's not going to abandon her after years of your crap. I know what that's like and I'd never hurt her. We have a long way to go before marriage, but one day I will make her mine and promise her something that you have never given her; to never leave or hurt her or let her down. I think you should leave, Mr. Beale."
Tony just shook his head and started to walk out of the room before stopping in the doorway and turning back around. He looked down at his feet and softly said "You have one thing wrong, I do love my daughter. I love her enough to stay away and keep out of her life. She's better without me and she has a family that loves her and um…a girlfriend that obviously cares about her too. It was nice to meet you, Beca."
Chloe looked up at Beca with a smile slowly growing on her face and she softly said "You want to marry me? I though you didn't believe in marriage. What changed your mind?"
Beca shook her head and said "Some strange ginger who sang her way into my heart. Of all the things I just said to you, you're going to focus on the marriage thing. That's not happening for a long time and I gave your dad a smack down, so that should get some kind of reward. Right?"
Chloe kissed Beca on the lips tenderly and said "Yeah, that's your reward for being a bad ass. I appreciate you standing up for me and it really means a lot that you care enough to do something that makes you uncomfortable. I know it couldn't have been easy to say all of that to him, especially when you were afraid and hurting. He's a jerk and he's always going to be a jerk, regardless if he loves me or not. I have you though and that's all that matters. So, what kind of wedding do you want? Since you brought it up, it's fair game now. Be prepared though, Aubrey and I have been planning a joint wedding for years and it's going to be amazing!"
Beca smiled and said "Don't you mean a-ca-amazing? If Aubrey is involved, I'm pretty sure that I won't get a say but I just want it to be small and intimate with all of our friends there to see us commit to each other. No poofy dresses or huge cakes and definitely no white. You've done things with your mouth that definitely makes white off-limits for both of us."
Chloe laughed before grinning widely and said "Deal. Just you, me, and the people we love. That's all that I want too and if it takes ten years, I'll wait until you're ready. I have no rush and I'm just happy to have you in my life. You're pretty special, Beca Mitchell."
Beca was about to respond when a nurse came into the room with Chloe's dinner tray. She placed it on the table in front of Chloe and smiled warmly at Beca before leaving the room. Chloe glanced down at the tray and grimaced before offering Beca her cherry Jell-O. Beca rolled her eyes and said "Only you would choose Jell-O over pudding. We have to change that before we can even talk about getting married again. It's definitely a deal breaker."
Chloe slid it back onto the tray and said "I'm definitely not going to miss this stuff. Why don't you head home and grab some dinner? You've stayed up here practically every night this whole time and while I appreciate it, Aubrey also makes dinner for you every night and maybe it would be nice if you actually ate with her for once. She's going to miss you once you move back to your dorm, even if she'll never admit it."
Beca shook her head and said "No thanks. I'd rather stay here with you. Besides, Jesse is probably over there again and I'd just lose my appetite if I saw them kissing. I won't miss that when I do move out."
Chloe smirked as she started to eat from her tray and Beca watched her for a minute before closing her eyes again and thinking back to the ultimatum that had taken her from being a normal college student to the roommate and project of Aubrey Posen.
It was the night before Beca was being discharged from the hospital and while she had wanted to spend her evening visiting Chloe, she now found herself being cornered by her parents and a very intense looking Aubrey Posen. They were staring at her as she tried to think of a response to their ultimatum. When she was released, none of them thought it was a good idea for her to go back to her dorm and gave her a choice of where she could live while she healed. She could stay at her father's house or she could move into Aubrey and Chloe's apartment and sleep on the couch. She thought that it was ridiculous that none of them trusted her to take care of herself, but she was cut off before she could protest and knew that they were serious.
She knew that she would be hurting her father if she turned him down, but she really didn't want to move in with him and Sheila. They still had a lot of issues that they needed to work out and she didn't want to live in a house where it was constantly awkward. On the other hand, it was close to school and she could easily escape on campus if it got to be too much.
Her other option was to move in with Aubrey and that wasn't too appealing either. While she and Aubrey had started to get along and could even call each other friends, they didn't have a ton in common without Chloe being there. Add-in Aubrey's toner for Jesse and it would just be an awkward and weird mess. However, they were within minutes of the hospital and she would be able to see Chloe anytime that she wanted.
It would only be for a few weeks and she knew that she would just have to suck it up and pick between them. In the end, Chloe won out and Beca sighed before saying "I guess I'll move in with Aubrey. I can take care of myself though, so don't get any ideas. It's just a place to stay whenever I'm not at school or up here with Chloe. I don't need you to do anything special for me and you can really just pretend that I'm not there."
Aubrey rolled her eyes and said "Beca, stop trying to be a martyr. I'm not too comfortable with it either, but Chloe asked me to do it and you practically live over here half the time anyway. I'm just going to make sure that you're taking your medicine and taking care of your arm, that's it. You'll have your couch and I'll have my room and we'll barely see each other since we're both so busy. Is this okay, Mr. Mitchell?"
Ben nodded at the two girls and Beca could see in his eyes that he was upset, but not vocalizing it. She hated to hurt her father, regardless of their past, but knew this was the right decision. She needed to be close to Chloe and this was the only option that allowed her that. It would be awkward and strange, but her whole life was awkward so what difference would it make if she cohabitated with Aubrey?
Over the next three weeks, Beca found that it would make a huge difference and she dreaded going back to the apartment at night. Aubrey was overbearing and harped on Beca, making sure that she took her medication at specific times each day and got enough sleep so she could heal properly. Lights out was every evening at eleven and once when she tried to get away with working on some mixes in Chloe's room, Aubrey turned the electricity off at the circuit breaker to prove just how serious she was. Aubrey had taken to cooking dinner for Beca too and would make her a plate each night, which Beca would usually end up picking at whenever she managed to pull herself away from the hospital and back into her own world. She preferred her old diet of pizza and junk food that had been her forte back at Barden since arriving there, but Aubrey insisted that she needed to consume healthy foods before her arm fell off. Beca knew that she was overreacting, but that didn't stop her from choking down salads and stir-frys while Aubrey watched carefully. It was probably worse than living with her father and while Beca appreciated Aubrey's efforts, it was wearing thin on her.
It wasn't all bad though and sometimes Beca found herself enjoying her living situation when she let her guard down. It was much quieter than sharing a room with Amy and she was able to get a lot more done since she wasn't being constantly pestered with tall tales and gossip, which allowed her to catch up in her classes and actually work on music of her own for the first time in weeks. Aubrey had also become someone that she could talk to and it surprised her how many nights she would stay up late with Aubrey, just talking about music and school and Chloe. She had never had a sister before and she imagined that it was kind of like this and she hated to admit it, but she enjoyed hanging out with Aubrey. It would be easier though when Chloe returned home and she knew that Aubrey was counting down the days just like herself. She was an important piece to both of their lives and things just weren't the same without Chloe around to brighten things up. Taking her home wouldn't be an instant fix to their problems, but it would help some and that's all that mattered.
Somehow Beca had fallen asleep and as she slowly pulled her eyes open, she could feel Chloe's warm body leaning on hers and soft bursts of air hitting her neck. From the open blinds on the window she could tell that it was late and as she looked around for her phone to find the time, she heard someone clear their throat and looked up to see Jesse standing in the doorway. She frowned at him and said "How long have you been standing there?"
Jesse smirked and said "Long enough to see that you drool in your sleep. Not cute, Beca. Anyway, it's almost nine and I'm your chauffer for this evening since Aubrey is busy getting the apartment clean for tomorrow. We should get going before the nurses come in here and kick you out."
Beca stifled a yawn as she nodded and gently nudged Chloe's shoulder until her eyes opened and she smiled lazily at Beca as her eyes adjusted to the lights. Beca returned the smile and said "Hey, I'm sorry to wake you up but I have to head home. It's late and I don't want them to call security on me or something. Jesse's here and he's going to drive me home. Are you feeling alright? Do you need anything?"
Chloe smiled up at Jesse and said "Hey, Jesse. Thanks for getting her and driving her tonight. I'm just tired Beca and the only I need is a goodnight kiss."
Beca nodded and kissed Chloe gently on the lips before pulling away and climbing down from the bed. As she left the room, she smiled at Chloe one last time and said "I love you and I'll see you tomorrow bright and early. Sweet dreams."
Jesse shut the door behind them and as they started to walk down to his car, he felt a smile grow on his lips at how tender Beca had been with Chloe. It was uncharacteristic and he knew that she had to be head over heels for the girl to act this way. As he slung an arm around Beca's shoulders, he softly said "That was really sweet back there; using Chloe as a pillow and wishing her sweet dreams. I take it that you're excited for tomorrow."
Beca smiled despite herself and said "Yeah, I'm pretty excited about it. It's been a long time and I just want to get her home and out of this place. I've spend pretty much all of my free time up here and it'll be nice just to relax with her at home and not have to worry about nurses coming in or visiting hours. Do you know what's weird? I've started to call Aubrey and Chloe's place home. I never call my dorm room or my dad's house that, but it doesn't feel so weird to call their apartment that."
Jesse pulled her a little closer and said "I think you're growing up, Be-caw. That was a pretty mature realization to come to and I think it just means that Aubrey is growing on you and that you're going to miss her when you eventually go back to your dorm and Amy. I can't say that I blame you though; Aubrey is pretty great to be around."
Beca rolled her eyes and said "I pour my heart out to you, my best friend, and you start talking about Aubrey. How close are you two exactly? The last time I heard, someone is still too big of a wimp to actually ask her out on a date. What are you afraid of? A little projectile vomiting if you screw something up?"
Jesse shoved her playfully as they stepped onto the elevator and said "Nice. I call you mature and you starting talking about puke. Anyway, we're working up to the whole date thing. She wants to take it slow and we're just hanging out and enjoying each other. She even let me kiss her the other day. On the lips."
Beca laughed and said "Wow! Way to make your move, slugger. Maybe tomorrow she'll let you feel her boobs."
Jesse just shook his head and said "Again, nice. I really care about this one and while you're a real comedian about this, I'm fine with taking it slow. I don't want to lose her and if it means not getting to second base for months, I'm okay with that."
As they walked out of the hospital and into the cool night air, Beca softly said "Okay, I'll lay off a little. So, why are you so serious about Ms. Posen? I know she's pretty, but what else is it?"
Jesse started to dig through his pockets for his car keys and said "Actually, it doesn't have that much to do with Aubrey. I like her and everything, but I think I'm serious because I've been watching you and Chloe over the past three weeks. You're totally in love with her and it makes you this completely different person and it's like she has your whole heart in the palm of her hand. The way she looks at you sometimes…it's like she would give the whole world for you. I want Aubrey to look at me like that one day and if I can feel one bit of how Chloe feels for you, I'll be set for life."
Beca felt her eyes mist over at his sentiment and it was her turn to shove him, pushing him into his car as she tried to diffuse the awkwardness that had fallen over them. He smiled at her and she softly said "You're right, she does have my heart and it's great. I like who I am when I'm with her and I think it's really nice that you want that with Aubrey. Now, can we get in the car and quit with this whole conversation? I feel like I'm in a Lifetime movie with you and you're one sappy comment away from swelling violins and the credits playing us out."
Jesse grinned at her movie reference and dropped the subject, unlocking the doors and allowing for both of them to get into his small sedan. As they pulled out of the hospital and started to drive over to Aubrey's building, Jesse looked at Beca and said "I'm excited for tomorrow too, you know? I'm really glad that Chloe's going to be out of this place and at home with the two people that love her the best. Plus, I'm pretty psyched about Thanksgiving tomorrow. This is my first holiday away from my parents and Benji and I picked up some beer and other stuff yesterday, so prepared to get wasted! I know you're excited about spending the holidays with me, right Mitchell?"
Beca leaned against the door as she suddenly felt tired and her voice gradually got softer as she said "Yeah, it's going to be great. Thanksgiving with Chloe, Aubrey, Amy, Benji, and you. What could possibly go wrong? If I make it out of tomorrow without being arrested or having my head in the toilet from drinking too much, I'll be surprised. It'll be nice though to actually be with people I like on a holiday. I could get used to this."
Jesse was about to agree when he saw Beca's eyes slowly shut and her body relax as she fell asleep. They were only about five minutes from the apartment building, but he turned the radio down a little and just stared out into the night with his thoughts keeping him company. If someone would have told him a month ago that he would be falling for Aubrey Posen and talking about relationship with his old crush, he would have thought they were completely crazy. Now, it strangely felt right and somehow it worked and that was okay.
For over a year, he thought that Beca was his person; his endgame and the one he kissed at the end of his movie as the screen darkened and the credits started. The Joey to his Dawson, the Cristina to his Meredith. Only she wasn't and that was okay too. Her person was Chloe and somehow he was okay with seeing her happy and actually enjoyed it.
Maybe he was moving on or maybe it was just growing up. Either way, he knew now that he needed to find his own happiness and if that came through having a 'person', then that was okay too. If it was Aubrey, then he would embrace it and let himself fall in love with her. But if it wasn't, it was nothing to get upset over and he would just have to keep looking. Keeping an eye out for the person that would steal his heart and make him smile the same doofy smile that painted Chloe's face whenever she saw Beca.
For now though, he had his friends and they were healthy and coming home and that was all that mattered. Tomorrow would be a blast and he couldn't wait, but for now he had to get through today and sitting in that car with his sleeping best friend was enough. For the first time in a long time, his heart felt completely full and that was okay too.
