DISCLAIMER: I STILL OWN NOTHING….Stephenie Meyer owns it all. I'm not smart enough to create vampires like the Cullens or humans like Bella, Charlie and Renée.

A/N: Keeping reading, I hope you guys like it! Remember to tell me if it sucks. I'll try to update every other day, but I might not be able to on account that I have tests and projects due. But I'd gladly give them up to write this story.

Chapter 2

Reborn

BPOV

I kept my eyes shut as the poison seared through my body. I was screaming for help but never receiving any. No one ever came. Every 5 hours the pain had gotten worse, as if someone was electrocuting me with a taser combined with jumper cables. After screaming and digging my fingers through the dirt trying to hang on to something that could relieve me of my pain, it was gone. The fire within me subdued. But then, after half an hour, it'd start up again. Whenever I'd regain consciousness I could feel the pain, both of the transformation and from losing Jake in such a manner. If it wasn't the pain of the poison surging through me then it was the pain of being the cause of Jake's death. They alternated, both taking their turns on causing me agonizing pain.

Two days passed by and the fire felt like it was at its worst. I kept clawing at myself, attempting to get the fire off, but it wouldn't go away. I kept losing more blood as the hours went by. I didn't know if I could hold on any longer. Another day went by and somehow I knew that it was near. I was going to die….

As time got closer and closer to my impending death it seemed to get harder to breathe. Each movement was a struggle and just inhaling was like using a cheese grater on my respiratory system. The cold was a small a blessing and a burden at the same time. As the freezing winds picked up, the low temperature seemed to cool down the burn of the fire somehow, but at the same time, with the sensitivity of my skin during the change it cause a pain that was equivalent to using a potato peeler to take off my skin.

I could feel my heart slowing down. The increasing gaps between each beat were the only thing I focused on. It was shutting down completely when one fast fire surged through body, it'd hurt so much that now I was screaming so loud it could've been heard for 5 miles through the silence. I arched my back so much, as if the fire was under me and I was trying to escape it. I screamed over and over until my voice became hoarse and I couldn't say anything anymore.

I felt and heard my heart stop as I laid there, dead. After ten minutes, I awoke to a different world. Tentatively, I sat up on the ground and when the initial shock of being able to move worse off I quickly crawled to the nearby and laid my back against the bark. I was frightened and trying to catch my breath, though being what I was now it was completely unnecessary. I looked around to see if I could remember where I was. I looked to my right and saw what I had forgotten, and most…what I wished I had forgotten.

There was laid Jake dead and across from a pile of ashes, which I could only assume was what left of Victoria. As I watched Jake's still body safe from any pain and his face which looked so peaceful, I knew that moments before he'd died that he was anything but. Without a second thought I ran using my newfound vampire speed over to his body and hugged him as tightly as I could without causing harm. When I regained full awareness of what I was doing I put his body back on the ground and took a couple steps back. I tried to fight back the tears that were already forming but I knew I couldn't.

Once the waterworks started I was crying completely, sobbing over the fact that I'd never get to see Jake again. The thought that he had been a werewolf didn't bother me, it didn't register in my mind. All I knew was that I had lost a friend because of my stupid mistakes. I was now a vampire who could live forever but I'd never be able to see Jake's warm smile again. I'd never get to hear his voice or be able to hug him ever again. I tried to remember all the times where he'd be laughing or smiling at me, something I wished for now but knew I'd never get. I remembered that time where we were at the beach and he was telling me stories he was so calm and relaxed. My hands clenched into a fist as I thought of it and what had happened during the stories.

Him. He was the reason everything happened. I tried to calm myself down with thoughts of Jacob but kept going back to seeing the arrogant son of a bitch that thought I wasn't good enough for his family in my head. But then again his family didn't think I was good enough either! Those, those…ugh, I couldn't even think straight enough to insult them properly.

Only one of them told me the truth, sort of anyways. Rosalie. As I thought about it that explained the reason as to why she didn't like me, why she distanced herself. She knew what they planned and she tried to get me to reason with her but I wouldn't listen. I was too busy being in love, I thought bitterly. I had to thank her for that, even if she couldn't hear me. She tried and I was at least grateful that she wasn't like the rest of her family. That she wasn't cold and as evil as the rest had been, especially like him.

Since I could never find Rosalie ever again to thank her, I pretended as if she could hear me, as if my words would somehow reach her ears. I lowered my head and placed a hand over my heart. Though I no longer physically beats, there was a metaphorically one that signified and stood for the humanity that still resided in me.

Rosalie, I'm sorry about how everything ended. Thank you for trying to get me to see what they were doing. I hope your existence goes well.

I felt a surge of power rush through me when I was done and I opened my eyes, looking ahead of me.

I thought about leaving but there was something burning in the back of my throat itching to be satisfied. I thought about what it could be and remembered that I was a vampire now, a newborn. I had to feed. I thought it could wait till later, I couldn't leave Jake's body lying here. I walked toward Jake when the burning sensation in my throat became strong and I was no longer able to hold it in anymore. I had to feed, to hunt. I could leave his body here for a few minutes, maybe an hour. Depending on how long it took for my thirst to be quenched. I ran at vamp speed hoping that the faster I got this over with, the faster I got back to Jacob.

RPOV

Rosalie…

Upon hearing my name I looked up from my magazine. My brow furrowed in confusion when I didn't see anyone around me. The same voice resurfaced again and began to say the oddest things. This is was this? I knew it wasn't me because that wasn't my voice. The voice I heard had sounded a little like….wait, no. It couldn't be. Could it?

No, no of course not she's human, how is she supposed to be able to reach my mind? Humans can't do that. She's far away and safe. I guess you can used the word safe, depending on how much damage Edward caused. That idiot! He just had to make us leave. He wanted to make her feel safe by distancing himself from her. All that's done is put him in a state of depression and making the rest of the family feel lost and upset, like a family member died. Asshole! All he does is sit in his room alone with his classical music on. He hasn't even touched his piano since the last time he played for Bella.

Poor jasper. That's right, not poor Edward. Poor jasper. He's the empath. I am glad that I don't have that ability. Although I can see that he's depressed himself. After all, he may not have known Bella like rest of the family, but he was always happy because of her effect on the family. He hates seeing Alice so sad, so empty. She's lost a best friend and a sister as well, Bella meant a lot to her, now Alice doesn't even want to go shopping anymore. We have to drag her out. She's got a lot of strength for a little sprite, I'll admit that. Sometimes, we can't stop ourselves from feeling anything but sadness around the house. Even I feel a little sad about leaving things the ways I did with Bella. I was nothing but mean to her and she knew that, but she was always trying to get on my good side.

At least she doesn't hate me like she's probably hating Edward. I mean, he left her not me. But then again, we sure didn't stop him. We did argue over the best way to resolve this without having to leave, but then Carlisle said he had to respect Edward's decision to depart. Ha! More like run away. We didn't even get to say good-bye to her, not that it would've helped, but it would've been to have closure with her. But no! He said it was better not to. A clean cut, he said. Yeah, right. If this is the result of a 'clean cut' then I sure am glad we did that! I thought sarcastically. I was getting fumed over Edward's stupid decision to end this the way he did.

There was a knock on my door and when I opened it there stood Jasper with Emmett and Alice.

"Hey guys. What brings you here?" I said hoping to hide the fact that I just heard a voice like Bella's in my head and kept thinking about her and the moron of a brother I call Edward.

"Are you okay honey? You seem a little panicked. And Jasper said you were getting angry and upset over something. Do you want to talk?" said my lovely husband Emmett with a sincere voice. I'm not sure if I should tell them or not. They might think I'm crazy. Vampire or not, I wasn't willing to risk it.

"Rosalie, what are you deliberating on so much about? I can feel that you're struggling to make a decision," asked Jasper. Oh great! I forgot all about him. I tried to get my emotions in check by taking a deep breath. I looked over to Alice who wasn't saying anything. But she had this familiar look on her face and in her eyes. She's having a vision. After a couple second she had a puzzling look on her face. Oh, this couldn't be good.

"Rose, why are you going to fight with Edward?" she asked.

"W-What do you mean?" I said hoping she didn't know. But I couldn't let it show that I was worried about her vision.

"Well, I see you arguing with Edward in his room. You're yelling about some decision he made and how he was an asshole to make it so stupidly. How he was careless to feel anything when he decided to go through with it and that he should've thought of the consequences." Alice said, still wondering what was going on.

"I don't know." I said shrugging. I looked at all three of them and could see that they weren't convinced. "Alright, if I tell you will you promise not to say anything to Edward?"

"Yes." They all said at the same time. Alright, I better get this over with. I swear Edward, you better not read my mind! I thought, hoping that if Edward was listening then he'd back off.

"Please don't overreact when I tell you this. But I have been hearing a voice…in my head. But it's not my voice. It…it sounds a lot like…" I don't think I could continue. It'd pain the family too much if I mention her. I could already see how they would react, with hope but a bit a doubt. They'd never understand.

"It sounds a lot like who?" asked Jasper. I couldn't tell him. It'd cause Alice too much pain and I wouldn't want to do that. But, they'd ask and I had to trust them not to overreact.

"It…it sounded a lot like Bella." I said almost whispering her name. In front of me I saw the pain in their eyes when I mentioned her and Alice clenched her eyes shut while Jasper hugged her as an attempt to comfort her.

My sweet Emmett stood there with his head in his hands. I knew how he felt about this even though he never really talked about it to everyone else. I moved to Emmett's side to comfort him as well, instantly feeling bad for making him remember.

"I'm so sorry! I shouldn't have said anything. But you asked! Please forgive me." I pleaded.

"No, it's alright. We asked you about it, if we didn't want to know we wouldn't have." Alice said as she rubbed her eyes tried to calm herself down

"But how is it possible that you heard her voice?" she asked, the one question I had no answer to.

" I have no idea. But I doubt it was her. She was talking about how things ended and then she thanked me. I know I didn't make it up because she said something I couldn't understand." I said hoping they would drop the subject. But no, then Emmett spoke up.

"Honey, what did she say exactly?" asked Emmett.

When I retold them what she said I couldn't see what their reaction was until Alice spoke up.

"That's strange. If it is her, I wonder how she was able to get to your mind and she did, why didn't she come to one of us? I don't see why I haven't foreseen any of this. Either way we shouldn't mention this to Edward. He might yell at us for mentioning her and he might think something is wrong with her or that something happened to her. We have to block this from him, I just…hope he isn't listening right now." Alice said almost worried about Edward's reaction to the news if he had any clue.

"It's fine. He's isn't listening I told him not to just in case, so I doubt he is. All he does is stay in him room sulking with his music on. He wouldn't want to listen to our silly thoughts considering he's still broken up about the situation." I told them.

"Well, we should still block it. We have to go back to normal or at least try. I don't think I could take the emotions anymore." Jasper strained to say, as if he was in pain. He must've been in tune to Edward's pain and agony.

"Should we tell Esme and Carlisle? We can keep it away from Edward sure but I'm not so sure about Carlisle, I mean he's like our father. He'll know something is up." I asked, wondering what to do about our situation.

"You're right, we should. They could provide insight on how you heard the voice." answered Emmett.

"Well, I'm tired. Do you guys mind? I want to relax for a bit seeing as how I can't sleep." I said hoping to end this conversation. "We can go tell Carlisle later or tomorrow."

"Alright well, we're going to go hunt seeing as how we haven't in days." they answered. When they left I let out a big sigh. How could I do that to them? I saw the sadness in their eyes, and they didn't think I saw it. I'm not oblivious, you know. But I wish there was a way to relieve them of their pain.

What am I going to do?

BPOV

I gave in to my senses and could smell the blood that rushed in the veins of the animals. I spotted some and ran so fast that the animals didn't have a chance. I broke their necks and sunk my teeth in. The blood came rushing into my mouth like a warm, honey-like liquid.

So far I had taken out three deer, a grizzly bear and two mountain lions. The fire in my throat finally subdued. I'm not sure if it normal to have this much bloodlust, but seeing as how I'm a newborn, I guess it's possible. I ran back to Jake's body in the meadows. That place wasn't a special place in my heart, not anymore. It wasn't the same from last time when I came here. It was tainted now.

I thought about what to do with Jake's body. Surely I couldn't leave him here. No one would know where he went. He'd just seem like another person who'd disappeared. Everyone who cared about him would keep waiting for him for years, and never move on. Billy would be heartbroken. I couldn't do that to him. I didn't want him to end up like Charlie. Charlie would want to find out what happened to me and where I went, he'd never let it go.

I picked up Jake and decided to take his body to Billy, leaving a letter telling him what happened and how brave Jake was. Perhaps I should leave a letter for Charlie telling him I left or something so that way he could move on. I had started walking through the woods but then decided to start running to Billy's house. I ran at vamp speed, not wanting to be noticed. Running inside the house, I made sure that he wasn't home. I didn't think it'd be a good idea to tell him upfront that I'm the reason his son was dead.

I put Jake's body on the couch and covered him with a blanket. I looked at his face. It was so peaceful, as if he was sleeping. I couldn't hold back the tears that were running down the side of my face and on my cheeks. I had to force myself to turn around and write the letter to Billy. When I finish the letter, it read:

Dear Billy,

You're probably wondering what happened to Jake and I don't have a lot of time to explain. But I will tell you this. He died in an act of bravery. He was very courageous in trying to save me. I was being attacked by a vampire and about to be bitten when he came to saved me. When I tried to get him to leave me to die, he wouldn't.

Victoria, the vampire after me, bit me when I was distracted and as I was dying he fought her to get to me. He changed into a werewolf-something I'm sure you know about. He attacked her but she retaliated and cut him many times in which he lost a severe amount of blood. With such determination and strength he got back at her when she wasn't paying attention and he killed and burned her remains.

But the amount of blood he lost left him too drained to live longer. He…he collapsed and died. I'm sorry to be the cause of his death. I know you probably hate me and I do too. I don't ask for forgiveness because I know it won't be granted. I don't blame you for it, if I was you I probably wouldn't grant it either.

I'm dying or dead by the time you read this. I sustain too many 'injuries'. I hope that you only think of your son and his last actions as heroic and brave. I will always love him for everything he tried to do for me. I must leave before things get bad. Say good-bye to Charlie for me. I'll be leaving him a letter telling him I'm leaving but you could tell him I died with Jacob, which will at least be the truth. Make sure he's okay, and take care of him for me. Good-bye and take care, Billy.

From,

Bella

I left the letter on the coffee table next the couch. I couldn't stop crying and I dropped tears on the letter. There were also some blood stains from when I picked up Jake and touched his wounds. I just stood there watching Jake's body as his spirit got farther and farther away from his body. I kissed him on the forehead and left. I sat in a tree and waited for Billy to return but for some reason I could hear him without having to see him. I looked around thinking maybe he was nearby. I saw some guy that I think went by Sam Uley drive in his car with Billy in the passenger's seat. As they got out, I became worried. How would they react when they see Jake's dead body on the couch as they read the letter?

Hello, Jake? Why isn't he getting up?? I wonder if he's just tired. Huh. There's a letter here and it's from Bella. I wonder what this is about…. What?! Jake's….dead? said Billy.

I didn't hear him say anything though, maybe he thought it. Yeah that's it, he thought it. Wait a sec. If he thought it then how did I hear it? Am I going insane or is this something else? The only rational idea would be that it was a power. But I don't think I could hear anymore of Billy's thought, though. I didn't know what had happened just now so I just put it away in my mind to think about another time.

I left and ran home to leave Charlie his letter. When I got there I notice he wasn't back yet, so decided to go in and write the letter as fast I could. I was writing and then I started crying again, leaving tears on the paper. As I walked over to the kitchen I placed the letter down on the counter but reread the letter to make sure that I put down all my emotions and thoughts of how I felt about him. I made sure to tell not to worry about me and that I was leaving. I didn't want to leave him, but I needed to leave. This place was too much for me. I don't think I could handle it living here another day. Not that I could seeing as I had become something inhuman.

So the letter read:

Dear Charlie,

By the time you've read this I'll be gone. I'll probably be dead, too. Just to make things clear, I didn't kill myself.

Don't look for me and don't try to find me. You won't because like I've said, I'll be long dead. I love you, Dad. You've the best father I could've hoped for. Though I cannot be with you now, I'll always be with you in spirit. Tell Renée I love her too. It's not your fault that this happened so don't let her yell at you and tell you otherwise. You did the best you could and I appreciate that.

What has happened to me is my own fault, what's done is done. I only hope that you can hopefully move on one day. I wish for you to find yourself a family, to find a wife, someone who you can love and have a kid with. Staying in Forks is too much for me and now I must leave this place.

I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me for leaving without seeing you one last time. Please keep yourself safe. Good-bye, Dad. I will always love you.

Love,

Bella

This time I didn't wait to see Charlie, instead I left to Port Angeles, rented an apartment for a while and worked as a waitress. But I did promise myself to visit him without him noticing, to watch and see if he'd move on like I had asked him. I only hope I can do the same…one day.