Sorry, it took so long for an update. i had writers block. so yeah...
anyway, hope you enjoy part 2 to clare edwards suicide attempts
Death. The one thing most people feared. The one thing that brought an end to one's life. But for Clare Edwards, it was her way out. Her escape from this cruel, heartless world as she called it.
"This time, it'll word. It'll work" Clare slowly whispered to herself.
She was standing in her bathroom floor, starring at herself in the mirror. It was the same position she had found herself only a month ago.
It had been a month since her first "suicide attempt" as the doctors called it. Her attempt hadn't gone so well, because she had ended up in the hospital with a killer headache.
After her release from the hospital, Clare life took a turn for the worst. Her life was now pure hell. He parents fought more than ever and they all knew it was because of her. She wasn't as perfect as Darcy and she wasn't as pretty as her. Every cry and shout that was heard in the Edwards house was caused by the little helpless girl, Clare Edwards.
And her Eli problems weren't any better. The whole school knew what had happened to her, by the time she had returned. They just didn't know the reasons behind her action.
But she soon learned one person knew, well thought they knew -Eli.
He thought he was the cause of her suicide attempt, he was, but not a major part anyway.
Clare could vividly remember her day back at school. Everyone had looked at her and whispered behind her back.
"I heard she was raped and tried to kill herself"
"She hasn't found god"
"Saint Clare, what has happened to her"
"Chick's a freak and psycho"
This was heard for the whole week that she had already retuned to school
And then there was Eli and Adam. They had pitied her and act differently towards hers. They had treated her like a priceless china doll that could break any second with a single touch. They had both kept their distance just like everyone else from her. But the worst part of that day, was when Eli asked her out.
She would have loved to be with him, but he didn't feel the same way.
He felt sad for her and didn't actually like or love her, but he had made a promise with Adam. And Elijah Goldsworthy did not break that promise.
But Clare had said no, the instant he asked her. She knew everything and she wasn't looking for pity.
Now, their semi-relationship was gone. Their only communication was a simple "hello" or "what's up".
Snapping back to reality, Clare found herself with pills in her hand. She had been given medication when coming out the hospital. And this was her only way out.
Her last attempt with cutting hadn't gone so well, so an overdose might to the trick.
Clare slowly swallowed each and every pill at a time. After the 5 pills were gone, she took a big gulp of water and waited. She waited for the overdose to kick in. She waited for death to come to her.
Only seconds had passed when things didn't feel or look right.
In her mind everything was spinning and losing control. A huge earthquake was taking place in her house. Everything was losing balance and falling down. If she only knew that she was the one falling down into the floor.
As Clare Edwards hit the floor with a thump, she started to shake, well more like tremble in the floor. Her hands were losing control and she felt herself slowly losing her mind.
As she slid lower and lower into death, everything slowly came back. The earthquake was over and everything was at peace.
Clare Edwards breaths came slowly and shaky. Her mind was back at resting. The loud beating noise she had heard before was gone.
The only sound in the Edwards house were Clare's last breaths.
As she slowly started to close her blue eyes, good memories flowed into her mind.
She remembered when her and Darcy had made their first cake and both had ended up wet and flour all over their bodies. They had a good laugh about that later on in the day.
She remembered when her and Eli had skipped class to work on their English assignment. He had made her scream and it was the first time that they had come close to kissing.
She remembered when the whole family had gone skiing in Maine for vacation. Darcy, Clare and her dad had gone skiing while her mom had went ice skating. It was the last time they were a happy loving family.
As she slowly took her last breath Clare took those happy memories with her.
The last thing her icy blue eyes saw was her bathroom ceiling.
For once in a long time, Clare was at peace and happy.
Clare Edwards was finally gone from this cruel heartless world.
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