Edward's Point of View.

Edward, I know you can hear me, Alice thought.

I was used to everyone talking to me in their heads. I was used to carefully acknowledging it also. I didn't move from my spot on my bed. I just tapped my foot on the wall.

I had a vision.

I sat up and before Alice could knock, I had the door to my bedroom open.

"This better not be about her." I still couldn't get myself to say her name. It still hurt a lot. "You said you wouldn't think about her anymore. We wouldn't impose on her life anymore."

"I know. I couldn't help it. I had a vision. You need to go see her."

I hit my head on my wall and groaned. "I can't. I can't go see her." She hates me and it's over. This is the end. I laid back down on my bed and started to stare at the ceiling.

But she's in trouble.Alice slammed the door on her way out.

What am I supposed to do? I asked myself. Really, what was I supposed to do? I wasn't supposed to go near her again. I wanted her to live a human life. I didn't want her to have to deal with me anymore. I wanted her to move on. I couldn't interrupt her life every time something went wrong. She'll learn to live without me. She's not dead yet, she must be doing a pretty good job.

&&

Carlisle knocked on my door. "Edward…"

"Come in." I stared at the wall. The door opened. "If this is about Alice's vision, then I don't want to hear about it."

"You need to talk to someone. You can't stay shelled up in your room all day. It's been months since you left and this was your idea." Carlisle looked at me.

I turned around and looked at Carlisle. "I had to do this for her. I don't want her to live this life."

"But –"

"Carlisle, I can't." I rolled back over and looked at the wall.

"But if she was in trouble – would you want to know? If she was hurt and needed help – wouldn't you want to know? If she was going to die – wouldn't you want to know?"

"Of course. I would want to protect her. That's all I've been doing. That's why I left. I just want to protect her from the life that I was going to end up giving her if she stayed with me. I didn't want her to have to deal with any of this."

Carlisle shook his head. "I don't know what to tell you. In the end, this is all up to you. We will respect your wishes and stay out of the way."

I jumped up. "Stay out of the way of what?"

"Didn't Alice tell you what the vision was about?"

"No, I never gave her the chance."

"Something's going to happen to Bella – but Alice can't see what."

It hurt. It really did.

&&

I walked down the stairs, keeping my hand on the banister. Esme was in the living room dusting the mantle. It was quiet all through the house. I didn't even hear any thoughts. All I could hear was Esme humming to herself while she dusted.

"Esme?" I stuck my head in the living room.

"Yes dear?" She didn't even look up from her dusting.

"Where is everyone?"

"Out hunting." Esme moved from the mantle over to the pictures on the wall.

"Did Alice or Carlisle talk to you?"

"About Bella? Why of course dear."

"What do you think I should do?"

"You should do whatever you think is right. They aren't going to tell you what to do. It's solely up to you."

"Alright. I'll be back tomorrow morning. Tell the family not to worry about me. I just need to check something." I walked out of the house.

What was I doing? I walked over to the garage. I was just going to go to Forks to see Bella. Not visit Bella, but literally just see her. I was just going to see that she was okay and leave. I wasn't going to bother her in her new life without me. I just want to make sure that everything is going to be okay. I repeated that to myself over and over again, trying to convince myself that was what I was going to do.

I sat in my car and started the engine. I looked at myself in the mirror.

"What am I doing?"