Well, here is chapter two.
Whcih actually didn't go the way I wanted, so it's pretty bad written.
Thank you for the reviews.
I do not own shaman king
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Chapter 2: Repulsive
It was a very small and simple room.
The walls were white, same as the covers of the bed. There was a desktop, white too, a piece of paper and a pencil laying over it.
There was a young man, with very long brown hair standing in at the middle of the room. He was wearing brown pants, and a white t-shirt.
A bag was at his feet.
He was staring at the peace of paper laying on the table.
He read what was written on it, as he had done countless times before.
"What I'll remember from my time here:"
That's what it said.
He just stood there, staring at those tiny letters, making no expression, making no move.
In his mind, a hundred of words could have perfectly described his time in that place: lonliness, hatred, rage, trauma, sadness, fights, abuse........ and the white room.
He looked around the place were he had slept in the last 3 years of his life.
God, how he hated that place.
Without making a sound, he slowly grabbed his bag, and walked towards the door.
Which was also white.
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"I asure Mrs. Asakura" said the doctor to a woman in her late therties, with brown hair, and pale skin "there is nothing to worry about, Hao just needs to adapt to an enviroment were other young people of his age develop" he said, he saw the doubtfull look on the womans eyes, and he sighed "there is nothing else we can do for him. It's up to him to become a normal person. He must find his own way in life" he said. The woman gave a faint smile at him, her hands trembling while holding her purse.
"I hope so doctor" she said, the doctor smiled.
"Don't worry, it'll be find" he said, then he turned to the main gate of the hospital, where he spoted a young man with very long hair coming out "Here he comes" he said. The woman rised her gaze just to see him pasing through the the door that had been open at the fence that separated them from the hospital grounds. He walked towards them, then he stopped a meter away from the woman.
The boy just stared at her, not showing any sort of emotion. The doctor approached the young man, and gave a pat in the back.
"Hao. I'm glad to introduce you to your mother" he said, indicatind with the palm of his hand at the woman in front of them.
"Hi Hao" she said, smiling a little "how are you doing?" the boy didn't say a word, just stared at her. She felt a little intimidated by his gaze, but kept smiling "you.... uhmm... you look quite healthy" it was true, he had the body of an athlete. But the thing that puzzled her, were the big black circles he had under his eyes "The car is over there" she said as she pointed towards a green car, which was the only one at the parking lot. As if he had been given an order, he began to walk towards it. The woman watched him go, feeling a little down for his cold behavior. The doctor noticed this, and geva her a paternal pat on the back.
"Don´t worry" he said smiling "It's completly normal for people who leave the institution to feel a little suspicious about what they'll be facing" the woman smiled a little.
"Thank you doctor. For taking care of my son" she said, squeezing the hand of the man in front of her.
"Don't worry ma'am, it has been our pleasure" answered the doctor. Smiling again, the woman made her way towards the car.
Just as she walked away from the man, a nurse approached to him.
"Sir" she said, lowly, with a guilty expression on her face. He turned.
"Yes?" he asked. The nurse looked towards the floor.
"Do you think is good to let Hao go in the state hi is in?" she asked "we both know that he is far from being well" the doctor sighed.
"You know we can't keep him in here any longer" he said as he watched the engine of the car getting started "one of this days he could kill somebody, even one of the nurses. And we don't want the families of the patients to demand us. We can't afford that" he said. He smiled again, and waved at the car as it went away.
"But sir, he's dangerous!" said the nurse, now that they were gone, she could talk freely. The doctor remained where he was, staring at the long street in front of them, which was being transited by one green car.
"I know that. But there is nothing else we can do" he said. The nurse turned her eyes to the ground again and nooded. the doctor smiled "Come on, let's go back in" he turned to the sky "I think a storm is coming"
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Hao stared at the world outside. He could see bouldings, trees, people. It was all so repulsive. It made him want to get out of the car, and start hitting everyone that came across his path. He so children playing, which made his blood boil as if it was in fire.
Kids. He hated kids. More than enything. Well... perhaps not as much as himself. But they still were horrendous creatures. Naive and stupid people. People that wnated everything for themselves. That if it was up to them, the wotld would only turn around them. And for them, it did.
This though. For some reason, gave him the urge to vomit.
He turned slightly to see the woman besides him.
Stupid woman. She had let herself be deceived by the man dressed in white.
It was incredible how people believed anything said by a man dressed in white.
She looked quite weak. He didn't remember her that way. He didn't know what way he remembered her. The only thing he was sure of, was that woman was his mother.
Yes, his mother. The person who had brought him along with another bastard to this miserable place, whose inhabitants called world. God, how couldn't they see the enormous amount of shit that was surrounding them?.
It truly was a repulsive sight. A repulsive person, who had done a repulsive action: bring two repulsive people to an equally repulsive world.
At least he had to thank her for not speaking.
"So..." began to say the woman, why did he had to think of it? "how have you been?" she said smiling. He remained quiet, but she didn't stop "Yoh is waiting for you at home. He has a lot of friends. I bet he'll be happy to introduce you to them" she said, never erasing the smile from her face. Hao was through with her talking.
"Leave me alone" was all he said, it was almost the only sentence he had said in the past two years. The woman turned to a him a little durprised. But then turned her eyes to the road, nooding slowly, remembering the words of the doctor.
Hao kept staring out through the window, with a bored expression on his face, which didn't showed his thoughts, full of hatred and disdain.
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"He should be arriving any time soon" said Yoh, as he checked his watch, while resting his back against a wall. He had invited his group so they could greet his brother. Hoping that he had changed his attitude in the past years.
They had prepared an small welcome party. Some sandwiches, snacks and drinks. The girls were finishing the preparations. Ana approached her boyfriend. They were wearing casual clothes, for it was Sunday. She hugged his arm, and rested her head against his shoulder.
"Don't worry sleepyhead" she said "it'll be fine, there is nothing to worry about" Yoh turned his head to her, and smiled slightly.
"Yeah! she's right" said Ren from behind them. He was resting on a couch, with an arm around Pirika, who was rsting her back against him, while Tamao was placing the last things on the table "everything is going to be okay, we have beer!" he said cheerfully, everyone laughed at his comentary. They were right, thought Yoh, everything was going to be fine.
"Hey look!" said Tamao suddenly, as she watched through the window that pointed to the street "They are here" everyone rised inmediately from where they were sitting, and walked to were the girl was.
"Well he surely is your twin" said Ren, a little surprised "But his hair is a way more longer than yours. And I thought that your's was long" this got a couple of chuckles from the group.
"Wow, he's cute" said Pirika, noticing his well shaped body.
"Well thank you" said Yoh, now everyone laughed at that. They watched as the boy stoped in front of the entrance fence, and stared at the house in front of him.
"What's he doing?" asked Pirika, nobody answered. They noticed the look of anger on his face, and felt a little intimidated "Is he angry for some reason?" asked the girl again. Nobody answered to that question either. Then the boy started walking again, and everyone except Tamao went to the door to recieve him. But just as everyone else left, the boy with long hair turned to the window, and placed his eyes on the pink-haired girl. She felt a shiver run down through her back, feeling how much hatred was placed in those eyes, who were looking stright at hers. He stopped for a moment, then began to walk again. But the girl remained where she was, shocked.
Hao made his way to the front door, his mother following a few steps behind. He saw that the door slowly opened, and a boy with his same face coming out of it. So the bastard had grown up. His brother smiled at him, an smile that he didn't return. And just stood there, watching at his reflection. Yoh was puzzled by this, but kept on smiling.
"Hi brother" he said, lifting up a hand. Which wasn't shacked back. He frowned "are you ok?" he asked. Sutpid piece of trash, nobody had talked to him. Without saying a word, he resumed his walking, pushing away his brother.
"Get the fuck out of my way" he said as he pushed him to the side with his hand. And entered the house.
As soon as he put a foot inside, he was greeted by some guys, two girls, one with long blue hair, and colorfull clothes, and another with blonde hair, a long shirtles t-shirt with some pants under it, she also was wearing a red bandana over her head. Behind those two was a boy with short stature, with spiky hair, and with a dark red t-shirt and jeans. They were all smiling in an awkward way. The blonde one approached him, and handed him a glass which contained a drink.
"Hi, i'm Ana, your brother's girlfriend" she said smiling at him "pleased to meet you, and welcome back" he stared at her. So this was the bastard's bitch. Probably just as repulsive as him. He turned to the other people who were looking at him. They all looked quite stupid. Then he noticed another one, a girl. She was the one he had seen through the window. She had pink hair, and was wearing a white t-shirt and black pants. Something quite simple for a girl. She for some reason wasn't smiling, and was staring at the floor. He ignored it, and noticed that the friends of his brother were a little puzzled now, seeing that he wasn't answering.
"Just leave me alone" he said, and walked through them, entering further into his house. Which gave him a feeling of nostalgia that made him even angrier than what he was now.
Almost by instinct, he walked to the right, through a narrow corridor, full of doors. He passed on the first one, but stopped at the second one. And opened it.
It was his room. His old room. Not the white one.
He closed the door behind him, and entered. He had no memory of the place, but he knew for some reason that this was the one. It almost had some kind of familiar smell in it. He studied it. There were posters of reggae singers on the white walls, also there was a shelf with some books, magazines, CDs, and DVDs. A desktop, with a computer and some textbooks on it, probably for school. On the chair was placed the school uniform, which had the combination of green pants, and a yellow-white shirt. There were two beds, one over the other. The one below looked messy, while the other seemed untouched. He placed his bag on it, and walked through the room. It wasn't small, and it wasn't big either.
So this was the place where he was going to sleep from now on.
As expected, it was repulsive.
And the idea of sharinf it with him made it even more repulsive.
And the exact moment he ahd seen his face, he, for some reason, felt the tremendous urge to hit him. As if the simple sight of his horrible smiling face pulled some kind of trigger inside of him. And the worst of all was that he had no idea of the reason to it.
He sighed in annoyance. It was going to be difficult this new life. The life at the institution was, at least, quite simple, painful and hard, but simple. He spent most of his time exercising his body, trying to loose energy, so he could go to sleep more easily. Something that he found quite difficult, and had never done for more than two hours.
This was because of the nightmares. Yes, the nightmares.
Fire, horror and fear plagued his nightmares. Memories buried deeply in his mind. He knew where they came from. He had been told about the accident that had taken his father's life, but, in truth, he had no memories of it. The only thing he remembered was waking up years later, hating everything that moved. Everything that was alive. His mother and brother came to visit him. He expected to feel something else besides the hate. But the moment he laid eyes on the two of them, he wanted attack them so badly, that he bagan to insult them, seeing that he wouldnt want to hurt them. He felt so much hatred towards them, that it hurt.
Since then, it had been the same with everyone. The moment he saw something, he felt a tremendous hatred towards it. So he developed a cold personality, like a shelf where nobody was able to get in.
But when he was alone, it was a different story.
When he was alone, the only one left to hate was himself. And he soon found out that that was what he truly felt: he hated himself with all his heart. For some reason, he hated everything he did, everything he said, everything that surrounded him.
He didn't know why, but he did, every time.
But the people at the hospital were obviously not satisfied with this. Nurses, doctors and even other patients tried to approach him. But he pushed them all away. He at one time had suddenly hited one of the many people that had tried too hard to link with him. He had enjoyed. He had enjoyed it very much. From then on, every time someone who wasn't woman (for some reason he couldn't bring himself to hit women) tried to speak with him, he would hit them. He didn't care if they were old, or schizophrenic, or masochistics. He would do it, and he would enjoy it.
This soon brought punishment from the male nurses. Most of them were more crazy than the same patients in the institutions. They only wanted to scape from their miserable existences by seeing how miserable other people were. And from time to time they could have green light to hit other people, what else could you ask for?
To Hao, it was a daily punishment. They usually hit him with sticks in the legs and stomach. One time they broke his left one. It had been quite painfull, and he assumed that he wasn't a masochist, so his hate for himself couldn't be satisfied with self hurting.
Funny, he was making his own analysis about himself.
The truth was that he hated too the way he was. He would even cry in desperation. When waking up from a nightmare, or after hitting someone. He was so full of hatred, of loneliness, of sadness, of regret, that he could barely stand it. He wanted it to end. And he knew the fastest way to do that. But he was scared of it.
He couldn't bring himself to commit suicide, the sole idea terrified him.
He suddenly heard a knocking on the door.
"Hao" it was the bastard "i'm coming in" and he watched as the door opened slowly.
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"What the hell was that" asked Ren aloud as soon as Hao closed the door of him room. They all had shocked expressions on their faces. Then Yoh and his mother entered. They had a sad expression on their faces. They all looked at the two.
"Yoh..." said Ana, with a worried look. He smiled sadly.
"I guess my fears have come true" he said.
"You mean that..." began to say Pirika, remembering the conversation they had have about Hao. Yoh nooded.
"He's exactly the way I remember him" he said. His mother remained quiet behind him, just like everyone else "guys" he said after a while, they turned to him "I truly apreciate your coming here, but... I think is better for you to leave" they all looked to the floor, he was totally right. Things hadn't gone the way they had expected it.
"Yeah" Pirika was the first one to react, he grabbed Ren's hand "you are totally right" she was smilinga little, trying to fight the tension that could be felt in the air. He dragge the boy with spiky hair as she walked towards the door.
"H-hey!" said a little surprised Ren.
"Thank you for receiving us Mrs. Asakura" she said to the older woman, who smiled weakly.
"No problem dear, please come again any time you wish" she said, Pirika turned to Yoh, and dedicated an smile to him "see you on monday" the boy nooded, smiling. Then she opened the door and walked out, dragging behind her the dark-haired boy.
"Goodbye, and thank you!" he screamed, not really understanding the situation. Tamao rised her head, which had been turned towards the floor this whole time.
"Mrs. Asakura" she said, the woman turned to her "do you need any help to clean up everything?" she said.
"Oh no my dear, i'll be fine on my own" she said smiling. The girl nooded.
"Well then, I better get going too. Thanks for everything ma'am, and i'm sorry for not being able to help on anything else" she said
"It's okay, don't worry" he said smiling a little. She was about to live, when she stopped.
"By the way" she said turning around "Is Hao going to attend the same school as us?"
"Yes he is" said the older woman "he is going to start on monday" Tamao nooded again.
"Well, goodbye" she said waving. They all answered. After she left, silence invaded the place. Ana turned to Yoh.
"I better get going to" she said, Yoh looked at her a little surprised.
"Aren't you gonna stay?" he asked, she moved her head in a negatie way.
"No, it's up to you to deal with your brother" Yoh scratched his head.
"Guess you are right"
"Goodbye Mrs. Asakura"
"Goodbye sweety" Ana turned to her boyfrien and gave him a little kiss on the lips.
"Bye sleepyhead" she said, and closed the front door behind her.
"Sleepyhead" said the woman, Yoh turned to her "that's what I used to call you" he smiled.
"Yeah, and he was the lion" he said.
"Yes. The lion" they remained quiet for a moment.
"You look tired mum" said the boy "you should get some sleep" the woman smiled.
"Yeah, guess you are right" she said, and made her way to her room, which was at the oposite corridor to the one with doors, she turned to Yoh "Goodnight" and closed the door.
Yoh sighed a little, and began to put everything that had been set for the party back to were it should be. After finishing he made his way to his room. He stopped in front of the door. He sighed loudly, trying to get some strength out of nowhere. He knocked.
"Hao" he said, nobody answered "I'm coming in" and he pushed the door open. When entered, he saw his brother standing in the middle of the room, the lights were of, so the only source of light was coming from the outside. He was looking at him, but he couldn't see his face due to the darkness. He closed the door behind him. And remained quiet, looking at the dark figure in front of him.
He had been surprised when his brother pushed him aside to enter the house. It had been quite a shock, but then he had remembered the way he had treated him when they first met years ago. His eyes full of hatred, of sadness. It had affected him very much.
Inside of him, he had hoped that his brother would come as different person. He spected an smile, a fraternal hug. But none of those things happened.
It had been only his cold stare. The same one he had seen years ago.
They had been in silence for a few minutes now. None of them moving an inch.
"Everybody left already" said Yoh. Silence again "Aren't you going to say hello or something?" nothing was heard. Yoh sighed, annoyed, disappointed "you know" he began to say. He had the strange habit of saying everything that crossed his mind, and he was about to "I was expecting that our reunion would be a little different" he paused for a moment, no reaction again "we haven't seen each other for years, and now that we can finally meet, I thought that you would be different from last time. I guess I was wrong" he was getting serious now, tired of being the nice guy with his brother "you haven't changed one bit, have you? you are still screaming things like 'live me alone' or 'go away' only in a lower tone now" silence, he was beggining to get to his nerves "Just what the hell have you been doing this last years, huh? going to the gym? hitting other people? why are you still the same?" then something happened, the boy in front of Yoh jumped towards him, and pinned him against the door.
Yoh could now see his eyes full of rage.
"Just leave me alone you sleepyhead" he said. They remained like that for a moment, none of them doing anything else but breathing. Then, slowly, Hao let go of hist T-shirt, and climbed to his bed.
Yoh was shocked. But not because of his sudden attack. He was surprised for the way he had addresed him. 'Sleepyhead'. So he still remembered that. He stood there for a moment, then he sighed, and laid down on his bed. This was going to be quite difficult.
After a few minutes, he fell sleep. While on top of him, a boy of his same age, tried to do that with all his strength.
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Well, guess that's it.
I guess i didn't know were I was exactly going with this chapter, but it was quite difficult to write it.
One thing that I want to leave clear is that Ren won't be the dark boy he is in the anime. Also Yoh won't be as lide-back as in the series.
I also want to leave clear that the actitude doctor is probably one of the most fictional things I've ever written. No doctor would never do that to a patient........ I hope.
And also, Hao is going to be completly (and I mean completly) different from the series.
Leave reviews if you want. But try to be productive when you write them.
Try giving me some advices or ideas you've got for the story (noy now, but later when it is more developed), since this is a fanfic, and fanfics are done by and for the fans of the anime.
Thank you for reading if you have.