When I saw her first time in '97, she was standing on the streets of Tokyo3, than she disappeared. I felt nothing.
The second time I saw her, she was on a hospital bed, bleeding, and crying in pain. I wanted to comfort the cryig girl, and make her smile.
From that point, as I watched the series, I slowly fall in love with her. It was literally more than 2 decades ago.
My living conditions improved a bit thanks to sub commander Fuyutsuki. He is a nice person, but sadly not so fluent in english. At least he managed to put his hands on some fine english literature, disguised as his hobby. Now I can read the best quality pieces of english literature in an insanely highly priced collectible way. Shakespeare, and some other genious I never heard of, because they didn't live long enough in my universe to be writers. Delicate, books, a from long dead men, printed several centuries ago. After I get through them, they will be the pride of Sensei Fuyutsuki's home.
Arigatou gozaimasu sensei!
Weeks passed. Gendo Finalized his new script. He will let Rei blow herself up. I coursing the evil gods of the multiverse. If I could do anything... But the madman is right. His plan can work. And it means I can see her in person. He want me to fill the children in with some of the intel I have. And he figured out how to deal with Tabris. He managed to put his hands on a 20 megatons real nuclear warhead, not of that N2 bullsit they use since the war. The sea level rise halfed the population. Than comes the war and irradiated half of europe. After that, they had the sanity to ban any further nukes. The planet slowly getting better, and the radiation level is relatively low, only a few dozen device used in the war. Since Tabris is the last angel, it will not fuck up anything if he has to use it, but he only want to use it as a last resort. He want me to talk him out of go with SELEE's plan, or win him over for us if possible. And if I fail... AT field or not, 20 megaton is 20 megaton. One way or another, he will be dealt with.
Long month passed, and I kept in my cell, only Sensei Fuyutsuki, and Gendo was my social interaction. Guess my joy to see them. The guards only take care of my feeding, and had a strict order not to talk to me, and if I want to talk them, they have an order to teasering me. I didn't challenge them.
The time has come to talk. I finally let out from my cell. For a short walk. Now I'm sitting in the terminal dogma with Lillith on the cross, waiting for the children to come. There is 4 chair. I'm handcuffed to one, and there is 3 other in front of me. Gendo tinkered with their timetable a bit, they get some extra english lecture in school, so they fluent in english, because I don't speak any other relevant language. There is a radioactive crater at the place of this version of my homeland. I think, if I survive this whole madness, I'll take a tour, and die there. They looked stunned by the place as they walk toward me. Except Rei. She was stoic as usual. Only Gendo was with them.
Asuka - Is that an angel? What the actual fuck?
Gendo - Tell them. Everything.
And he walk away toward the elevator.
They looking at me. Asuka and Shinji is slightly curious, but Rei sensing something different in me. I can see it in her might feel my other world "scent" So close to Lillith, might made her more awake.
I'm in a bad mood. She's here. Even more beautiful than my wildest imagination, and here am I...
Me - Well, let's start with this discussion. Please sit down. Rei, to the right. Shinji, right next to your sister, Asuka, you are at the other side.
Well, this get them really interested. Asuka freaked out. Shinji get shocked. Rei was...disturbe
Shinji - Rei? My father?
Me - No. according to genetics, she is not a Rokobungi. She is an Ikari.
Shinji - My mother? When? How?
Me - Sit down damit. There is lot to talk, and after this, you will participate a sync test, so you can verify all of the shitstorm I'll throw on you.
Me - Shinji, your mother... is still in EVA 01. And She is not dead.
Shin - I had a feeling of this. But When... and how? Rei!
Me - Well reach that point of the story. But we have to start with the beginning, a few billion years ago. with the first ancestral race. They were the first sentient being, who reach out the stars with technology, later supertechnology. And they found nothing, but mostly lifeless planets, or only primitive forms of life. They realized, how precious is life, and they chose to help to flourish.
They made gigantic bio ships-seed ships, and sent away to the galaxy, to seed life. All the ships were different, in purpose, and forms of life. And all of the ship had a living entity as a supervisor, let's call them archangel. The one behind me called Lillith by the humans. None fo the ship should met. They had their own target, far away from each other. But here on earth, something gets fucked up, and 2 of the seed ships landed. There was another archangel on this planet, when Lilith made a crash land here. Adam just barely start to do his work when it happened. He was knocked unconscious, and the life forms he created remained dormant. You met his sons, the Adamites, who you had to fight as they try to reclaim their heritage. Lillith wasn't get any better. She was knocked out too, and her bleeding body let out the source of the current life on the planet. The rest is called evolution. And here you are. Since the Adam spawns called angels, and humanity is kind of a Lillith spawn, this makes mankind an angel I guess.
There is a group called SELEE. They think humanity reach into an evolutionary dead end, make a bigger threat to itself than anything else, so they looking for a chance for enforce humankind into a new form. They think if they merge all of the souls in humanity into a blob, they will become a new god. Literally. But they wrong. They didn't realize, the entity will be human. And humans are cannot live alone. We need company. We need people to love. We need people to hate. We need people to love us, and we need people to hate us. Because if we don't, than we are nothing.
SELEE want to end this world. They engineered second impact, by waking up Adam, and kill it. Second impact and it's fallout was only a calculated collateral damage. By Adam's rampage, his spawns awake from their stupor too, and start to grown. There bare existence forbid SELEE to engineer 3rd impact, so they made the EVAs to deal with them. Asuka, Shinji, You are the same.
Asuka finally found her voice.
Asuka - Me, like him? Don't be ridiculous!
Me - Shut up bitch, Yes you are! You are the same broken loveless child like him! The only difference, he is a nice person, and you are not, you nisemono fake lying bitch! I don't really understand why he fallen for you.
Asuka - Him? Don't make me lough!
Me - Well, it seems the hero of mankind, the son of the rich and powerful bastard king of NERV who made 5 solo angel kill, and more shared with 400% peak sync, and 80% usual is not good enough for the mighty bitch queen of europe with how much sync rate?
This made her shut up, and crush her ballooning EGO to a more realistic level. Her prideful mask shattered.
Me - Trying to bait good men to being pedophile is your way I think...
Shinji cannot stand, as I shittalk Asuka, he stood up, and slap me. Hard. This made me quite amused.
Me - Well, mister Ikari, that's something I don't except this from you.
Me - See, he protect you. Such a vain attempt. - I turn Toward Shinji- She will never show her true self. She's too deep down in layers of fake image. And self hatred. For first glance you might think She's confident. - I turn to Asuka - But I think I figured out why you keep so hostile towards him. It's test. If he manage to keep up your bullshit without betraying you, he might be okay. But after realizing how a nice person he is, deep down you believed, he deserve someone better, because deep down you know how big pile of shit you are.
I got another smack, this time with his fist.
Me - I don't care Mr Ikari. I was told to tell you the truth. It's not my fault it hurt someone feelings. So Asuka. What you failed to realize, how much he interested in you as a person, not just the pretty face and blue eyes.
Asuka - But why should he? We have nothing in common!
Me - Exactley. You are two broken soul engineered to this level of misery by SELEE, but together you can make a whole, and fix each other.
Asuka - Than why did he never told a word?
Me - Another thing you failed to realize: He believes you. Every single word you said to him, he accepted as truth. Every single time you belittled him, trampling on his EGO, called him pathetic loser, pervert, and other names, he honestly believed it. Why should you accept a love confession from some pathetic loser like him? If he tell you his feelings, it would only made you mad at him, and alienate you from him forever. Right now, he at least tolerated by you in your life. He will not risk this little thing to taken away from him. Right now you are the one reason he still alive. But it can change. He is the prince of NERV, the son of Gendo Ikari. He will have a family. What about you? Right now, he is insane enough, to deal with your emotional luggage, and the crazy bitch you are. If you manage to drive him away, no sane man on this world will take his place. Of course, you will be able to ride the cock carousel to the ground, because you have the pretty face and the soft skin to became a popular pump and dump whore to all the nice looking men of bullshit and empty words until you get wrinkled, and die alone at old age. And from 40 to 80 is a long time alone, and when you will ask how you end up there, YOU DID IT TO YOURSELF! Now you can make a decision: Who will be the mother to Shinji's children? He is a good catch. Proper marriage material, and rich as fuck, even he's not realizing it yet. You are neither. You will never find anyone else who will understand what you've gone through, or want to deal with your shit.
Me - Now we have to make one particular thing clear. The REAL reason why did you became a pilot candidate.
Her blue eyes look terrified. Yes. I like this look on her.
Me - The reason is the same for Shinji; Asuka. Your mother's soul are inside of EVA02. And this ins the only reason they let you in the program.
Asuka - No... I saw her alive in the hospital...
Me - What you saw was an empty husk with some residual psychological harmonics, what fill the empty void after she left, Asuka. She is still inside EVA02. As I told you before, both of you will have a sync test right after we finished here. I'll give you a hint. Don't try to imagine the EVA in your head like a wall when you sync with it. Try imagine a curtain, than reach out behind it. The warmth you always feel inside the EVA is the love of your mother. You just failed to realize it, like many other things. Like Shinji's feelings to you. And if you decide to not throw away the one honest man in your life, you will have to work really hard if you wan to convince him about your intentions, because at this point, it will be hard for him to believe you do it for genuine interest, and not another cruel joke to trample him into the ground. AGAIN!
She looked pretty terrified. I think I did a great job with her.
I turn my head to the girl on Shinji's other side.
Me – Rei Ayanami. Shinji's little sister.
She shrugged as I turn the attention on her. She was terrified.
Me - As we know, all of current life on earth comes from Lillith, including all the souls of mankind. She's not much different.
Rei trembling in fear. Sorry love, I'll try to make this right for you, just bear it a little longer. I think Shinji is a good lad, so have a little faith in him.
Me – Shinji, it happened right after your mother Died. Gendo was desperate to get her back, unaware of Yui's condition, he introduced the salvaged remnants of her DNA to Lillith. The result is Rei. Half of her DNA is from your mother, half of it from Lillith, and a pretty big chunk of Lillith's soul. She is your little sister.
Poor Rei. She just shaking in fear, waiting for the rejection from the one person in her life who ever shown honest interest of her well being. God bless you Shinji, she was wrong. He pull her a warm embrace, and hold her tight.
Tears. Tears of joy and relief. She start to cry in Shinji's arm. Nobody in this fucking world ever show her honest love before. Asuka just keep watching them shocked.
Rei – Nii... Nii... san...
Time to fix things for Gendo.
Me - Shinji, your father took part in this madness, because of his desperate hope, he might be able to bring back to life your mother. Than he stuck with this job, selling his soul to keep you safe. He throw you away, so SELEE will not have a leverage on him. You are safe until they think you are nothing to him. At the end, he has a plan, not fucking up your life any more. You all will be free.
They sitting in front of me, looking at me. Rei lean to Shinji's shoulder, Asuka found his right hand, and hanging on it. Shinji didn't protest.
I kept talking for a while, fill them in with most of the questions they had, without telling them anything of the multiverse, or the future.
Me - Now you can leave. Shinji, Asuka, you'll have a sync test as you get back to the cages. Rei, you will have a memory upload for the dummy system. This conversation never happened. If a single word gets out from this room, SELEE will nuke us from orbit. I dont even exist, nor this place. Your room is not safe for this kind of discuss. Keep this in mind, and try to unfuck your life.
I feel like shit. I should die. She will walk out from here into her death. Gendo will send her out against Armisael, and she will die potecting her brother. And I can do nothing to help her. I did nothing. I was powerless. I cursing the evil gods of the multiverse again, because they left me here without a fucking toothpick to fight against Armisael. I need a gundam, or something bigger. Or just Gendo's nuke, and strap it on me with a plane. But it won't happen. She will die, and I can do nothing to prevent that.