He is home

Ezra's pov

Did I have a thought when I took Kanan's light saber from the Inquisitor's belt?...yes...well no, not really. My only thoughts at the time was that it shouldn't be there, it was my master's light saber, not his,not the Inqusitor's, it should not be on his belt, now I just had to take it back, well that and I thought I could help. Not my brightest plan, but then I am my master's padawan. I knew I wouldn't be able to defeat the Inquisitor by myself, I just wasn't strong enough yet, but I could distract him long enough so that Kanan could win against the darksider, it was like I could sense that Kanan was now the Jedi knight that was in him all along.

What I wasn't counting on was the big bad dark side force user sending me flying with a force push, which nearly had me falling off the catwalk and then once I did stand up, he threw his light saber at me, both blades making a glowing disk of red light. I tried to block it, I really did but the strength behind it...it was on a whole other level than before, and it was to much for my small body to take. The sword hit me on the side of my face, it hurt a lot but I didn't really think much more about the wound as I fell off the catwalk, and hit my head on the walkway bellow. This made me past out and I knew no more about the match or the real world that was carrying on around me.

"Son...Son we are here"

"Who is here?" I asked

I couldn't see... ut I could hear and now what I could hear wasn't something I thought I would hear, not here, not now, I just heard someone or some ones talking to me but for the darkness...no wait... I am starting to see stars, giving me points of light, helping me to see the world, not that there was much to see. Then I saw them, they started of as blue points, then gradely they became more and more like I remembered them. They were transparent with a blue like mist all around them, then I wondered what I looked like to them,did I have blue mist too? I looked down but I still looked like me.

Are they dead?...Am I?

I sure don't feel dead but how is being dead supposed to feel like and what are they doing here, are they here to guide me to where ever the dead go next or is this something else and they are here to tell me something,I didn't know and right now I didn't like it. Right now I needed Kanan, I needed...

"Son you are not dead...at least not yet" said my Dad

"Then why are you here? if I am not dead and you...you both..." I inquired, I was really having a hard time of believing this...that these were my parents and that they are dead, even though I had been told that they were, but right now I was willing to go with it because it was what I needed.

"Son we are here because you are here" said mom

Hang on...I have heard those words before. Kanan had told me those words when we were at the temple. I had told him of the strange voice that guided me through the tunnels to the star field and to my light saber crystal, and while I hadn't known the name of the guide. Kanan had and he had said there was nothing to fear from that voice.

"So that was Yoda?"I had asked and then Kanan had nodded and answered "that was him but I don't think we will be meeting him anytime soon...Why? because right now I have no idea where he is".

Thinking of Kanan, brought back pain...my head it hurt, no everything hurt. I was starting to believe that I wasn't dead, well at least right now I wasn't. Thinking of how I got hurt and Kanan, brought back to my mind what was happening above me. I sighed, I guessed I wouldn't be seeing him or any of the others anytime soon, at least I hoped not,if I choose to stay what ever I am right now. I would never get a chance to tell them what they mean to me.

"Yes you will...like I said before, you are not dead yet, so all you have to do is to find a way to wake yourself up" said my Dad.

"But that would mean I wouldn't get to see you, that I would leave you, that you would leave me again" I said, I could feel my body slipping more and more into death, slipping away from Kanan, from life.

"Son we never left you...okay we did when the empire came and took us from you, but there wasn't a day that went by that we didn't think of you and wonder what had happened to you and when we died, we came to check on you and found that you were alone, well...who do you think gave your master Kanan the vision of you. We wanted to make sure you were safe, well as safe as you could be and this crew...no this family gives you that chance. It might have taken eight years for the message to get through but it did and we think you are happier for it"my mom said, moving like she wanted to hug me.

"Now your master needs you and you need him. He fills the holes in your life. just as you fill the holes in his. You two need each other, because you know and I know you know that if you die he will die, maybe not now but soon"My Dad said.

I nodded then I started to hear Hera, she was calling to me and the others they were there too, but Kanan's voice was the loudest of all. They needed me,they were calling me home and I needed them, and now I wanted to go back. I see my parents nodding, my Dad's arm around my mom, who was crying. I knew I wouldn't be seeing them for a while and I was okay with that, I had got to say goodbye. I wave as they fade away, then I hear Hera's voice.

"Ezra...Ezra are you there?".

I was back, the pain I had only just felt before now was doubled, no maybe tripled, there wasn't a muscle that didn't hurt, but still I answer Hera. I knew from the tone of her voice that she was worried. She was worried that something had happened, that maybe I had failed and Kanan was still in the hands of the empire or that now we both were. It probably didn't help that worry that I didn't answer her straight away.

"Ezra is Kanan okay?" Hera asked.

I looked up and smiled at the way my master was fighting and then answered her "he's better than okay".

I watched Kanan fighting the inquisitor with both of our light sabers, he was wining just like I knew he was going to. I saw the inquisitor's blade brake when Kanan thrust both of ours in between the spinning blades, and then ignite the machinery bellow him, when they fell on to it. I could see Kanan and the inquisitor talk about something and then watched as the inquisitor fell but by then I was making my way up to Kanan.

I saw him on his knees looking down at where the inquisitor just died, for a minute I wondered what he would have done with me if I was dead, but I was glad that I wasn't, we had lost to much and I was happy for us both that we didn't have to loose anything else. I knew I made the right choice in coming back, my parents were right, he did need me.

"Kanan" I said, my voice softer than I would have liked and then when I didn't get a response , I tried again a little louder "Kanan", only to have him turn and look surprised to find me standing there. I didn't he know anything about me by now, I was the impossible kid.

"I thought I had lost you" he said as he got up and moved to me. He still looked like he couldn't believe that I had survived that, I supposed he was right in a way.

"I know the feeling"I replied, just before he through me my light saber and we made our way out of the engine room and down to the hanger bay and out of the ship, taking the inquisitor's tie fighter, I mean he wasn't going to be using it. We had a big fight with the empire in the tie before reconnecting with the others, I still remember the look on their faces.

It was a few hours ago,when we reconnected with the others, seeing Hera and Kanan hug and then finding out that fulcrum was Ahsoka all a long, that there was another Jedi out there. It was a little much for me, Hera did explain to us that it had to be this way so that we could keep the others of the rebellion safe and that Ahsoka wasn't a full Jedi either, when order sixty six went down but she hadn't been a padawan either, she had left the order and that had probably saved her life.

Now I was in the medbay with Kanan. My wounds both to my skin and body had been treated, with a big bandage over my scar on my cheek. Even though I had wanted Kanan to been seen to first, I mean his wounds had to be more than mine but ever the protective master he wanted to make sure I was alright first. I look over and see him asleep or what I thought was sleep.

So I close my eyes and try to sleep myself,but I was finding it hard, so much had happened not only today, but also in getting the stuff we needed to rescue Kanan, too much...Images...Images of what had happened and what might have happened flashed before my eyes, as well as the memory of my time with my parents. I moved a little in my sleep and then felt a sharp burst of pain from my cheek, then I felt something else, something that soothed me back to sleep, a real sleep.

Then a memory of the fight on the catwalk made itself known, but it wasn't the fight as it happened. It was the fight as it might have happened and that had me worried, had I dreamed that Kanan was alright? maybe we were both being held somewhere and the inquisitor was doing something to us, making us think that we were safe? What if Kanan had lost and I was on my own again.

"No please Kanan! win, can't loose you too"I said to the dream Kanan.

Suddenly I felt my master, he was sending me waves over the force, through our bond. It was calming me, telling me that he was safe, that we both were, and I fell asleep with no more nightmares, only to be woken up sometime later by pain coming not from me this time but from Kanan.

"Looks like he is having the same nightmare I was" I thought but after what he went through I wasn't surprised by that.

Then I saw it, his memory filtered into mine. It was almost the same nightmare I had but this time instead of Kanan dying, it was myself. He was remembering my fall and how at the time he thought the inquisitor had killed me.

"But he didn't kill me. You saved me master"I said, only to have him wake up and look at me, his green - blue eyes showing relief that I was there and that I was mostly alright.

"I like to think we saved each other, but Ezra there is something I would like you tell me...how did you survive the fall"Kanan asked.

How do I tell him about that...How do I tell him that I talked to my parents. Then I thought he doesn't need the full details, just enough to tell him what happened, in time I will tell but not now, obviously not while he is...we are still recovering.

"I nearly didn't" I said quietly

"What do you mean by that?".

"When I was laying on that walkway bellow you and the inquisitor, I could feel myself slipping away, I was going to die and I was okay with that because I had freed you, but then I started to hear voices, voices that meant the universe to me. At first it was my parents, mom and dad saying my name, then it turned into Hera and the others, then last of all it was you. Your voice woke me and that was enough to answer to comm and tell the others that we were alright, that you were better than alright"I finished.

"If I had sensed that you were waking up"Kanan started to say before I interrupted him "and what would you have done?stopped the fight? come after me...no you did the right thing, the inquisitor wouldn't have stopped and we both might have died"I said.

"I suppose and it did give me the courage I needed"Kanan told me.

I didn't know if that would have been enough to give me the courage to fight like he did against the inquisitor or anyone like that but I was glad something did. Something confused me about what Kanan had just said, so I asked.

"What do you mean by that?".

"Well when I thought you were gone, when I thought that I wouldn't see you again, something changed in me. It was like my life didn't matter, the only thing that did was defeating the monster that killed you and bring you home, even if it was to bury you"Kanan said.

I then had a flash of a memory of the time I was talking, well almost yelling at Hera after the Vizago incident, that I was going to bring Kanan home. So I took his hand as I laughed a little. My first real laugh since my master came home.

"What was funny about that?"he asked.

"Well I told Hera much the same thing after my deal with Vizago, something I am sure your not happy about but it was the only way to find you"I said looking away, he didn't need to see my shame over it.

"I don't blame you for that, I would have done the same thing. We will deal with vizago in time, but there is something I am glad about and that's we don't have to see the inquisitor again"Kanan said.

That had me thinking about the white faced man "to think we never have to see that pointy tooth, white faced sith again"I said looking up at Kanan again, still a little awed that he could kill some one like that.

"True. I still cannot believe he let himself fall after I broke his light saber. I wonder what he meant by there is some things worse than death" Kanan said with a thoughtful look on his face.

"Then I came up on you"I said adding my thoughts to the matter, I could tell that was still a hard time for him.

"To see you after that...to know I didn't fail you...you don't know what that means to me" he said closing his eyes.

I could see him shaking a little so I decided something, something that I wanted to do for a while. I hugged him. Kanan put his own arms around me tightening his hold on me as his memories came through and I saw something that I had never seen from him before, something that I rarely did myself, I saw him cry.

"I am glad I didn't loose you" he said once the memory was over.

"Yeah your life would have been so much different if I hadn't come into your life. How was I to know that on that day when I tried to steal that crate I was getting the one thing I needed, that I wanted"I said my voice still muffled by Kanan's shirt.

"No you gave me what I wanted too. You gave me my life back, a life I thought I had left behind me" he said running his hand down my back.

I could feel our bond, which had been strong before, getting even stronger. Maybe one day we would be able to fight side by side and know what the others doing without even thinking about it. I hoped it would happen, then I felt something, something familiar,then I hear.

"Take care of our boy because just as he was ours, he is now yours"

"I will, never fear" Kanan answered.

That must have been my parents, just letting Kanan know they were watching us and that they were trusting him with something that was precious to both of them and I knew that I was precious to Kanan too by the way he was holding me now.

My body then finally give into what had happened to it and I curled into Kanan more, needing that contact myself. So much had happened to me, to the crew but most of all to Kanan, my master, my friend and sort of father. He had suffered so much in a short amount of time but now that time is over and I just had one more thought on the matter before sleep claimed me, one that would forever make me happy,

"he is home"

An: like that? I wanted to make a story that showed that fall was a little more dangerous than what Disney showed. Also there is one more chapter to this story that I think needs to be told, it will be up sometime neek week.

An 2: look out for my story in the holidays called "our missing years". wont tell you all more now you will just have to read it to find out what I mean but I did include in some of the chapters your ideas(I am still taking more if you want to give me any but it is pretty much planned out, but like Kanan, not all my plans work, so keep sending).