Petir could only stare as Tanah walked to his room and flinched when he heared the door lock. Petir wasn't usually a cryer, but with everything that happened, he just can't stop. He felt weak, a coward. And most of all, he felt really guilty. Tanah hadn't done anything else but take care of him ever since their parents died. And he repaid him with some harsh words and blaming him for the deaths that he did not cause.
Petir clenched his hands tightly. He had been nothing but a hindrance to Tanah. He was just another mouth to feed, another cause of stress to his twin brother.
Unconsciously, his hands found the secret drawer that he made. Inside was a glinting silver knife with a red handle. That knife was a gift from Tanah himself so that Petir can defend himself for those who would wish him harm. It was also Petir's favorite knife, which he named Thunder.
Petir grasped the handle and reveled in the familiar coldness of the knife. It has been months since the knife was last used. Running a hand through the blade, his wrists gave an almost undetectable itch.
Petir instinctively pressed the knife against his wrist, but stopped himself before it cut. He had promised Tanah that he would stop this old habit of his. But then, would Tanah care anymore after he had said those words?
Tears pooling in his eyes, he pressed the knife and almost sighed in relief as he felt the warm blood flow through his skin. The dark thoughts in his mind slowly difted away as he reeled in the pain. Closing his eyes, he could almost feel himself calm down.
A hand held him by right wrist, which caused his eyes to fly open in panic. The knife that he was holding clattered to the ground as he gazed into the familiar warm brown orbs.
"You promised me you won't do it again," Tanah said quietly with a raw voice.
Petir looked away. "I-I-I t-thought you h-hated me. After all I-I've never done a-anything nice to you," he said, sniffling.
Tanah didn't say anything, just hugged his distraught brother.
"I promised our parents that I would protect you, and I intend to do that."
Tanah looked at him and Petir knew that his brother understands and he was forgiven.
"Even if it's against myself?"
"Even if it's against yourself."